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Yep I think they will remove him as a CEO but who will fill his shoes? Not sure. Maybe he will lay low and pop back up
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You can also have an awakening to physicality. Did you know that? Lots of spiritual people aren't aware of the truthful existence of physicality. You can awaken to the illusion of physicality just as you can awaken to the TRUTH of physicality. The other day I was having an awakening to physicality. I'm naturally just more interested in spiritual shit, because I hate physicality. But the other day I was lying in bed crying over the seriousness of physical existence. It was sinking in that I have a physical body. It's here. I'm here. Physically incarnated. This is happening.
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I can see quite some aspects of my experiences in your post. Back in the day i withdrew and self medicated with alcohol,... Recently I tried to be excellent and get the respect from others this way. At other times I split of groups of people, because I could not handle being around them, I was too agitated. In essence, I hate my incompetent, handicapped mind when it comes to interact with my peers. I have the need to socialize, but it is such a strain at the same time. Maybe I should take more breaks from others, with the risk of getting antisocial and pushing people away. That may lead to the strengthening of my psychological scheme and to missed opportunities for learning.
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I consider anti-anxiety meds. Empirically sedatives helped me the best. Maybe Buspirone. Stimulants make me too eccentric, especially if taken regularly. Although I dislike taking drugs that change my brain chemistry for longer periods of time.
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Natasha Tori Maru replied to Rafael Thundercat's topic in Off-Topic: Pop-Culture, Entertainment, Fun
The series was harrowing. I enjoyed season 1 - but I disliked how they made Jane a "Mary Sue" type character in the later seasons. The concept was great for the first season. I haven't read the novel, but it is on my list. Many people I know couldn't watch the series due to how confrontation it was - EG rape, autonomy removal etc. -
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Natasha Tori Maru replied to Seed's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events
What did you think? I'm going to take a look this weekend. -
Yup
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oOo replied to Nercohype's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Ziran, your example of a forgotten duty helped me see where we agree. I agree a promise stands regardless of my feelings, and I still think emotion plays a part when I experience that promise as binding. If you turn down another lift because I offered to collect you, a duty that began with my own choice has become something you have good reason to count on. I see why comradeship enters your reading of Hearst, though the threats she described make me as cautious about inferring what she felt she owed her captors as I would be about inferring a soldier’s motives from service. Agreed, if the lift slips my mind entirely, you’re still waiting where I promised to meet you. What I mean by honour is the regard I have for someone’s trust, which can move me to keep their confidence even when a superior orders me to betray it. I follow your distinction, though I can usually say which motive prevailed with more confidence than I can say it was the only motive present. I follow you on love and fear as different reasons for keeping the same promise, and I’d leave room for both to move the same person at once. Frightened teammates pursuing victory bring several parts of your list together in one act, with fear as their feeling, victory their aim and teamwork how they pursue it. When you remember a promise, before you decide what to do, does the quiet recognition I gave my word carry the whole sense of obligation for you? If I dread telling a painful truth and expect no relief afterwards, what would let me recognise pleasure in that decision apart from the fact that I chose to speak? I recognise the instant when something clicks, and I trust that insight more when I can retrace it afterwards and see whether the connection holds. An expansionist might despise the people harmed yet revere the mission, while a dissenter who rejects the mission and describes feeling bound without drawing on respect would give me reason to drop respect as a requirement. -
Natasha Tori Maru replied to Seed's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events
Has anyone seen Russell Brand: In Plain Sight (2023)? It was a channel 4 investigation which examined allegations of rape and sexual assault by multiple women. Includes testimony from people who worked with Brand and investigated his behaviour. This was from 3 years back. He didn't sue for libel over this investigation from what I can find. -
Things can be simultaneously true and untrue (paradox). Take physical reality for example. We all feel it, yet there's nothing actually "real" about it. It can be "let-go of" and inhabited by us at the same time. Another one I told my college roommate five years ago was there is not such thing as free will. He was at the stove cooking an omelette. He got this serious/pissy look on his face and threw the greasy spatula onto the ground, exclaiming "Look, free will!" I started laughing hysterically because all he did was have an unconscious emotional reaction — nothing about it was willed. And yet, will does exist because how and why was this reality created?! What could do such a thing, and how?
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how corrupt to the bones everyone is.
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The popping ain’t stopping. The burst got worse. Chips, hips and stock dips
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God and Goddess There was an Ayahuasca ceremony that I participated in, where an experience that I had was almost completely forgotten. I believe the ceremony in question was the one that I had in 2023. But it could have easily been the one that I did in 2020. But I had COMPLETELY forgotten about what I experienced in this journey until about 6 months ago, when the memory arose in my consciousness. And I was VERY surprised that I had forgotten in with the vividness of the memory and how profound it felt. But somehow this memory got repressed. And I will do my best to describe it to you here. I remember it very well... but I don’t know if language will do it justice. In this journey experience, my consciousness was God’s consciousness but Emerald’s consciousness also existed within God’s consciousness. So, I was both separate from God and one with God simultaneously. And there was a bright white space with beautiful geometric shapes. It was heavenly... but it was a combination of heavenly and hellish realities. And within each shape in this beautiful white and pastel fractal contained a reality that was either positive, negative, or both. And God’s consciousness took in everything and embraced both negative and positive... and in doing so, alchemized the many hells into heavens. But it didn’t eradicate hells. There were still hells in this heavenly mixture. It seemed to have some kind of “calculation” for why it healed some hells and left others to exist in the heavenly geometric soup. And God’s consciousness took this in effortlessly. But the Emerald consciousness felt overwhelmed to be privy to this level of holiness. God’s consciousness then zoomed into one of Emerald’s Hells. And it was like a stagnant house that a lonely isolated old woman would live in. And the walls were thick and the energy in the house was deadened and depressing. The world was small and was shut into this small lifeless house with thick white walls... and very bored, depressed, and lonely. And I recognized this energy as one that is always with me... making my life heavy and shutting me into myself and causing me to withdraw from other people. And there were so many thick white walls, such that there’s a huge barrier between myself and the night sky. I eventually (upon remembering this house when speaking to one of my clients about their agoraphobia), I came to refer to this house as a “biblically accurate house”... as it felt like there were so many more walls than what made sense to have (like biblically accurate angels have so many eyes and wings). And God “processed” this stagnant walled-in depressed hell of mine... and immediately healed a significant portion of this heal and transmuted it out of the hell-state. And this house existed within one small geometric pattern within God’s consciousness in the heavenly geometric soup. So, the heavenly geometric soup of God’s consciousness was non-dual in the sense that it included everything... and it was heavenly because it was home to both heavenly shapes and hellish shapes. And from that angle of exploring this pastel geometric heavenly space, there was nothing but absolute Heaven, as nothing was excluded. Then, when I/God zoomed into the relative hell of the biblically accurate house, things were dualistic... and there was good and bad... and preferred and non-preferred. And it was clear that part of me was perpetually shut into this biblically accurate house... like a shut in old woman. Then, the Emerald perspective in combination with God’s perspective shifted to a different angle of the heavenly soup, where the dualistic reality was revealed. It was just a shift in perspective... like the sculptures where you look from one angle and the shadow is like a bird or a bicycle or something... but if you change the angle it reveals that it’s actually a pile of other objects. It’s like that... but in reverse. From the God-consciousenss/heavenly soup perspective... it’s a bunch of geometric shapes. But if you shift to a different angle, another more dualistic form-based reality gets revealed. And instead of geometric shapes, a world was revealed on the other side of the coin to the heavenly geometric soup reality of God’s consciousness... and the biblically accurate house was just one small piece of that. But in this shift to the reality of form... and more Feminine dualistic reality was revealed. And God’s consciousness and my own were distinct but part of the same thing. Like, my consciousness was a fingernail on the hand of God. And I sat crossed-legged in the space... as Emerald the regular person having a medicine journey. But I also sat there as a Goddess presiding over the world. And the space around me was like I was taking in the entire world, on some level. And I sat there in a state of sovereignty and recognized my connection with all of the world. I’m unsure if this is when this insight arose. But at some point, I had an insight arise that I was Mother Nature... and my historically poor relationship with my body was happening because humanity has such a difficult relationship with the Earth. But the bigger insight was that humanity was having a difficult relationship with the Earth BECAUSE I have historically had a difficult relationship with my body. So, it gave me this “inside out” solipsistic understanding of the issues that humanity has with the Feminine... and it showed me that (on some dimension of reality) there was a direct connection between what “human Emerald” does and what this “Goddess/Mother Nature version of me” does on some other plane of reality and what happens with humanity’s relationship with the Feminine... including Mother Nature. But in this angle of the heavenly soup, I sat there just existing in a state of sovereignty and grace... presiding over dualistic reality itself. This isn’t the only time such a Goddess figure was revealed to me in my journeys as seemingly some higher dimensional aspect of my human consciousness... or acting as an intermediary dualistic form between Human Emerald and pure God consciousness. Two other times, there was a purple/blue skinned goddess-like figure with long slender arms and clothing and jewelry that looked like sacred geometry that was revealed to me in a journey. Ultimately, because my path is more of a path of embodiment, I see this Goddess embodiment as a reflection of what I’m trying to embody in my more Earthly ordinary human form... and to connect to the sovereign perspective at the foundation of my being. But in these glimpses of the higher dimensional Goddess aspect, the key qualities that this aspect of myself possesses that Human Emerald struggles to embody are qualities like grace, ease, sovereignty, unshakable validity, groundedness in being, effortless expression, softness, measured power, un-disturbability, and a kind of trust and smoothness that Human Emerald’s anxiety leaves her “pressing too hard on the pencil when I write.” To give a similar analogy... let’s say that my natural expression is one that’s soft and requires a subtle and tensionless reverberation through the vocal chords. And if I can manage that subtlety, the sound is profound. But because I don’t trust and tense up... and try so hard... there is too much pressure on the vocal chords to properly reverberate. They become like a muted guitar string that cannot vibrate properly. So, I have to put forth a lot of force and effort to express myself. But the soft signal coming from this Goddess aspect gets muddled out... and a garbled strained sound comes through instead. Ultimately, this journey and other journeys where this component of myself is revealed reveals to me a kind of effortless sovereignty and soft graceful authority. But my filters and tension/trying and struggles with trust/faith hold it back from expression. It is my hope that I will eventually learn to embody the qualities that are revealed to me in these journeys. I will speak more about this in future writings... specifically one where I spoke for the first and only time with my real voice... and this Goddess at the foundation of my being-ness got expression through my ordinary human form that was subtle, effortless, graceful, and very down-to-Earth.
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This is crazy! I have found that when you ask people about Gay/Lesbian LGBQ acceptance they are all for it and really open. Reasonable. Act like it is nothing shocking - IF - they haven't formed up an idea or concept of who you are as a person. If they have formed an opinion/concept of you already, and have some established history in their mind, it is often filled with assumptions. When you counter the pre-conceived idea or projection of who you are in someone's mind... it temporarily leaves them in a state of confusion as their concept of your truth doesn't marry up with the reality. They literally trip over the gap between idea of you, and who you really are! They go into shock. As long as they are able to reconcile the two; reality/concept - they seem to get over it. When they cannot, it can really reveal an unconscious prejudice! ____ To answer OP: morality is an illusion/construct. Social domain is a construct (not real). Good and bad are relative and not objective. The self is an illusion. Free will is largely an illusion... These four didn't go down so well at a family dinner a couple of months back. The free will one had my brother bashing his hands on the table I am banned from philosophy conversations. That side of the family are Christians - so this was probably... extra
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Please investigate and experiment on constant Christianity. I'm getting strange smells and fire and burning from constant Christianity. Please investigate it. It's dangerous and the public does not know.
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Wilhelm44 replied to Loveeee's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
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I really like what they did here, great re-imagining of probably my favourite tune in the original other than the shadow temple (not got there in the remake yet).
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VeganAwake replied to Asayake's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Liberation is when the needy self illusion that wants reality to be a certain way, dies! It doesn't actually die though because it's not actually real, it's just recognized as having never been real. It's recognizing there was never anyone imprisoned to begin with. -
I’ve been gone from this forum for quite a few years and wow, has life taken off. I took leo’s life purpose course seriously in 2021 and started taking action right away. I went from nothing but a vision and a rough background, never having done anything in my life related to my passions, to having taught art classes to addicts/homeless/people with mental health problems. I have painted multiple large murals for local businesses across my city and have began forming connections and even stronger direction in life. As well as even getting a short segment on my local news station. This has made me happier healthier and a better father. Thanks a ton Leo! The first video is two clips to show how deep of a transformation is possible when you take action. The first clip was from 2011, the second clip was from 2025. Same news station, same person, different life. The other videos are some of my murals if interested.
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VeganAwake replied to Asayake's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
What's being said is ruminating about being sick, horror feelings, thinking you are millionaire, feeling closed and sad...........is freedom disguised as something other. The apparent issue is: The self illusion wants reality/freedom to be in accordance with its beliefs about what that should be/feel like. Liberation isn't just rainbows and unicorns..........it's everything.......it's all inclusive........it excludes nothing. -
My favourite example of relatively modern RPG storytelling is Pathologic 2. Beautifully meta plot & the writing is brimming with personality.
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Disliking JRPG's is totally fair, there's a lot to dislike in them, beyond even the gameplay mechanics. I love Japan, go there for 3 months a year, am making a seinen manga inspired visual novel and can speak Japanese, and even I find most anime style stuff in anything pretty cringey. Also, Japanese stories can often feel fairly formulaic, how many Japanese, or Japanese inspired games end with killing God? Once you notice that trope it gets very tiresome, despite how intricate the plots are in FF there are a lot of painfully similar plots that are flavoured differently. 6 has the best story and since it's a 2D game with no voice acting, it's much less annoying than the hyper-anime feeling games from X onwards Speaking of anime, the Zelda remake has some super cheesy, OTT, low-budget sounding anime voice acting which is the very worst addition to the game. It is crazy how a game this important and revered has such a bad VA cast, when Studio Ghibli movies and certain exceptional anime series have brilliant dubbing.
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