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  2. Distinction Journal

    Emull replied to Emull's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Saturday: December 6th, 2025. WHAT you WANT is distinct from WHAT you don't WANT.
  3. Yeah, because life goes on. We are onto new problems, new situations that require attention. COVID was years ago at this point. How much do you really expect it to still be at the center of mainstream conversation?

  4. Distinction Journal

    Emull replied to Emull's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Saturday: December 6th, 2025. Brutal acknowledgment of the truth is distinct from disregarding truth.
  5. Probably smth similar to you. Like living in nature, you know, working on things that you want to work on. Not in cobblestone city this is for sure.
  6. All this shows is that you can be a despised villain of earth and still not have many hoops to jump through to be seen as a peacemaker.
  7. I deliberately used this title to stir up some emotions I will be brief and conscise because i have to engage in some survival functions soon. I was raised up not poor but not rich either. There was a time in my life where my needs where being met. My physical needs mostly. This allowed the opportunity to say for few years "fk survival. Im just gonna put all my energy and focus on spirituality" And i did that until it became untenable. Now i find myself regularly getting homicidal, feeling rage , bitterness and anger. Im not a violent person. I have just smashed few objects here and there, to allow the furious energy to move. I have come to realize that if i don't fullfill certain needs i will do bad things to myself or possibly even others. Check what the Unabomber did. Only thing that gives me joy is walking, reading, atttending NA meetings and doing my spiritual practice. The spiritual practice i do, is the most important thing in my life right now. I value it more than anything. But i need to eat good food and be othetwise healthy to maintain this practice. My problem is this: I feel very confused and i dont understand. What transcending survival even means? These urges and drives are like laws of nature that i dont ever see getting rid of. They can definitely be diminished in intensity but never obliterated (i assume). I have heard many contradictory things from teachers. Others are very survival based (like Leo). Othes like David Parish say "if you have a roof over your head and a meal inside yout stomach then you should be meditating 30 mins everyday like your life depends on it". How should one approach the continuous , never-ending adaptive problems of survival while at the same time pursuing spiritual work?
  8. Sarcastic comment (just in case).
  9. God bless America!
  10. 😂Fuckin mirror effect, obviously!

  11. Why tf do we not talk about COVID?

    Apparition of Jack replied to Apparition of Jack's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events

    Are you sure? I feel like I almost never see it come up on Twitter, youtube, everywhere basically. I don’t see people talking about how lockdowns affected them, the need for more research, etc. It’s almost always other issues (Trump, Russia, AI, whatever), which while obviously important, have all also been influenced by the pandemic we all went through.

  12. Why tf do we not talk about COVID?

    Apparition of Jack replied to Apparition of Jack's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events

    Well, see, that’s what I’m talking about. Your symptoms are a very real thing that need to be socially addressed, lol. If most people just pretend it didnt happen, then too many other people with long COVID won’t be able to express themselves and get help if they seek it. I’m glad you’ve found some humour in it though, life can be rough but it’s always good to look for the silver linings 😂
  13. People have done almost nothing but talk about COVID.
  14. People love being told what to believe (despite vehemently denying it at the same time); that's partly why cults are so emotionally appealing. Add to this the fact that, collectively, we don't really know how to listen or what to pay attention to, and you have a recipe for these dynamics. It does make getting popular a lot easier, though.
  15. Sounds like some good ol’ rounds of pegging would be right up many men's alleys in here lmao

  17. Does understanding god entail losing ones mind?

    Nemo28 replied to Elshaddai's topic in Psychedelics

    Y E S
  18. IMO It's just entertaining for the mind, the mind survives in movements, the Absolute or the Truth doesn't seek to understand as it's perfect doesn't have such desires, Being is all that's real. pure and simple. Mind's capacity to imagine is limitless and loves complexity and so it's desire to understand himself is also never ends. Mind doesn't settle for simple Truth as it doesn't survive that.
  19. Yeah I'm not following this. We have better models than Freud or Lacan for understanding masculinity / femininity.
  20. Talk about it?! I suffer with long covid symptoms every year and can barely talk when I’m in the thick of it. Been dealing with very bad rough for the past 2 weeks. Good for me tho, gives me an excuse to trip more instead of going to work 😸
  21. Nah bruh - you can't let them know they have the upperhand. They have to know when push comes to shove, you're the shot-caller. Women actually have a need to be dominated in this way so they can feel safe. (most women) You're dealing with a Christian, which introduces interesting variables. They can be tamed, but it's different. There probably aren't any books out there about it. Let me know if you want to strategize. This is right up my alley. Lol, . "How to convert an evangelical female". I'd have my fucking work cut out for me. I never shy away from a challenge though.
  22. @Inliytened1 What do you make of THIS reality? The everyday reality. Here and now. Is it just an illusion? Is it some sort of purgatory? Some sort of lesser reality?
  23. Today
  24. Lol, and if Dana White gave Trump a peace prize you would also say "America gives Trump a peace prize"?
  25. You need to get laid haha
  26. Princess, you got a person who makes a post on a forum about how their life isn't working out the way they'd like. Then, someone does their best to respond (which is largely the purpose of online forums), and you basically tell the responder they're deluded because they don't operate from your perspective: "You want to save the world, but you can't. Life is expressing itself. Life doesn't need help, it doesn't need anything. It plays itself out. Even your response is also an expression and my comment to you is neither needed nor not needed." It's true, they can't save the world. But that doesn't mean they shouldn't try to respond in a way they feel would be helpful, right? You're cold. Open that heart chakra girl! TF is wrong with you? 😂
  27. Are we really all that fragile and gutless that a single pandemic causes us too much trauma to even talk about? Does our obvious mortality frighten people too much? Are people so addicted to baseless material distractions that we still can’t cope with the idea we might not be fundamentally in control of our lives? I’m sick of this shit. People died. People still have long COVID today. It affected the entire planet. WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT IT. HOLY SHIT.
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