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  2. Well, I don't know how bad yours is, but I never said that disqualifies you from psychedelics. OCD is a strange condition which I don't know how it mixes with psychedelics.
  3. ⬇️ ⬇️ Can't seem to do it? @aurum
  4. Makes you all warm and fuzzy inside...
  5. Pure OCD.. which is an anxiety based disorder its called the doubt disorder. The ego craves complete certainty. Only awakening was the cure. It has been mostly dormant of late.
  6. Gifted or not, it's allowed to have a brain...
  7. Infinity
  8. @kavaris My love let it gooooooooooo. It’s not the end of the world because a misunderstanding or mismatch happened between two strangers on the internet. I said I’m sorry and here I’m saying sorry again . I apologized three times for something I’m not even convinced that it is guilty . This means it’s checkmate ..if you keep this nonsense up then you are literally a kid .
  9. Or gift.
  10. Maybe that's your problem right there What disorder you got?
  11. He has a very cold, logical, overly masculine mental attitude toward everything. With that kind of attitude, love could get lost. He is so cold that if you squirt water up his ass you'll get an ice cube.
  12. Maybe but according to you I wouldn't qualify for a psychedelic retreat because of certain mental disorders. 😀
  13. One way to think of God is as an infinite “playground” in which finite forms can appear and exist, like children playing within it. In this view, humans and all other finite things are expressions within that field of existence. Truth, love, and consciousness can then be understood as the “ground” or “medium” of that playground. They are not separate objects inside the system, but the underlying conditions that make experience itself possible. They function like the background container that allows separate beings to arise, relate, and persist as distinct yet connected forms within the whole. If that “playground” (universe or God) were not truth, then there would be a fundamental bias in which forms could exist and which could not exist, making it an inaccurate medium for the expression of ALL infinity. If that “playground” (universe or God) were not pure, unfiltered consciousness, then there would be a fundamental bias in which forms could be perceived and which could not be perceived, like a human eye that cannot see the full range of the electromagnetic spectrum of color, making it an incomplete medium for the expression of ALL infinity. If that “playground” (universe or God) were not love, then there would be a fundamental bias in which forms are preferred and which are not preferred to exist, more or less loved, creating separation and hierarchy, making it an inconsistent medium for the expression of ALL infinity.
  14. Autistic how ? How can you be autistic and highly conscious and intelligent? Though His talking is not steady .. he opens a topic then immediately run into a tangent and blabber for ten minutes then returns back to the main point ..but I have the book of not knowing on my phone and he is accurate as a knife in contemplation.
  15. Now surely this wont be taken as an insult, since the entire story was about me, and the last slither, was just to relate back to what we had spoken on. Which, i dont know how to express in the right way, that is, that it is irrelevant now since we failed that conversation, together. We failed as a team. We failed downhill together, how about that.
  16. Interesting. I've never heard him say that.
  17. Eternal Mystery.
  18. Well guys, she ended up breaking up with me. At first I thought she meant she just wanted to take a break but now that I've had time to reflect I can see that it's over. Said something like she didn't think she was deserving enough of me, which broke my heart. That's about it. Thanks for all the words of wisdom guys.
  19. In order for God to be God, it has to create finite forms. This has been said many times before. It has to “forget,” metaphorically, that It is One, the same, all of Itself. So to do that, it creates other forms, finite forms of Itself, that forget they are It. The process by which you remember and “reunite” with yourself, with God, is called Love. When you recognize and remember yourself as God, you experience beauty, love, awakening, bliss, and ecstasy. When you fall in love, you recognize the other as yourself, or you recognize God, the beauty within the other. Then you want to unite completely: through your thoughts, your eyes, your lips, your bodies, your genitals, your sounds, your moans, your whispers. That whole process is Love. Love is one of the aspects of God. It is a mechanism through which God “others” Itself and then reunites with Itself once again. You cannot have unity between finite beings without Love. You cannot have finitude without observation. You cannot have finitude without Consciousness.
  20. I have understanding . But what I meant is that at some point you should quit pussyfooting around what your level of knowledge in front of society fearing rejection and being perceived as a weirdo . Look at Osho he spits the motherfucking truth in front of all the world in his books and lectures. Take Leo as role model .. I’m not sure what’s Leo relationship with his family and peers but he literally talks on YouTube every week saying the motherfuking truth and what he is conscious of in front of the whole world . You have to be honest about what you’re doing in life . You can’t blabber about spiritual things in a forum then in real life you put on a thousand masks of falsehood to fit in with the delusions of society. The only barrier is fear .
  21. I admire Mystery a lot. Think he is very intelligent for pioneering so much of the dating stuff but his model is overly cerebral and I think that hurts most men. Owen's approach is more intuitive and flow based. But you're right it's not really formalized or articulated in a structured manner. It's kinda like a bunch of rambling essays that you need to somehow fit together. It's lack of cohesion is a glaring weakness.
  22. Humor me for a second. I wanna tell a story, but i want to start with a kindve initiatory question: "Because when people say "im confused" my first thought is actually "What would you have me say then...?" " But lets not get lost in that question, because its more of an *ice breaker, like a Gingerbread house for us all to meet at without getting worked up. Not meant to be taken seriously (DONT TAKE IT AS A SERIOUS QUESTION) Back in the day, i was working at this job (doesnt matter where) and i had had this co-worker, and sure, i had multiple co-worker/relationships like this, relationships where we had started to *bump heads*. And I kept telling him a story about how "theres this guy whos been bothering me... yada yada" .. you know... small talk. b.s. stuff... And so, my co-worker would listen to me ~ going on and on about my life, and, because him and i had a falling out, and because we werent exactly on good terms (its complicated/hard to explain) and because we were co workers, it just made things hard... and i chose him to start conversations with, expressing to him how.. how BAD it was going for me... trying to get past the b.s. from the day, during work, and in my life (i expressed it in a way that was... somewhat tolerable, cause the real version sucks!!!) And like i said, it was a sore area to talk about, and i couldve mentioned many, many subjects that were also on the sore side (there isnt anything NOT sore, put it that way, im just good at speaking to people in person... obviously thats not the case online since no one can understand me) But i was curious "what he wouldve done" instead, like "what were my options", cause whatever i kept doing was causing more and more trouble for myself ... so much so ~ that this individual, the individual causing me trouble had visited that co-worker in person, and thankfully the coworker was able to get rid of him... easily... not by force. Im not sure what he did, for his spirit just "shoo'd" him away somehow, possibly by accident, possibly luck, possibly skill, who knows... doesnt matter.. That situation helped me learn something. Granted, the major downfall happened after, but like... I mean, im referencing it now, so i learned something about a situation that i could reference. So bottomline, after all of that, telling him about how, there were issues in my life, especially certain persons, he would end up saying: "Are you talking about me (metaphorically)?" Like, in other words, he thought, because him and i werent on good terms, and because we didnt have the right rhythm together, that everything i was saying, everything i was talking to him about ~confiding in him~ was ABOUT HIM. Presumably about the falling out between him and i. I was like, are you fucking serious. And maybe he meant "is that how you feel about me" typeve thing (meaning, "i get what you been through, but is that ALSO how you feel whilst here?"). But if thats what he meant, he didnt say anything like that. Thats not the point anyway. The point is, i gave him this elaborate story, interweaving through things that are ~and continue to be~ hard to speak on, and it just flew over his head. Like he didnt understand anything i was telling him. Did he say "i dont understand anything you said", Well... Think about it, its totally different situation when offline compared to online. We were in person, offline. P.s. On the off chance he did say that, what he wouldve meant was "i can NOT relate to your experience" The point is, we were co workers, spending many hours together ~ which awarded us too much time to understand each other. And in the end, like days before i left that b.s. (not because of him!), he said "was that all analogy... Do you mean (me) and not (this life long antagonist)?" He probably thought i left that job because of him... like... He had NO FUCKING CLUE. Like wtf??? Thats what my life is. In the end, even the co worker is like, "i dont get it". > Well, what is there to get... its like, we are just talking... spitballing; like... nobody knows anything about me, therefore im expressing to you something about me. Do i have to outline the mechanics of this? Like how many details are to be splattered on the wall before its like, you are witnessing the witness whos been through some shit. And we are trying to mentally survive it now, together, otherwise itll be unbearable from here on out. Like, we started from this standpoint of "My dad use to take me to karate..." I am telling you what happens in real life, when you arent rolling downhill. Theres no insult there, its just what happened in our conversation today. Uphill from one person, Downhill from the other. Im not even commenting on it, besides the karate part, which is just word for word. the first few words. it didnt mean anything, which is the point though. we're changing the subject. I mean, starting over, "my dad DIDNT take me to karate", THere. But anyway, that is what im tryina express there. THats it. Feel free to share. Keep in mind, it may feel somewhat unbearable, cause for myself, there isnt any point where im not finding things unbearable. This is just stress level +4 on the "Already-Stressed-to-Death" level towards infinity case for me. I assume theres gonna be people like that too on here, at some point, people whove been through some shit, and to treat everyone with that benefit of the doubt at first (or im just double checking, cause i definitely dont want to insult people like myself, like older people i mean... if its a young soul, i mean... sometimes you cant help but correct them... it just happens... i mean...). I always preface with ".. gonna be a stressful situation" if its gonna be a stressful situation.
  23. Okay. So you don't yet know?
  24. First of all.. Recognize that you take this present moment for granted. Recognize the miracle right before your eyes that you take completely for granted. Because you think it came from a past via a mechanism somehow from somewhere at some when. All these are groundless. =the present moment is completely mysterious and unexplainable. It just is what it is. You think it's not fresh it's not the "first" present moment. But it is. Also you take it for granted because you have some nice bullshit stories that explain it away. You think you are living on a earth.. In some solar system.. In some universe.in some multiverse.. . In God knows where. but you don't recognize that this infinite regress is indeed infinite. Which means you are again "nowhere". Just now here. Going in nature can be quite insightful. If you pet some trees. You can notice the connection between everything. You can see how these trees are literally yourself. Try to say hi to the trees as you walk past them. People will call you nutcase but say hi to them too . Try to notice everything as yourself. It's easier to try this exercise in nature. Plants. Trees. Animals. Sea etc because these things are beautiful and attractive. Try to feel into the beauty of them and notice that this is YOUR beauty. This is your creation. This is YOU Period. Now imagine If you can train this capacity to include the whole universe. Such that you cough love into everything. literally every piece of existence is yourself. It's one thing to hear this or to understand this and it's different to actually grasp this in your own experience via your own method. Do whatever it takes to get there but you gotta get there. I myself am NOT there yet but only because I have to get naked completely metaphorically speaking and arrange a dinner party with my family members and tell them “everything “.
  25. Today
  26. Why not?
  27. He is autistic. So likely that's the reason. He is too detached from feeling. He is also so insulated, he takes zero feedback from any of his peers. His students just echo back everything he tells them, which creates a dangerous echochamber for him.
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