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Constraint IS content. Your interpretation orbits my intent.
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You can still socialize and unintentionally do dating . 😃 I understand your concern but the reality is people date from among the people they hang out with. People also say your job is a bad place to meet a partner but so many succesful happy relationships start at the workplace.
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The same thing without bashing communism
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Madyar replied to Terell Kirby's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
it is way harder for humans to admit they don't know it is closely tied to their identity, also there is a real tight boundary between the knowns and unknowns in which if you persist moving beyond you simply pop out because the current form cannot hold that barrier. it is a real case... -
Breakingthewall replied to Terell Kirby's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
The self is not the cause of experience; there can be experience without the self. Experience is reality in a dual state. In the universe that we know, this is called life. Life is the emergence of a self-preserving universe with its own particular laws within a larger universe, without violating the laws of the larger universe, but creating its own internal laws. This generates duality, and within duality, there is an exchange of information between the two realities. This exchange is experience. For example, a cell is experience at a very basic level, a sardine is already a complex experience, a monkey is already an experience that self-registers with a proto-self, and in the human case there is an essential phase leap. Just as there is an essential phase leap from the hyper-complex RNA that self-replicates but is not alive, not separate from the primordial universe, to the self-preserving cell, in humans another one occurs. A new living entity appears in symbiosis with the animal organism, but free from its genetic limitations: the mind. The mind has no limits; it is an entirely different phase from the experience of a chimpanzee, which is completely limited by genetics. The mind interconnects with other minds, records experience, creating a timeline, and creates a symbology that is interconnected with the emotional system, fostering unlimited expansive possibilities. It's ironic that spirituality in general rejects the mind, considering it an error, an illusion, maya, a misunderstanding that must be resolved by flattening experience through meditative repression, glorifying the senses, and demonizing abstractions. In short, Buddhism, the embryo of all modern spirituality, is an extremely myopic system in my opinion. The mind is totality in its most refined, complex, and magnificent expression. The mind gives rise to the self, the center that receives, desires, suffers, analyzes, and registers. It is no more "divine" than the no-self of a tuna; it is simply another phase of complexity in the unlimited expansion of the coherence of what is. Something essential to the matter of "enlightenment," openess, or whatever you wish to call it. Experience is not the foundation of reality; it is a manifestation of it. This is counterintuitive since, as humans, we see a conscious creator as essential, but this is not the case. Reality is without a doer. The doer is reality itself, and it is not planned nor does it seek a purpose; rather, it is the expansion of total coherence that occurs given its limitlessness. All manifestation is relationship, and all relationship is change. The static is not, it does not exist; existence is coherent, synchronous change in all directions. What appears is the consequence of the expansive thrust of the absence of limits, of not being contained, pushing toward the limitation necessary for form to exist. -
DXM trips for me always last about 8 hours, where it peaks between hour two and hour six with a few more hours of afterglow at the end. For me, concentration or self-inquiry is not necessary during the peak of my DXM trips. Even on a 2nd plateau dose (Around 200-600 mg. DXM trips are divided into four plateaus with the first two plateaus being recreational, and the 3rd/4th plateau being spiritual in nature where a lot of people report having out of body experiences and 'creating universes with their minds'), my sense of self evaporates very quickly and many of the insights become very self-apparent. I haven't gone higher than 2nd plateau and don't plan to for a while. This trip also made me realize how much of my human potential I was wasting by chasing awakening/god-realization instead of focusing on life goals. Infinity is ultimately where I will end up, might as well enjoy the game of life and being a finite self to the fullest degree possible while I am here. I have been using spirituality to bypass a lot of my everyday problems, and now I am fully focused on facing and fixing them.
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tl:dr I am both paradoxically more weaker and more powerful.
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Cheers! Really nice report. Hadn't heard of DXM before. How long did the trip last? And, do you perform any form of concentration or self-inquiry during the come up to prime the awakening to happen?
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Still not inherent! It relies on interpretation on both ends, rules and context prior to any clear meaning being found. Inferences mostly. Compressed reality.
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When people assume I am a certain thing, they are not entirely wrong. They have an incomplete, reductionistic picture of who I am. Jesus was a paradoxical badass, and he was punished for it too. “Prove you are the Son of God! “Prove you are a Woman!” Sounds hauntingly familiar.
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Simply put, my relationship to reality has changed significantly in the past few years. Especially when it comes to women (*cough* myself). Feels more authentic and less confused. I couldn’t even get close to them before, even though I really longed to. Like I was allergic to them. When I would get close, my relationship to them was extremely dysfunctional and abusive. Transitioning has been rehabilitation from a life that was corrupted by systems that forced me to be something I am not.
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That's true but the real problem is deeper than Trump, that's why nothing would change until you deal with the root cause of this corruption. That's the ground on which left and right need to start agreeing and unite imo.
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@Leo Gura Yes but what if I don't have any fun friend around to go out with?
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Trump is corrupt, the most that has been in the White House. The powers that you say are in charge behind, he is more than glad to do as they say, that's why he is corrupt. So in the end, you can't separate him from what's happening. But this thread is not about that, neither about the fascist route he is taking with a paramilitary group of loyals now. It's about the awful things he did in the past with Epstein. Do we hold him accountable for that or not? His supporters should be asking him to be removed. He should be in prison, guys, you know it. If anything, the possibility of Trump being blackmailed by powers behind Epstein is worthy to discuss. Because no ordinary man is able to get an island without a huge financial support backing that up.
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This may be very unpopular, but I believe all people are bisexual to some extent.
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It's worth thinking about whether writing is just a system for representing spoken language or if it is a separate from of language. I'd say it was the latter, writing is a visual language like sign language. What you're reading here is a visual dialect of spoken English. Often writing and the spoken word get conflated.
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And now, what has changed?
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I am surprise about you stating that, "being gay" mean you are attracted to man yes ? But a ladyboy is it really a man ?
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Diary: Medical School Journal. Chapter: Medical Doctors need to be creative. Type: Self-Evident. Extracurricular. o————————O————————o One Flow Song per day or thereabouts now. Flow, means all lyrics are written on the fly, all of them, to preserve the mystery, the ether of wherever they come from. I also makeup the style on the fly as well, the Style is where you insert the genres of music you want the lyrics to be in which includes timing, and thematic emphasis. Daily subconscious unpacking here is to re-build intuitive creativity overtime, and its compressed precision. The only thing I spend a little time on at most, is choosing the variation Suno comes up with. It misses many nuances, while opening new dimensions. Won’t always be enough time to listen to whole Suno (or AI) variation. For the former I still have the training of my ear, and for the latter, continual daily re-synthesis of dimensions of musical creativity I hadn’t explored before. Straightforward goal, within a year, have a perfected new ‘genre’ I can leap to have my own music. In a few months, perhaps a little more, I will just sing the music and lyrics myself totally on the fly, using Suno (or just AI) solely as a music non-vocal engine. Before (31/01/2026) - my baseline singing: https://vocaroo.com/1c5uIEzJU050 Vocal: Brief slice of “The Skies Above”, a song completed below 31/01/2026. After: August 1st, 2026. I spend a maximum of 30 minutes of creation time per song: Timed every single time. All lyrics are hosted here: https://ailivinlove.github.io/Lyrics/ All songs hosted as below: 01/02/2026 - Hello… Humans. 02/02/2026 - The Skies Above o————————O————————o This post will be edited and deleted as needed to ensure that all songs can be posted with their respective date directly underneath every other song in calendar order. Late Next Yr Goal Completion: New Platform for global creative content that filters for high quality creative artists from music to video. We need a new “YouTube” to “ImagiYou”. Thats just a name on the fly for it but ha! o————————O————————I
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Accept your feelings. The only compulsion is to avoid feeling.
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He is a prediccament I found about my feelings. Survival power is sexy. I found the kind of girls who can manipulate and cheat interesting BECAUSE they have survival power and yet the very same that puts me off. So thats what most Dating is about, is finding the right balance of survival powers, roughly matching the energy of the other person. Bone on Bone/ clinched in. Unless people are spiritual, that creates freedom.
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Jowblob replied to Vilius's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Do you mean you started noticing and seeing conscious movements in the black screen when you close your eyes? -
cetus replied to Vilius's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Face the fear head on. That's the ego's fight or flight response kicking in. It's not easy letting go. Next time you feel that fear take a leap of faith and surrender to it. Even if you said "OK fear. If you're going to kill me, kill me now". Is it really going to kill you? If anything, part of the ego will die away. Are you ready for that? In Zen this is known as Having a Red-Hot iron ball stuck in your throat. Do you swallow it? or do you spit it out? You decide. -
gettoefl replied to Terell Kirby's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I think we’ve converged closer than it might appear. The disagreement squarely hinges on what we both mean by “the center” and then what exactly changes. When I claim that centrality collapses, I’m not by any means claiming that a functional center disappears, nor that preferences vanish, nor that the organism stops organizing experience around a locus. That would be biologically incoherent. What I’m pointing to here is the collapse of existential centrality, not operational centrality. You above describe the shift beautifully as a move from a closed energetic framework to an open one. I agree with that description almost entirely. Where I’d sharpen it is in the following: what opens is not the system around the center, but the claim that the center makes about itself. In the closed framework, the center is not merely active; it is authoritative. It dictates meaning, threat, urgency, and value as if these were intrinsic to reality rather than relational outputs. That’s what gives rise to the “energetic whips” you describe. These shocks don’t come from having a center; they come from the center being unconsciously taken as what one is. In the open framework, meanwhile, the center absolutely continues to function. It orients, evaluates, protects, and anticipates. But it no longer occupies the role of ontological referee. It is no longer the place where reality needs to justify itself. That’s the sense I allude to in which centrality collapses; I don't mean structurally, but existentially. This is why I hesitate to say “the self liberates itself,” even though I understand perfectly what you mean. From the inside, it undeniably feels that way. What actually dissolves is the self’s monopoly on interpretation. The self remains as interface, yes no doubt, but no longer as supreme governor of what is allowed to be. On the topic of will: I agree completely that this isn’t about seeking a better situation. That’s just another modulation of the prison. But I’m cautious with the phrase “absolute will for liberation,” because it risks smuggling in the very structure that later claims victory. What I see instead is not will overcoming the system, but will exhausting itself. A point where every strategy, improvement, transcendence, integration, dominance, surrender etc., has been tried and found insufficient. Liberation will not come from a stronger push, but from the system running out of ways to protect its internal division. Therefore I would reframe the objective slightly. It is not about “breaking free from the energetic prison” in the heroic sense. It is the complete collapse of the necessity for the prison to exist at all. The bars don’t get smashed; they stop being required. On the topic of suffering, we are in alignment. Of course acute suffering remains. Of course a parent will be devastated by the loss of a child. To deny that would be callous. The distinction I am making is a little narrower: what now disappears is suffering as default, in other words the background contraction that turns every experience into a referendum on one’s existential legitimacy. Pain still happens. Grief still happens. Fear still mobilizes. But they are no longer metabolized as evidence that something has gone fundamentally wrong with what one is. Lastly, when you describe the post-collapse landscape as freedom, openness, security, happiness, appreciation etc. I do agree but with this caveat. These are not states to be achieved, nor guarantees, nor permanent moods. They’re better framed as by-products of reduced internal friction. When the system stops fighting itself, energy gets freed up for contact, clarity, and responsiveness. So I don’t think we’re arguing here about whether the self exists, or whether the mind is real, or whether biology matters. On all those, I think we align. The outstanding question is simpler and sharper: Is the self a functional center within experience, or the authority experience must answer to? When that question resolves itself experientially, the framework opens up, not because the self has become infinite, but because it no longer needs to be defended as finite.
