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  2. I probably wont be able to finish today but Ill order some LSD to compensate.

  3. Spiral Dynamics Book

    Carl-Richard replied to Judy2's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    I've just skimmed through parts of it but I find the writing style awful and repetitive. Hanzi Freinacht "The Listening Society" is a step up from even Wilber.

  4. Anyone has tried 5-MeO-DMT & Salvia together?

    Davino replied to Davino's topic in Psychedelics

    Some But I prefer not to talk too much on that, as mixing can become more dangerous and a trap in itself
  5. I think the opposite is the case . Instead of getting so absorbed in yourself and too egocentric believing the universe is revolving around you and taking everything personally..I say instead of doing that try to realize how you don't matter to the universe that much . I'm not saying which one is true but I'm saying which is more helpful in bypassing suffering which you can't control .

  6. Good fiction books recommendation?

    Rilles replied to integration journey's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Tada!

  7. Good fiction books recommendation?

    Carl-Richard replied to integration journey's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    @Rilles 👀 Hello

  8. Anyone has tried 5-MeO-DMT & Salvia together?

    Davino replied to Davino's topic in Psychedelics

    I feel safer entering into the Salvia experience from the 5-MeO space.

  9. Good fiction books recommendation?

    Rilles replied to integration journey's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    “Jorge Luis Borges - Fictions” has some outright mystical/non-dual adjacent stories like the Library of Babel, Circular Ruins and Aleph “Italo Calvino- Invisible Cities” is a metafictional work about how everyone views one city through many different perspectives, and the prose is delicious and great for becoming still and mindful if you dont rush it.

  10. Effects Of Psychedelics On Me

    Nemra replied to Nemra's topic in Psychedelics

    @Ramasta9, I have been walking in nature often the last month. It has helped me to ground myself. Whether the effects are good or bad depends.
  11. Yes, it does seem like A.I. definitely wrote it, or at least significantly helped the OP with post structuring, grammar and style; this is not inteligence — it is creative bankrupcy, it is not an enhancement — it is basic brain function outsourcing

  12. Can Exes Be Friends?

    Entrepreneur replied to Lord Kadaver's topic in Dating, Sexuality, Relationships, Family

    I am in my fifties. I am still friends with every girl I ever dated seriously, including my first high school sweetheart (we both lost our virginity to each other). My wife is also friends with them. She shares a bond with them of knowing me on a deep level, as well as knowing what I look like naked. They all seem to get along quite well. They can crack jokes about me together as they can all relate to me on a level that others can't. Each breakup was painful, some more than others, and each required some time completely apart from the other person in order for me to heal emotionally. As you get older and keep maturing, you may realize that it was a good thing that you broke up with this other person who wasn't a good enough fit. It is better to have broken off the relationship so that you could find someone who is a better fit, rather than having gone on to marry them at some point and just end up divorced. Looking back, I am convinced I would have been divorced by now if I had stayed with any of those previous women. Instead, I am in a much stronger marriage with a wife who happily lets me lead the relationship and really shares the same values as me. I can't imagine kicking these other women to the curb for life just because one of us decided the other person wasn't marriage material. They are still all people I care deeply for. In some cases I am still good friends with their families. I have attended their parents' and siblings' funerals. My wife and I have been invited to and attended their family gatherings. I consider myself fortunate to still have this level of connection to those people who were extremely important to me at earlier points in my life. They are all still part of my extended social circle. I intend to maintain these relationships for the rest of my life, so long as I still feel enriched by them. If you can get to a point where you can savor the relationship you have with this ex-lover without any desire to be intimate with her again, I think you will find that it greatly benefits your life. I am sure you both still love each other to some extent on some level that does not involve sexual intimacy. I would not totally discard such a deep and meaningful relationship. Those deep relationships are precious. They are the true riches of life. You realize that more and more the older you get.
  13. She was from my class in college. Whenever we talk now on phone the conversation lasts for half an hour(30 minutes ).She asks lot of questions about me. We also talked on phone during college and face to face. In the convocation when we were getting our degree she was the one who waved hi to me when she saw me and she did this twice during convocation. There have been some girls in my past who approached me and initiated the conversation with me. Whenever I talk to a girl I too feel anxiety but I do it anyway. Recently I opened this up to a therapist and she said me to think about my good qualities atleast once while talking to people and your confidence will increase. By the way I have been on antidepressants and antipsychotics since 7 years due to anxiety after getting rejected from a girl while I was in high school. Majority of girls didn't even cared to talk to me.I am a 25 year old single now out of college and on apprenticeship. In college she was a girl who wasn't harsh with me but treated me decently when I was suffering from chronic rejection where single girls rejected me and later dated some other guy which first made me envious then resentful. I even feel extremely resentful seeing couples getting intimate. A part of me says that I have never held any girl's hand and this guy is so far ahead.Also even if I talk to a girl other guys get pissed off and try to attack me. I have watched Leo's - How to get laid series over and over again. Read Models by Mark Manson 3 times. By the way I have fear in myself that I will never find someone (I have questioned this belief ) and will get arranged married to a girl who is already experienced in dating ( Yeah I live in India ). So, Is she receptive or just being friendly?Am I wasting my time talking to her ?

  14. Te Journal

    SimpleGuy replied to Optimized Life's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Sorry to interrupt you loneliness but you look a bit too crazy about mbti model. This is just a model. Don`t let it constrain yourself. This model is just a hint, not a ruler over you.
  15. How you know you suffer? You have to feel it somewhere right? There has to be location. Put attention to this location as described above. Simple, full, non-judgemental attention. You can't fully put attention and think at the same time. So no thoughts. And re emotions, sensation --> see above

  16. Effects Of Psychedelics On Me

    Nemra replied to Nemra's topic in Psychedelics

    Interesting. Yeah. Although, I haven't tripped on LSD yet. Next time.
  17. Does regular brandname toothpaste contain heavy metals such as lead or mercury?

  18. Effects Of Psychedelics On Me

    Nemra replied to Nemra's topic in Psychedelics

    @Oppositionless, those damn THC and DPT have to do whatever happened to me. Now, I'm cautious about smoking higher doses of DMT (like more than 5 mg) because it has become way too metaphysically serious than I experienced before. Maybe all this will pass away after a few months. But I kind of like it.
  19. Today
  20. This shit is like astrology on God, but somehow even more cringe
  21. Day 3: 2pm-6pm
  22. It is about letting go/transcend. I'm not trying to change. I just want to not have it in the first place.

  23. Piano Music

    Nemra replied to Nemra's topic in Off-Topic: Pop-Culture, Entertainment, Fun

    @Ramasta9, I like his music.
  24. I'm not tallking about medication or transformation. I'm talking about to transcend, to stop it altogether, to go all in into the roots. I'm talking about having a subjective experience that it is extremely rare where you are not just a human but a new kind of human free from a lot of humanity shit/unnecessary suffering.
  25. This approach seems much more a way to medicate suffering than to stop it altogether. You want to transcend what is causing suffering itself (context) not what arises from it (content: emotions, sensations, thoughts).
  26. Imagine you suffer, but you are present with it. Whatever causes this suffering, you bring awareness to it. Means you're not avoiding it. You have a choice, and you pick the option to feel it, it's no longer suffering because literally you choose to feel it, to be aware of it. You expert your free will to experience one thing over another. How can doing what you want be suffering? Impossible. Problem solved. If you feel now that that's suffering - feeling the thing you made yourself aware of above - ok change your choice to the other option, put your awareness somewhere else. Exerting your free will, you prefer one option over the other. How can doing what you want be suffering? Impossible.You relax because you chooses the option you like most. Problem solved. Now you might say - I don't like any option. It's all suffering, no matter where I put my attention. But then it's no choice, because it can't be avoided. It's not self generated. It's pain, not suffering. Enjoy being present😄
  27. 'night, Mother (1986) A woman shoots herself in the head, again. Great movie!
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