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  2. These are good questions. Thanks. I'll think about them. I think I'm slightly more ambitious than average. Just struggling and fearful atm. Been feeling a lot of anxiety. Trying to just get up out of bed and face the day, as thinking too much before acting amps up anxiety even more. When I look into my future I cannot see a clear way out of my situation. If feels like the same path will continue forever. So I've been trying to drop thinking too much about the future. Sometimes I feel suicidal and the furthest into the future I can bear to think about is 10 minutes. I'm not feeling suicidal at the moment. It's been a week or two since my last intense feelings. I'm slowly building more trust with my coworkers and more opportunities for having fun with them are coming up. Today I had my first real laugh with them which felt really nice and made me feel a bit more safe. I guess if we're able to build a better social atmosphere we'll be able to tolerate keeping the job for a bit longer. But yeah anyways, just really trying to get my anxiety levels down and I think a better income would help me a bit. I've been saving up and filled out spreadsheets with my expenses. Quite sad to look at Lol. But Joshe's questions sound helpful and I'll think about them. And yeah I guess thinking about what my "passion" is just literally doesn't work when I'm depressed. "Having a deep passion" sounds ridiculous when you've been feeling chronically depressed and anxious. I'm tired
  3. If anyone can put an asshole on a horse, it's Todd Howard. $15 horse assholes DLC.
  4. Just to do a slight refinement on the communication process/aspect/thinking up these types of things (and if you think of any others, feel free to add and we'll review) And so that is that theres 4 things that we very easily can get conflated w/ eachother—within/apart of the life macchina (i dont love the name life macchina, but yous can figure out a better one later): theres (1)"how to talk about truth", then theres (2)"how to experience truth", then theres (3)"where we're goin, or the assumption of where its going...", And lastly theres (4)"the level of determination or dedication towards said endeavor~of pursuing said truth". And theres nothin wrong with conflating them, atleast in some cases, cause that IS what life is~its the conflation or the interaction of all things thats making it work, like, i mean, its not Not interactive/interconnected, put it that way. Like, in other words, the only time it would not be is when you're existing in a place where said connections arent true, for you (hence, the pursuit of *a truth*), alas, we call it "the truth" when it is more of the ephemeral, fleeting, and forgotten, like when you are from a point of "not", in the face of "trying to", that is itself *an ephemeral*. Like, its "where the wild things are", combined with "business as usual", like... Thats the sortve, "inflating" effect, and then theres the "deflating", i mean im just saying "this" and "that" at this point, but hey, it is what it is, right (*fades lidly into the distance*)
  5. To put this in other terms, the game starts in the post-peak valley of the first story arc. It makes sense to calm down the story and let the drama of the previous peak settle, the boat heist, and slowly build up for the next arc. But it doesn't make any sense to start the game there. It's obviously bad writing to start a story in the middle of a story.
  6. Op, it'll take more than a few alliances to overpower the west. West will likely remain leaders in infrastructure, wealth and general dominance. I take a more qualitative perspective. Numbers aside, the USA is around the half way mark on the list of countries ranked for mental illness. The UK is the second worst in the same scale. It actually baffles me how such massive world names could go so wrong. But I did contemplate and arrived at the following insight: prosperity breeds complacency. It's sad to see countries that used to be bright and fun just devouring themselves from the inside. I have no doubt it's just a necessary part of the journey that must be passed through and that there will be better times, but I mean... god damn, the entire fucking thing is rotten and stinking and fucking vulgar. Unworthy of being inhabited by homeless people. In fact, the homeless people who do live in the west probably avoid the majority of the sewage by flying under the radar of the sewage masters. I think the west has just got bored and said "guys, guys, come here. I have a new idea, let's fuck up the entire country. Why you ask? No reason. LOL."
  7. Today
  8. Theres also the assumption that this person is somewhat ambitious and like doing crazy efforts to accomplish things. Meaning he is the achiever archetype. But this might not be the case. So far people in this thread have been projecting their achiever pesonality into the OP. Which is quite common overall here tbh, people think effort and ambition is king and people need to conform to this. I think Op needs to find if he is ambitious or not( in the traditional sense that he cant live with himself if he doesnt constantly move his mind or his hands towards some goal or title). Tbh I think he isnt and he should study psychology and investigate himself more.

  9. Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread

    Leo Gura replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    I got over 100 videos on my to-do list. So yeah, take a number.
  10. There is a new Ralston's e-course called "Controlling Your Mind". He says that 100% of what you want out of survival comes from controlling your mind.
  11. He clarifies it here:
  12. @Oppositionless Cool. Were kind of on the same page here. What I'm contemplating is whether infinite consciousness needs an ego to be present to be realized. In other words, if death means the disappearance of the ego/self into infinite consciousness than sugar can't taste sugar -So, to speak. So only by way of the separate ego/the finite, can infinite consciousness be realized? And yes, I was relating that based on what I have heard about the experience of 5 meo
  13. Maybe horse balls could save it from disappointment, though I’ve heard that game features horse assholes instead of horse balls.
  14. Yeah, that movie is wild. I really think Demi Moore deserved an Oscar for it.
  15. Okay, now I see more the angle you were framing it from.
  16. Thank you. I've actually never baked cookies before.
  17. Yesterday
  18. thats a good point. There might be some interconnection with power. If you have some form of power - people viewing you as evil, is irrelevant
  20. Op, first one got me
  21. How could God go wrong?

  22. Your Recent Movie Picks

    Natasha Tori Maru replied to Nemra's topic in Off-Topic: Pop-Culture, Entertainment, Fun

    Anyone seen 'The Substance'? Body horror. Went too long, but well done. But also 🤢🤮

  23. Conformity Examples Mega-Thread

    UnbornTao replied to Husseinisdoingfine's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    That's an Elden Ring boss.
  24. @Joshe This is why I said they need a trained professional. Taking action toward small, positive outcomes is not dangerous. It builds momentum.

  26. Conformity Examples Mega-Thread

    Natasha Tori Maru replied to Husseinisdoingfine's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Fuck, he's full into Oompa Loompa mode isn't he? Are toupees conformity? Just into bald mode and get it over with. Accents are conformity.
  27. Too true! It's... Too quiet. Haven't had to use the administrator kiss of death (instant 20 points) in a minute ay? 💀
  28. I don't claim to understand exactly how it works. It felt like engaging in the radical allowance of feeling/emotion led to some *thunk* moments of gears clicking into place. And over time all those little gears coming into alignment smoothed out the operation of the machine. Precisely as you say! Practice. Everything follows 🎯
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