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  2. Just understanding what a strawberry is doesn’t make me like it. For example find somebody who dislikes strawberries and tell him everything there is to know about strawberries. It won’t change his taste.
  3. Wtf, you mean like he had a wingman who was openly a fan of rape? Is there a video?
  4. Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #179~ Mon Jul 27'26 Daily goals: Shower: 7 Groom hair: 7 Brush teeth: 7 Floss: 7 Make bed: 0 Meditate: 1 No porn: 1 No ejaculation: 7 Eat 150 g of protein: 6 No electronics after 11pm: 5 Brush teeth before bed: 1 Wash face before bed: 1 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 0 Give yourself a haircut: 1 Meal prep 2x a week: 0 Do laundry: 1 Clean room: 1 Clean car: 1
  5. It gives me some of highest and most stable consciousness of God. Hours of stability and clarity. Almost no psychedelic is that stable for me. Finding a stable, deep psychedelic that is clear and lasts a long time is hard. Most psychedelics are pretty chaotic, wavy, weird, inconsistent.
  6. Disowned royals when a movie director is at the party
  7. It was winter 2024 I did it, so I don’t remember everything but yes I know I l lost some in heating process or some was left unheated, didn’t manage to achieve large cloud, only a bit, tried about 5 times, managed to get a few times very noticeable fast onset effect but not so strong so that’s why I called it mild. Felt like peak lasted one min max lol. Not sure if that’s normal too. Yes there was almost no border left, but it didn’t add richness in contrast to baseline, only removed, so very “dead” like state. It seemed it was approaching “unconsciousness”. That’s cool you were able to observe the psyches process like that, I called the unraveling “melting” when I tried to describe it in my mind after, but it was so quick seems almost impossible to register So what kind of state is it when you’ve dissolved that regular mental sense of self, then there’s still experience of being behind the eyes in the head (I use word being differently than you here), in the body, but not so thick boundary, then still a structure there, but it feels more purely “neurological”, and you see your minds eye, hear your thoughts and they also are aspect of your sense of self but not “stuck” in a larger mental structure like before. It’s all softer, flowing more, also energies inside that weren’t felt before, also are what you experience yourself as, kinda. So yes still form. And also consciousness for me feels like I’m aware of myself like I described, and also aware of all the rest, so even “consciousness” for me I feel is something innate to myself. But it’s also broad term so it can be used differently But even if I can’t relate directly experimentally to what you wrote, I still find I can kinda imagine what you’re saying, maybe it’s one layer less than what I have now, then so on, just some guess. So that’s why I ask, as I naturally try to make sense of my experience
  8. People like you when you give more value than you take. That is what is charisma is in my opinion. No free lunch. You can learn a bunch of passive social skills which make you more likable which is useful, but you can always try harder to impress people. Learning about this stuff I realized that I only care about making people like me to a certain degree. I think that's normal. I could suck harder if I really wanted to.
  9. The Russian doll analogy illustrates congruence, a nesting chain, where the specificity, the details, are becoming less and less differentiated the further down it goes, just like self-inquiry. Agreed. Then what? Where will your attention go?
  10. “you” is the story of This. 🤔
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  12. What is weed like for you, and what is so good about it? How does it compare to other psychedelics?
  13. 🫪 Disliking strawberries is a personal preference. Disliking or discriminating against someone because they’re a woman is prejudice. You’re conflating completely different things by hiding them under the word “preference.”
  14. Not really. We don't really care about your preferences. This issue is about understanding. Bias is a lack of understanding. A bias towards women means that women are not being understood accurately, for themselves. Regardless of your personal preferences, you should be interested in understanding women accurately, for themselves, not for you. This is not about whether you like strawberries, but about whether you even understand what a strawberry is. Eating and liking strawberries is different from understanding them.
  15. To be fair, there's right ways and wrong ways to do almost anything. Lifting up a community which is oblivious to the harm it causes, would not be the right way to raise up a community. Further, if politically, the American government is susceptible to influence, for good or for bad, from many, then perhaps the problem lies in the American government's politicians who are easy to corrupt. The good news is, historically, Jewish people never agree on politics. In Israel, Natanyahu was elected with less than 30% of the vote among a cadre of candidates. He's not popular, but, he's in charge anyway. As long as Jewish people remain divided we won't be able to do much harm in the political arena as a community. Granted each and every individual, Jewish or not, has the potential to do horrible things to many people. The question here is about a community.
  16. @AION I was just explaining, relax.
  17. Yup. I mean those 10.000 serious people and all we know about the universe until now... all the planets and galaxies etc. makes for a strong case. There is basically 0% chances that only humans made it to this level of intelligence in the whole universe. There are just too many stars and galaxies.
  18. You could do that but to me it seems oo waste the potential of this form is to disregard it and remain in the openness of being total. The perfect move is to achieve that openness at will and then perceive yourself as form, but always with a density low enough so that the absolute is perceived in every moment. Then the absolute and form are a synergy, not two opposites.
  19. Men Sadghuru once recommended recording yourself throughout the day to truly become conscious of how much dumb shit you do throughout the day. I was always scared of that, probably because it was to potent.
  20. New tools for my RV practice. I should record myself doing the practice. That can show me when I am more in myself vs when I am out my myself. I can also draw letters beautifully to get into focus. I can talk to the piece of paper or to the point or whatever I focus on. ... And he gave me an okay for the festival to take a break from RV.
  21. From my perspective there is a kind of mistake or maybe a contradiction there, maybe you will agree or not The nature of reality, what reality is, is absolute being, that is, the fact of being that has no opposite in non-being, since non-being is not. So, if you open yourself to your total nature, you realize that you are that, you are the fact of being. This is not something neutral; it is positive and alive, full, plenitude, everything, as you know. But it's ' positive" in the sense that it is affirmative, that it is, and alive in the sense that it exists, and this existence manifest inevitably in relational flow. This "positive" has zero relation to positive according to a local perspective programmed to prefer A over B. The suffering derived from this is also positive, because it is. From the perspective of total being, there is no difference between being a homeless guy with five cancers being eaten by rats while their parents laugh at him and a cyborg sentient being who dominates the universe. Both are, both exist, period. The difference is local, not essential. But the reality is that from the local perspective, form exists, relational flow occurs, and it creates patterns of brutal complexity and enormous beauty. This pattern that we are can be understood and aligned in a huge level. Maybe there is a kind of continuity after death, it's impossible to know, but seems that this cycle that is happening has a drive, points in a direction. From an absolute perspective maybe it's irrelevant, but from a local perspective it's absolutely relevant, every movement has consequence, cause and effect that unfolds beyond our understanding. So what I mean is that even the nature of everything is immutable and absolute, it's manifestation is cause effect relationship and always it's going to be, because existing implies manifestation. There is no being without happening, it's not a possibility.
  22. Damn, this is beautifully put.
  23. @Alexop You are right that we cannot be 100% sure about an unobserved thing. But of course if 10,000 serious people say they witnessed a thing, we must take that claim seriously. That doesn't mean we believe it. It just means we start to consider that scenario seriously, and start looking for more evidence. The notion that all UFO talk is just a hoax or delusion really strains credulity. At some point, denying all the witnesses becomes more outlandish than just accepting that aliens could be flying around Earth. Do we know for sure that OJ Simpson killed his wife? No. But there is enough evidence there that I would be comfortable convicting him. Could I be wrong? Yes. But so could the skeptics. At the end of the day, we all have to place our bets. My bet is on aliens.
  24. You don't need to think it, you will suffer enormously just from being alive.
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