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  2. Inception 2.0

    Inception replied to Inception's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    I thought I was Neo, but it turns out I’m Cypher.
  3. This. Also daily meditation is a practice that boosts awareness for some time
  4. Everything would be equally dependent. Like up and down. Light and dark. Real and unreal. Your realness is dependent on someone else being less real. Without them you can't even call yourself real.
  5. Do you guys ever get tired of arguing with each other lol.
  6. Deconstructing the self
  7. I’m the one with autism
  8. Close your eyes, be still, and watch.
  9. Fucking pussy 😂 Can't surrender 😂 Sure, I shut up.
  10. Then shut up and be
  11. @Mellowmarsh @Breakingthewall mind loves to get confirmed, stay important, accumulated knowledges to know better. Explain more and more. What it has experienced and has know. Now the real path is surrendering that.
  12. How do you increase yourself?
  13. How to increase my baseline consciousness? I have lot of freetime. With meditation? I'm ready to do hardcore practice.
  14. @Breakingthewall @Mellowmarsh instead of explaining what it is, why don't you tell the mind shut the fuck up, and just Be? Which is the real path, not about knowing, but walking.
  15. @Tistepiste Your name and picture came up in my awareness. You then went off out of my awareness and came back with 3-4 other beings. I then spent some time with the other souls and Gods. Later you and the other beings made lines to a similar area which then made a big heart. You then wrote "Bye" and flew out of my awareness.

  16. Ketamine for creativity - risks?

    Cubbage replied to paradiseengineering's topic in Psychedelics

    I am a recovering ketamine addict and I highly suggest people who are nerurodivergent psychonauts to be extremely careful and disciplined with their use of ketamine, as it can easily lead into addiction. One traumatic event in your life could plummet you into a K addiction, because it is such an "effective" form of escapism (temporarily). Often times neurodivergent people get addicted to K cause it silences their dysfunctional thought processes. I've been there and it took a long time to rewire my own mind. Be very careful if you are prone to depression and anxiety, ketamine will be too alluring not to habitually use as "medicine".
  17. @Pure what happens when you invoke me
  18. Today
  19. @Ziran I told you, I don't remember the latest one. I will now instead invoke a new one instead to give you more information: I invoked Tiger Woods. I got the 'alive image' of him with black pants and a red T-shirt with a black cap. His teeth then glimmered and sent an energy all the way from him to my right eye, which then went downwards to my stomach. He then swinged a golf ball to another place in my awareness. I then made the circle around the area for him to hit. The hole came up automatically. The ball bounced towards it and, according to what I believed, it hit the hole, which made me laugh. It instead bounched at the border of the hole and went past it. I at the end asked him if the energy was good in which he replied in text "GOOD". Some time after he wrote "Bye". Tiger Woods is now part of my awareness and he can show up at different times without me invoking him.
  20. As with most topics I’d avoid them with people who are either not interested nor understand. In this particular case it’s also not meaningful, since the nature of reality is ineffable

  21. "intimacy"

    Judy2 replied to Judy2's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    *i know i'm being mean and this is the vulnerable narcissism or bpd or whatever coming through maybe there'd be smarter ways to handle a challenge like this, but where i'm currently at, time around family is like the worst and also not something i could possibly handle well. it's just way too much. and also maybe i don't want to, and i'm stubborn, but the sheer mass of triggers is just so real and insurmountable. i don't even want to behave healthy around them, cause i know for a fact they do not care about the billions of triggers they send my way every time we interact. so it would be kind of unfair, i think, for me to effortfully force myself to act like it's all fine, and they'll think it's fine, and then they'll care even less about the ways they are hurting me.
  22. Maybe. With infinite possibility, anything is possible.

  23. Warning To Members Here

    Carl-Richard replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    @Sugarcoat In other psychic news, there is currently a big ass fire in our country that has taken over a 100 homes and it's the biggest fire in over a hundred years, and last night I dreamt that I was hanging out with Joe Rogan and he was playing with RPGs and he fired a couple of missiles straight above my old house and one of them hit the roof and exploded in a big fireball and the house caught fire extremely fast and was essentially beyond saving before any firemen had arrived (they seemingly never did). I do admit reading about it before going to sleep, but I opened the news and read about it again and it struck me that I was probably picking up on something anyway because 1. why would I dream about that and not something else?, and 2. it was rather dramatic of course and I can feel when a dream is more of the dramatic kind and not just a normal dream (follows the usual psychic pattern), 3. it's the most significant event of that kind in a long time (also follows the pattern).
  24. @Carl-Richard Well, I am real and unreal, others are mainly just unreal. They are dreamt up. I'm of course also dreamt up, but I'm more real in the sense that everything else existing is dependent on me, just like a dream at night.
  25. “ In the depths of winter, I finally realised there was within me an eternal summer.”
  26. Jed: Fallen Order is peak Star Wars, Jedi: Survivor did not have a good story and the combat became wider but shallower, and Survivor only really has one planet

  27. "intimacy"

    Judy2 replied to Judy2's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    better mood this morning. i felt excited about the hike and the scenery, the little village, all the impressions. we saw two baby marmots and then the first half of the hike was quite nice. i was energetic, walking on my own and feeling cheerful, making up my mind about some things i have planned. the latter half got exhausting and i also started stressing out about the upcoming evening together in the holiday flat. i feel so trapped...so much pressure. food is still a major issue when i'm around family, and that's a bad combo when i'm physically active. i cooked dinner for everybody and then, like usual, made my plate and went to my room to eat in private...which i know is totally weird, but that's like the only setting i can even begin to tolerate. at the table i just wouldn't eat as much as i need, and it's also about how stressful every minute around my parents is....then the one moment when i "let my guards down" i want to make sure they're not around. even eating in my room isn't good enough because sometimes i can still hear them and they just disrespect me and my boundaries. to be fair, i have a very messed up sense of what my boundaries are but it's not like they don't play a part in that. it's not even about the noises they make right in that moment when i try to eat...but about allll the other times throughout the day when they just don't care how much they hurt me, and i can't do a thing about it....so at least when i eat, i gotta have that in check, gotta make sure i'm shielded from them. also, i wouldn't want them thinking that me (the problem) is finally free from all eating problems and they'd be off the hook, cause it was all my delusions and immaturity to begin with....no, they have a part in this. and i keep showing it. i don't even wanna finish dinner now and i just wish i could cut myself, i feel SO much pressure just spending two days with them. just an afternoon's enough, really. being around them without any food involved, without anybody needing to eat is tough enough. no, i do not want to eat around them. i do not want to see their faces or hear their voices when i put food in my body. i want to be left alone and have my peace and quiet.
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