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  2. Like getting wrapped in a blanket that contains everything. Like being in deep sleep while 1000% awake . Like power washing your brain until it's gone. Like popping the bubble that's behind your eyes. Like drowning in an ocean of love . Knowing you've only met one person.
  3. This wood background is super minimalistic but a bit more interesting then black yet very calming. Just found it and feel like sharing it. https://external-content.duckduckgo.com/iu/?u=https%3A%2F%2Fwallpapercave.com%2Fwp%2Fwp4792785.jpg&f=1&nofb=1&ipt=d3ace8df869e7ff96c88ac4ec81d5517dec3d6fff51826c1be70c870badab226&ipo=images
  4. i just updated my arch machine, a few mins ago. I say that as hey, my last pacman Syu was on like, january 2025 or something, so well over a year later im updating.... ive not been very attuned to doing useful things on the computer, but today i just figured its been long long. I mean, i use tower computers every day, as i dont really enjoy phones, tablets & laptops, so much as its necessary to have a phone and laptop (which i very seldom use... not to mention i couldnt get sound to work on laptopt, as i think the software / hardware is well old, or i just havent committed enough time to it) At one point, i hadnt updated in 4+ years... but, lol, hey... ... updating is a big deal on linux, for me atleast. p.s. im still a big fan of korn- mksh shell, and bash development, granted ive not kept up to date with either... im suppose to follow korn very close but im just letting it go right now, as its not the front runner priority atm.
  5. More like when a horror movie ends.
  6. Yes, real thing. Can't decide, wait it out. I actually can't grasp the concept of hooking up and then immediately being able to cut ties with the person on all levels (mental, emotional, spiritual) as you walk out the door, and then just go on merrily with your life. I'd love to be able to do that, sounds fun. Either I'm doing it wrong and/or have some emotional issues that I need therapy for OR I'm tapped into something wiser than the people who are able to do it are. I'm open to both possibilities.
  7. Today
  8. "radical jihadist woke lunatics" is pretty damn funny
  9. Damn, he fucked up. Good justice is served. He really has disgusted me for years with his channel and this too.
  10. @Leo Gura I know people like it. Badly made is sloppy choice of words on my part. It played it a lot at first. Then, I just lost interest. It felt too easy and flat I guess.
  11. Being aware of being aware is a beautiful book.
  12. realdoll.com
  13. Looks like more women are coming forward now. Path of destruction.
  14. This is a genious move to gain control over your social media usage. I cant stress the impact that this can have on your life enough.
  15. ... To finish that thought, Then, you have the unlimited, and such is the paradox (to come).
  16. Yes exactly! Half the reason I normally have these discussions over voice chat with lovely people who enjoy these types of conversations. Open dyadic discussions where the answers might not be arrived at, as much as we are simply involved in a state of wonder and not knowing.
  17. Just looked at the available apps. You pretty much get all the basics. I minimalized my phone manually and basically found all my apps on the list with the exception of an adhd app and firefox. Firefox I slimmed down a lot though so it would probably be similiar to chrome. So the only thing that would change would be the design and even that can be mimicked. I think the only strong benefit this has over manually minimalizing your phone is that it takes no will power to do it. For those who struggle with re-downloading social media and stuff like this, this can be very useful.
  18. Skyrim isn't that badly made.
  19. Its alot of questions, id imagine (questions to come). Once ya ask, then ya might have a basket of questions that beg answering from many directions, which is usually how it works. Or it can also go 'totally off the rails, full tilt-like. Such are them unfortunate consequences, sometimes, but such is life. We ride the waves w/ the wolves and all the things ~ upon focusing in on it. And when we're not... It just doesnt exist, existence as something that can be limited, sectioned-off...
  20. KoolAid
  21. @Majed Do you think using a partner as a form of status hierarchy can be conformity?
  22. Good questions that I often bang my own head against. I don't have answers readily available. But I will ask: When you say we might not be ready for the responsibility that follows on from recognition - do you mean we might fear losing our individuated identity and structures that protect us? Or do you mean genuinely recognising interconnectedness, oneness, unity which makes it increasingly more difficult to live selfishly? The distinction between ones own wellbeing and the wellbeing of others becomes less... psychologically convincing. I normally find these sorts of discussions end up hinging around the integration aspect. Having that "recognition" meaningfully transform one's behaviour, relationships and responses to life. Integration is the unique part of the experience there is no map for, because it so often comes down "working out the lumps in our gravy" that are unique to our own conditioning. CAN enlightenment overcome incentive structures and biology?
  23. (Cont.) Yas cant detatch enlightenment from everything else, nor any other thoughts and experiences, like it matters what happens in the moment. When we try referring to things in a very dumbed down way, we are relying on alot of meta to be responsible. Like we want all of the actualization triggers to be responsible for the thing we hold within, but you dont even have enlightenment without all of those thoughts, exp., emotions, etc., so it *feels* like its a time felt exp., its just that the words you think had a meaning are gonna change, in the face of an experience where yous are to become enlightened, such that things that once looked like materiality and time arent gonna be materiality and time. The actualization triggers towards that matters and so too do the storyline and the builtup experience matters. It might even matter more you could say, and im saying it now.
  24. We officially have a trash pickup date this Saturday. Before I asked, we talked about how our Halloween was, our costumes and scary movies. So after class she accepted the invite and before I could say so first, she said she’d text me. I don’t know if it’s appropriate to offer to bring her back to my place after the date or see about going to hers or what. Maybe just the date itself is good enough for a first meetup to get more familiar with each other. I don’t know how it works.
  25. @Natasha Tori Maru Sure. Yeah, i don't know your background, i was making an assumption based on your speech. That's it.
  26. Both. Enlightenment is something someone acquires because there's an ontological shift in consciousness. Consciousness is ontological, when increased, reality changes.
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