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Me too.
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Is cool, gaming will always be there waiting for you lol. Today I played a little bit more and I’m loving it!
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How would you describe its flavor? I feel like the same could be said about 5-MeO-DMT. Is there any reason you've never made a video about DMT? It's a bit confusing to me that DMT is considered to be more suitable for the club, while at the same time it can be more intense than 5-MeO-DMT. I feel like I was better able to picture what other psychedelics would be like before trying them than I can with DMT.
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JoshB replied to Sincerity's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Obviously I'm No One No Where but that domain is beyond the social domain -
My fears in this regard have to do with the fact that I have a moderate-sized audience that I'm somewhat responsible for the well-being of. And there are many vulnerable people who are out there. So, I have to think a lot about how to put my signal out there to my audience in the most responsible way possible. And I've made some mistakes in that regard over the past 11 years that I've learned from, but that were not on my radar before I learned them. So, I get obsessive about it and take way too much responsibility for things outside of my control because I can't always know when I'm potentially causing harm. And this leads me to diminish my signal and my power because I feel torn about embodying the power of being a public figure. And I feel torn as part of me recognizes my perspective as uncommonly medicinal... and another part of me recognizes that (to some people) my perspective could be a poison and not a medicine. This ends up complicating my feelings about my life's purpose and about the work I've created, where I can get in the spin of... "Is it the elixir? Or is it an anti-nutrient to the world?" So, it's kind of a railroad problem. And the more powerful you are, the more railroad problems you're going to have to deal with that you must take accountability for. And all of this responsibility-taking is heavy to me, as I don't have boundaries on my level of responsibility that I take. I can literally feel like I'm responsible for all the suffering in the world as an extension of the harm OCD patterns... and I can feel like I'm a villain because of the moral scrupulosity OCD patterns. So, part of me wants simply to self-exile and go practice my craft/power in isolation where I cannot harm anyone... like Elsa from Frozen or like Edward Scissorhands when he goes back to his castle and never returns.
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"Being Italian is a trait—a character—that a person possesses. Italian culture, along with its soul and identity, is not confined to its geography, even though it is centered there. An Italian could go to Mars, yet they would remain Italian. Because this is their character, their worldview, their way of life, their culture—their very soul is Italian." I wrote this about my view of italian identity. But it applies to all ethnic identities. We cannot deny the existence of ethnic groups, and the character of a people. It's real.
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I NEED to chill more in life. Don't know if I have added this one b4
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@something_else We should ban the topic of spiral dynamics from this forum 😝.
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Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #265 ~ Fri Nov 6 '26 Daily Goals: Make bed: 93 Take medication: 110 Shower: 110 Groom hair: 110 Brush teeth: 110 Floss: 7 Kriya yoga: 4 Porn free: 2 Ejaculation free: 4 Brush teeth before bed: 0 Wash face before bed: 0 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 0 Give yourself a haircut: 6 Do laundry: 13 Clean room: 13 Clean car: 13
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cetus replied to Sincerity's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
What you? What Idaho? These are just stories. Right? - Today
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JoshB replied to Sincerity's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
What do you mean? -
cetus replied to Sincerity's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
You think so? -
I don't even see how that take should be controversial.
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I do it because when I pronounce it in whatever language I'm speaking it rolls off the tongue better. Never thought of doing this one thing specifically for social acceptance. Although maybe sometimes
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Whats fascinating is a lot of these examples can swing both ways. Some examples can be extremely non conformist within a certain context.
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Not pronouncing your name in your native tongue around non-native speakers to gain social acceptance is conformist.
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JoshB replied to Sincerity's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
The more conscious I become the more obvious it becomes that awakening is NOT a binary on or off switch. -
JoshB replied to Sincerity's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I was being Facetious, the practice was me untying my shoes. And me playing Minecraft was me tripping over. And im from idaho, land of the potato -
cetus replied to Sincerity's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
A realization can happen at any time under any circumstances. For you it just so happened to occur while playing Mind Craft. The timing was right. For instance, I had the same realization once while pealing potatoes. -
JoshB replied to Sincerity's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
The self / ego is like an onion it has layers. Was it fully no self? No, and I would go as far to say you can realize the self is an illusion without fully disolving it. There are degrees to dissolution. Once the ego is dissolved to a certain point you can tell where its heading. But It was permanent and from that day on I was no longer looking out of my eyes. Now im conscious enough to see through space and time to see this image happening in real time. -
Controversial take: Remembrance Day is pure conformity. What exactly are we commemorating? That our European ancestors, enriched by global exploitation and fueled by boredom, started World War I? There was no legitimate moral justification for the conflict—only an arms race and an assassination. In reality, World War I was simply the catalyst for World War II, setting off a chain reaction of global conflict that persisted all the way until the Berlin Wall fell in 1989.
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What were the title of these books? I just see "content not viewable in your region"
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Sincerity replied to Sincerity's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@JoshB So to confirm: was the shift in consciousness / dissolving of the self permanent? God, I wish it happens here when something funny is happening. Like watching porn, or screaming at the top of my lungs with rage while on a walk, or laughing so much there’s no breath left, or witnessing something absurd like a child walking like a dog on a leash. That’d be sooooo gooood. 😝 Or maybe I have to get back into Minecraft lol. Thanks for the clue! -
JoshB replied to Sincerity's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Sincerity @cetus Ive meditated for about 2k to 3k hours. And during that time conciousness inched its way up ever so lightly all through out those hours. But then I played Minecraft on the couch in my dorm room years ago and I suddenly recognized everything as nothing. And the self just completely dissolved. Your best bet is Minecraft at this point -
Regarding Biases of @Leo Gura well. Let me think. What i sensed from you is an obsession of some kind. that somehow consistent with your need of survival and kind of role that you chose for yourself as guiding light for rest of us. I mean you are forced to keep producing new ideas new stuff everyday or so. I don't know if it is something that comes spontaneously or is it something that you are obligated to keep doing. Since thats whats needed to keep this thing going the Actualized.org. So at a cetain level its facade that needs to keep moving in some way and you are forced to oblige if i may. I don't know it has a beauty of it's own. It would be rude to not acknowledg it, But it's an excersie in freedom. It's just a higher system that has to function consistently at so many levels. At one level it's a business, at another it's a truth seeking. At another it's socializing. At another it's refuge for lonely depressed souls. I'm just admirer of it's beauty..
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