Leo Gura

@Nivsch You clearly have yet to grow into Green, since your worldview has this notion of "enemies". From higher levels you will see there are no enemies. Sure, any stage can have a lapse in awareness. Awareness goes up and down all day long. That's not the issue. The issue is your stage of development. There are valid criticisms of Green, but you are criticizing Green from below, not above. Seems like you are Blue/Orange.

It makes no sense to the ego-mind because the ego-mind is constantly trying to survive. The ego-mind as a mechanism does not allow you to feel happy other than as a manipulation or a reward for survival. So you are like a dog stuck in a cycle of chasing dog biscuits without realizing that there is an endless mountain of dog biscuits right over the hill. But you are so hungry for that one biscuit that you never go over the hill to dog heaven Motivation is a manipulation mechanism that the mind uses over you. Notice how easily you're controlled by the promise of a little pleasure in the future. You are so controlled by it you wouldn't even take infinite happiness if it was offered to you. Because you'd say, "But that would mean I have to stop chasing crumbs." Yes, you'd have to stop chasing crumbs. It's like you have been offered a billion dollars but you say, "I'm too busy to take this billion dollars because I'm busy chasing millions of dollars." Well, okay, have it your way. Indeed. That's what an intelligent person would do. The problem is, you can't do it. Because you're too hypnotized and addicted to life. Are you really willing to sacrifice your entire life for God? If so, do it. You are totally underestimating what awakening offers. It doesn't just offer happiness. It offers immortality and God-realization. You cannot even fathom such kinds of joy. It is a joy beyond anything you've experienced in your life. The technical terms for it are Bliss, Ecstasy, and Paradise. Imagine a literal Paradise. That's what you're missing by not fully awakening. So what's the catch? The cost of attaining this Paradise is surrendering your entire life. Which is of course out of the question for you.

@David Hammond There is only the Absolute. Everything relative is actually Absolute in the light of full consciousness.

@vpandey It is not a state. It is an Absolute. See, the problem is, you don't have any reference point for what an Absolute is. You don't even understand that an Absolute is possible. Because all you've experienced in your life are relative things. Absolute means it is true under all possible circumstances. It was true before the Big Bang happened and it will be true after our universe ends. An Absolute is not state-dependent, it is not a function of the human mind, it is not an experience, it is not an perception, it is not belief, it is not an assumption, it is not a theory, it is not a thought, it is not an intuition. It is ABSOLUTE!

@Extreme Z7 Don't get too obsessed with me. It's too incestuous and not healthy. I am not as great as you imagine me to be.

Facing your fears is one of the keys to life. 1-2g of mushrooms in a good setting should be a wonderful thing. Bad trips come and go. Not such a big deal. You're not going to break your brain with 1-2g of mushrooms. The worst that can happen is you will freak out a bit. But even that is not a big issue on 1-2g. The real mindfuckery begins around 4g. 1g is a very safe starter dose. 2g is pretty awesome but still within the realm of reality. And at 4g reality starts to collapse in really twisted ways. I remember in my worst trip, at 4g, I realized I was all the dinosaurs who ever lived. That was freaky.

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@davidomni Sounds like you're over-prepared for some breakthroughs into godliness. Make sure you only do it on an empty stomach. May the force be with you

@herghly "I'm too busy meditating to have time for awakening."

@herghly Making time is the whole key of integration. We are so busy that we don't gives ourselves time to just hang out and do nothing. Even when we meditate we tend to be busy doing meditation.

@herghly I like going for a long late-night drive around town and just letting my mind wander and contemplate whatever it feels like contemplating. Play some chill tunes while you drive and enjoy the lights. That's probably my fave way to integrate. Driving puts me in a great mellow meditative mood. A sort of integrative flow state. Road trips out in nature in the wild are also amazing for this. Do a 3 hour road trip through a mountain, forest, or desert. Those are some of my fondest times.

@Esoteric You're gonna have to snort a massive amount of it to get somewhere deep. Like 1 gram of it. It's gonna be painful, aweful, and gross. But you can do it, as the natives do: Pure 5-MeO is far, far more pleasant.

* Leo twists Joseph's manly nipple * Awakening dawns

I would just say, keep observing. A few days of observing are not enough. You need months and years of observing. The observation process itself is curative and self-correcting. You don't necessarily need to "do" anything about it. Just observe all your survival mechanisms at work. Observe why you feel you need them. Observe your attachment to them. As you do that, their grip over you loosens. Then you are more free to behave however you want without being dominated by survival concerns. For example, observe how you manipulate people and why you feel you need to. That's very eye-opening and there's a lot to observe there. Observation is not the same thing as stopping your manipulation. I'm not asking you to stop anything. I'm just asking you to observe. With lots of good observation, many manipulations will naturally fall away. Not all, but many.

My understanding is always evolving and getting refined. I change my mind about stuff on a weekly basis. I could have a whole separate channel on all the ways I change my mind. I need to start keeping a change log, Lol.

@Joseph Maynor The stench of Zenliness is strong with you

I won't be doing it with a shaman. I am my own shaman I don't need a middleman between myself and God. I am still always a bit anxious before doing a hit. Because I understand the power of it and a little anxiety is good, it humbles the ego. You need to respect these powerful substances because they can easily kick your ass if you get too cocky and casual. Respect psychedelics like a loaded gun. That is interesting. I assumed Bufo needs to be vaporized because it is not pure 5-MeO and contains toxins. Not sure if I want to stick those toxins up my butt. During vaporization the bufotenine and toxins are supposed to be burned off. But I'll probably try plugging it just to see what happens. Bufotenine is not a pleasant psychedelic to take. It has high body load and weird physiological effects. It's going to taint the pure 5-MeO experience. I'm just not sure by how much. Maybe by a little, maybe by a lot. My ultimate goal is to compare synthetic and natural versions of 5-MeO to see which one is best for consciousness work.

@cetus56 I wonder if there are Devilfish

Emotions are self-manipulations doing the work of survival. The more conscious you become, the less you will need to rely on them to live life. You can live your life more consciously instead. Emotions are like the strings of the puppet-master's hand controlling the puppet. Resisting feelings is just one more string. Being run by feelings is all the strings. Consciousness is seeing the entire mechanism at work from a detached meta-perspective. No string is good or bad, good and bad are themselves strings invented by the puppet-master to tighten his control over the puppet. And that is my 10,000th post! Hazzah!

@Rilles Stop judging yourself.

Such a door exists. It's called 5-MeO-DMT. The problem is, most ego-minds are too terrified to walk through such a door. They cannot help themselves. Their ignorance is too deep. The best way to hide an amazing thing from everyone is to make it too good to be true. Then no one will bother to try it under the assumption that nothing can really be as good as that. Therein lies the whole tragedy of our situation. We are in heaven but we insist on creating our own hell.

@Scholar No It will be too radical for you to properly integrate. You risk freaking out and abandoning psychedelics altogether from one overwhelming experience. Start small. Don't rush. There is no rush. The field of psychedelic is so wide and deep it will take you many years and hundreds of trips to explore it all. Slow and steady is better than hard and fast when it comes to transforming yourself. Hard and fast changes tend not to stick and produce lots of ego backlash and frustration. Do not dismiss the power of psychedelics like mushrooms or LSD. They are fantastic, magical tools. 5-MeO is just so good that it is in a class all by itself. If God existed in powdered from, it would be 5-MeO-DMT. And luckily it does exist in such a form.

I think you should be fine. Just start with small doses and work up. Frying would only be a thing at very high doses. Plugging is by far the smoothest and safest method. @Antonius Sounds like 1) you have blockages in your body that need to be worked out, 2) you need more experience with 5-MeO and various administration routes, and/or 3) your brain type might be different enough that 5-MeO works differently on you. I get very little body load on 5-MeO. LSD and 2-CB have much worse body load for me. Oh, also make sure your 5-MeO is pure. It should be white-colored. Any other coloration is impurities.

@Aakash I'm not clear what you're asking. Just doing opposite things automatically sounds mechanical and not conscious. The solution is to do things more consciously. Yes, challenging your automatic survival reactions is good. It is harder than merely observing. It's the next step after lots of observing. There is no categorization per se. 99% of all the stuff you do every day are your survival mechanisms. Rather than trying to categorize them, observe them. Categorizing stuff tends to itself be a survival mechanism. Why are you categorizing stuff? To help you do what?

I have been meaning to. But plugging has been so incredibly effective and perfect that nothing more could be wanted. At least that's how it feels inside the trip. Outside the trip my mind can come up with all sorts of other stuff to try. I'm a little wary of smoking because I don't want to blow out my energetic system. Too much 5-MeO too fast does not feel healthy to me. But I am open to smoking it. In fact I will try Bufo soon.