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  3. Funny you should say that, I have vivid dreams and good recall. I used to maintain a dream diary for a while. I stopped because I was waking in the middle of the night and making quick notes of my dreams, but that was making me tired in the day. I need a better system. What do you think can be realised from dreams?

  4. What is Beauty?

    No1Here2c replied to No1Here2c's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Ive notices that I do really love writing, and wordplay especially. I dont even really do it, it just comes to me when it does. And it doesnt even really matter if anyone else understands or sees it. The gift is in my enjoyment of it. On occasion I understand why leo tells us this work is the highest love you can offer yourself.
  5. According to latest news the US Military is preparing for armed personnel action in Iran around the Strait of Hormuz. The 31st Marine Expeditionary Unit is currently on transit from Okinawa to the Iranian theatre.

  6. What is Beauty?

    No1Here2c replied to No1Here2c's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    If life aint exactly like a carnival game than what is it?
  8. I'd start with becoming more aware during sleep and dream states. There is a treasure trove there waiting to be realized.
  10. It sounds potentially exciting. What would that entail from your point of view?

  11. Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread

    Natasha Tori Maru replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    There are many functions at play contributing to this dysfunction. Illustrating them has always been a huge portion of your work. Not to say sadness is an incorrect emotion in this instance. There's a possibility more subtle emotions hide underneath the label of sadness, that would reveal where the judgement portion would stem from. Stopping and observing in the next instance of the despairing might reveal more subtly in the feeling. Not sure. Feelings are a strange one, as they are a powerful and intelligent system evolved as a protection mechanism for survival. But they do all sorts of juju when the intellect is involved. Anyway, thanks for the dyadic
  12. The mind is mostly landscape orientated. Plus, deep seated emotional triggers from past experiences can often invade the experience of the now moment. One sight. One smell. One word. One thought even is all it takes. When you talk about "training your mind" what you are really talking about is learning to control your Default Mode Network.

  13. Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread

    Leo Gura replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    I don't have much emotion behind it. Mostly it's just sad that humans are so unconscious and negligent. And there is a feeling of how deep Reality is. The dysfunction of mankind is so deep it's stunning.

  14. Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread

    Jacob Morres replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    You should also consider nuance in india as well. There are many safe areas within india - esp in nicer areas in cities I've been to india several times and never witnessed harrassment either (lived there for 1y+). But i also dont know what its like from the pov of a non brown woman so theres that I also have read abt white women that live in india that that say that they havent experienced harrassment Edit: I also do recall now, without doxxing details, i was in an area of where there were around 1k indian people and around a dozen non indian women, and at least from hearsay, i didnt hear of any incidents of harassment. So theres that

  15. Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread

    Natasha Tori Maru replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Do you feel disgust behind the judgement? It is a common one for me. And often I find the feeling of disgust arises prior to the thought judgement appearing - or me being aware of it. An extreme turn off is felt. On the flipside of the above - my feelings of disgust are simultaneous with deep compassion. I have a contradictory set of emotions/feelings that arise together; I understand what drives people to extremes of degeneracy. I also project my own capabilities heavily onto others; when they fall short I can be harsh. I remind myself often there are others out there who are simple. Double digit IQs. Developmentally behind. Brain damaged. I am in a position of privilege. It is very easy for me to project my aptitude onto others and judge when they fall short. There is a limit to responsibility in the absence of rational intellect, education and competency.
  16. You are not responsible to what happened to you and it generally wasn't avoidable. The system is designed to screw you for profit. You can't avoid a threat you didn't know existed. I feel like you might not be aware but the trap you fell for is one out of thousands. Most of the traps people will fall for that are part of the healthcare industry, those people don't even know that they were harmed. The healthcare industry is a cartel, that harms people and then convincs them that they received proper treatment, and those people believe it because they're also trapped in cultural conformity. And the Doctor Who did the harm is also trapped in that same conformity and doesn't see the harm that they did. Can you imagine a doctor realizing after 40 years of working that they just spent their whole career harming people? 😔 this is how severe the epidemic problem is.
  17. Kudos to seeing the mystical experience within the ordinary.
  18. I don't think so. Mind is a very maleable entity. No matter how enlightened you are, you have to train your mind to experience reality in radical ways.
  19. However - people do not have a biological driving force to 'fire'. We aren't just talking about the 'thing' here, which would be porn, but also the factors within human biology and dopamine systems that also come into play. Last I checked people have a need to fuck. There's not the same driver for 'fire'. You cannot lacerate off the most important part of the discussion to force this analogy fit. Essentially porn is a supernormal stimulus - something that engages with an existing drive directly and amplifies it beyond what it evolved for.
  20. I'm sorry that you had to go through this, 15 years ago something similar happened to me, but with different drug pallet and different circumstances. Doctors contributed greatly to destroying my body. And I was left there with unresolved problems on top of which they only made the situation far worse. I felt disgust for the healthier industry for years, and disgust for general cultural conformity of just trusting in doctors like they don't harm people every day. Doctors harm people every day and no one knows what's happening not even the doctors. It's a circus. And if you try to explain these basic things to people, they assume you must be uneducated. 🙄 In the end of the day, you have to solve your health issue. And you have to solve it alone, using all your intelligence. During this journey absolutely no one is gonna back you up. Actually, everyone you attempt to talk to especially "professionals" will think it's crazy because it doesn't line up with the small little world of corrupt pharmaceutical treatments that they blindly memorize. If it isn't obvious there are no professionals, and there are very few intelligent people if none at all. You have to work to solve this issue on your own.

  21. Share your insights

    Oyashiro replied to Terell Kirby's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    It can be very helpful is to automatically assume that the world around you and every person in it is fully enlightened and personally there to teach you lessons about yourself and reality. In other words: assume that you are the one and only unenlightened being in existence, and everyone else is personally here to teach you. From this state of mind, you will begin to view all of the horrible behaviors of others not as signs of their ignorance and greediness and lack of development, but as lessons designed to teach you how to be a less ignorant, less greedy, more truthful, better person. Another way of putting this is: steelman everyone and everything you encounter; and assume everyone's hidden true intention is to show you lessons about yourself and reality. Do not for a second believe that people are truly godless or truly evil, but instead believe it's all just a massive performance for your benefit and personal development. This all culminates in the insight that everyone is your guru.
  22. I am walking in crutches and orthopedic boots after a fall last year, still recovering. I hadn't left the house other than going to the dentist and straight back for a few months now. Yesterday I went to the park. My phone bill is not paid so I was offline. I was able to fully be present and no excuse to shove a screen in my face. The thought "I am" came naturally, not the usual question "What am I" but the answer "I am". Everyone i saw also was "I am". All of nature too was fully "I am". Nature is trully non-judgemental while some humans not so much, because they weren't really focused on "I am" they were focused on the interpretations of their minds instead. Its not about having a mystical experience all the time, but about seeing the mystery in the ordinary. I am also interested in questions about how to relate to others. I am good at being alone, but when other people start appearing, with their heavy egoic presence, and situations appear, almost like testing me, it can pull me into unconsciousness and i find myself distracted from the simplicity of "I am". Not that its hard to get back 😆 but they really try to sting you sometimes, to make you remember, to live in your mind.
  23. Today
  24. Sure, one can have moments of clarity and oneness. But can you live like that even when the going gets tough?
  25. What I am trying to communicate is about radical perceptive experiences. Is it possible to have a radical perceptive experience (alien?) beyond human paradigms and still being a body?
  26. But doesn't this require a community that cares for these people? If you're not born in those conditions, then it seems like it could be rougher to survive depending upon circumstances.
  27. 22 22.1 1 It's easy the remember the system since: 0-Continuum, 1-Path, 2-Polarity, 3-Trinty. 0123. Good didactics. 1.1 This could make for very compact language. 1.1.1 I could inspire myself from Georg Cantor and find another cool symbol and do what he did with the aleph numbers. The question just is: What unifies 0123? 1.2 It seems they are laws. The 0th law, 1st law, 2nd law, 3rd law. Damn that's cold 1.3 The path is the path from survival to liberation btw. (?) 1.4 It seems like I need to learn about numerology 2 What does nicotine do? 3 (1.4.1) Numerology 3.1 It seems what I'm doing is already a kind of numerology. 3.2 0=self-similarity 3.2.1 01=Idea 3.2.2 02=Form 3.2.3 03=Body 3.2.4 04=Consciousness 3.2.5 05=Idea 3.2.6 00=emptiness? 3.3 1=path, 10=survival 3.4 11=resonance 3.4.1 11 is accessed through acceptence of death 3.4.1.1 being-towards-death (Heidegger) 3.5 12=harmony 3.5.1 12 enabled through acceptence of dissonance 3.6 13=symphony 3.6.1 13 enabled through radical acceptence 3.6.2 Damn that's the unlucky number for the highest principle😭 Alternative notation 4 Polarity: {•}. Damn that seems like an interesting notation for "space" 4.1 Contimuum: 🌀, O, 0 4.2 Polarity: <-> 4.3 Path: | 5 Metonymy cool word Lacan 6 (1.2.1) What is a law? It seems to be very closely related to 33 = point 7 Father seems to be a mix of guide (point=33) and repetition=31. Holy spirit seems to be a mix of reflection=32 and point=33. If the son is now a mix of 31 and 32 then it checks out. Rizhome (Deleuze) 8 It seems what I'm doing is I'm choosing some point on the rhizome and then trying to trace the entire rhizome in a satisfying hierarchical, numerical way. With this designation, I'm exerting power on and competing (competition is 33-10=point-survival ?) with different designations and the rizhome itself, but this is exactly the point and the goal. The concept of the rizhome is true but when one is lost in it, it leads to impotence in regards to fighting the status quo through offering an alternative. Fight power with power. This is a good slogan. This is Marxism-Leninism. 8.1 "Designation" is actually a pretty satisfying term to describe this. It seems that designation is in a sense more broad than the term ideology. 8.1.1 Or is it? No I think it might be the same. But I like designation since it is a less loaded term and it kind of relativises itself through its explicit connection to the rizhome. So designation is kind of an anti-ideology ideology which checks out perfectly. It's the fragment. It's the one piece. It's the will of D. 8.2 "Designation ontology" 8.3 This points to a new polarity which is: Rizhome-designation. 8.3.1 Where does it come from? It seems to have a lot to do with point = 33. I'm also smelling complexity and self-similarity=0. Complexity=trinity=3 I'm pretty sure. So Designation is {0, 3, 33}. Rizhome is non-point designation so just {0, 3}. Just self-similarity and complexity. This makes so much sense wtf. 8.3.1.1 This {•} is interesting notation I need to work on that. I could also do for example 0-3-33. I think the "-" is good because it symbolizes a link and I like the image of the link which is not existent in itself and only exists as the relation to other entities which is a pretty good descripiton of all of these designations. 8.3.1.2 It seems to make sense to call one of these numbers a "designation" since designation is what the model designates itself as. 9=1.1.1.1 Since the designation is such a central term in the self-description of the model I could use some fancy calligraphy version of D. It's the will of D! Bro HOW does this check out so well?!??!?!😭 9.1 I could use kind of an oldschool german calligraphy (fraktur). This is risky because it is a Nazi dogwhistle which is also good because it leads to polarization which is necessary for unity. It is also a good way to convey this point: "In the same way that communism in China is the best thing for Chinese culture, communism in the west is the best thing for Western culture" 9.2 What's also crazy is that "fraktur" has the same root as fragment=designation=0-3-33 and fractal≈0-33-31-32=self-similar-fixed-repeated-reflection. 10 Lol is seems like this journal itself is a kind of designation with a similar structure. There is def a clash in notation. Ideally I would make the desigs of the desig ontology bold but I'm transferring the text from the notes app which makes the bold disappear. Maybe I will eventually find a solution. 11 A structure that makes sense is to denote 1.D as "the first version of designation" or something like Cred.1.D "the first of Creds designations". And then for example, Cred.1.D.0-3=Rizhome. I like that "-" and "‎ = " are so similar, it makes the notation satisfyingly coherent. 11.1 Wait this is fun: Designation.0-3-33=Designation. Strange loop! Strange-loop is 0-31-32-33. 0=Self-similarity, 31-32 is repeated reflection which is loop. The strange loop is also a symbol which means it is fixed=point=33. This is interesting because 3-31-32-33 is intelligence. So what this would mean that a strange-loop is "the simplest form of intelligence" which is a very cool idea. I could also number the different "attempts" at denoting different terms within one designation but I have to see that the notation doesn't become too bloated too fast. I feel like git can offer a lot of inspiration for this. I could also just use "≈" when it's meant as a suggestion. 11.2 This is getting very obscure and jargony fast I love it👹 12 It is important to note that the desigs are not numbers but symbols. So what I'm doing is closer to creating some kind of analytical language to doing maths. I'm planning to invent alternative symbols that are more graspable than numbers that exist in parallel to the numbers for each D. 13 I need to find a better word for "a symbol inside a designation which is itself a designation but designation is redundant". Node? Node is great actually. 1.3.1 Nodes (symbol), Links ("-"), statements ("‎ = "). Sounds very logical and coherent so far. 13.1 The question is now: What precisely does "." stand for then? Extension? It makes sense that is also just means node. 13.2 I think it makes sense to denote a node in the abstract sense as: "•" or as "." also works. 14 Power accumulation for fighting power is distinct from power accumulation as a form of displacement. 22.2 1 Name for post about desig: Attempt at an analytical designation of ontology 2 I love the idea that the link symbol "-" is a metonymy for the brunnian link which itself is a metonymy for "a link that can't exist as a link without its neighboring links." or more abstractly: "that which can't exist as itself without those entities it is in relation with". Another version is: "that which exists is that which is as that which spans a space with others of its kind, which does not hold for sunyata" 2.1 This makes the link and the node equivalent which is sweet since I want the designation to be collapsible (into emptiness) like that. 2.2 I could also call a "node" a lonk this would be fun. 3 This kind of •=•-•-•=•-• notation is similar to molecular notation which is fun. Also it is convenient actually bc this means there are probably already tools to denote this kind of structure in Latex or something. 3.1 •=•-•-•=•-• is lonk is lonk link lonk link lonk is lonk link lonk. I feel like I have just unlocked a new level of autism at this point. 3.1.1 https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcTnx6IKKkmXcrAHA1gl7ryF5Lm1QccLHm8rn8f59OMMqg&s=10 me 3.1.2 This is very Douglas Hofstadter. I need to keep reading GEB I'm like at page 60. Although I feel like I'm having more fun just reverse engineering the book without reading it completely. My brain kinda learns better by reverse engineering shit instead of reading a ton. 4 Humor is a small ideological shift, rage bait is a bigger one, offending is bigger yet and alienation is the biggest. The laugh tale is the destruction of the hegemonic ideology. 5 This journal seems to be designation Cred.0.D and its goal is to find the first designation which is Cred.1.D. 5.1 as an example: Cred.0.D.2026.March.22.5="Metonymy cool word Lacan" 6 Metonymy≈0-33. Or 32-33="reflection of a point"? Yeah the latter makes more sense. 6.1 So is that what the son is? It kinda makes sense. "the son symbol=point=33 is the reflection of the father symbol". Kinda checks out actually. 7 Space=2=polarity. Deleuze.difference=Cred.1.D.22=duality. 8 I feel like the designation supercharges thinking just because it is so hierarchical. 8.1 I need to learn more about Focault. 22.3 1 point-selves cling to capitalism because pursuing and achieving capital is their way of feeling valued. 1.1 Therefore, If one wants to abolish money, one has to establish an alternative system for personal-identity-valuation. 1.2 The participation of such system must be optional, so that non-point-selves don't suffer. 2 Relativity is non-point=!33(?) 3 I like the idea that this becomes a real speakable language. I feel like there are a couple mega autistic people who would be down learning this language. 3.1 I'm doing the ultimate project based learning. I'm not reading about linguistics. I'm inventing a language and then I analyze my own language. 4 Self-hatred is distinct from harted from injustice. 5 Maybe change point to "fixation". Repetition, Reflection, Fixation. This creates cofusion though since ADHD=non-fixation. 22.4 1 I like that it begins with the letter D but I must say that designation is not perfect. The literal meaning is just desig=33 not 3-33. 1.1 I think an interesting alternative is "tracing". 1.2 Designation is a very loaded nuanced term in analytical philosophy. I need to learn more about it. I'm tending to switch to tracing for now. 2=5.1 A good word for point in german is "setzung". 2.1 alt word for point is "laying" 2.2 Just definition is also good. But that's too mathematical. 2.3 I think I will just stay with point and setzung. 3 what the hell is schizoanalysis. Sounds super wonky. 3.1 chaosmosis, bifurcation, ontological heterogeneity 3.2 It seems there already exists a strong relationship between psychoanalysis and ontology in continental philosophy. 4 What is field in the tracing? 4.1 Field is the Origin so O? 4.1.1 Ø is the ungraspable? 4.1.1.1 that's cold honestly. 4.2 I have to remember my point about the ungraspable but I'm too lazy. Maybe I can fit the field and the ungraspable in the continuum. 5 If 21-!12 is the maw and 22-!12 is the abyss, what is void? void=!2-!12=non-space-non-love ? 5.1 (Or 2 with overline, or 2' or ~2 or non-2) 6 What is the difference between perversion and alienation? 6.1 More importantly what is alienation numerically? 6.2 I think it's roughly the same. Perversion is a form of alienation. 6 I can make the language more compact with regular expressions 6.1 Regex 6.2 System=31-32-33=3[1,2,3]. Honestly not much better lol. Wait or system=3*. 6.2.1 I'm not 100% sure about system 3* btw. I think resonance=3*. 6.2.1.1 Yeah I think system=3(2,3)-2(1,2)="a space where points are interacting". It does not imply change. 7 wait I have an interesting idea. I was talking about somatic languages. What's fun, Is the idea that language itself is a somatic language, since at the end of the day, it requires a performance of movement of the mouth and the tongue, etc. 7.1 So what this also means is that each movement can be interpreted like sign language, language of body movement could be interpreted for example. 7.2 so once I'm moving away from the numerical symbols into language territory, I can try to find those vocals whose "performance"resemblance the meaning of that which is vocalized. 7.3 what I could also do is create a language that is inherently, numerical, and mathematical. So I don't need multiple versions at the same time in a sense. 8 rename polarity=2 to space? Polarity is good since it can easily be associated with 2 but space is good since duality=22 and polarity=2 seems redundant. Yeah I'm tending to 2=space. 8.1 Wait what I could also do is 2=field and 21-22=space. This seems neat actually. Yeah that checks out. 9 Wave=3•1|2|3, Intelligence=3-wave. 22.5 1 What is embodiment? Wait body is just 03. 1.1 okay maybe it's 03-21-22=body-space 2 I could also make 0=self-similarity more detailed like: 2.1 00=absolute, 01=idea 2.2 02=ungraspable=emptiness=vaccilating. 2.3 03=graspable=form=wave= oscillating. 04=matter=pulsating 2.4 05=body=humming 2.6 06=mind=buzzing 2.7 07=consciousness 2.8 08=Idea. 3 Maybe differentiate between perversion=!2="destruction of space" and alienation=? Wait no alienation is also !2. I guess alienation is more on the !21=non-unity=abyss side and perversion is more on the !22=non-duality=maw side. 3.1 The question now is ofc what is just !2? 3.1.1 I think this makes sense: perversion=maw=!2-!22, alienation=!2, anihilation=void=!2-!21-!22, fragmentation=abyss=!2-!21. 4 soul=05-2=body-field 5 01234 would be fun and 4 is just 0,1,2,3 lol. "the 4-trace". Wait this would make 4=absolute. That's cool actually. Also it solves the problem that 00=absolute does not make 100% sense. What's a little unsatisfying is that they are not ordered by fundamentality. It should be 40231. Looks like a postal code. Yeah that place exists in germany it's like 2 hours from my where I am. Maybe there I will find my guru or some shit lol. 5.1 Alternative designations of the 4. 5.1.1 Granularity, Ascendance, Polarity, Complexity, Oneness
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