Xstream

Showing all content.

This stream auto-updates   

  1. Past hour

  2. I Interviewed Natasha Mod. Enjoy

    Natasha Tori Maru replied to Vido's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Thank you, this is very kind of you to say Japenese - my dad is half Japanese from his mothers side. I have an 8bitdo Pro 2 that needs some exersize You might have to interview. That is a lot of pressure to pass on to @Vido. He is a busy man - but very professional, warm and engaging. I'm cooking up to that stage. Pushing into 40's now - the wrinkly old wise women is hopefully in my future! Thanks a bunch
  3. Dolan always has the most interesting perspective. You can tell he's super experienced in the field and isn't as lost in the fantasy-sauce like a lot of the talking heads.

  4. What is depression meta-physically?

    Natasha Tori Maru replied to Vynce's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Is this actually your experience of depression? Or is this the state that precedes it? I ask because it seems to be describing a state of confusion, or uncertainty, followed by frustration at ones inability to make sense of a situation. Then proceeding into self flagellation through judgement of the self as "inadequate". That is a lot of additional transitory states that don't necessarily describe depression - but could very well be your trigger into it! You also describe "spoiled" experience - perhaps this is disappointment? A feeling of being let down. All of these states, feelings and thoughts can lead to depression - assuredly. Correct me if I am wrong. Trying to un-compress what may (or may not) be going on. Typically in states of unrest we have trouble detangling all the different parts of the big charged emotional soup. In fact, most people (men more often) are unable to make finer distinctions in this way. There are many emotions, feelings and thoughts happening. All unique. But they tend to get felt as one big soup of "angry", "happy" or "sad".
  5. Combining spiral dynamics plus the ego development model that Leo shared a couple of years ago helps.
  6. never heard this take on ACIM before, are you sure about this?
  7. You think infinite consciousness is so limited?
  8. I agree. The science shows that most people are ambiverts very close to the 50/50 level of introversion to extravertion
  9. Interesting
  10. With all due respect when will you admit you might be wrong on this one? Literally no teacher, mystic or consciousness Titan is in agreement with solopsism in the definition that others are not conscious and the way of framing it is unfalsifiable, how do YOU know that you’re not just firewalled into your own consciousness and don’t have access to other minds? Why can't multiple consciousnesses exist at once and just be closed off from each other?
  11. Yes, it's a problem inherent to this work. The only solution is to have deep direct experiences of God.
  12. Good post. I find the difference between teachers like Ralston and Leo is what they will speak about. Leo has helped to give me a framework/map of what's possible and i actually appreciate that he "gives all the answers", but Ralston, who i've worked with directly for a while now and read all his books, really rips you down to the bare bones of your direct experience. And this has led me to what i would call genuine awakening, otherwise i was lost in concepts and beliefs about the truth and there is a difference there. Ralstons approach is quite unique, it takes longer and is less comforting, but is extremely powerful and makes it "yours". In the end though, even he needs to go, there should be no authority outside your consciousness when it comes to Truth. I agree with you about psychedelics, personally i think they are garbage for serious consciousness work, life is already the psychedelic and to me they are cheap glimpses that are sometimes even innacurate. I don't think solopsism is the case, if you mean it in the sense that others are not having a conscious expereince, i think that is delusional
  13. Fuck. You know what? I deliberately engage in a much more watered down, benign, neutral rhetoric when engaging in political talk with my family. They are so fucked up, no amount of care bare "trying not to push buttons" neutral rhetoric will work. It is just INSTANTANIOUS rage at someone else not coming to the same conclusions they do. I wish it worked like you propose Political talk is blacklisted as a topic. Two prominent members of my family are anti-feminism (like "we don't need bank accounts" mode), anti-vaxx (meanwhile INJECTING PEPTIDES which are RESEARCH CHEMICALS), conspiracy theory, MAGA lovers (and we are Australian!!!). I immediately walk out and leave the event if these topics come up. Mostly because I feel a sense of disgust I am genetically similar to these morons! Perhaps the single worst discussion ever revolved around animals not being sentient. It came out that my cousin was putting his cat in the dryer for (only one or two seconds!) to discipline it. I slapped him and walked out - and I was told I was being judgemental.
  14. I often wonder what percentage of people on the forum believe they understand God but conform to Leo's experience as a higher authority. Taking it on as truth without direct experience because, after listening or reading what Leo has to say for hundreds of hours, it "just makes sense" Then they start to see the world in a similar light to Leo, without ever getting there themselves. Note: I am not the exception I bring this up because although I have had enlightenment experiences and awakenings, including a solipsism awakening (I am happy to dive into what chain of events led to all of that, but that's not the main point of this post), I have NEVER taken a psychedelic. I don't know how much deeper there is to go, but another part of me feels as though I don't need to go any deeper. I know Peter Ralston does not use psychedelics. I don't follow his work deeply atm. I will dive into him deeper, but I feel as though I have had more of a Ralston experience so far, rather than what Leo talks about specifically. However, through my own experience combined with Leo's information, it's as though my perspective on things leans more towards Leo than purely how Ralston sees things. I don't see Leo as the ultimate Authority of my mind, but I can't help but admire his commitment to this path and all of the deep information he shares in contrast to others. What amount of this is conforming vs. contemplation and direct experience? I guess only I am to know. However, if I had a true God awakening, then I don't think I would occasionally put myself under such doubt... but then again, maybe this doubt is healthy. Maybe I only doubt because I take Leo seriously, so I would like to experience 5meo to see what that is like, vs. what I have had... It's like everything in me is saying, "You get it :)" because I really feel as though I do... but then a little voice says, "Do you really?"
  15. God means that you are hallucinating Reality. Stop overcomplicating that. It is simple and clear.
  16. Today
  17. It's not that I can't, it's just that it is meaningless to me. Can you jerk off a horse? Sure. But it isn't meaningful to you, so you don't wanna do it. Extroverts find small-talk meaningful and enjoyable. Introverts do not because we have better things to do.
  18. There are just some words ("God" is another) that it seems cogent to draw the line on when you're teaching people who have no clue (which is often the case on this forum) and which generally seem less useful overall (I never felt the need to use "solipsism"; I always used the word Oneness). Again, the only reason people use the word in here to this extent is because Leo made a video on it, there was no mentioning of the word in relationship to non-duality anywhere near the same extent before that video. If it really was that useful for describing non-duality, you would've expected consensus among other teachers and you would've probably already heard about it. That Leo presented it as some idiosyncratic and radical thing ("Absolute Solipsism ooooo") is partially true because it is that, but not because it's revolutionary or deep, but because it's generally seen as a blunder of teaching and teachers refrain from it for that reason. To be clear, I have no problem mentioning the word solipsism as a passing remark if I'm talking to somebody who understands (or is likely capable of understanding) the difference between Cosmic solipsism and ego-solipsism and I'm making it clear in that very sentence that this distinction is important. But in cases such as this forum, where people don't seem to know the difference and they regularly do not explictly mention the importance of such a distinction as they're talking about it, you're just practicing autism and not being aware of how you're relating to the environment you're trying to interact with, just spewing personally significant word salad that has no significance to anybody else. It's of course dependent on your level of taste for clarity and empathy to the people you're engaging with where exactly you want to draw the line; if you simply dont care as much about those things, maybe you will go through the hassle of using words that people scratch their heads over again and again and you will take your time to unpack it and bang your head into the wall because "those people" are supposedly so dense. It's just that what I've seen of threads on the subject, and I will again mention the particularly enchanting example of "solipsism debunks veganism", I feel that's a boundary you just are much better off setting than honoring that one word that's in your vocabulary every time it enters your mind. It's like if somebody beats you once, twice, three times, where do you draw the boundary and call the cops? Up to you.

  19. What is some music you like?

    Joshe replied to itsadistraction's topic in Off-Topic: Pop-Culture, Entertainment, Fun

  20. What is some music you like?

    Joshe replied to itsadistraction's topic in Off-Topic: Pop-Culture, Entertainment, Fun

  21. Yeah, it takes some getting used to. And it's easy for things to spiral out of control.
  22. Jesus. I feel your pain. Luckily, my mom is apolitical but leans conservative. If she was a Rush or Beck fan, that would not be good for me, lol. A few of my family members were tuned into Fox News heavily during the Trump era, so they got all swept up. It was difficult spending time with them during that. I'd walk into their house with Fox News blaring and the whole time I'm just like wtf. They'd have Trump coasters on the coffee table and Hillary Clinton's face on toilet paper in the bathroom, lol.
  24. i don't know if this answers your question, but for me, depression is usually a reaction to how i implicitly (or explicitly) make sense of the world, and, in extension, myself. basically, it's like asking myself "is this world/life/experience a good enough place to live in? maybe not..." and it makes assumptions about the permanence and impermanence of pleasant/unpleasant experiences. although this isn't always "no feelings" - it could also just be an unpleasant mix of emotions. for me, one of the most depressing things is when "the good" and "the bad" seem so intertwined that i cannot, for the love of God, separate them neatly, and this stops me from being able to make sense of myself as 'good' (which is a core psychological need). so depression isn't the absence of good experiences, but the fact that they seem fundamentally "spoiled". but my head is also a little weird sometimes, so maybe this is just how it works for me.

  25. What is depression meta-physically?

    Natasha Tori Maru replied to Vynce's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    I experience depression as being rooted in unexpressed anger. Anger strongly propels motion for me. I feel anger not acted on and repressed leads to depression. We can have feelings of frustration, elements of judgement & thoughts of righteousness behind the anger. When injustice happens and we get angry, but there is no path to solution (ie systemic issues with society we have little agency to change) anger frequently turns to depression. Lack of motion. Flat, low affect. From a Buddhist perspective depression would be "there is" an unpleasant feeling, thoughts, bodily sensations, memories, aversion, diminished motivation, identification with a particular narrative and changing conditions. Emotions and thoughts are difficult to define across the board due to the phenological nature of them. There is a lot of co-dependent arising involved in both. I keep returning loosely to the difference: a thought has cognitive content, whereas a feeling is an affective or felt experience. But this is not strict. Anyway I digress. Thanks for the contemplation
  26. Don't forget his prediction that Trump will bring WW3. It does not even make sense why Bashar is helping humans since WW3 is coming any day now.
  27. Ok I will keep this concise and understandable. I make videos. You can switch out videos here for stories, for writing, anything on the creative side. I think what I make is decent but it’s not great and I believe above great there are some people making videos on YouTube, writing books, etc that are just excellent. I’m talking like 15-30 minutes of pure gold and most of these videos get the views. So aside from effort, which we know commitment and effort are important, what makes a content creator or story teller or writer or whatever (creative person) truly great, truly original and special? I’m not talking just raw numbers of subs. There are exceptionally great accounts with like 100k subs. But I’m talking about reaching that level instead of just being a sort of imitation of someone else or a less original channel / creator. How to be really creative and original? Seems like some people ride waves as they emerge and part of it is commitment and being attuned and in flow but also some luck as well.
  1. Load more activity