Xstream

Showing all content.

This stream auto-updates   

  1. Past hour

  2. I'm self-obsessed with my life-story

    ROOBIO replied to WonderSeeker's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Absolutely, it is perfect. In a ridiculous way. For the past 3 years, I have lived in 10+ of countries across the world, dating women from these countries. And now I am catapulted into the Himalayas and i'm sitting alone on a ridge at Kasar Devi with one backpack that holds everything I own. I got initiated into Kriya Yoga by this guru: I have met crazy, fun people here, had cool experiences with some girls. On paper the setup is clean, savings in the bank, a remote startup with a friend that is making money, no dependents, no lease, no debt, no drama. Then I close the laptop, drop some lsd mics blindfolded or do four hours of kriya a day. I have come and handled cobras, come across crocodiles on the beach. It has been wild. My heart is yearning for a girl I left out of fear. I'm 30 and I miss her. The woman I had the apex with, multiple cities, sex, depth, all-day presence, crying together. I miss it violently. The contrast is almost funny. We still communicate through cryptic instagram stories like children, opening the wound of regret and pain. It's ridiculous because diving deep into the universe whilst holding heartbreak in the same chest.
  3. I agree with this so much. I never really sought out stopping of the avoidant patterns in my life and facing my own inner misery. I was forced by life to do it.
  4. What I witness here is horror, most likely will kill a bottle of wine, there is just to much lust for knowledge and some souls are already sold and should be dead, especially these whores crying for body. I can read more astrology but this cosmology is to high for average shittwats
  5. I wonder some ppl should definitely be hanged and dead, because they pull-out medicine and just sell it to a higher price, just the start of imperalism 101. The core issue of the ex, is she is a fake envious jealous witch, such ppl should be decapitated, burned and sold to the devil, which she already is. This is by far the dumbest shit, I have seen I found a vape pen from holland for 25 bucks, but the core issue is the corruption of science, and not being properly hybrid, they steadily extract, at one point I will snap. I even want my money from leo gura back technically, it's not enough just sufficient, and I hate this bolshivitic tendencies that I found, because of power abuse and lack of development for autonomey in cooperation. These priviledges, do come free, but talent is despised by power.
  6. @James123 I was simply pointing out that "Is there a program/ camp that would force me to be enlightened" is not the correct mindset to have.
  7. This country is pure garbadge economy up&down, constantly causing warfar, and the core issue of medicine itself, is not solved, just consumerism and trash humans, being trash humans that they truly are
  8. You have no gut to die, so totally normal. Enlightenment is not your or mine priority, it is a suicide mission. Go understand, experience God, infinite, with Leo and explain how beautiful it is, which is your priority 😆
  9. @James123 The other day you asked,, "You serious?" about not making enlightenment your priority. Yes. I was serious.

  10. How old is everyone here?

    WonderSeeker replied to Zenterus's topic in Dating, Sexuality, Relationships, Family

    28, prime time I don't think it's an accident that I've heard so many men into self development say these are the years where it all pays off
  11. @Miguel1 it's rare. Even here. It is a big part of embodiment and grounding in the work. In my own journey - the things I wouldn't face, self trust, feelings of unworthiness, imposter syndrome... I seemed to find myself in situations again and again where I was faced with the same issues. Each time I ignored the issue - the next time it cropped up it was louder. Louder. Until it was screaming so hard I couldn't ignore it any longer. The pain of remaining in that space was worse than the pain of finally facing it. That pattern repeated for me until I was ready to face it. I contributed to it appearing in retrospect. Perhaps you haven't heard the screaming full force .. yet. Maybe you have. Only experience taught me self trust. Relationships have a way of fast tracking spiritual growth and being a mirror for all your shit. Done right, conscious ones, bring up as much pain as joy. The pain of growth. The only way is to just risk it all and be open to opportunities. What you seek might not be where you would look - or who you think you need to look for. Maybe you don't know what's best for you? I sure didn't ❤️
  12. Nice thread @Miguel1 and co. Reading through it has been insightful and I definitely relate to it, having done insane amounts of inner work causing me to redefine how I relate to others. Honestly, and this is more on the external support factors as @LordFall discussed, a big reason I moved to Asia (soon China) is because it pays well in my industry (money not an issue for the flow of dating) and there is FAR MORE femininity here than in North America at the moment. The best girl I ever dated was from Mongolia when I was there in 2022. Even though it was a short relationship — due to me having to move back to the states — we connected deeply VERY fast because I felt so good with her I was able to be simultaneously highly masculine/dominant and feminine in smart, calibrated ways. For example, sexually, taking the lead was a ton of fun and very smooth. Afterwords we would sit there in bed and start talking about deep things. At one point she even was like "ooooh that's DEEEP," but we kept talking about that topic anyways. Then later I said, "Wanna see me cry? There's this song that has a lot of meaning for me and it makes me cry every time." She of course enthusiastically said she wanted to see me cry. So, I did. She went crazy for me after that. The day I left she blew up my phone, sad to see me go. We wrote letters after. So, this is proof that these deeper connections are out there. I don't have much experience outside of her, because the rest of the woman I've ever dated came from fucked up backgrounds. I agree with you @Miguel1 in the sense that trauma healing and the desire to genuinely connect is more important than high spiral development; what matters more is healthy spiral development. A girl acn be say orange/green like my example, but also healthy because she isn't clinging to it if that makes sense. Nothing is holding her back from connection and openness. I'm going with my gut because personally I think the west is cooked in terms of dating. I am so turned off by 95% of the women in western countries; that's not a put-down against them, it's just a preferential line in the sand I've drawn because hardened, masculine women are basically men with tits and long hair. I am massively confident about moving to China to find such women to open up with. I have the same desire as you, and I think they are out there when you look in the right places.
  13. https://www.instagram.com/reel/DamIzyBvZuO/?igsh=cjFiejY1aW03cjF2
  14. Source: trust me bro.
  15. The issue with NDE’s is a tricky one. I’ve no idea as quite fortunately I’ve never been close to what we call a physical death. So I’m just speculating. But the issue is, with the way dreams (nightly dreams) and memory itself works. I’ve had dreams as such where I’ve been asleep for 3 hours and experienced a dream of a complete 10 day holiday. The whole thing. But in reality what did I really witness in that dream? A time dilation? Or simply just 2/3 hours worth of actual imagery and scenes, with false memories being created to fill in the gaps? Or simply just one image of the end of the holiday, and just false created memory of the previous seeming 10 days. How does this have anything to do with an NDE? Well, when people return from their so called NDE, did they at that instance, simply slightly enter a dream state, and imagine the whole experience at that moment, not actually when they were seemingly dead? Or similarly in the moment just before it was lights out, but then return to believe it happened in that in between time? If your just sat here right now, and all that exists is this, and all memories are imaginary, which I have actually awoken to previously, which sounds completely contradictory, but it actually isn’t, then the creation of a long lasting NDE in a fraction of a second is completely plausible. I’m not saying people are lying with their NDE’s, that they never happened. I’m just making the point is that those that have had them, 99.999% of the people, have no idea what’s actually happened. And definitely the scientists that investigate them, or anyone who does, have not a clue what’s going on. I can conclude one thing for certain though, they are completely imaginary, as is everything else
  16. @Natasha Tori Maru The point is that most people are not willing to do that. Even in our community, which is extremely niched, how maky of us are actually willing to face such fears in ourselves?
  17. I'm still not taking my chances with hell haha

  18. I'm self-obsessed with my life-story

    WonderSeeker replied to WonderSeeker's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    My people. Was it worth it?
  19. Today

  20. What is A.I. for?

    NewKidOnTheBlock replied to Elliott's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events

    Where's your source that proves it's coolness? Is it "trust me bro?"
  21. Awakening is the realization that death is imaginary. What humans call death is actually Infinite Consciousness.
  22. Cool story bro.
  23. I never said it was easy. But it is the only way I know. Absolute trust in myself the fear will not be my undoing. I will endure no matter what happens. This is the only way I know to approach another in total authenticity and vulnerability - by trusting myself. If you don't trust yourself.... This could be at the heart of the issue.
  24. Quit clowning around buddy. The only one wasting time in life is you with this nonsense. If you were as serious as you claim with this work you wouldn't spend all this time crafting a message like this. Remember tier 2 is deeply collaborative. Not an internet addicted know it all.

  25. TS SO PEAK

    NewKidOnTheBlock replied to NewKidOnTheBlock's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Indeed, there is something to be said about our efforts to optimize everything and remove as much negativity from life as possible. The book sounds worth a read or two as well. Perhaps in our efforts to eliminate as much material misery as possible, we have swung (and will continue swinging) too far in the other direction. Thing is, it's actually hard to estimate what an ideal kind of life is, in terms of balance between misery and pleasure, even in the confines of an individual life; so collectively, the pendulum will always keep swinging too far in one direction
  26. @Natasha Tori Maru Facing yourself and your deepest fears is WAY easier said than done.
  27. Some are still waiting for Jesus to return.
  1. Load more activity