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  2. What kind of watch do you have?

    Rigel replied to r0ckyreed's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Who’s the first one here to let Elon penetrate and violate their mind with a computer to be able to tell the time just by thinking it?
  3. You live a wonderful life by developing your different talents as much as you can. Very seriously and deliberately, for a long time. I feel I'm yet to truly begin living my life myself.

  4. Having a stage blue shadow

    Jordan of the Shire replied to LordFall's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    This is stuff I'm working through too, in my own way. Cool to hear that you have, and/or are in the process of sorting them out.
  5. Just had a pretty big breakthrough Turns out I can self-publish a manga with Amazon Kindle Direct Publishing for about $4.50 per unit. I didn't realize it would be this low, that's pretty insane. The math turns out I can sell each volume of the manga for Canada: $14.99 CAD Profit = $4.45 CAD United States: $11.99 USD Profit = $3.79 USD Pretty damn good. My idea is to release release daily short form content as top of funnel, middle of funnel post manga chapters online on like Webtoon and GlobalComix and then bottom of funnel have people order the actual books and join my discord/actual site when I make one. This would be phase 1 of the release of the IP. Goal is to build the initial fanbase and test the cashflow model. Phase 1 will include the first 3 seasons of the Anime and the first 6 volumes of the manga. I didn't realize getting a manga printed was so cheap, that's really a game changer. Releasing 1 chapter a week that'll be about 8 chapters every 2 month and I wanna hit 8-10 chapters per volume. Starting to release them in October 2026 that will take 12 months to complete phase 1. At that point the goal will be to start recruiting a team to build the first game and to deliver a playable experience for the IP. I think starting with the manga makes a lot of sense for storytelling and getting the audience hooked then the playable experience and TCG will be the next steps of the IP to release in phase 2. The reel I posted today on the Instagram got 500 views so we're starting to get some traction! https://www.instagram.com/reel/DchccULJNwS/
  6. Holy shit: This is why we need to know her level of cognitive sophistication or whatever. It could answer if she's even capable of this fake. This seems like it would be a pretty sophisticated fake, so if she or her husband isn't cognitively capable of that, then I'd learn her way, I think.
  7. This is my first souls game, I heard good reviews about it and I finally got it for switch 2. I’m right now on chapter 6, I understand now why many people LOVE this genre. It’s hard ok I knew that but the beauty of meeting an enemy and not just smash buttons like crazy, you gotta use your big brain, it’s like the sports fencing. It has some Bioshock vibes because of the oldschool environment, music and “steampunkness”, I’m loving it so far. Now I want to play previous souls games. Lies of P is not from FromSoftware but according to reviewers it nails the style and beyond, some say it’s better than dark souls. Once I finish I was gonna play Dark Souls Remastered but it’s the switch 1 version so it’s 30fps, I think for these type of games it’s necessary to be 60 because of how precise you have to be. Elden Ring will release this Friday so I might go straight to that. Once I get a more powerful console imma replay this game, it’s quite unique and beautiful, feels like art. The game is based of the novel of Pinocchio.
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  9. Having a stage blue shadow

    Jordan of the Shire replied to LordFall's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    I like this @Natasha Tori Maru I find your introspection balanced with everyday life. The things you have to do expand beyond taking care of yourself of a small group of people. You're working with many moving parts that can change and you're not totally in control of everything. Great training for sorting through the internal contractions. @LordFall brother, I know this may seem unconventional, but, to release anything and make space for a new pattern, there is no need to intellectualize, or even feel the emotion. Both, without proper release mechanisms can spin out and become self perpetuating, draining energy, and not gaining the outcome. Natasha has a good process for feeling through emotions, understanding them to release, you have a good process for breaking things down intellectually. I feel I am weak in both those areas, and I am going to be working on them. How I tend to approach things is through the body. Rather than through emotion or logic, I try to open the body physically with different asanas, I then rest the mind in the lower dan tian and release, this pulses energy through to my feet, hands, head, everywhere pretty much, and overtime it purges pathogenic information. As this clears up, the awareness and the thoughts become distinguishable as seperate and then the practice moves to releasing the awareness itself. I don't have to go into stories, emotions, or logically break things down, and I can still release, transcend, and include. I can still use Natasha's prompt for analyzing the experience, but my approach for analyzing the experience will be using the awareness to see space within the emotion, story, thought, etc. The prompts help me unravel what might be subconscious. Then I can use this particular skill set to deal with the underlying binding. Once you apply a label, and start to guess where things come from, then you move further from release. This is the insight of the training - that at the center of it is a tangibly felt somatic contraction which can take place on any of the layers of our being. When you see the contraction and soften awareness towards it, then the mind see's space. This space has a contageous affect on the mind, and what happens is release. The release creates pleasure, and by abiding in this pleasure, you release the negative, and reinforce the positive. This is called a cycle of release.
  10. @kavaris I was just joking. . You have to admit though; you're on a whole other plane here..
  11. But then again, if it was premeditated, you would think she would have faked command hallucinations more than just in that 20-min window. Most people don't drop a con before it's been bought. If it was planned, she probably would have looked into what the standard pattern looked like, you'd think. So, this is something to consider. Why didn't she just fake the commands later so that they would be consistent with the pattern? Also, I'm assuming there was no digital evidence hinting at premeditation. If no, that cuts further in her favor. I'd like to know what her knowledge of schizophrenia was prior to the act.
  12. Sorry I read your post 3 times but I am not getting what are you actually talking about? Are you talking about paid sex services ?
  13. I just wonder if a certain combo of meds could have produced her particular claimed psychosis. I'm just trying to steelman her position. Either way though, that evidence you highlighted earlier regarding the voices only appearing during that 20 minute window is too suspicious for me to not lean towards lucid intent. Given that, I'm not sure if there's any evidence at all that could be presented to make me lean the other way. It's just too suspicious.
  14. Schizophrenic patients
  15. Yeah you are probably right, but I just don't want to change hahhaa
  16. It’s quite profound, actually.
  17. Exactly! That´s what I do! I want the entire dance floor see my member turned on by a girl I like! Thank you for support dude!!!
  18. The situation gets even more insane when you realize you are her. I dont think anyone should go to prison, I think getting true and proper help is whats needed. No matter how long someone sits in a cell it doesnt erase what happened. But some people are so far gone that sitting in that cell is the last resort of help they can get.
  19. Seems like it was from an avalance or a glacier melting? Seems pretty wild, some 2012 movie apocalypse shit

  20. Having a stage blue shadow

    Natasha Tori Maru replied to LordFall's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Based on this and your other responses (caveat being, this is just speculation from my end as I cannot know your true inner experience, meaning and thoughts/feelings) - the biggest block that jumps out is you could be trying to understand your way out of having to feel. The answer I provided was pretty overwhelmingly phenomenological / emotional (identify feeling, notice resistance, isolate narratives that suppress emotion). You didn't go there in your response - you pivoted to "what is the psychological mechanism? what frame explains my execution problem?". Explaining could actually BE the block. AI use might be part of the block too (more explaining). NB I used to semi-suffer from this block also - explaining/rationalising everything. Control jumps out at me too. Less of "I dislike monotonous tasks" and more the entailed resentment of "I have to be subordinate to reality itself". You also very astutely realise you need to integrate blue - but there is a subtle cognitive dissonance (or contradiction) as much of your reasoning is decidedly anti-blue (intp, most things bore me, motivation with monotonous tasks, arguing on a forum over DMing clients etc). Honestly - I think your intelligence has become extremely effective at negotiating around an emotional constraint What do I experience internally in the 30 seconds immediately before I avoid the task? List the emotion, body sensation, thoughts, what the task says about you, what happens if you execute it poorly? - what about if you ace it? What resentment appears - what does sitting with this boring process mean about who I am? What am I protecting myself from experiencing here? This is almost like SITTING with the boredom and monotony, but actually going into it and analysing it. Which is part of the blue integration. I sound so funny to myself with all of this emotional, feeling and semantic shit. I used to resist this stuff. But it has unlocked insane authentic growth where I just engage in process with very little resistance. I would have laughed at you if you told me to do these things 2 years ago.
  21. Looool you got me But fr this is what my wrist looks like with all the watches I own on it:
  22. Today
  23. When I think of extroversion, I think partially obviously in Big 5 "social" terms, but also partially in Jungian functions terms: somebody who wants to experience everything "external", be it social (Fe) or purely sensory (Se). But intuition also becomes a means of experiencing, of driving exploration of those things. Even if extreme intuition tends to drive you inwards, intuition can fuel and amplify your exploration of the external. "Oh this song connects abstractly to this other song, let's listen to it". That's a lot of what made me explore more bands at one point, because I got interested in the interconnection of genres, their history, how one lead to the other. For example, I had always listened to metal music, and then I got curious about what created metal music, so I started exploring hard rock (Led Zeppelin, Deep Purple, Queen, Rainbow, etc.). And it was in fact partially prompted by me meeting the super extroverted guy and also another guy who also listened to a lot of music (both of them listened to the same stuff as me, and so much more, and I was like "hmm, maybe I'm missing out?").

  24. What kind of watch do you have?

    Yimpa replied to r0ckyreed's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

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  25. I'm still trying to get a loan on the car. Come on I ain't Bezos
  26. My ex had schizophrenia. Regularly experienced command hallucinations. They actually started when I was with him. I remember when they had just begun - he would grab my arm and say "can you hear that sound like a kids voice?" as the water from the sink drained. They started as sounds within sounds. He would constantly be looking for the voices inside other sounds - then one day the voices appeared to him separate from the other sounds. They jumped out. He always stopped, listened to them, then told me what they said. For a good chuck he knew they weren't real - especially as he often asked me about them. I was definitely his anchor to reality for a bit. One day he spontaneously started to listen and follow them. I got home to all the windows sealed shut, sheets and nails covering any window or door with a vision panel... Shadow people outside apparently. We got him help and medication soon after. Just thought I would share what I saw of auditory hallucinations. Genuinely seemed he was aware they were disembodied voices - but there was a change where he didn't trust them as telling then truth - then he did trust them. He felt they were like guardians (he knew they weren't coming from a real source ever since they "separated" from other sounds). But he also said confusing things like he thought they were real.

  27. Does THC increase or decrease consciousness?

    Yimpa replied to ZeldaStar's topic in Psychedelics

    It is wise not to draw conclusions from one session alone. Take another draw when you are ready.
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