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  2. Yep https://link.springer.com/article/10.1007/s10508-024-02943-0 Many individuals belonging to this population would seek (median = 42.3%), or have sought (median = 46.5%), treatment to cope with their sexual interest or with potential related mental health repercussions.
  3. 50 percent? That seems high but that's encouraging at least. How many don't even know they are and they just do it.
  4. I am reading something about 50% of pedophiles seek professional help. That number could get higher if people treated pedophiles more nuanced, so in a way where they saw pedophilia strictly as a sickness and appreciated pedophiles when they took professional help. But that takes sooo much openmindedness HOLY ...
  5. Too much pride. That's the problem. Chump checked out like the coward that he was.
  6. The equivalent would be hitler going to theraphy: "Hi, I have got a lot of built up rage because I feel unfairly treated because of ... , not getting into art school, ... I have got a lot potential energy in me to harm people like I could become a dictator and start a war and shit, can you help me deal with my emotions so that aint gonna happen? 😇
  7. Let this man meditate for fuck sake! He is an arhat, not a bodhisattva
  8. @Jannes I don't think they seek help though. They're too lost in the sickness. So we are left to deal with them in rhe prison system- after they have done damage.
  9. Like this https://www.instagram.com/p/DfWGvzaG1Nd/?mdxt=OGhob3RuYXM1Y2Q0
  10. Yes it is! Now you are throwing it down. Hitler only had good intentions too right? Fucker
  11. What an act of love and selflessness that would be! But it could get a lot better. Imagine a place where pedos get professional help. I believe those exist, heard an advertisement once "no one needs to become an offender, seek help." Imagine a born pedo seeking professional help because he doesnt want to harm kids and through the combination of his effort and the effort of very openminded professionals he lives his life never remotely doing anything inappropriately. Aint that real spirituality?
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  13. Right? Fucking hang yourself but don't harm kids.
  14. A pedo who lives out his fantasies Being born with pedo tendencies is freakin bad luck
  15. genuine belief and managing his public image can coexist, he might fluctuate or do both.
  16. Destroying his family with 10 years of prison because of it though? Love is rough I can even remember that the women were split between empathy for him as a family men and revenge.
  17. They should throw the book at him. I have done a lot of shit. But putting your hands on women, or manipulating women is the lowest. Outside of being a pedo.
  18. I think guys tend to underestimate the damage rape can do to a women. Many people put it on roughly the same level as murder. ( https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/38267597/ ) Makes sense, if you are really damaged for the rest of your life afterwards and dont find joy in life anymore it can be the same or worse. I cant completly relate, thats a task for further development for me.
  19. He's doing what he thinks will keep him out of jail. He isn't genuine at all. You can have one look at him. Hell. But it's what I would do.
  20. What I have done in the past is I would open up the syringe and pull the plunger out. Then cover the front on the syringe, where the nozzle should be. Drizzle the crystals in from the back of the syringe. Then put the plunger back in. Turn the syringe upside down, so that gravity pulls the crystals into the back of the syringe. Then carefully push the plunger in to the end. Next step is to pull a bit of vinegar into the syringe so that the crystals dissolve. Adding heat via warm hot water helps also. You can put the syringe into a plastic bag and dip it into a warm water-bath to aid dissolving the crystals... When the vinegar has dissolved the free-base fill the rest of the syringe up with luke-warm water. I hope this helps and you can follow my long list of tips/recommendations. You can always ask again hehe. You can jump from 60 to 80mg. But please be careful. Lie down and make sure that when you loose consciousness everything is fine.
  21. I am sure he says it genuinely, from his POV. Relativity.
  22. You know, lookin' back in my notebooks from amany years ago (though, its not like i had that many notebooks that have withstood the test of time...) ... but its like, one of them has this series of pages, each beginning "...and the subsequent paradox..." As i could not escape the incessant realization of the big ole bogging down of this paradox thing (whatever may have been on my mind at the time) and, as its pertaining to the fundamental ways i was processing... engaging w/ internal and external, thoughts, feelings, emotions, et caetera, et caetera... And because of that, that notebook is really afflictive in nature, torturous to read and get through. Like. Even when it seems to resolve towards the end.. it just feels like, even beginning every thought with "Paradox" feels like theres a glitch. Regardless of the subject matter, that philosophical side of life is always a kind of liquid ink available, to which i try to enjoy & dipinto, messing around with the painting of such things that i am to perceive or realize. Its like "Can i write without the word paradox coming up every page, ruining the work?" Like, it ruined that notebook of mine (or atleast, i feel it did, based on what i think the subject matter was to have been). Like its not that the paradox invoking is a bad thing necessarily, per say, but the repetitive reminder of it is prolly bad, to me, and towards what im trying to do. It ceases to mean what it means when its another fledgling spinner ~ spinning out of control; Another cascade of emotion that you've found yourself stuck in... Alas, this is sortve why i even would write in the first place, and yet not many people openly are burdened by it, i dont think? Or maybe not this one specifically. So in trying to write about the relative self, that is a constant reminder that im always making note of, and then regretting that i even acknowledged it.
  23. Yeah, I'm fearful of that as well.. it's creating a fair amount of anxiety every time I plug waiting for onset
  24. To achieve what? It depends on the goal. Love? Money? Happiness? success? Self-realization? ect. And the next question would be: what do you have that you would be willing to sacrifice? For example, if the goal was self-realization would you be willing to give up making as much money?
  25. None of it matters. This his lawyer against the state right? If he gets some time fuck him. He played his cards. If I had to do real time I would be ready to find God. For real. I hope he does. It might be his door We all have a window. When it opens up you need to stick your head out.
  26. Today I tried 50mg and felt almost nothing.. Waited 30 mins and then went to take a shit and it hit me while on the toilet as I released my bowles. Not a breakthrough, but somewhat close. I figured perhaps I just didn't clear my bowels enough.. So I tried 50mg again 30 mins later.. and again nothing with a slight kick when I took a shit again.. similar to a sub breakthrough vape. It does seem to be able to absorb through that area, but only while passing stool.. I thought holy fuck, i'm gonna breakthrough while taking a shit lol.. not the most relaxed location, but perhaps in the end it doesn't matter.. Would this indicate that I'm still too low? or plugging improperly? I'm using vinegar with freebase, crushing the crystals, inserting the syringe about half way, slow plunge and then sitting still. Seems kinda strange to get almost zero effect with 50mg. Just keep testing and upping the dose to 65mg and then 80mg? Thoughts and suggestions welcome
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