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    caspex replied to caspex's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    I was too slothful today. I didn't study at all. But I know I wasn't a coward. The reason I didn't study was because of comfort, not fear. I did exercise though. I really don't get how to overcome this bondage to comfort. With cowardice you just act despite the fear, that is courage after all. With sloth do you just forsake the comfort? Let me look up the definition for diligence: "careful work or great effort" "the quality of working carefully and with a lot of effort" The idea at least sounds quite stressful. Me holding on to that comfort might be causing the stress. Hm. . . After some thinking I don't think you must 'forsake' comfort. Comfort is akin to the feeling of security and certainty. I doubt anybody who can act consistently and diligently can do so for long without feeling some sort of comfort in what they are doing. Definition of comfort: "a pleasant feeling of being relaxed and free from pain" Yeah, it'd be pretty hard to be consistent in the gym if you feel pain every time you exercise. Every person I have seen that has been consistent in the gym for years has found the gym a quite comforting place. They found some sort of comfort in the exercise and place. I also remember that when I was consistent in my studying last year just before one of my exams, I found this strange comfort in the subject I was studying. It was as if that book was my home. Studying the chapters so many times gave me a sense of familiarity. Flipping the pages felt like walking through streets you're too familiar with. So the the way to solve cowardice is acting despite fear, and the way to solve sloth is finding comfort in what needs to be done? . . This gives me a lead to work off on. I will try to find comfort i.e. security and certainty within my studies tomorrow. When I wrote the above sentence I felt a physical reaction in my body. It recoiled at the idea of ever finding comfort in those books. This is VERY interesting. Yeah, fuck the fear. I am doing it. I am brave. Let's try this tomorrow and see what happens.
  4. I sense that you are unsure of what the ultimate substance of reality is. All I can say is this: keep staring away at it until it disappears. I have a sense that my reply is quite anticlimactic, but I'm all zinged out for today. I appreciate you though, I really enjoyed our back and forth.

  5. Intelligence

    YIDIRYIDIR posted a topic in Video Requests For Leo

    Some series of Intelligence.
  6. Happy meal!
  7. I don't know what was i doing and it hit me: I have actually never seen midget sex. like two midgets going at it, never. so i was ashamed of myself for even calling myself a sense maker and truth seeker, how can i pursue truth where there's such an important part of it out there not witnessed? Leo literally made a whole episode titled "expose yourself to more experience". So i went searching, i didn't find it on PH or the big websites, but took me some research skills and finally witnessed it. I know most of you, if not all if you haven't seen this part of reality, what are you waiting for? Wait, what have i done? now that i have thought about it, all the fucking categories i haven't watched yet, oh nooo what have i done?
  8. @Ziran @Stick @No1Here2c I appreciate you guys, thank you for participating. If that's the case for you, I sympathize. There has to be a lot of confusion. Keep chipping away at it. I've been in therapy for 10 years ever since I had my first enlightenment (fucked me up real good, the depth of it). I don't want to give you an impression that I'm free from stories, but there's very little compulsion left, mostly around food and basic survival.
  9. You got us here. What more do you need? You got yourself over there and us in here. We are a single continuous unit.
  10. God, I'm so lonely.... You wouldn't even understand 😭😭😭
  11. Prejudice against handicapped people existed back then too. Remember this was the time that the Nazis were euthanizing people with physical disabilities. The normal route for someone who was death and blind was to die in a sanitarium. The only thing wrong with Helen Keller was that her external senses didn’t work but she still had a fully functioning brain. She was fully human and the brain is remarkably adaptable and can compensate for lack of senses. Anne Sullivan was a brilliant teacher who had the compassion to connect Keller with the world. She wasn't less human because she didn't have sight and hearing. This was an advance of civilization which is why it was recognized by the great men of that day – presidents, scientists, authors, and inventors. It takes compassion to have real intelligence. Psychedelics doesn’t give you that.
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  13. @Ramanujan I think it depends heavily on your cognitive style. In terms of healing for my case it involved many books on many subjects. It involved reconstructing reality such that things make sense while building various models that map out human thought patterns and behaviors. For me it is intellectually and emotionally exhausting, but it was eventually worth it.
  14. It's a line of profound contemplation, much closer to reality than invoking a dreaming god as a deus ex machina, but the fact is that if there is a "substance" to what appears, it is the fact of being, and this being is a consequence of the limitation that reality is. You could say that being is not something concrete, but it is. Reality cannot not be because it is not limited, so relative motion occurs without origin. You could say that the ultimate substance of this relative motion is emptiness, nothingness, but the fact is that this limitless relative motion is substance itself. It is the totality. Absolute emptiness is the ultimate door to absolute fullness; it is not something rational but an opening that occurs within you through which the totality is revealed. And for this to happen you have to open yourself to the absolute void.
  15. The person does not awake. Awakening is. That is how the person can exist. Without wakefulness, there would exist no person, no world, no colors, sounds, or textures at all. Even a dream requires wakefulness in order to exist. The 'empty expanse' of sleep is pure wakefulness. Without the conscious field of awareness which is itself unrestricted, no restrictions could exist. In this is born unlimited freedom & all restraint.
  16. You are using the conventional understanding of concept "nothing" as an ontological argument. Since you clearly have a very sophisticated view of reality, I'm sure you know better than to treat conventional notions of what something is seriously. What I'm saying when I'm using the word "nothing" is that there is no independent ontological grounding to anything that exists. We agree on the principle, but you disagree with me on semantics. You are saying there is only being and I'm saying that everything that exists is dependent on something else, so is not existing in the strict sense. It is appearance without substance, so in essence, nothing. All being collapses under careful observation, no things can be found. Yet, the totality of it can be dependent upon itself precisely because there's nothing there. It's something like a circular argument, refining itself infinitely. That totality is still nothing, without substance, and it's precisely the point. It may look more like infinity to you and that's okay.
  17. I cannot confirm this, because some stories, no matter how much inspected, still have their full effect. Inspection simply adds awareness to the story. But it doesn't necessarily have an active role. It's mostly a passive observer. Our (mine at least) stories don't create our emotions. It's probably the other way around.
  18. What problems?

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    lostingenosmaze replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Instagram-unenjoyers, we are so back
  20. A wisp of smoke was all we saw
  21. Nothing is a something & a something is nothing.
  22. Nothing not ever
  23. Never not Nothing
  24. Words words words Meaning meaning meaning Ever grasp the whole or forever as a part?
  25. 🙂
  26. Nothing never ever ever, forever & ever

  27. Is Leo Gura attractive?

    Monster Energy replied to Monster Energy's topic in Off-Topic: Pop-Culture, Entertainment, Fun

    @integral
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