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  2. This is spiritual competing, not gardening competing you guys
  3. @Zenterus I would say the basic is this, Your stuck in Your lower center areas, energy wise that is, centers that are related solely with Survival instinct, procreation and things of this nature, as well Your hormones are leading You in that direction of where Your thoughts are centered.. Start some sort of Breath work, calm Your system down, observe a space btwn what is You and not You, gain some perspective.. When it comes to urges, release them, don't resist it, but replace the urges with more empowering feelings and experiences, once Your energies rise up to higher levels then you naturally feel more peaceful and blissful, this will replace the feelings to find sexual satisfaction/validation, its a process that takes some time and dedication/focus, but try it out slowly...
  4. It required me to see Charlie Kirk's assassination to open my eyes to the level of darkness ruling this world and start digging deeper. It's so bad....
  5. Having a body land on you randomly without your knowledge can be very annoying. ^-^ when it happened I immediately said “what the fuck man?” And shoved the person’s body off me. Definitely should be a better way of communicating that someone is crowd surfing. I personally thought it was only the singers that did that. Not the crowd? I 100% heard all the bones in my neck pop. At first I thought I died or something lmfao, but a couple of seconds later I realized “oh something/someone landed on me” The music going on in front of you you don’t really pay attention to what’s going on behind you. even some people shoved pretty aggressively to get to the front which annoyed me pretty badly. Immediately I said “hey hey man you can say excuse me be careful you’re going to knock someone down” this dude was huge, and if you fall in a crowd like this you can be trampled on. I was relived to see others making sure no one was on the ground for too long if they had fallen.
  6. 15.12.25 1. To do list 2. Follow to do list 3. Top 3 prioritees Logistics setup Remote career setup List everything online to sell Decide set date for moving - fuck realism, have a specific date & a goal > everything framed around that challenge, need to push Learning, Growth & Practice this week Boldness & noticing + conquering Fear Decisiveness & Rapid, Massive Action (No theory loops, no hesitation) Sticking to core priorities list, following tasks rapidly, having structure Growth & Learning tools : Understanding fear part 1 - Act.org Discussion about Boldness with Chat GPT Introspection - Act.org Reprogramming, Visualization, Self Talk - Writing down + audio recording affirmations & repeating every morning & night
  7. Alas, seems like you're an experienced fella and know what you're talking about
  8. These grifters will need to go to jail, Huang, Altman, Nadella, Ellison. This is like reverse 2008, we're actively choosing the crash..... Idiocracy
  9. The 5 - 190 Euro range wouldnt be a problem though as after 10 weeks you get into the 50 Euro range. In case that will be relevant.
  10. My RV trainer responded. He seems pissed. Terrible sign.
  11. On Friday night I took my biggest trip of my life. I had recently taken a 700ug trip and I experienced a lot of positive benefits, I experience more positive benefits as I take bigger doses of LSD. So I went to a campsite in Enfield north London and bought a small wooden cabin for a couple of nights. I was scared but ready to do it. At around 6pmish I took it. The effects came on quite quickly and before I knew it I was sitting there quite afraid that somebody was going to come into my cabin for whatever reason. My experience was brimming with aliveness. it was kind of like an intense sound was happening within me, it was a new level of intenseness. I thought I would be able to control myself and just stay in my cabin for the length of the trip. I was very wrong, I ended up walking around outside of my cabin and basically screaming and creating a massive disturbance, I essentially experienced psychosis. I was jumping around the campsite smashing my head against walls, shouting, purposefully injuring my body. I lost all sense of social rules, i tried to get into peoples caravans and grabbed random people. eventually the police got called and they put me into handcuffs. In the end i ended up in A&E they were asking me what year I was born what my name was things like this, I could barely answer. I actually knew some of the answers but I was kind of questioning the reality of my name and birth etc, I wasn't sure if it was honest. It was weirdly liberating this experience but this is basically what you shouldn't do, If you want to do a massive trip be warned you may lose completely yourself. I hope it did good things to the people who saw it, I'm sorry to the police officers who I scared.. Love and blessings , good luck to those who are on the path of psychedelics
  12. In a nutshell, what is the conspiracy ? Because I'm not seeing the link between for example Sam Altman being Jewish, and the far right government in Israel killing babies in Gaza ?
  13. Thank you! Thank you very much! I`ve been selling courses on programming and other courses how to pass national exams in my country, but the content of these courses was crappy. Maybe that`s why I didn`t excel at sales.
  14. It makes sense if English is your second language. For the record, I was learning English the same way. Each time I would stumble upon a new word, I would memorise its spelling as well. Like Kanji. But is it sustainable for the native English speakers? It makes more sense to change the spelling system and make it simpler and more similar to the Russian or Spanish ones
  15. Yeah, some people see sex as something to 'get', not really to enjoy and to light up someone’s face. If you really are good at pickup and sex, and women love you, its tough to give it up. A good strategy is to have a a few fuck-buddies and meet 1-2 times per week max. You get the best, without all the chasing and time wasting. Now, if you really want to grow, you have to give that up. I did that a couple years ago when I went deep with actualized.org and get great results! But I regressed. I blamed myself for falling back, but I realize that is part of the game. There is no linear growth. If you are attractive and have game (and you feel validation for pulling chicks) is worse. Have you ever noticed? All spiritual gurus are ugly and introverted. The temptation for them is lower. If you cant get girls or if you have to work super hard for them, its easier to go in the spiritual path. Thats why you don’t see chad yoguis. If you are in your 20s/30s and you can open an app and get quick dates and lays… it takes willpower and a big deep vision for yourself. Its not easy. Wage slavery and pussy addiction are the 2 biggest problems in this path. My best guess is: Give it up for 3-6 months and tell yourself that you will come back to game after that period of growth. By that time the desire for women will melt, not all, but a bit. In that intermittent way you can let it go. Little by little.
  16. Maybe might find this video interesting. He's a pick-up/ self-dev coach who had a fucked up childhood. I used to watch this video all the time when my life fell apart, was tormented and was on welfare. Most meaningful video on the internet to me. (I'd skip the ad at 2:00 - 3:15)
  17. If you've ever smoked a sub breakthrough dose of NN DMT, and gazed upon a clear sky full of stars, do you mind attempting to share what you may have seen and or experienced. Words are very difficult and I know you wont be able to capture everything if anything at all, but I am curious to ask about anyone's experience regardless. I myself smoked a 25mg dose last week, two big tokes, out of a glass pipe, at midnight under an un light polluted sky. the experience I had is practically impossible to recount of course, but there was one curious aspect that I wanted to share. First of all, the stars became much much closer than I had ever had them before. Often when I do DMT my world is contained in this fish bowl of sorts, with pillars stretching out into the space in a room of sorts. As I witnessed the stars, now closer than ever, and within this fish bowl, the constellations seemed to form "temples" in 3d within this room of pillars, and it felt as though I was in contact with ancient Gods, it felt like a council, and I was on full display for them. I was particularly fixed on the constellation of Orion's belt. As I came down I also noticed still a "ceiling" to the stars where they were connected on this 3d black tessellation pattern which visually was rather interesting and gestured to a past experience I had. When I used to do LSD there was always a web that id see connecting the stars, and every time Id ask people who were tripping if they saw it , and usually they do. This though was something MORE. There is so much more to this than I can word but it was a very powerful and curious trip and I just want to hear what other people may have seen when ingesting this molecule and beholding our good friends in the sky. Also this is my first post here, this has just been on my mind this week and I figured this is a good place to share and maybe read some other recounts. Not necessarily strictly DMT either. Thanks for reading. Much Love.
  18. Phonetics is so damn important. Trying to learn a second language taught me this. I struggled a ton and eventually shelved learning Portuguese because my phonetics were so weak.
  19. When i posted this stuff 20 years ago they called me the crazy conspiracy theorist, now everyone is posting it lol I saw this coming, truth prevails !
  20. @integral I think it’s fair to say environmental chemicals can be relevant for some people, especially those with chemical sensitivities, but the evidence doesn’t support them being the main cause of chronic fatigue overall, this appears to be an over generalisation on your part based from your beliefs. These illnesses have multiple overlapping biological drivers, so learning about environmental factors may be useful for some individuals, but unfortunately it's not accurate nor ethical to frame it as the core cause for everyone.
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  22. Jewish people are good at business. Would I be correct in saying that most of the people on this list are probably against the killing of babies in Gaza ?
  23. AGI isn’t possible until there is a serious jump in overall development and consciousness with the tech bros and society as a whole to have the infrastructure to sustainably support that. It’s like trying to fly to the stars in mediaeval Europe. Engineers made all these strange flying contraptions and machines and promised a lot but they had fundamental misunderstandings underlying them and a massive gap in understanding to truly transcending into a reality where it was actually possible to fly. That takes a lot of time, trial and error and development. Eventually it came with further advancements. Right now we are being shown the weird flying contraptions and of course they have no problems lying and propping them up with strings to make it appear as if they are flying.
  24. except for a few instances of feeling energised and many instances of feeling stressed, i've been feeling so bored these past few days. so bored. such a weird problem to have.
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