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  2. You’re being pathetic. How are you going to tell if the photo posted is the real person they’re showing you, it could be a fake, how the hell would you know, do you just blindly believe only what you want to believe? What do you want from this forum, exactly?
  3. I like this video and it's parralels to ancient myths and real historical events
  4. Watching this next then reflecting on my own life again a bit, so I get this done, I am more involved with Wilber and some other courses, I find some of the blog post relatively obvious, to what I experienced, and what I did, I never had the luxury to be seen as pure intellectual left liberal, it's often a mix of various biases, while I do a certain amount of practical work, what is missing at times is recovery & fun, that has been missing the most the recent years, as well as the core issue of bias in this post-modern way, were they are not involved anymore in being a bit more conservative and practically supportive, as I had with the chinese friend of mine, who was way more involved in my personal life for practical reasons, but some issues came up with lies & confusion about political opinions and the mass-simulcrum of negative echo-chambers of the online world, calling Xi-Jing Ping kindergarden president, and some information that had no basis or evidence, when I checked Wiki it showed the exact opposite, it created this conservative goes survival for bolshevistic tendencies, and modernists underestimating the complexity and outsourcing interesting projects, to just sitting there and not doing anything meaningful besides reading code bases etc. I stop here. I watch the video above first.
  5. in conflict with your own self: https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbbA9XmOXVL
  6. I finished watching the video, I was sort of immersed doing both, getting intellectual capital from a university and working as a working student and doing voluntary projects in order to gain practical experience, my core issue is both are sort of enmeshed into each other, the more I work on the practical things and projects, or just even courses the practical knowledge comes in, and I don't demonize it I have an issue with people forcing me to generate income for them, while enforcing the expertise I am the worst at, creating user interface instead of working on the logic and backend, I visited sights where the people who worked in factories worked hands-on, and meet with plenty of partners, but in the end the time for coding was to short and the type of planning with sprints required an overhaul, where a lot of book smarts from what I did at home, as to be brought and presented as ideas in order to bring a level of change into an organisation to make it not only profit based, and the profit based capitalism sort of sucked the soul out of me to some extend. I'll watch the other video, in retrospect I did get some experience practically not as deeply as I wanted to, but some of it is definitely good.
  7. It is important for me to know who I am dealing with,
  8. I don’t care enough about you to show you my picture. It’s not personal. I just don’t allow people to command I do something just so they can fantasise over an image believing they know that person, and then say unless you see a person’s image then you don’t trust them. Okay, that’s fine by me, I couldn’t give a flying saucer. You’re still not having my image, so you can demand it all you like, it’s not going to happen. You should have paid attention the first time I posted it, you’ve missed the boat now.
  9. Yeah. That's it lol.
  10. The dating sub forum
  11. Show me your picture. Who is saying these things to me? You won't do that.
  12. Hey @Leo Gura, curious if you have any classic YouTube videos planned soon. I like the short form content you've been doing recently but I honestly feel like you are at your best when its a long-form deep dive on a topic. Curious if you plan on making one soon. I'm sure others are curious too. Thanks!
  13. Yes, I only know what I’m sure of, and that is that I am conscious, even though I don’t know how or what this knowing is. Just that it is.
  14. Today
  15. Zen is about the East-Asian distrust of Western, Indian, and Middle Eastern metaphysics.
  16. But that doesn’t stop you coming to this forum not knowing who you are speaking to or writing to. Who is interacting with who here? All you keep repeating is that I don’t know you I don’t know you I don’t know I don’t know you. How many more times are you going to say you don’t know?
  17. Maybe I'm getting stuck on language . But if someone uses words I consider vague, as Zen people are apt to do, I become suspicious . Words like "Suchness" "Oneness" etc don't satisfy me the way that God does, this could reflect either a difference in depth of understanding or simply a difference in language . Nevertheless I find myself drawn to it because it's challenging my ideas of what awakening means .
  18. This forum is really somewhat of a mystery because many members on here choose to be 100% anonymous. You don't always know who is who.
  19. Do you believe you can know a person by looking face? If I show you my face, will that mean to you that you’ll know me?
  20. I don't even know who I am speaking to or writing to here.
  21. Contemplating a few things of the past, before I start putting in some work, and the core issue of me being social and getting a gf, investing having studied economics in high school, and the issue of experience and exposure, what I learned is the following. I really have to upgrade my level of security as soon, as I get more income, instead of just inheritance + working student and benefits from the state, as I realized how vulnerable certain systems can be, and I made the mistake to network to openly, instead of taking a bit more care of security and diving deeper into that, the core issue was the whole complexity of it and working in I.T, often feeling like you're 10 steps ahead while in reality, you're working out the 10 steps ahead in order to secure knowledge and stability, my core points of becoming and getting more value in dating was health, but with all the setbacks and the recovery and the types of work that I did, it's a gruesome process, and often times, I am more involved with the personal story of mine, and getting away from people who have no expertise, or degree in a field, and are just open in the world, this has not served me as a layer of security, as I am often involved in projects and topics that require higher levels of thinking or just the awareness of it, as it creates the most visible income for a business or requires a level and layer of expertise in tech, and I feel more at home, doing deeper more cognitive demanding types of work, not sales etc. I also was quite frankly more focused on working out, studying and going to retreats then getting laid and online-game and friends, they sort of meshed into each other for some reason I don't quite understand as of now, the physical exercises and the health I felt naturally let me gravitate towards more social and extroverted places, but I neglected the studying in the recent years, especially upgrading my knowledge, as I see some issues with the community and generally communities etc. https://www.actualized.org/insights/michael-oakeshott I am watching this and replying on this, while playing some game on the side, then doing some data science work and reading again.
  22. I posted a picture of myself on Phils forum, and then once on this forum for two days, but chose to remove it. You spoke to me a few times on Phils forum where I clearly had my photo of myself showing, did you not see it? If you’re that obsessed with peoples faces, then you’ll already know what I look like. Don’t you remember my photo, or did you not even bother to look at it, or maybe you’ve just forgotten, I don’t know, you’ll have to confirm that with me.
  23. But don't leave us hanging, show us a photo of yourself for once. I have no clue who you are.
  24. I'm sure you are.
  25. Im relieved to hear that.
  26. Show me a picture of who you are.
  27. self-bias
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