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  2. Too many fake jobs in game development now. Imagine needing 2000+ people to make a mediocre uninspired remake of a 20+ YO game that took less than 200 people to develop. Office politics and justifying your payroll become more important than making actual art and weigh down development. No clear decisions are ever made. No one is accountable for anything. That's how you get toxic positivity and lame writing in modern games (see Concord). The budget balloons and safe and samey design rules to hedge the bet. And even when they are successful they will still struggle to just break even. It's like a workout. Over an hour and it's no longer a workout. Over 200 devs and it's no longer a dev team. It's a corporatocracy.

  3. Polygamy- does it work

    Inliytened1 replied to Inliytened1's topic in Dating, Sexuality, Relationships, Family

    And when you're with them you want to kill yourself too 😀 I think we're damned if we do and dammed if we don't!
  4. @Ulax sounds like an American girl
  5. @Monster Energy It's really strange that some of us who got addicted to porn earlier in life, share the experience of this being the most difficult thing to break out of. People who just casually use it can't understand the struggle of it. But also, it's an opportunity to truly look at the impulses and see through them. Not acting on the urges feel like turture sometimes but only through that suffering can it be solved.
  6. @Monster Energy Thanks for sharing 🙏🏻 will check it out.
  7. How is your experience of sleep? Do you sleep? Is it different, how so?

  8. Polygamy- does it work

    Inliytened1 replied to Inliytened1's topic in Dating, Sexuality, Relationships, Family

    What do you mean by high quality? Money and status? Agreed. Kings had multiple women all the time even if they had one wife they had a mistress or two on the side. It was pretty standard.
  9. In my experience people are actually quite flexible over long periods of time. As in if I almost exclusively hang out with feminine people I become more feminine myself, this takes time, months usually. Although in the moment there is not much flexibility.
  10. @bazera I strongly believe his channel will help you a lot on your journey!

  11. Finished the LP course

    Jannes replied to Jannes's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Like you need to accept that you are gonna hurt some people just by trying things out and learning. Going on a second date with someone to see if you match with them and then not wanting anything afterwards is perfectly okay, even if the other person feels rejected or feels like you wasted their time on them.. RIGHT!? How else are you gonna find out.
  12. I’m really sorry to hear that. I genuinely hope you become free from this. But at the level you’re at, logic alone won’t be enough. The ego will tell you anything to keep you trapped, even things like, “Maybe I actually want to be a slave to porn,” or “I don’t want to feel whole without external experiences.” It’s a curse, and it can make you feel like you’re the only person in the world suffering this deeply, like everyone else is nowhere near your level of pain. It may even make you resent women and convince you that they took your life force from you. But that’s another illusion. The problem isn’t the external world. It’s your relationship to it. The ego will do everything it can to make you feel hopeless or convince you that porn is freedom. You have to see through it.
  13. Thanks for sharing, I'm struggling with that at the moment so I can relate to everything you said here. It's really tough.
  14. Barely anyone will understand me when I say this, but I will say it anyway as it needs to be processed and maybe, hopefully, if there isn't an awakening now from me saying it, it'll happen years down the line as some epiphany as a consequence of this moment right here with me expressing what I'm about to say. ~ Starts to loosen his tie ~ What is your first axiom for existence? We all have hidden beliefs that are ultimately running us, by establishing a core axiomatic framework or if not that, just a heart felt truth that reflects your first axiom, the closer that axiom is to not just reality but the truth of you, is in direct correlation with not only what a wonderful life means for you, but what kind of wonderful life is even possible for you. Alright, we have stage one complete, now many of you are probably umming and ahrring and that's okay because its about to become potentially more confusing, while at the same time, very distilled. Distillation however may create conflict relative to underlying beliefs so just be aware of that. Now what is my first axiom and what I tend to believe is the right path for every other human, if I had to choose for them? Every human beings first axiom for their existence is their Inner Light. Not their awareness, sentience or cognition Not their heart, gut, or anything physical Not even their soul per se if that is in fact what humans have and or can have What is Inner Light? It is both your connection to source and your source energy as a being. The more that light goes out, the less wonderful life will seem and it doesn't take much of an imagination by anyone on this forum to consider any number of things that would either reduce one's own light or make their life less wonderful. How does inner light reduce itself in the spirit of the person? They mistake the physical reality as the source of their life, and thus anything that you place in front of _____ physical, that somehow substitutes for and or replaces your inner light as the source of your own highest experience, inclusive of any psychedelics, sex, drugs or addictions of any kind, philosophical content, rants that I make on linguistic form, literally any relationships and or any relationship ties to reality, inclusive of any other conception a human has of themselves like considering themselves as a "human", will reduce your and or any human's inner light relative to that action. Now I could go on and on for many hundreds of words but I won't, perhaps however I should actually write an essay about the subject to share all the interconnections to make it increasingly more relatable for a person, but that's where I would focus if I wanted to create a wonderful life. It is to remove any and all external conceptions of what life has shown one to believe is a wonderful life, and understand that the reality we live in has turned into a casino designed to distract us from our source energy, our inner light, and thus that we must return to, maintain, and strengthen our connection to our inner light as not a life methodology, but the very first axiom we have for any existence at all to manifest before our eyes, before and in order to have and appreciate anything meaningful in our lives and the people we're lucky to experience that meaning, that energy, within our life. If you navigate towards and only from your inner light, and you lead this to empower yourself in every which way you navigate in this fallen world, guess what happens to those around you? They feel empowered to not follow the same path, but to realise the path that was only meant for them is their own inner light that gives source to whatever influence you have and continue to have, and they to you. The more this becomes instructional as its own social intelligence, the stronger communities you will be a part of building and in return they too, will build you. You are not adding anything to another person, and they are not adding anything to you, you are simply pointing out what is already made manifest within yourself and another, and that anything else, is simply the covering, withholding, distraction, subtraction and confusion over the absolute truth of the inner light within that awaits to be ignited through their own self-sight. Have a wonderful life, well, that's the confusing narrative they give you when they pair it with holidays, relationships, money, mansions, etc. Because they're saying "wonderful ife equals external blank", and the deception totally works obviously, our entire capitalistic system feeds on this very simple persuasion. But if you read Victor Frankl's book, "Man's Search For Meaning", you realise, that what I am expressing here is totally analogous to the essence they have attempted to encapsulate to serve as the very purpose for the book itself, that is to say that no matter the struggle, no matter the outward appearance even though my own path is to become a billionnaire simply because I want to create a lot of cool shit and billionnaire can be replaced with something better if it helps me do that, the genuine stable, consistent, strong experience of truly feeling alive, is totally and utterly impossible without the true self-recognition of that untouchable totally intangible yet utterly phenomenologically real, of one's inner light. Inner Light. Wonderful Life. That's all we need, truly. And yes, I would absolutely put it before love as it is if nothing else, though I wouldn't dumb it down to something as simple as love, the precursor for any sustaining abundance of love for all of reality, any situation and all people, regardless as to the struggle. It sounds corny, but sometimes some corny things have a lotta truth to them, but it is important to shine that light of truth on them to give em weight, and this is where the epistemic responsibility falls on investigating the truth within with one's own full social, emotional and cognitive intelligence to separate threads, grains and blocks of truth from falsity. Rock out.
  16. Who said jail is a bad place?
  17. This has to be rage baiting
  18. Intelligence in action
  19. Today
  20. That might work when you’re just starting to get addicted. But when you’re actually deep in it, logic isn’t always enough. You can know exactly what you’re doing and exactly how you’ll feel afterward, and still do it. Because the mind doesn’t just say, “Do it.” It starts bargaining. “One last time.” “You’ll never feel this good again if you quit.” “You can stop tomorrow.” You already know the consequences. The addiction just doesn’t care. It knows exactly what to say to keep you coming back. That’s when simply “thinking about it” stops being enough. You have to break the whole pattern, not just argue with the urge.

  21. New Chapter in My Life: Habits and Disciplines

    Spiritual Warrior replied to Spiritual Warrior's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #208 ~ Sat Aug 28 '26 Daily goals: Shower: 40 Groom hair: 40 Brush teeth: 40 Floss: 10 Take medication: 40 Drink protein shake: 5 Make bed: 23 Kriya yoga: 8 No porn: 13 No ejaculation: 13 Eat 150 g of protein: 5 Brush teeth before bed: 13 Wash face before bed: 13 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 3 (☑️☑️☑️) Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 5 Clean room: 5 Clean car: 4 Things to do: Change oil (I can't get my hood open) - lunch break today? Cut Tyler and Amanda music Figure out where you're going Sunday Buy paint by numbers thing FIX PHONE

  22. Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread

    Natasha Tori Maru replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Orthodox Jewish Conformity @Vynce thanks for the share ! @Leo Gura conformity is your enemy is it? I try to keep my relationship with conformity strictly professional: the fucker keeps trying to manage me, and I keep submitting variations 😈😈😈 Thanks for the blog post
  23. Three years ago, I realized that I’m not my thoughts or emotions. I’m the one observing them, and the one observing everything is always whole. Getting out of this addiction was probably the hardest mental battle I’ve ever been through. I could feel how empty I became every time I masturbated. It felt like the life was slowly leaving my body. Sometimes I felt like a 70-year-old man in a 20-year-old body. I knew I had to get out of it, because otherwise I felt like it would eventually kill me. The emptiness was something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. It took many attempts and many years. I relapsed a lot. But eventually I stopped trying to run from what was underneath the addiction. I had to face myself instead of escaping every time I felt something uncomfortable. That was the biggest change for me.
  24. Even though uncopyrighted copies are essentially a fat load of use for no one.
  25. I asked very very simple question, if you don’t understand it, suggests to me your mind is too complex for such simplicity. Why you answer my question but act like you didn’t understand it?
  26. I think this whole thing is easy. Men generally try to be honorable and women generally try to be good people. This is not the same thing and trying to be honorable with women gets you in trouble. Trying to force woman to be honorable is also going to cause massive issues. That’s where you get honor culture and oppression of women. The kind of thing you see in Afghanistan. A man trying to be a good person(only) with his fellow man is likely going to find himself in trouble. Between men honor is where it is at. Why? Because men value respect more and are not particularly adverse to use violence. It’s a survival adaptation. So how about guys interacting with women? Try to be a good person, that most likely what she will do. What does that mean in practice? If you don’t want to talk to her anymore, excuse yourself and leave. You don’t owe her the courtesy of staying in a conversation that doesn’t appeal to you. Is that perhaps slightly rude, probably. But that’s fine, you’re still a good person, she won’t kick your teeth out. This applies in general and woman will respect you for it, and like you more for it. Although don’t an ass of course, I think that goes without saying. Lastly in case people take this the wrong way, honor is mutual it’s not about you as a guy. Where as trying to a good person is
  27. I seem to be close to done with human design, besides getting to know it via audiobooks and the hexagram gates, it's not easy to piece the information together for free, some stuff seems to outlandish, but it gives a good perspective into personality, but getting down to science was a priority I had more of, mostly what I figured out is Been there done that, with Gate 35/36, transitorniess being a sense-gate and circuit, I am all about experience, and making it not personal if there is more of a transpersonal self present, especially mostly about experience for experience sake, that includes sex without personality The right angle cross of consciouness focuses on shared experiences, and finding what serves humanity and what does not serve humanity or an individual, at ti's best imagination reigns free, very deep explorer and scientist, it being 35/5|63|64 from my own experience sharing and relating, not really into giving advice, and being a tyrannt type of leader, which I adopted, due to the issues of the format of actualized.org, so I mostly relate by my own experience share that, and have a very scientifc mind, if I include other sources, but the core gift is the evolution of humanity, and seeing what serves, and protects, others, also hence including the abillity to go about the security needs of others, if they don't want the change or don't find any value of it, make it part of the experience itself and learn from their experience what they are going through (interconnecting with non-violent communication) There are some more advanced books, I still struggle a bit to differntiate between conscious and unconscious planets and suns, I found more sources and experiences, but my chart and type is very unique. The core point is about the cross the need and model has to be right and reliable otherwise civilization can't move forward, I had quite the large purpose, but I have to refine it, there is more on archetypes --- To skip mostly this and go over to my exercise regime: I had to deceide today, if I properly and scientifically want to test, my body with all the exercises and the depth of holism which many doctors won't have it will take me 1-2 or 2-3 years, I did plenty of prep work, realistically it's 3-5 years of getting to know my body with all the changes, it will also be only possible to do 20-30 minutes of meditation, as it takes to much time I could not build the enviroment for my health, a lot of obstructions for a tall person that values health usually very highly, but a lot of tipps and smaller exercises, that focus also on energy and vitality, there are small reframes, from performance -> exellence -> attunement, mostly and just good tipps in the book, I should explore still and experience I do a lot of things intuitively, so I should be careful, and work mostly around foods, and adjust the strength exercises and go over to the stretching parts, with more time and dedication to scientifically test and I have to purchase some stuff to test my body, a doctor won't test this, speaking to sports scientist, they often only show execution, but not proper education and reasoning why an exercises as an impact on the energetic level, anatomy, and how food, digestion and even taking a poop plays a role etc. then I mix with my own experience, I am on a good path, but have to be a little careful the section about cardio I did not read yet and I have to talk to more people after doing more, then decide after a while if I go for 1h or just 30 minutes, do more integral exercises and go for retreats, as the retreats are the most powerful, and these exercises and life style all buff the retreat to push me to deep levels of consciousness, especially strength training, but I also have to slow down, due to injury. I stick with what Paul Check teaches mostly as there is more physiotherapy and chiropractic perspective, with qi-gong etc. but I won't do many of the stretches it requires my full attention even briefly with breathing, and my breathing is weird, due to the scar I have, my energy at times is a caleidoscopic circus, it's like people eat the rainbow of consciouness after a while. ---- Sort of as a gift, after I gone through the other partial grift I posed, I finally found another coincidence, I write them down, I will not explain all of them, but this has better information on human design, completely without any self-gimmickery, the only website I found something on the archetypes I am going through 3h through the information, https://humandesign.red/en-us/articles/archetypes I will contemplate furhter how I can get to 1h meditation, but the enviroment here steadily breaks etc. 30 minutes is max of what I can do, if they keep fucking up the infrastructure, I am to tall for the last appartement with a sauna included, here it seemingly perfect, but it has this french half-broken flair, I need to have a boiler for hot water in my kitchen? But everything else is modern, the previous previous appartement had Wenti chinese problem, their kitchen caused venti venti, wenti wenti, venti which means problem in chinese, and ventil in german is foccet, and it was so fucking loud, omfg it was like I was drinking right beneath it, and the previous appartement had 3 kids and a smoking mother above me omfg, before that I was just in my students appartement, the only issue I had with it my bed was to small, otherwise it was fine, in china the appartement was partially perfect but not good to work on my pc. england was decent, but odd to shower, I wish they would finally make something good at times I hate blue collar people for a reason, nothing that was ever created besdies our own house which was built by real engineers or at least bought from them works, holy fucking shit was our house goated the more I recall how we even used the natural enviroment getting into ressources/elements and chemistry simply, this here is legit bolshevistic creation, burn it kill it fuck it, I can't organize and jump for the whole world, anyhow I stop here. I hate engineers who're into civil engineering most corrupt pieces of shit I have ever meet, and the only thing they ever do perfectly is with the pressure of the city, if they are not bureaucretized idk, I have some hope for the american version but omfg the new landlord I have my doubts about these social capitalistic communistic pigs, boom around be educated, be the hero, but you contribute to nothing and don't even know spiral dynamics and you dont even uplift consciouness, and youre a good human right? Just a hunter creating for the sake of ancestery, feeling fatherly, and power games with romans most likely and latin, and the whole intellectual ball game, omfg I love creativity but fuck I hate these advanced married incels
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