Leo Gura

If you knew what awareness was, you'd be enlightened. Go self-inquire.

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@Tuure No. But what you can do is use affirmations to program your mind with the intent to become conscious of what reality is. Which would be the same thing in effect. At some point, you would actually merge into the infinite. That's what mantra meditation is. There is no need to program the false self out and the true self in. Just realize the self is a program. Then all that's left is what's true.

No, enlightenment.

5-meo is particularly anxiety-producing. At least the first 10 minutes after snorting it. Then it's heaven, once you've died.

That's all fakery. Good riddance. Enjoy the calm of Truth. But don't take life too seriously either.

@Debil It's tricky. There are various degrees of this insight. At the deepest level of it, all of reality will cease to exist. There will nothing: no body, no mind, no experience, no world. Nothing. At the shallow levels, it will be like you existing as an infinite field of awareness. Sorta like becoming space itself. Either way, the "you" you know and love is gonna be gone. Well... it's not there to begin with. There's no you there right now as "you" read this sentence. There's just the sentence. And even the sentence is nothing. So you're in for some epic mindfuckery.

@JOKERface999 And certainly don't start with 5-meo. Start with very low doses of milder psychedelics like shrooms or AL-LAD in a friendly pleasant setting. 5-meo will freak the fuck out of you if you have anxiety issues.

@JOKERface999 NEVER do psychedelics if you're taking SSRI's. Results could be lethal. There is no doubt psychedelics can be highly effective for anxiety, depression, PTSD, etc, but you cannot take them while on SSRI's. Wean yourself off the meds over a month or however long your doc says is right. Then you can try psychedelics. Anti-anxiety and anti-depression meds are mostly garbage anyway. You might as well work to wean yourself off them in an intelligent manner (unless you REALLY need them to prevent a shitstorm). Tread very carefully on this topic to avoid harming yourself.

@Colin There is no there, there. And no you to get there

@aryberry Infinity/Nothingness is NOT an experience. Ego ends forever after true enlightenment. It never existed. Life as you know it ends.

The coolest part is when you get to the opposite side of it and realize that the fear of death was literally nothing. Made out of hot air. The silliest thing ever. And then you smile and laugh. Death? Hahahahaha... There is nothing of fear but the fear itself. It's totally hollow. Of course when you're on the wrong side of it, it seems as solid as granite.

@Santhiphap Yes, that's a tiny glimpse. Existential terror is the hallmark of approaching the Truth. It's the ego recognizing that it's unreal, and immediately recoiling back into illusion. The first glimpse is actually the easiest, because the ego is so foolish it doesn't know yet that enlightenment actually means it's death. Now you know, so it will be harder. You'll have to really want it now and really work your ass for it. What you had was a bit of the spiritual beginner's luck. But you can't coast on that luck.

Beautiful!

All thoughts are meaningless. Contemplate that until your mind implodes.

@DrMobius You're probably losing half the dose because it's dripping down your throat, so that 15mg is turning into 7mg. 15mg is a fairly strong dose, although 25mg is about x100 times stronger, and 30mg is like x100000 times stronger. Or maybe you're just naturally less sensitive and need higher doses. Or maybe your 5-meo isn't very pure. Carefully test out the issue. You don't need to wait a week if your trips are failing. Waiting a week is for when you've had a decent trip.

@Lenny Of course. It should bore you to tears and homicidal rage.

Make sure you grasp spiritual teachings at their root, not at the surface verbal level. Passion IS important. Being "run by your passions" means a totally different thing.

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@aidenhall I'd be more concerned about the cult you presently find yourself in: Western rational materialism.

@WaveInTheOcean Such is life Always leave 'em wanting more, heheh....

@Outer Well... by that logic, you should take some 5-meo or LSD with your morning coffee They'll certainly increase your alpha waves. I've taken L-theanine but notice no effect.

@AlwaysBeNice Choosing to help others is one of the ego's favorite ways to strengthen itself. It often leads to devilry. True selflessness is a tricky thing. You're not gonna be able to fake it by having lots of money or giving away lots of stuff. The goal to become happy will actually lead to true selflessness, because you cannot be happy so long as you're a self. Devil = self Make no mistake, you are the devil. The devil is one who acts like he is God. And that's your current situation.

@username I just hope you can maintain your love when one of us pisses in your soup

I also created Hitler, and my dislike for heavy metal