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Husseinisdoingfine replied to Ramasta9's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Joseph Maynor YOU'RE BACK? -
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Husseinisdoingfine replied to Yali's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events
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i don't live with my parents anymore if that's what you thought. most of our misunderstandings happen on the phone or during visits. you might be onto something though. but it's not like marriage always automatically resolves people's emotional problems.
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So the last four days there been some changes at work and I’m enjoying myself. I started organizing the barn and trying to start with organizing all of the plumbing pipes… and a small corner of the barn. Let’s say it wasn’t the most fun but I was still doing my best. But it was funny because I was walking out of the barn and the owner looked at me and said uh-oh you don’t look like you’re having any fun. And I smirked at him and said we all knew I wasn’t going to enjoy doing this… but I’ll do it for the team. And he said ok let’s go ahead and give you a break. He first had me drive his four wheeler which is more like a work four wheeler with a hydrolic bed and he was seeing how I drove and how well I was treating it. He’s starting to realize that I listen well and pick things up easier than he would have expected. He eventually got me on the “baby” Kubota… I told him I hadn’t read the entire manual yet but he said I pick things up and smart. So he explain things to me and he had a large pile of dirt to load into a truck. And so we talked about loading it in a “V”… he didn’t pay me on this day this was my play time wanting to learn the equipment. But I really enjoyed it and he put me back on it every day since. I’ve been loading sand… placing sand, pushing sand… and today I got to fill in valleys of a hill that he’s been wanting to create a slow slope with top soil. I think I was on the baby Kubota for close to seven hours… hehe… it was addictive. And he’s mentioned things to consider and I’ve been reading the manual and today it seemed like I had to really put it into play. He told me what to do but he didn’t go into much detail. He said to radio him if I am having any issues. So I’m not sure if anyone else enjoys heavy equipment but it’s already starting to feel like it starts to become an extension of my body. I’ve been getting pretty comfortable with it. At first it started when I was placing a pushing attachment to the bucket so I could push the sand under fence frame to fill the trench. And the tool kept on getting piles of sand collecting on top. I wasn’t going to get bothered but one time I got off to knock it off… hehe but then I started to realize that I could use the bottom two by four to knock of the sand without getting off. And it’s an older machine and well used… but the bucket does slightly slant down on the right side… so you have to pat attention and make adjustments because of it. But I could see myself getting comfortable and able to feel the machine more. So today there was a large pile of top soil at the bottom of a hill. And he said I will need to make a ramp to be able to get to the top of the top soil and there are valleys in the hills that he wants filled in so I went at it. And so working on a hill does feel different and yes he wants me to feel how close we can get to tipping the front loader. And I felt that and so I just slowly started making a ramp with a slight slope and then had to grade it into the bottom of the hill. I mostly only used the bucket but with doing the hill I was using the back attachment… hehe… I don’t even know what it’s called but we can drag it and it’s a good tool for this job for sure… was using this probably 80% of the time but I do feel like the bucket feels more comfortable for myself. But I can feel how addictive it can be on the machine… sculpting the earth and trying to get the grade to be what we want it to be… I could see myself doing this all night because it has lights… but I stopped around six… hehe… but yeah the owner is starting to see that I can be much more valuable then organizing. He’s been putting me on more projects and I think he’s noticing that I’m a hard worker that can get things done. I have to actually sneak in time to continue to organize because he has other projects he wants me to do…. Hehe… when I’m doing the other projects everyone is always looking for things so yeah… I’m trying to figure out how to still organize while doing the other projects for him. I like it because he’s starting to tell me different projects he wants done and so I’ll know what to do when I’m doing with something. He was impressed with how well I did with preparing the new area we are pouring cement into to extend the driveway. I made two tools to help get the bottom six inches deep and uniform on the bottom. Ha he actually thought I should change it until he thought about it and said that actually should work… and I said yeah it should make it pretty easy. And actually I started eyeballing it in the middle of the larger sections because I’m pretty confident that it will look much better and less complicated and yeah he said it looked a lot better than what he thought it was going to be like. When I went to work with my buddy from UK/Peru he handled the owner much differently then how I handle the owner… hehe… in the mornings he said that the owner likes us to wait for him at the picnic table outside of base before we start the day. He’ll tell us what to do. And that’s not what I do. I now know projects that need to be done… so I go and just start them. The owner also pays for lunch when I was with my buddy… we’d work and work even sometimes until 2pm before eating lunch and I just go when I’m hungry… and so I’m getting him to trust me in this manner… I’m not dependent on the owner and allow him to do his thing which involves many projects at once with many people. He doesn’t have to hold my hand and I think he appreciates this and I know I would much rather this type of work relationship. I’ve been coming in a half hour earlier so I can go and visit the lake. It’s a sweet spot and I go and play my flute on the dock and usually there’s an orchestra of birds and I practice playing and sometimes I try to mimic the sounds of the birds… I definitely need more practice with bird sounds but the flute is become more comfortable. And today I actually saw the ladies row club on the lake this morning. Usually the girls are at school when I’m out there but with it being Saturday they were on the lake at the same time. I got to play the flute for them for a short period of time and I enjoyed them practicing as well. Now my neck and shoulders have been sore for a week it seems now… hehe… I think I over did it with shoveling and I’ve been soaking in the tub with epsom salt everyday and finally got some menthol muscle gel which helps… the owner also gave me liniment gel… ha it’s actually for horses and he said that his horses loved it but he uses it now and that I should give it a try. I tried today and it did feel good but I’m not sure how long I’m going to use it because I’m figuring the potency might not be balanced between horses and human bodies… but it did feel good but I already got that other gel and it feels equally as good just a bit different. He makes me put my hands in a plastic baggie to place it on my skin which I think is supposed to prevent me from getting it in my eyes if I don’t wash my hands well enough… well… I appreciate it but I think taking two days off will hopefully really give my body the rest to recover I hope. The owner was trying to give me a hard time about taking days off… but he also said thank you for such hard work… so he’s not too upset. I’m trying to also show him that I’m not going to be like my buddy. I care about my energy and I’ll do much better with rest… I do not want to burn out or get grumpy and that will happen if I go nonstop. I get along with people but it really does seem like the owner and I work really well together. He likes to teach and I love to learn. I don’t get offended and I ask questions and listen well. He said that maybe I should get a certificate for an heavy equipment operator and I said I’m not trying to get a permanent job doing it for days upon days… but I’d take a referral for future communities and people who I might work with in the future. I’m trying to keep planting seeds that what I’m doing with them right now… is something I want to continue to do…. Whether I return to them but also when I go I want to find more properties all over the world. I also try to help them understand that money is nice but is not my motivation. I’m getting to understand this place a little more… there’s a little over ten acres of land. And his ladies at base are like bookkeepers because he’s a CPA. I guess everyone says he’s secretive because of his profession. I’m not sure what a CPA actually does but he’s got a lot on his plate. And I don’t know how I can get him to relax and stop working for a moment… hehe… I feel like that’s what I had to do at the temple farm and I was successful there.. but I’m not sure if that’s what I’m going to try while I’m here. I tried once and I thought maybe I can literally just teach dance classes without going out and being social. Just teach them there at camp. Oh man… the couple that I’ve been hanging out with had a weird twist that happened… hehe So the woman and I have been hanging out… and I have been working a lot and so I see her on property but she wants to hang out and I’m polite and have small conversations but I continue to work. She asked me to help her move some of her stuff so she can get a new storage cabinet into her office space and I said I could do that. It took a few days but I kept trying after my shift. One night I ended up just chatting with her and her husband and I really enjoyed our conversation. She was telling me that her husband would love to talk about spirituality with me… and so of course I’m down and really enjoy it. But I guess there was a comment that I made that upset her. I didn’t know it at the time. But I was saying that I’d like to move her stuff so I can check it off my list. I’ve got stuff I’d like to work on at my place and it would be nice to go ahead and get this done. I guess it was a combination of different things. But she said that she misunderstood our relationship. She said she realized that I didn’t stay here in Orlando because of her. I was a little shocked by that comment and I said no… but you are a part of why I wanted to stay. I’ve been honest with her about my thoughts and she doesn’t seem to be listening to me…hehe… I know she is lonely but that also makes her a bit needy and I might be more sensitive because it’s a bit suffocating me… that’s dramatic… but it does make me want to create more space. I see her everyday but she’s not constantly texting me anymore which is nice. I explained to her where I’m going this weekend and who I’m spending time with. She thought since her husband doesn’t want to leave the house and do things with her… that we’d be going out doing things together. And I said we can do things but I’m not wanting to do them everyday. Most days I just want to go back and rest after work… hehe… anyway she’s still adorable… but I’m creating a little more space. I had to create a little more space from my buddy UK/Peru who has returned to Peru and he started to drink again and he’s been drunk texting me and I told him I don’t appreciate this and I’m sure he can find someone else who might because I do not. He apologized but he’s just talking chit-chat… no substance… like he’s bored. And damn it people I’m not bored… hehe… so I’m going to wait until after the weekend to see if I return his messages. I think I’d rather have a call then a text because I think he might be a more focused in a conversation with talking then texting and able to get distracted easier? Anyway I’m loving work and I’m learning things that I haven’t really done before. My boss in Colorado that master builder we mostly did carpentry and right now I’m learning more about pipe work… mostly irrigation, water drainage, and running electrical. I see that we make things and fix things and I tried to weld yesterday… hehe.. more challenging than I thought… he’s got the old school helmet and I’m like how in the hell do I even know where to place it? Haha and I guess there’s other factors that made it more challenging there was moisture on the stick and rusty metal pieces we were welding together. But I think there might be more opportunities and maybe he’ll show me other welding techniques. I think I can get the hang of it possibly. But maybe this isn’t the location to learn it. But I can see there’s a lot of new stuff I’ll be able to do while I’m here and I’m happy with that. Alright I’m looking forward to these next two days off. My Aya familia and his parents are looking forward to serving my breakfast/brunch in the late morning tomorrow. So I’m going to go ahead and get some rest. Until next time… enjoy ourselves!
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thank you, this makes sense:)
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False. It should be obvious to you that's just your worldview. But it isn't.
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Joseph Maynor replied to Ramasta9's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I love using humor now in situations where people are all serious about trying to one-up each other. This could be used for anyone, including family. It's a paradigm shift of: we're friends first and the expectation is that we will disagree with each other. Many people have this paradigm reversed: We can only be friends if we agree with each other, or you have to agree with me, or vice versa. No we're friends first, and it is assumed that we will disagree with each other. It's really a way of elevating Love and practicing it. So, now I apply this to basically everyone and it calls on using humor somewhat strategically, which brings people together. This can be overdone too though, but it's fun to experiment with. It's rewarding and different to be able to relate with people who you have little in common with, especially if you're kind of a top-heavy person who is stuck in your own mind a lot. You want the world to mirror your mind without realizing that, and that is controlling and limiting when it comes to relationships, openness, and Love. Many people I see on here already do this which is amazing to me to see because it took me a long time to get it. -
Also these episodes from the blog: How I Started My First Business - https://www.actualized.org/insights/how-i-started-my-first-business Why Get Rich Quick Schemes Don't Work - https://www.actualized.org/insights/why-get-rich-quick-schemes-dont-work Guerilla Business Advice - https://www.actualized.org/insights/guerilla-business-advice Requisite Variety & Creative Laziness - https://www.actualized.org/insights/requisite-variety-and-creative-laziness
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Was it an abrupt taper or a gradual dose reduction. I am asking you because looking at this a bit of worry and fear is induced in me.
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Has been on my radar for many years this one. Will give watch today based on your recommendation.
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@Joshe how else am i supposed to know then? it took me a really long time to start figuring this out and now it's all wrong...
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@Leo Gura No worldview justifies cold blood murder, and that should be obvious to him. But it isn't.
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No! It means he has a different worldview than yours and you are too closedminded to understand it.
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Shitpost 😂 should I be laughing or sad that this is polluting the epistemic landscape 🤣
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I challenge all of you to work long enough on a math problem until you start hallucinating. The degree of imagination you need to comprehend higher levels of mathematics is not one accessible to normal humans.
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What if she just told him a funny fart joke?
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Of course everything is imaginary, but simply stating that is lazy epistemology. Many people imagine they have a theory of everything and yet it doesn’t hold up.
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How To Get Shit Done How Be A Strategic Motherfucker Advice For Small Business Owners Advice For Ambitious People How To Escape Wage Slavery - - - - - I will make a video on the foundations of success.
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Yeah, I saw that recently. People are getting so lazy they are too lazy to learn to read. They are still teaching English wrong. The right way to learn English is to memorize every single word the way Chinese memorize their kanji. English words are just kanji made of letters. Memorize 5,000 words and you will know English. You can't sound out English words because English spelling is nonsensical.
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Natasha Tori Maru replied to Ramasta9's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I often have conversations with my family around spiritual topics. Unfortunately it usually falls flat because their metaphysics/philosophy is very poor. As soon as I begin to question them harder, it turns into them trying to egoically one-up me in a spiritual way. The odd thing is, this tends to happen with my brother the most. And he loves it. He loves getting angry, raging and then pointing out to me and the rest of the family (who usually end up as an audience) how emotionless and lacking conviction I am, because I do not engage like he does. I think as soon as something doesn't align with his view it is a threat; to me it is just a fellow being, with a different set of experiences, that could never invalidate/validate my own. Needless to say i am... Hesitant... About the upcoming holiday season. But it also goes back to how we want to share experiences to bond and relate, but too often language falls short. Misunderstanding happens. And ego comes out 🙃🙃🙃 -
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@lostingenosmaze You:
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I was suffering because of this. I am fairly attractive, height. body and overall appearence. This is a blessing and a curse. I was thinking: How much is enough? How much am I willing to milk these privileges? I was feeling pickup as an obligation and/or a refusal to give up erotic capital: "YOU HAVE ALL THIS, YOU SHOULD MILK IT, GO OUT AND MAKE SEX WITH 23909320233 WOMAN." It is not easy to abandon power. It is like an addiction. I'm on a different trajectory right now, focused on self-love, consciousness, non-duality, finding a woman that I really like/admire.
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A few years ago, I wanted to move out. Finding an apartment was a bit complicated, so I was doing visualization (without knowing that some people consider it a manifestation technique). In the end, I landed in an apartment that closely matched what I had been imagining. Back then, though, I wasn’t dreaming big at all, I was visualizing a small, modest, nothing-special place that was just decent and clearly better than the one I desperately wanted to leave. The question I’m asking myself is: is the power of manifestation actually real, or was it just a coincidence? I ended up with the exact kind of apartment I had dreamed of. Does visualizing and imagining something vividly eventually cause it to materialize in our reality? If that’s the case, I’m going to start dreaming a little bigger and more luxurious from now on…
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One thing that might help yourself: Everytime before you go out, imagine what/how you want women to SEE/FEEL YOU. Take her perspective and see youself as her, imagine, feel, hear, sense HOW women will EXPERIENCE you. (love, passion, beauty, enthusiasm, humor, sexual chemistry). Test for yourself. See what happens
