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  2. Nothing ever really worked for me apart from ADHD meds. So, my intuition points to ADHD being legit.

  3. Finished the LP course

    Jannes replied to Jannes's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    I have had the thought before that humans may be striving for some sort of chaos because thats what their psyche needs. A super orderly and perfect world isnt acceptable because things like struggle and war are needed elements for the human experience. I recently got that exact same intuition reflected somewhere else. Its just speculation but it originates somewhere. I think this is something that could be discovered in a few centuries and then be common knowledge. But because humanity might have peaked in the 2000s, its time to experience humans fucking up/ manifesting that inner strive for a balance of peace and chaos.
  4. What impact did the course make in your life?

  5. Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread

    Rafael Thundercat replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    This is the sort of Rationality science make people do https://www.instagram.com/reel/DegTMxLzjZV/?exln=c3ZkczZ0N3BmYzg5 Sounds so profound but ..
  6. That was the case on every subsequent trip. Nothing in the way anymore. Ego fucks off early because it learned its lesson. I would trip with the expressed intent of getting there ASAP so I could maximize the amount of time I had in the space. Worked out well enough for the time I indulged in them.
  7. Row, row, row your boat gently down the stream merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily Life is but a dream.
  8. Bro knows ball
  9. Consciousness
  10. lmao
  11. In the UK this doesn't matter anymore because porn is already banned for under 18s
  12. Pornography is a great litmus test for a government's respect for liberty. I get the under 18s banning. But banning on grounds of performed incest and choking is too far.

  13. How to not destroy my house on 5-meo?

    Willy Phallicus replied to Vynce's topic in Psychedelics

    There's no Willy Phallicus. No ego calling the shots. Dad woke up from his sunday morning nap and decided to see what the kid was up too and dominates the room when he enters into it. I can do better than that. I can point to it. Its whatever you are experiencing right now. Thats the miracle. You're that miracle. Reality isn't veiled, its your perception. As William Blake so eloquently put it, "If the doors of perception were cleansed everything would appear to man as it is, infinite." Because theres a difference (except there isnt - the paradox that cant be resolved from the human perspective) between Self with a capital S and self with a little one. Its not one or the other its both - you can look through either end of the telescope you choose. When Jesus takes the wheel you have no doubts about what you're experiencing. You're both creator and creation wrapped up in one splendid shiny bow. Then you go back to ego because the game is more interesting to play that way. The stakes become real again. Conversations and sex aren't awkward. Food is something you look forward too, you have people you can love and hate etc etc But conversing, with a loved one, post ego death, reveals unto the observer the mechanics of how everything is working "behind the scenes" so to speak but is really in front of your face every waking moment. The idea of no separation goes from guesswork to lived experience and it all clicks for you.
  14. I think smoking cigarettes and weed and alcohol are a completly different category then masturbation. Like its a pretty basic need of your body. You can cut delicious cheeseburgers, but you cant cut eating at all. I figured out a more boring solution for myself. I learned to notice the difference between masturbation as a physiological need, like when my body just needed to get a load off and masturbation as a way to escape reality, like when I had a though task to do and all of the sudden feel the "need" to masturbate instead. The second one is where you get all the cons of masturbation from in my experience. I just try to be more and more mindful of my masturbation habit.
  15. I think thats actually true. Lust is definitely a deadly sin without wanting to be all christian about it but men (and women) do a lot of shit to get sex. But the thing is, thats nothing new to society and women are somewhat prepared for that and they are also interested in sex. So there is a bit of mutual understanding going on. But most men should probably still be trying to look more for a personality match with a girl then just maximum sexual opportunism.
  16. I've decided that it was time to do it for once. I took three pipes and filled them with bufo alvarius. The first pipe: I started to feel how I was losing my mind, how everything was melting and becoming fractal-like. I was scared as fuck. My hands were shaking while I was still lighting the pipe. I felt like I was dying. Some part of me was still being aware of my room and my body. The second pipe: I started to see the pipe as if it was dimensionless, it was still in my hands but it had no size, it was just being, in that moment I stopped to know that I was mixcoatl, you know, it's like I was still there but I was not Mixcoatl anymore. I felt how everything became an infinite field of consciousness, only experience, with no owner. I couldn't distinguish what what's that object for. The third pipe: My room fully disappeared and a mixture of experiences appeared. It was like I was seeing but there were no eyes to see that, rather, it was like visions and thoughts just appearing... Suddenly I was fully aware of my entire life, I was living every second of my life, everything at once. I was aware of every person in my life, all of them at the same time, but they weren't entities like I perceive them in sober state, they were appearing in myself, I was totally aware how they were mind... I recognized how I was omnipresent, not in space, not in time, but EVERYTHING was occurring in me and I was occurring as these things were happening. There wasn't any kind of judgement or definition of the things that were occurring. I felt the most absolute tranquility and peace ever and there was not worry at all... There was not an agenda to fulfill, no one missing to know, nothing to worry about... I was complete... And it was the most beautiful thing! For the first time ever, I felt the nothingness. How there was nothing behind these experiences happening... How actually those experiences are made of nothing. I was that nothing. No distinction between anything. When it manifests is like it knows thyself... And it's the truest thing that can be. Since then, I'm trying to bring to my life this beauty and tranquility to my life by knowing that no matter what happens, everything will be perfect and complete forever.
  17. They are you , ultimately. Just different expressions of the same energy of oneness. apparent diversity and multiplicity in appearance, but same substance.
  18. Today
  19. This is a quote from Ramakrishna. He wouldn’t even allow most of his disciples to study nonduality, because they weren’t pure enough. The ancient gurus of India understood that humans are very impure, and purification has to come before truth. So, for most people – find an image of God and worship.

  20. Journal :Let's talk sex

    Someone here replied to Someone here's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Yeah reviving this journal . Pretty cringe shit I said back in the days lol.
  21. You don't have to pretend humanity isn't its own bitter enemy that is constantly seeking its own destruction. Its okay to acknowledge that. Rule numero uno, judge not lest ye be judged. Don't turn that into an identity to operate from. Otherwise you're no better than what you rail against. You have to like, be conscious and shit.
  22. The uni kicked two of the frats out after their own internal investigation (but without involving police probably to maintain their reputation). The uni deemed it bad enough to kick out wealthy paying customers. It tilts the scale of probability if nothing else. We should call them frats from now on. Suits them better.
  23. @Willy Phallicus Or if you get lucky go straight to the Godhead.
  24. Thats like sying video games make you violent which is a plausible theory but in reality that doesnt seem to be the case. Seems like people can differentiate (this sort of) fantasy and the real world pretty well.

  25. How to not destroy my house on 5-meo?

    Adrian colby replied to Vynce's topic in Psychedelics

    Could you explain what you mean by Christ consciousness and how you can discern what is really happening if what you’re describing here is still a state of identifiable boundaries and distinctions that’s being interpreted through the lens of a ‘self’?

  26. Journal :Let's talk sex

    Someone here replied to Someone here's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    There is no point in doing semen retention. I really can’t handle the pent up sexual energy I accumulate whenever I abstain from masturbation for two weeks at least . I get spontaneous erections , sexual dreams , I become angry , I feel tension etc . Once every two weeks is healthy .
  27. Because it's probable. I'm not partial to the girl, but going through all that trouble just for a payout, knowing what frat boys are like and being smeared left and right, is improbable. I apologize if you feel besmirched.
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