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  2. 10/10 ragebait
  3. She was brutally abused as a child. She knew male hatred and abuse her entire life. No love. So many women are living like that quietly, poor women, women of color, women in third-world countries, the most invisible women. The fact that they punished her by ending her life so easily shows how biased and misogynistic the system is. She deserved healing and recovery. Pedophiles and serial killers were treated better than her.
  4. @Leo Gura this page has no usable text or metadata for the quote. https://www.actualized.org/insights/profound-quotes-111 This makes it impossible to search quotes as they are in image format.
  5. I think that what he says is the the state of not knowing is enlightenment itself. But at the same time, he's creating a contradictory mental mess because all his teach is knowing what is absolutely true. He says: What is absolutely true? That which never changes. That which changes is false. This is within the domain of the evaluative mind. He doesn't understand that what is absolutely true for him, what never changes, is the observer. This is the paradigm of non-dual spirituality, and it's completely wrong. The observer, what they call empty consciousness, the screen where everything appears according to Rupert spira, is precisely the self in its ultimate expression. It's a creation of the brain so that complex life forms can access a new phase of existence in which reality perceives itself. It's called non-duality, and they glorify duality by elevating the observer to the category of "truth" and classifying what is observed as "illusion." This paradigm is absolutely limiting and causes millions of spiritual seekers to become stuck in an enlightenment that is mental castration. Seriously, it's better to become a Muslim or a Jehovah's Witness than a non-dualistic neo-Advaita.
  6. Shut up. I am a lovepsist
  7. Egalitarian societies are naturally more feminine societies in which motherhood has significant value, as it naturally should. They are societies centered around care and nurture, which is what motherhood is about. In such a society, men are protectors rather than abusers, which is the real purpose of masculinity. The purpose of masculinity is to support life, not to destroy it. It benefits everyone rather than a minority of people whom everyone strives or is forced to imitate. The patriarchal definition of matriarchy is incorrect and is a projection. Feminists don’t want to do to men what they did to women for thousands of years, even though they are understandably angry about it. The purpose is to do what is both best and most natural for human social structure, and there are real anthropological data that support it. In an egalitarian/matriarchal society, leadership is given to those who are most suitable, regardless of gender, rather than taken. Since, according to some data, women are better leaders by many measures, especially older women, there will naturally be more women leaders in an egalitarian society. Some believe that in the human species, women living longer after menopause, especially longer than men, implies that older women have a significant role in society, particularly in leadership. Usually, men don’t enjoy leading roles or taking accountability as much. Of course, they may enjoy the benefits of power, the glory, and the identity associated with it, but they may not like to hold accountability or be responsible. Many men prefer to be useful, feel needed, and follow instructions rather than hold accountability and carry the mental and emotional load of managing and leading, even if they are not comfortable admitting it. Of course, there are many men who are great in leadership, especially as they mature, but this is not something that all men biologically and automatically have. Most of the leaders in the world are men and they are very selfish and do lots of mistakes. There are barely one man I can call a true leader or at least see in him the same leadership qualities I have seen in my grandmother for example. For most of human history, society was sustained by the behind-the-scenes, quiet leadership and management skills of women, especially older women, which were barely recognized as more patriarchal structures arose.
  8. You can tell a man's age by how expensive his shaving gear is.
  9. It's an emotional regulation mechanism, an ingraned coping strategy. That's why it's unhealthy and very addictive. It's not a function of having a free time. Doesn't take too much time to be honest.
  10. Lol, yeah, I knew you'd write that. You're right, it needs to be corrected or transcended. Simply calling it an illusion is more like spiritual bypassing. But that's not what Ralston says. He only says that the state of not-knowing is the best prerequisite for enlightenment. Yes, I see it the same way. For me, Ralston is more like a scientist who deals with consciousness. He has radically deconstructed and investigated the mind. I find his books to be well-written and clear, but sometimes a little redundant.
  11. In what ways?
  12. It's not an illusion, it's a reality. You are inferior in a penis contest. What you could do is not participate in it, but if your inner drive is participating in penis contest because it's implanted in your system by evolution, you will lose the contest, so you are inferior. You could transcend your drive to participate in penis contest, but you can't deny that drive calling it mental illusion because it isn't. It's a drive that comes from the fight for reproduction when we were monkeys. If you deny it as an illusion you will be always under it's influence, but unconscious. Then you will be a narcissist. Sure, but saying that a clear mind is true and a noisy mind is false is like saying that being healthy is true and being sick is false. If you are a spiritual teacher and you spread those ideas , well, you are putting a mess in the minds of your readers. Anyone who calls himself a spiritual teacher has to be absolutely humble an open, not arrogant and closed. If you go with the flag of the truth being a liar you are just a scammer, a narcissist.
  13. Solipsism is retarded.

  14. My Journey With Porn

    Carl-Richard replied to Carbon's topic in Dating, Sexuality, Relationships, Family

    @Saop Mactavish Jesus Christ you people are relentless.
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  16. My Journey With Porn

    Carl-Richard replied to Carbon's topic in Dating, Sexuality, Relationships, Family

    @Basman Tell me if you didn't get it.
  17. I shave (my face) completely by feel in the shower. The trick is to feel the direction of the hairs and pull the skin slightly in that direction, then pull the razor over it in a smooth quick motion over it. The shower keeps things moist. Worst bits are around my nostrils and corners of my mouth and Adam's apple, but short gentle strokes does it. If you want a proper close shave, then use a mirror and shave the hairs three times in three directions - lather again each time - takes forever though. Ain't nothing sharp or chemical going near my man parts, they are as nature intended - you youngsters.
  18. I do think it's possible but there's no way for you to do anything about it. This is because the universe is the one imagining it all, not the limited you. I don't know how conscious you'd need to become to materialize stuff into existence, but even then constructing a whole solo-leveling type interface seems orders of magnitude more demanding than simply materializing scents or even objects. Also, if you were that conscious to begin with I doubt you'd need to imagine such a system. The idea would fall away.
  19. I never got the feeling that Ralston denied the biological reality of the body. He practiced martial arts for a long time, which is a good example of this. The evolutionary survival instinct is, of course, a fact, and he often talks about it, but the judgment and the mental construct that the mind builds: "I am inferior because of my small penis" is not a fact; it's a mental construct, an illusion that can be deconstructed. So, the assumption that the "self" is a fixed, independent entity is the conceptual illusion. No one is saying that this state is truer than an active interpretation of reality. But you're more likely to have a breakthrough when your mind is clear and focused, or do you see it differently? Yes, I agree on that point; I also think Ralston's heart is closed. Ralston says the diversity of the universe exists because consciousness draws boundaries and makes distinctions. The creative force is, so to speak, the universe's ability to bring form out of formlessness. Physical reality is not a construct separate from absolute Being. It is absolute Being itself, which makes itself perceptible as form through the activity of the mind. He wrote an entire book about it, 'The Genius of Being'. Again I kind of agree here. However, I don't think I would describe him as a narcissist. Perhaps somewhat arrogant or closed.

  20. 11C Journal

    caspex replied to caspex's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    I don't have faith in myself. I know that I am both mentally and physically capable of doing even the most difficult things. The issue is that I have zero faith in my ability to persevere. I don't think any of my talents are useful because the user is a coward. But I have faith that things will turn out okay.
  21. Post-Trip #2 Reflections I’ll start by saying that I screwed up. HPPD symptoms appeared after the trip. Specifically, flat surfaces would start “breathing” again, much like the side of a beast. These visuals would only appear early in the morning and in the evening. Except, instead of being accompanied by the usual feelings of comfort and joy, they would trigger anxiety and fear. This was probably due to two things. Firstly, the fatigue I had during the trip facilitated their onset. My nervous system simply wasn’t ready for such an intense experience. Sleep deprivation and fatigue definitely contributed to the development of HPPD symptoms. Secondly, I made the mistake of attending a one-day holotropic breathwork retreat on May 2nd, only three days after the psychedelic experience. I wasn’t prepared for this trip, as I was still processing the effects of the psychedelic experience. Not only that, but it also aggravated the symptoms by strengthening whatever neural pathways were producing the HPPD. Therefore, if I develop HPPD symptoms again, I should avoid all intense non-ordinary states of consciousness. You’ll definitely regret it otherwise. I also experienced mild HPPD symptoms during my first trip, but I didn’t identify them as HPPD because there was no anxiety attached to them. When my carpet deformed, I was slightly confused, but mostly thought it was kind of cool to have a reminder of my first psychedelic experience, as it reminded me why I was working so hard in the first place. This only happened three times in total and disappeared after 72 hours. Looking back, I probably should have investigated those harmless visuals more seriously so that I would have approached future trips with greater caution, knowing that the symptoms could become much worse if I wasn’t careful. As for dealing with the HPPD, I’d say I did a few things that helped. Firstly, I noticed that if I wasn’t focused on a meaningful task or if I kept my gaze fixed for too long, the flat surfaces in my field of vision would start “breathing.” Therefore, I stayed busy to prevent the visuals from emerging, especially at night, and I would move my head or shift my focus whenever they appeared. Secondly, whenever I noticed the visuals, I tried to let go of the anxiety they provoked while simultaneously focusing on another task, so that I wouldn’t become obsessed with them. Thirdly, I did my best not to obsess over the condition itself, since that would only prolong my suffering. I continued living my daily life as if the symptoms didn’t exist. My regular workouts, consistent sleep schedule, and healthy nutrition also helped significantly. I was already avoiding all drugs, including caffeine, which probably helped as well. My daily “do nothing” meditation and Kriya Yoga practice also seemed helpful, providing temporary relief from the visuals without altering my state of consciousness enough to worsen the symptoms. In fact, I’d say they did the opposite by reducing the overall anxiety I had about the HPPD symptoms. Using my finger as a pacing tool while reading also helped tremendously, since the movement prevented the visuals from emerging and also improved my focus on the task at hand. Then came a turning point. One evening, I was reading a book and could tell that the HPPD symptoms were present. In the corner of my vision, I could see flat surfaces subtly changing while I tried to focus on the book, using my finger as a pacer to make the visuals disappear. The usual feeling of “fluidity” emerged, as it typically did every morning and evening. It’s difficult to describe, but it felt as though reality itself was no longer solid and could melt at any moment. Intuitively, I sensed that this was not a good thing. The book was interesting enough that I eventually forgot about the symptoms and became fully absorbed in reading. Then suddenly, a moment of bliss hit me. I stopped reading and looked around the room. The world felt much more solid than before, and the symptoms had retreated. I looked at a flat surface, and nothing appeared. A smile spread across my face. At that moment, I knew the symptoms weren’t permanent and that they would gradually fade away. Shortly afterward, I went to bed feeling satisfied and hopeful. From that point on, things went uphill. Every day, the symptoms weakened in both frequency and intensity until the following Thursday, when I experienced another blissful moment around 5:00 p.m. after exercising—though it clearly wasn’t caused by the exercise itself. After that, the symptoms practically vanished. The world felt solid again. Here’s the timeline to give an idea of how long this lasted: Psychedelic trip = April 28th, 2026 Holotropic breathwork session = May 2nd, 2026 First bliss moment = May 10th, 2026 Second bliss moment + near elimination of symptoms = May 14th, 2026 End of residual anxiety = Ongoing, but decreasing In retrospect, I recovered relatively quickly (16 days), even though it felt much longer at the time. Most people don’t recover nearly as fast. However, this experience leaves me with three questions: When—or should—I try psychedelics again, fully knowing that HPPD symptoms may return? My initial plan was to gradually use psychedelics to help me understand reality experientially, but now the risk has increased significantly because I’ll likely develop the symptoms again. That being said, if I ever decide to try psychedelics again, it would be 5-MeO-DMT at a low dose. The risk is simply too high with other substances before taking the one most likely to help me awaken. However, realistically, I’d say there’s a 25% chance that HPPD would be permanent and a 75% chance that it would go away if I were to try 5-MeO-DMT. Therefore, I’m not going to take it, at least not until I’m 25 years old. Then I’ll reconsider. But for now, the answer is no psychedelics. Period. Will holotropic breathwork reactivate HPPD symptoms? I plan to test this on June 13th during a one-day holotropic breathwork workshop. It probably won’t reactivate the symptoms, since I never had any before using psychedelics, meaning that it probably needs a chemical to trigger the symptoms in me, but I want to make sure that’s truly the case by confirming it. That being said, I’m still glad I tried psychedelics, and I don’t regret the trip. One unexpected by-product of the experience was that it clarified my life purpose. My life purpose is now to help people with HPPD self-actualize (achieve their life purpose) and self-realize (awaken). For the first time in my life, I’m satisfied with my life purpose. I genuinely think this one will stay permanently. As for HPPD, this vulnerability is tragic. It’s unfair that some people are essentially blocked from psychedelics, since they appear to be one of the most powerful tools for personal development available. Because of this, I want to dedicate my life to solving this problem and finding a systematic, methodical alternative to awakening that does not rely on psychedelics. For now, I’ve sent an email to the Perception Restoration Foundation to volunteer, because before trying to solve this issue, I first need to better understand what I’m dealing with. I need to learn and also get experience treating it (once I’m a legal therapist). This leaves me with one last question: If you're not taking psychedelics to awaken, then how are you going to do it? Simple: I'll create a non-drug method. After all, it’s part of my life's purpose to do so! That being said, so far, the best results I had were with holotropic breathwork in a group setting at a 6-day module. It’ll take years and maybe even decades to figure this out, but hey, there’s really nothing more satisfying for me to do other than this, so I’m going to go ahead and do it.
  22. Reality constructs itself, you don't. Reality constructs you. Consciousness = Reality. Physical constraints are part of reality's construction. They are non-negotiable by you. Reality determines boundaries for itself, call it the laws of physics if that suits you. That is called a body. That is called reality. They are called drugs and food. That is called mining and engineering. They are called doors, or more abstractly transport. Essentially, anything you want to imagine is in some way based on existing reality - and you already have access to these things via your persistent interactive interface.
  23. Main Text (trauma.md) Interactive Exploration The doorway opens in two directions at once: one path is the written landscape, the other is the living, interactive field. Together they form a single terrain— a way to walk through scientific trauma, not as a theory to memorize, but as an experience that unfolds under your feet. The main text lays the groundwork: how impossible, improbable, and certain states weave into one coherent game, how trauma forms when we confuse them, and how holistic practice—body, mind, spirit— becomes the one strategy that never collapses. The interactive version takes the same ideas and lets you *move* through them: branching logic, shifting perspectives, the attractor of the impossible, the probability‑sensitive middle ground, the certainty of what is always worth doing. Both resources point to the same insight: that the end of trauma is not an ending at all, but the moment a new kind of clarity appears— a clarity that does not demand guarantees, does not punish failure, and does not fear the limits of the human condition. You step into the model, and the model steps back into you. From here, the work continues forward.
  24. Love is not unity, it's the absolute creating power that emerges from the unlimited, the source of the reality that creates universes and life. You could call it absolute being, but it's not tranquil empty being, it's fire. It's the creation of the galaxies, the power that is making your brain interconnected like a magic machine in the middle of the abyss of the reality. It's expansion, big bang, birth and death, intelligence, openess. It's the positive drive of the unlimited. Positive in the sense of affirmation, existing, expanding.
  25. Let's see if I can explain it. Ralston sees everything as truth vs. falsehood. Those are just his opinions; it's a completely superficial (and misleading) view. The ego, the self-image, isn't an illusion created by the mind; it's a reality created by millions of years of evolution and a lifetime of social interaction. You can transcend the ego, meaning you can not care that your penis is 4 cm, but that doesn't mean the fact that your penis is small is "false." If you're going to have sex with women, they'll think: "Oh, his penis is small." This isn't false. And this reduces your chances of finding a partner and reproducing, and your operating system is coded to say you should have sex. This isn't false. Perhaps it's a basic level you can transcend, but your 4 cm penis is small, period. The state of not knowing, the silent mind, when you only feel physical sensations, is not more true that the state where you interpret reality, it's just another level of processing. In fact he's interpreting the reality thinking that this state is true and the other is false. This is just the zen paradigm, and it's, let's say, false. The empty mind is lot empty, it's full of sensations, perception of your body, could be pain, pleasure. It's just another level. Empty mind is necessary to open yourself to the totality, but it's not equivalent to open yourself to the totality. Empty mind and open heart. Open heart like Christ , Ramakrishna . How is the Ralston heart? How Ralston explains the creative power of reality? The universe and that? He would smile like implying that you are retarded and saying very happy of being Ralston: you can't know it! . No, you can know it, but not Ralston because he's closed to the source because he's a narcissist. What you are is the absolute power, the tao, the unlimited source, God. What kind of teacher would ridicule 5meo DMT without having tried saying toad juice? It's the way of expressing of a narcissist. He's not humble, he prefers be the one who's right that open himself to the absolute.
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  27. How satanic is he compared to your neighbour?
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