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  2. Here's another perspective on this guy.
  3. @NewKidOnTheBlock Many men are struggling with the dating part of their life. Its a serious matter.
  4. I think it's easier to see the cosmic joke when you are being tortured by life you just have to remember to laugh
  5. @Leo Gura why are you conflating "you need to care about truth to succeed in business and war because you can't afford to have fantasies and illusions about how things are" with seeking truth in a spiritual sense? Just because you can see the world in a ruthless / cold analytical way, doesn't mean that you are going to care about existential truths. And you say in that same post that most of those men are bullshitters and need to use lies and deceptions to succeed in busienss and war. So I thunk it kind of proves the point that there is very little correlation between the two. I actually think that most of those "rational men" would use your language and call the truth you are talking about "airy-fairy fantasies". Also, how is a businessman or an engineer guy less distracted from truth seeking than a mother raising children? I think it is actually feminine qualities are actually what allows you to care about philosophy and spirituality and such vs just "pure ruthless survival". I know more girls who are into spirituality and esoterics, even if its new agey spirituality than men. And the guys who are into pilosophy and spirituality are also not the most masculine men in general. I don't see hyper masculine men interested in those at all. Maybe there is an argument to made that you need a balance of both. Feminine for idealism, intuition, and interest in those finer topics of life and masculine for discipline, being able to deal with discomfort, face the cold truth, etc. As you've mentioned in your second post.
  6. Like I really do be viewing myself like my current profile picture. I feel like a a bug eyed chihuahua with her tongue sticking out with 3 brain cells bouncing around incoherently.
  7. Read an old trip report some days ago. Bottom line was "life is about feeling good". Resonated strongly. So being normie makes you feel good? Great! I guess what you do doesn't matter so much compared to how you do it. You can be a millionaire and still be unhappy with your life. Awareness is key. Some earlier post pointed out it's crucial to not refrain from doing things out of fear but acting consciously. Conscious normie? Great for him/ her! I recently read a study about long term happiness over decades and an interview with the researcher leading the study. Most happy guy according to him was a guy "that does not stick out in any way". His key to happyness? Good relationships with others
  8. In many respects, the Jews are truly in a class of their own. They have the most resilient and the smartest people per capita.
  9. Just wanna share my experience. I quit it all. Cold turkey. Coffee, green/black tea. Never putting my hands on it again. I was experiencing anxiety for so much time that I thought it was normal to feel that. And no spiritual practice was able to help me there. But once I went off of caffeine I noticed that I'am A LOT MORE calmer by default. I no longer have anxiety and can talk to anyone in public, I'am no longer "shy" which was caused by anxiety from caffeine. I spent a week listening to youtube podcasts from doctors and simple people who talked about how they quit caffeine and what has changed and wow... I understood how bad caffeine actually is! The first two weeks were really hard. I was tired already at 11AM and didn't have any MOTIVATION to do anything. This motivation was lost because caffeine increases dopamine. And Now I'am about a month in without it and wow am I back! I have these random increases in creativity out of nowhere which was never present when I consumed caffeine. And I no longer have energy crashed, my energy levels are present all day! I don't get the high spikes though, but I will take it any time of the day. I know some people might not be affected as much in case of anxiety and other symptoms, but if you do have anxiety on a daily basis, check if it's caffeine that is giving you all of that. It raises your adrenaline levels and you are on a flight-fight ALL DAY. Now think about what that does to you! Mostly I quit it because of anxiety, I wanted to see if it affects me and YES IT DID. But there are other great benefits of quitting it.
  10. Where do you think power comes from? The threat of force. *At least for 90% of the world and certainly the region we are speaking about.
  11. The point of this thread was to illustrate the principles of power versus force.
  12. As to the premise of the thread. Civilians are not overtly engaged yet as if we are at war, but most are mobilised through their media to take a position on it to support one side or the other. Their taxes help fund the conflicts that do exist for example, cold and hot.
  13. I would say Israeli support has tanked in the UK. Whatever the mainstream says, people think they are insane. Although authoritarian insanity overseas is more normalised, its still true. Same is true in western Europe, but Eastern Europe is closer to the Russian conflict, seeing Iran's influence as an ally of Russia more directly and is generally more rightwing anyway. Strategically, I am glad Iranian missiles are no longer hitting Ukrainian civilians. Due to BRICS aggression and posturing, the prospect of a nuclear Iran was not something I was keen on, though I could understand it from their perspective. So even a six-month delay helps Ukraine here and the general hot and cold wars going on. The difference here is I now understand the world is at war, and people are reacting to it as if it's not. But we are. Mostly a cold war with a few flashpoints.
  14. @Basman Jews are opposed to each other too. As much as Muslims.
  15. I wouldn't consider Israel a "David" at any point in their history, especially now. Arab countries are not that developed comparitvely and less effective at organizing. European colonizers could overwhelm native societies like the Aztecs despite being only a fraction of their size because everyone hated the Aztecs. They where fractured. There's a reason why Israel is in the middle-east as opposed to any other place for more reasons than just religious. Arab armies are primarily built for regime security against the local populace for example. They are quiet tribal.
  16. Raising a successful family is one of the most primal proven paths to not only life fulfilment but also positive spiritual growth through building positive karma. Ensuring that you get a better reincarnation next time leaving this world better than what you found it. This path has been around since forever and to spit on it calling it a "sugary orange colored artificially flavored drink" is disgusting. Given that there are some things about the normie lifestyle that are indeed artificial. But your post didn't point that out.
  17. Most internet users are only as opiniated and unhinged as they are anonymous.
  18. @Raze are you Arab? For the record I’m neutral in the conflict.
  19. (Not) Taking Myself Seriously I'm 25 years old and I still have yet to feel like a woman. I have been feeling this for quite some time now and i have been reflecting on it off and on over the last 2 ish years. I feel like a girl and I feel like an adult, but for whatever reason, I don't feel like a woman. As for the fact that I relate to girliness as a form of femininity, I think it has less to do with me having an infantilized view of femininity and more to do with how adulthood feels very gender neutral. I cook, clean, take care of my surroundings, have a job that I'm relatively good at, pay my bills on time, have boundaries and good communication skills, a few solid relationships, a sense of responsibility, and a sense of direction in my life. None of these things feel particularly gendered. I guess with girlhood, I tend to associate it with a sense of playfulness, silliness, and whimsy that comes naturally to me. So then, I started thinking about what does it mean to be woman, what images comes to mind for me, and how I may or may not be falling short on that. Because I know from the alpha male podcasts that they have a very specific view on masculinity based on a bunch of societal stereotypes that essentially gets conjured up to a caricature of masculinity they idolize and fantasize about being. And based on the Dr. K video I took notes on, I think subscribing to this fantasy instead of embracing the reality and mundaneness of masculinity is what leads a lot men to act like man children. Here is a little bit about what I wrote: So that got me thinking about what kind of fantasy and archetype of womanhood that I have picked up on and that I'm subconsciously comparing myself to. I think the first image that I get in my mind when I think being a woman is has to do with this sense of elegance and classiness. And I don't mean to be self deprecating but I don't see myself as that. I wear my authenticity on my sleeve, even if it might be rough around the edges and I put character above class, since classiness without a sense of empathy can just be classism (think judging people for using the wrong fork in a formal dining setting and how that "gives them away"). I think that the words elegance and classiness can be pretty loaded in terms of socioeconomic status, racism, and misogyny. So, I'm trying to be cognizant of that when I try to define womanhood for myself. Like I feel like content like this is the woman equivalent of the alpha male fantasies men have: I encounter shorts like this in my social media feeds. And most of the time, it's not anything particularly toxic, it's just very surface level advice in my opinion. But I want to mainly focus on the imagery around this type of content. I feel like this next couple videos are more in your face about how things like race, money, stereotypes around femininity manifest in this kind of content: Yes, because womanhood is expensive makeup and designer handbags because women be shopping lol. (bruh...the straights are not okay) The second image I get in my mind when I think of being a woman has to do with being a wife, mother, or dealing with some kind of struggle that a lot of women deal with (sexual assault, not being taken seriously, objectification, physical pain from things like birth or menstruation, being underestimated, issues in the work force because of having kids). Firstly, you can be a woman and decide that being a wife and a mother isn't for you. That doesn't make you any less of a woman. Secondly, I think it's depressing to conflate womanhood with being the victims of society's ills. I remember when i was doing some google searches on women talking about the moment they felt like woman and a sad amount of those responses dealt with things like sexual assault, getting cat called, being underestimated, or dealing with the struggles of parenthood alone because their man isn't as invested in the kids as they are. Don't get me wrong, these societal ills are experiences that ties a lot of women together, but I don't want to view womanhood only through the lens of pain and disempowerment because I feel like that further reinforces the patriarchial dynamic of women being in a subserviant position and it reinforces the narrative of "well that's just how things are." Upon further reflection, it's not so much that I feel like I'm rejecting my femininity rather I'm rejecting this sort of inauthentic performance around femininity and I'm deconstructing the narratives I've inherited around what it means to be woman so that I can hold space for nuance, and define it on my own terms. To me, womanhood isn’t earned through suffering, it isn’t a costume of Eurocentric elegance or perfection, it isn’t bound to domestic roles or external validation, and it isn’t limited to the aftermath of trauma. And I guess, since I'm so good at pointing out what womanhood is not, it's harder for me to pin down what it is and, as a result, I feel like I'm putting these amorphous standards on myself. And because the standards are amorphous, they don't feel like a huge pressure or anything, but more so a vibe of me just feeling like an awkward gremlin. I guess the other thing is that, as far as connotations go, "Girl" can feel more playful, free, or unformed while "Woman" can feel more serious, composed, or defined. And I think one of my problems is that I don't take myself seriously all that much. I think that enables me to be playful and light hearted, and there is a sense of resiliance and warmth that comes from that. Like I'm just little silly goose on the loose lol. But I recognize that this can become a problem, firstly in the sense that I'm most definitely an adult and I shouldn't infantilize myself as that can be an excuse to shirk responsibility, and secondly, I can be selling myself short and underestimate myself, especially in a professional setting which can lead to being mistreated and walked all over. I have a good chunk of coworkers right now who are around my age. And sometimes, I just feel like a kid amongst them. This is especially true when it comes to guys my age. And I've even caught myself feeling kind of incompetent next to them even though guys like R and N have been consistently underperforming and acting tf up, professionally and personally. What I'm trying to figure out is why am I feeling this way despite it not really having a basis in reality. I think it comes down to how I don't really take myself seriously. At work, I don't take my competence that seriously because I'm working at a basic office job and I'm just sending emails. What I do feels really basic and bare minimum tbh even if my boss is happy with my work and is hyping me up. I guess I downplay the work that I do because in the grand scheme of things, I know that office work is often over hyped in terms of skill and socioeconomics and riddled with false emergencies. I do not need to be having a panic attack at work. I'm saving files, not lives. I don't think that's an unhealthy manifestation of not taking work seriously. But I do think that I have this tendency of overestimating the people around me while underestimating myself. To an extent, the stuff my boss shared about R was a shocking. Again, And to be fair, the guy does have an air of confidence around him and part of that is valid because he is competent at his job. The other part of it is him being a delusional white man. Since I didn't know about his shenanigans, I thought that maybe he was being young and dumb. It's both our first corporate jobs and I can admit that I'm still trying to figure out how to socially navigate things and I can understand if he's trying to do the same. But turns out, he's also shady af and tries to weasel his way into higher positions and out of doing the actual work. I was not privy to any of this because I'm not really getting to know him like that. I'm just reacting to the facade. Apparently, R is the type to start acting up when someone is a gateway to something he wants and he gets agressive/ salty because he cannot take no for an answer (which also raises red flags in my head on how this may manifest in other areas of his life). I guess he was able to hide that tendency around me and my other coworkers because we cannot do anything for him in terms of upward mobility. But he did have this tendency to ignore my messages every time I had questions about something when I first got hired. I didn't think much of it. I just assumed he was busy because at the time, he had more responsibilities (or that he secretly hates me, which I don't mind because same). And then I stopped going to him. But apparently, he does that to everyone and he's still doing that despite not having much on his plate... so that's kind of sus. And he has a condescending attitude with some other coworkers (again, I didn't encounter this because typically I just keep my distance because he gave me bad vibes early on). But yeah, I think it's worth examining why I and I'm sure other people can look at R and think of him as particularly competent despite that not being the case while I'm sitting here doubting myself. There are a good amount of people in their mid to late 20s in middle management positions at this company. And it just feels kind of weird to me because I don't really see myself in that same lens of competency and because for a large chunk of time, I just thought that those people (in other teams and locations) were 30+ based on the vibe I got from them. Granted, I do think that everyone, including myself, has some kind of facade at work to maintain professionalism. And I guess, that I'm just comparing my bloopers and silly mistakes to everyone else's polished exteriors. I know that this tendency is common on social media when you're literally viewing someone's highlight reel but I think it's a social tendency that predates the internet. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I also think another area of my life where I don't take myself seriously is my sexuality. I think part of it is healthy in that I can acknowledge the awkwardness and silliness around sex and approach it in a lighthearted, authentic way that doesn't come off as intimidating or performative. Like, girl, I cannot put up a seductive, Jessica Rabbit-esq persona. I feel ridiculous doing that. I think part of it feels like such a caricature of a woman's sexuality from the eyes of a man that it feels silly to engage with it. But I think another part of it is that I don't see myself as someone who is sexually appealing. It's not that I think I'm ugly, it's that I think I just give off a very neutral vibe. I think it's difficult for me to see myself through that lens. I don't see myself as someone who is attractive in a serious sense. Another reason why I don't take myself seriously in a sexual sense is because of my current relationship with X. Again, it's very lighthearted, playful and silly, and that carries a sense of warmth to me that makes me feel like I can open up, emotionally or sexually, without pressure. I'm also VERY ticklish physically so a lot of things that would typically turn someone on just makes me laugh. In contrast, I have been reflecting on the fantasies that have been coming up with L. Compared to my current relationship, the fantasies are more deep, sensual, and traditionally romantic. I find myself thinking about the physical sensation how my face would warm up or how my hands would feel tingly and shaky around the slightest interaction around L years ago. I haven't felt like that about a person physically since. I imagine the physical sensation of running my fingers through his hair on his head but also on the rest of his body. I imagine getting all dressed up, going on a nice dinner with him, having a good conversation, and going home only to have him take everything off. And this feels weird to type out, but in those fantasies, I feel like a woman. It's weird because first of all, my view on womanhood isn't limitted to a sense of sexuality/ sensuality, and second of all, I have those elements in my current relationship sexually as well as the dates I go on with X. But I wouldn't say that my overall dynamic with X serious and traditionally romantic. Like, we're both like giant kids around each other. And I don't think that it's a coincidence that I'm having these fantasies around L especially since L is older by at least a decade. As for the relationship between womanhood and a sense of sensuality/sexuality, I think what differentiates it from girliness is that sense of seriousness as opposed to lighthearted whimsy. I also think that my fantasy of craving something or someone more stern/cold also comes from me craving this sense of seriousness as well. I feel a little awkward in taking myself seriously in life as a whole. I'm a little nervous about coming off as cringy or that I care too much about things that don't really matter. I don't want to have this sense of self-importance or ego that causes people to be a caricature of themselves because they take themselves too seriously. I guess I'm still trying to find this balance of taking myself seriously as an adult but not having that come at the cost of my sense of authenticity.
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  21. Yes. But the skill is declining. The early Zionist’s were far more intelligent and tactical than the current ones. The early Zionists managed to complete ethnic cleansing while increasing their international approval and doing smart deals with neighboring countries to get them on their sides. The current Zionists are attempting and failing (so far anyway) to complete an ethnic cleansing, while also losing international support, and even sabotaging relations with neighboring countries. Saudi Arabia was open to normalization but they refused to budge an inch and now Saudi got a deal with the US that was originally being saved for when they normalize. The Syrian government got toppled and replaced by someone who implied he wasn’t interested in conflicts with Israel and they responded by invading, now he risks his political future if he does a deal with them.
  22. Instant gratification is always going to err towards the low-brow, cheap and shallow because it takes time and effort to create something that is relatively deep and of high quality. Your never going to beat slop in quantity at least. High conscious stuff will most likely be more niche as well. You can get a very loyal following though if you ace your niche. Watching a multi hour spiritual video is ironically hardcore internet usage.
  23. @Raze and I already told you that Egypt and gulf states almost becoming pro Israel is the cunningness and skill of Israel. It is called geopolitics and soft politics. It is an example of divide and conquer. Where you see coincidences I see skill. Of course Muslims wouldn’t dare to destroy Israel because they know what awaits them if they do. Couple of decades it was different when Israel was weak and Arab states thought they had a chance to destroy it.
  24. Frank said ego is like the commentator on the path, claiming attainments, rareifying experiences, etc. That's literally me. Ups. Ready to die. Anyway.. Had one of the best dreams and worst dreams ever tonight. I think that's a sign of meditation working. Best dream was so good since I met an amazing girl and we were having fuuun
  25. chatting in discord , discussing about a topic you are intrested in is a high consious social media usage
  26. Is it really surprising to you someone would find it offensive you dismiss the contributions of billions of people to salivate over how cool Jews are for committing mass murder and ethnic cleansing of Palestinians, who have never even had an army? You’re not even praising the majority of Jewish contributions to science, literature, and art, which yes is disproportionately high, because most of it happens outside of Israel. You can even argue israel worsens it, as half of Jews live in Israel, but the majority of jews who won noble prizes were from the half outside of Israel. You’re specifically praising the most violent aspect as an example of superiority. And it isn’t true, historically Muslim populations had massive contributions to science, though in recent history it tapered for various economic and cultural reasons. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Science_in_the_medieval_Islamic_world If I posted about how cool and amazing it was a rag tag group of Gazans managed to bust out of a open aired prison where they are surveilled on every angle, capture bases of the strongest military in the Middle East and kill hundreds of soldiers and kidnap more, than continue fighting years later after their entire enclave is wiped out, you’d correctly say I’m glorifying war crimes and ignoring the suffering it caused Israeli civilians. Yet that’s a fraction of what israel has done, and you just talk about how cool it is and invent a narrative about how they’re working against all the odds taking on the world powers. That was never the case, they receive massive support from the US and the countries and populations they fought had undeveloped and small militaries and little help from the rest of the world.
  27. Ray Dalio feedback. On his X "Now that the budget bill has passed Congress, we can see what the projections look like for deficits, government debt, and debt service expenses. In brief, the bill is expected to lead to spending of about $7 trillion a year with inflows of about $5 trillion a year, so the debt, which is now about 6x of the money taken in, 100 percent of GDP, and about $230,000 per American family, will rise over ten years to about 7.5x the money taken in, 130 percent of GDP, and $425,000 per family. That will increase interest and principal payments on the debt from about $10 trillion ($1 trillion in interest, $9 trillion in principal) to about $18 trillion (of which $2 trillion is interest payments), which will lead to either a big squeezing out (and cutting off) of spending and/or unimaginable tax increases, or a lot of printing and devaluing of money and pushing interest rates to unattractively low levels. This printing and devaluing is not good for those holding bonds as a storehold of wealth, and what’s bad for bonds and US credit markets is bad for everyone because the US Treasury market is the backbone of all capital markets, which are the backbones of our economic and social conditions. Unless this path is soon rectified to bring the budget deficit from roughly 7% of GDP to about 3% by making adjustments to spending, taxes, and interest rates, big, painful disruptions will likely occur."
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