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VeganAwake replied to James123's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Who is the ego tricking? Is there actually a victim? Look closely 👀 -
I never really stayed at hostels but if I was single and younger I would. I am in cheaper airbnbs with my wife, I need a quiet place to work alone in since I have a full time job. If you want some space but still want easy access to socializing, sometimes some hostels have a bar that opens in the evening or offer events that you can still attend even if you aren't staying there.
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I've been on a journey to transcend my pickup artist conditioning, after being entrenched in it for nearly 10 years. I've spoken about this venture of mine in various posts in the past, but I've since realized that killing my pickup tendencies and beliefs is going to be a much harder dragon to slay than I anticipated. Therefore, I decided to take it more seriously and devote a good chunk of my time getting to the root cause of it all and unwiring the paradigm at its core. [Big thanks to @Emerald as well for giving me some advice on the matter in private.] That's what this series of posts is going to be about: Transcending Pick Up. ----- I got flaked on 5-6 times back to back this last week and a half, which has been extremely painful because I had very high interest in a few of those women. In fact, pickup has been difficult ever since I moved to my current city about a year ago. The women here are a lot more flakey and require more time investment over text than what I'm used to or comfortable with. This has been a blessing in disguise, though, because the turmotulous nature of the dating game here has really forced me to face myself. Anyway.. I was in pain yesterday, man. Had a shitty day at work, I got flaked on 3 times back to back and I was just frustrated. Before going home, I pass by the cannabis store and get myself some edibles. I'm getting high tonight and plan on swimming through the big pool of pain I feel, until I find the drain at the bottom. I only take a bite, though. These edibles are so strong, that when I last ate the whole thing, I awoke to Solipsism. They aint no joke, man. So, as you can imagine, that one bite was enough to inspire some insight. I open ChatGPT and instruct it to ask me back-to-back shadow work questions, each going deeper than the one before, with little fluff and empathetic mirroring. I want to go deep. Worked like a charm. What the line of questioning helped me to realize was that growing up I always felt insignificant. I used to get bullied by my classmates and even some of my own friends. I felt invisible to girls and my home life wasn't very pleasant, as my mom was working 12 hour days nearly 7 days a week to support my sisters and I, since my dad had abandoned us for another woman. The only thing that helped me feel significant in any way was my ability to draw very well. The recognition that my creative talents earned me, motivated me to cultivate that skill to a very high level, but it still wasn't enough to get the admiration of the girls I liked neither the respect of other men who i deemed to be "cool." And that's the deeper need that pickup fulfilled for me. Through pick up -- and personal development as a whole -- I became significant, different, special, one of a kind. I could attract beautiful women into my life and build sexual abundance like no other man I knew could and I would do it through the most unconventional path that most men would be afraid to undertake. I became significant to the women I would date, to the men within my social circle that bore witness to my sudden transformation and, finally, to myself as I finally became one of the *cool* guys in my eyes, finally. It was never about the sex, or the access, or the reputation. I just wanted to matter. I just wanted to be admired for something. Recognized by my peers and seen as important. I sat down with this insight for a few minutes. Then, I asked myself, how could I fulfill this need outside of pickup? The following answers came to mind: 1. Join or build a community of like minded individuals and find my own tribe through that. 2. Develop valuable skills or create something unique to me that will benefit the world at large. 3. Prioritize myself to myself. Build a relationship with myself that's founded under the premise of "I matter the most to me." Invest in me and do things that excite me and make me feel passionate. I immediately took steps. I am going to a kickboxing class today. I've always been interested in martial arts -- an interest rooted in the fact that I used to get bullied, I admit. Through this class, I will not only join a like minded community, but I will also be challenged in a new and exciting way and will develop a skill that could benefit the people that I love (knowing that I can protect them if shit ever goes down). Additionally, I will be creating my own Meetup.com event. One around the subject of mindfulness, creativity and vulnerability. I will not share my full concept here though Lastly, I am continuing my efforts to learn a new language I've been trying to learn for the longest time, starting next week. ------ BONUS INSIGHTS ------- 1. The steps I outlined above have always been of interest to me. The reason that I never went though with any of them to the max was because I was afraid of packing up my schedule and not being able to date as much. But considering how unfulfilling the game is these last few years, I find it crazy how much I resisted making the necessary lifestyle changes. It really reveals how deep the pulls of one's identity go, even when the identity no longer serves the individual positively. 2. I tend to interact with women from an egoic place rather than a genuine desire to connect and that is where all my fuck ups with dating stem from. When a man interacts with the world from a genuine intent to connect; he doesn't manipulate, he doesn't overpursue, he doesn't try to "get her to chase," or do any of the pickup tactics that we're taught. He just expresses himself (without needing to impress) and lets chemistry flourish naturally over time with no rush. I've picked up recently that whenever I have a genuine vibe going on with a woman and I try to use a pickup tactic on her, it immediately kills the vibe. At my level, I dont need these behaviours anymore. I am enough, I am attractive. All I really have to do is just show up, be myself and only pursue women who I have high genuine interest in and who I have the most chemistry with. From there, text them, build the vibe over text (no push pulls or stupid fucking techniques, just genuine fun convo) for a couple days, qualify her on things I like about her and then ask her out. Done. It's that simple. Yet pickup has overcomplicated this process for me and made me feel like I have to do more. Like I have to leave her on 'read' sometimes, or that I have to do x, y and z or whatever. Has that worked at some point in my life? Yes. But it is no longer applicable nor needed as the man I am now and my current relationship goals. And even when I've done those things successfully, the women have never been the type that I'd want to commit to long term, no matter how beautiful they might have been. Ultimately, a woman that chases a man who is distant, rejects her, makes her feel insecure or whatever, is not a quality woman. A quality girl knows her value so she will only go for men she has genuine chemistry with and who she feels reciprocative consistent effort from. I dont need to build attraction. I am attraction already. From there, its just about building rapport and connection. What this means for the future is that I need less leads but higher quality ones. Rather than collecting 10 numbers/instagrams per week, I should bring that number down to about 2-3 exceptionally high quality leads. That means, again, women that I'm truly highly attracted to, who I have genuine good chemistry and compatibility with and just invest in these women over other low quality leads. This will require a strong discernment from me and a resistance to a "lead acquisition" frame in which I just go out and seek as much abundance as I can rather than connection. But, now that I'm slowly making some changes in my life, I dont think that will be too challenging to maintain. More insights to come.
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What hypocrisy? Europe has always aligned with the USA's actions in the middle east Honestly you took the bait like his maga followers and have no clue what you're even talking about.
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That could be true about supplements, but not about Nootropics.
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Yeah there's lots What was that one like ? Did you see any bugs / insects? Also curious about : Dissos MXE , DCK, 2 FDCK Empathogen 5 MAPB
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Isn't DPT a rare psychedelic?
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Carl-Richard replied to Inliytened1's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
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Experimentally What I expected from Ketamine was given by Pyrazolam. For me they are both in the class of downers, but I'm not knowledgeable on the pharmacology of any of both honestly.
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@Ramasta9 Like what is one meal you would eat?
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Live plant-based foods, mostly fruits. I've done a lot of detoxing and fasting though, which helped a lot transition to a lighter yet more enlivening diet. It can be overwhelming without proper guidance and support tho, especially during the detox phase which I struggled with for years, and still mastering the balancing act myself. Some people don't notice the detox effects as much, I'm one of those hyper-aware/hyper-sensitive individuals, life can be both a blessing and a curse for this reason for me. But in my experience the moment you return to frugal/eden style living, and most of the toxins and old-waste are out of the system, you will be amazed at how alive, clear, energized you feel, that you can throw all your supplements away, if anything they interfere. Professor Arnold Ehret is your man if you are interested in this stuff, or Dr Robert Morse. I once ate only organic (seeded) watermelon for a week. I was climbing trees and up all day and night like the best coffee i ever had without the druggy/stimulant feeling, rather more an invigoration of being and no crash, but yes sometimes you may need to throw in 5 - 6 bananas in the evening to help sleep. If you are not active in the day, sleep can be a challenge. This diet and lifestyle calls for a high activity to use up all the charge from the fruits, but then again I have tried one to two mono-fruit meals a day and can make you feel very zen and peaceful. I prefer less actually, unless I am more active. This is why many consider this the natural and original diet of man, not just woo-woo, but science backing it, and most important how you feel, how everything just turns-on up a level, its not something you can just make-up in your mind, and its usually those that argue against it that never actually tried or done it properly to experience the results. Its not everyone's cup of tea, it also goes hand in hand with mental and emotional work, because the faster circulation also speeds up everything else, how we process, emotions, traumas ect... and often people jump in too prematurely and then the side-effects of a toxic body lead them elsewhere. It takes time to undo everything, but when its mostly undone, its like a brand new world inside / out. Some freaks of nature transition overnight, something just clicks and they never turn back. I thought it clicked for me, it did for a while but as my relationship ended back in 2019 i went down a deep dark rabbit hole of weed, junk foods, animal products again until i ran into a lady who was also a raw foodist and shared with me i was suppressing with food when i needed grounding and emotional support. Being so light can have its disadvantages when everyone and everything around you is living quite a denser frequency and life. Potatoes, sea vegetables and lightly steamed vegetables and hearty-salads and activated nuts/seeds have helped me a lot (which was a middle-way for me for quite a few years now) but eventually i was missing how I felt when 100% raw so eventually you need to make that choice sooner or later. I started this journey around 2012 and its been a lot of trial and error since but I have noticed when I am not dealing with other issues in life, whether it be emotional, relationships, financial, familial its far easier to live on lighter foods and return to simplicity and divine order. I am actually considering selling everything and buying land where i can grow my own food somewhere and building a tiny home, cause really we don't need as much as we think we need, we just over-consume because we've become used to it and our highly stressful lives call for more density. I know you asked a simple question, but i felt the need to share more, so people don't make the mistakes I and many others do. It just channels out, this is one of the side-effects, you become more of an open channel for information Blessings
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What rare psychedelics have you tried? This could be anything from something not common where you live ie something like 2C-B or Mescaline for me which i have not tried because its never been available . To something that doesnt have much attention online. Examples (that I'm curious about) 5-Bromo dmt (sea sponge dmt) 4 pro dmt NB dmt
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@Natasha Tori Maru I can message now Also is this limited to personal Art only or can AI art be included? I made some really cool images using mid-journey a few years back, played around with it for a month and then dropped it cause i felt it was not what I wanted to support. Here are a few examples while it lasted. The more creative i became with the prompts, the more interesting and detailed the results. I do more environmental or space art, like how i geometrically structure my room and household, environments and such, quite artsy and other forms of art, I guess you could say I am an Artist of Being... The way i do things and carry and express myself, a lot of magic wish i could put into words or paintings, more so i turn into music through instruments. Maybe one day I'll share here if it feels right Unfortunately I suck at the traditional paint/pen/paper art as I was abused a lot during schooling and my pen to paper became quite messy.
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What do you eat in a day?
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I think SFX it just feels more real. I dunno truly though. If there's a movie with great storyline and a decent sfx or vfx budget I'll take it. I mean my favorite movie of all time is the LOTR trilogy and I believe it had a decent mix of both. Then the Hobbit movies came out with a much greater emphasis on VFX and across the board most people agree they weren't on the same level of greatness as the original trilogy. Another great sfx film is Coraline. Man that movie is shit wack mad.
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Ha ha ha, legacy of millennial fashion I think they are unflattering and never wore them. Bootcut, flares and wide legs all the way!
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What you're seeing here is pre-orange spirituality. The problem is that pre-orange spirituality is typically dogmatic. I have recently begun to notice the role that leading questions and thought terminating cliches play in evangelical Christianity. Stage orange is typically detrimental to spirituality, but it is doing away with the spirituality that is dogmatic.
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Natasha Tori Maru replied to Inliytened1's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Carl-Richard Carl... are you flirting with me? You bloody telepathic devil! I laughed out loud at this -
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It sounds like you both desire a break, or change, in the name of more life experience (from your own descriptions of conversation). But the fear of change and loss is immobilizing you; almost as if you have FOMO in both directions - fear of missing out on experience as a single person, and fear of missing out on a deeper and longer connection with your SO/fear of separation. With breakups such as these, when you are young, and love is newer (as in, you have not been through breakups, and do not yet know if you can trust your ability to recover and love again) it can feel earth shattering. Your whole world feels like it is ending, as typically, first loves are very enmeshed. We can feel some dissolution of ourselves in this enmeshment; making our wants and desires less clear. And when you do break up, no matter on what terms, you will grieve. Because it is the death of a way of life as you knew it; it totally ends. This you need to be prepared for, if you do break it off. If nothing about this relationship changed, no improvements, no breakthroughs & no decline either, would you choose this life five years from now, freely, not out of fear, guilt, or loyalty? Sometimes with first loves, first experiences, we are choosing a life before we have chosen ourself yet - because we haven't experienced enough to KNOW ourselves yet. You are at a very difficult crossroads. You do not want to harbour resentment - this is the death of love. I have a lot of compassion for your situation. I have been there. And it is not easy. I chose to sit with how I felt, regarding the above question in bold. Free of guilt, fear, or loyalty - what feeling comes up if you were to choose to leave?
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The biggest lesson from my 20s is how much Vipassana mediation is becoming more and more important in my life It’s all about observing sensation which means observing your craving and aversion a 10 day course is necessary though to get established in the technique.
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Beautimus!
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Carl-Richard replied to Inliytened1's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
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Science based mind is neurodivergent. Its not even a real thing. Its a made up term scientists say to say, you dont follow our dogma of how a brain 'should' be wired. Brain can be wired in infinite ways designed by God. Look at nature, its chaos. Look at a school its ordered rule based and limited. Science says if you dont like school and deny your nature you are 'neurodivergent' our brains emerged from chaos. The term neurodivergent is made up BS.
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I got 100s of these on my computer from years ago but I'll try not flood this page too much
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