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  2. Self is God! Truth is not meant to be humble nor grand; that is why it is a perfect duality to say the Self is God. Some people make “God” into an other, something separate, and that isn’t in accordance with truth either. Owning that and saying “Self is God” or “I am God” can actually be more truthful. A lot of gurus avoid this. They fear public backlash, sounding too grand, or disrupting a certain identity, so they say things like “All is One” or “All is Love,” but never really own the God aspect of it. Many people also feel that God is too grand, that they could never be it, so they never own it. “Oh, it’s something out there, far away, too perfect, too good. I could never possibly be THAT!” That is also misleading, because it keeps you from realization. At the same time, some people use “God” to make themselves superior to others. In that sense, saying “I am the Self, I am All, Everyone” "All is Self" can be more humbling. Many cult leaders abused this by placing themselves as a deity and misusing that power. Whatever stops separating you from the other, the self from the other, is the truth. So if you personally find it more truthful, and easier to remember, to see Truth or God as Self, then that is what resonates with you more and aligns you more with truth. Ultimately, it is all the same.
  3. Language tends to compress experience when we have not directly realized or experienced a domain. Without direct experience second hand labels are borrowed and used to try to map something out. This can be where we use synonymous language that flattens fine distinctions. For example: prior to direct experience - fear is one thing. But on deeper contact fear can be broken down and split into anxiety, dread, shame, anticipatory stress, existential terror, threat response etc.
  4. Oh Wait, There's a muscle memory element to it to, like. Hold on now. I have to write this all down, cause theres other stuff that im tryina remember, on top of the stuff we just said. So hold on now. p.s. i accidentally deleted whatever i was writing. fck me. i have to try re remebering what it all was.

  5. Thoughts on 2C-B?

    LambdaDelta replied to Oeaohoo's topic in Psychedelics

    As powerful as some of the classics like LSD or 5-MeO's at that dose. Lesson is if you take enough of almost any psychoactive, it could launch you into God-consciousness all the same. Whether you'll survive the ordeal is a separate matter. Posted my old trip report, check it out if interested: Not ideal, at this point you just have to see how trustworthy the source is. 30-35mg is a good starting dose for someone experienced with other psychedelics. Cut it out regardless, but for vasoconstriction specifically it's good practice to have something like clonidine around, plus benzos/antipsychotics as emergency trip killers. 2C-B is pretty light though, the real trouble starts at 2C-E, DOx, and NBMOes. Possible. I've seen everything from people accidentally snorting 200mg and simply drowning in a sea of visuals, which is child's play next to my 120mg or even Leo's 20mg. Depends on quality of one's consciousness, but also there's a pretty definite ceiling via receptor affinity levels and such.
  6. I think cause they dont go on the internet or understand the internet they have seen alot less of the world. We have seen so much of the world compared to old people.

  7. Should have kept it under the tongue?

    LambdaDelta replied to Michal__'s topic in Psychedelics

    Probably closer to 100μg tbh. THC seems to potentiate other substances almost exponentially. We'll see it how it goes when I get my THCA isolate. For now I can't imagine it having a psychedelic effect other than dirty confusion. Then again, for me methamphetamine is psychedelic & the best tool for increasing baseline consciousness. An utterly insane statement to 99% of people, and for good reason; if they tried to replicate this they'd sorely regret it, at which point it would already be too late. Genetics is such a volatile field, you never know what to expect, which's why it's so fascinating.
  8. We have to start a thread on this, cause i never really looked at it w/ such clarity before: That is how we are conflating this notion of like perfect, harmonic frequency, and like the ability to be at peace w/ everything and everyone, w/ the notions of routine or regimen. As we dont see how deep the routine goes, how deep our individual patterns go, thus we dont see the "language" building blocks. Like, what im tryina get at is that, even our ability to speak and hear words involves these small, incremental routines that we are misunderstanding. For instance, when we hear a word, or a string of sentences, we dont like "Hear words in order and interpret, done." We rather hear "words" upon which we've then ordered in our head. We do all the arranging and ordering in a subconscious way in other words. And even when we are *thinking* that its happening straightforwardly in sequence, we are really actively putting them in sequence. And we can go one step further, cause even thing like reading these words right now, unless you are just skimming and scanning and ignoring everything, you are thinking that you are looking at, and retrieving words individually. But actually your mind jumps around, and makes bridges between words, thoughts and ideas, and its all being arranged back into a sequence. When we hear "sounds in general", sounds in general have to be interpreted and placed into sequence, succh that they can be considered "sequential", like. The fact that we get "free sequences" is a lie. Like everything we do involved actively arranging it in our head. Now im not sure i had a point to this or like, a good point of conversation to draw on, but i think yous can use this as like, a pillar/totem to get at the heart of other such things like this, cause surely this is just the beginning. p.s. theres alot of things we conflate as well, so ill have to look at that old thread and figure out like, how do you order such things such that those things/ideas can be resurfaced; To later on~drop some knowledge, after we've figured out, or re-investigated that particular area of... iuno... whats the word... knowledge. i guess you call it "knowledge", like tie lopez's knowledge. jk. anyway. im done.
  9. Did hardcore contemplation of reality for 2 hours straight 🔥🔥 And shoutout to Dr. Will Siu for introducing me to the Liminal Space:
  10. Today
  11. There is a powerful pointer attributed to Leo which goes like "You are creating everything". It resonates strongly with the notion of "God". Besides, God-realization is often used as a description of higher states of divine love not merely reducible to the pure emptiness realization.
  12. No thats not true, but i didnt know what to title this: Like i thought of this time, back when i was doin alot of guitar and stuff like this, and i was approached by an older gentlemen, who sat down next to me, or nearby me rather, in the guitar store... Where all the acoustic guitars are sold?(they didnt hav any of them fancy old Lute or Oud-style guitars, not at the time, otherwise i woulda been tryina play them there) The point being, i tell this story of like, the time the older gentlemen sat down next to me, utterly fascinated by my style of playing, such that he was like, askin me questions bout how i got into it and stuff. And seeing as i dont play traditionally, nor had i been necessarily ever taught anything, let alone traditionally, i had him fixated w/ this, very strange sound, like i have a long list of originals (and this was like 10+ years ago, so i was really playing extra funky stuff that i dont even remember) and so like, it was like he just walked into a land of pure imagination, cause you could see how inspiring it was to him. And compounded w the fact that, he looked around 70 or so, so he was really cmin from a diff world entirely, and it was like, a revelation of sorts. He was involving himself—or really, he was throwing himself into this musical stuff. Like he kept grabbing guitars off the wall and plucking around. And he was just like, trying to figure out like, "What IS this MUSIC?" Like in other words, because it wasnt classical, it wasnt jazz, it wasnt country, blues, soul, funk or rock , he didnt have a reference point for what i was playing. So i can see now that, although to me i was just tryina figure out watever goofy piece i was figuring out, for him it was like a small introduction into a world of the arts, musicianship, where you are just explorin for the sake of just—painting shapes, repetitively, that which dont necessarily have or conform to any known medium. And so, i find this story to be true in other areas. That is, its not just music that has missing genres, but painting, art, and writing, and other things like this likely have small groups of individuals working on a whole genre of their craft that hath not been contemplated or experienced b4~Like its only by introduction that we can get a sense for what all these other genres are, and through further investigation find out why someone is so interested in something. Iuno if the story makes sense, as its hard to express the point of it, but thats it.
  13. Yesterday
  14. I gave birth to myself 2 years ago. I am raising Myself.
  15. I've seen videos of police threatening to arrest people in Germany for complaining about Israel in public, not Judaism.

  16. Share your insights

    Yimpa replied to Terell Kirby's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    You are Infinite Joy 😇
  17. Thing is though, we need to know stats for the previous generation to know if anything has significantly changed.
  18. Person gets recontextualized as God if You woke up inside Infinite Intelligence.
  19. God is all by itself.
  20. Here they literally silence it, they dont talk about it at all on Television, just once a month there is a documentary at midnight, when everybody is asleep. It's unbelievable. And whenever it comes up its about the Hamas Terrorists, they try to handle the debate one-sidedly in an extreme way.
  21. Love is the illest.
  22. How deep is your love for the stage that you’re at?
  23. Point to me where the atoms are located.
  24. I just wanted to add one more funny thing; Cause its like, imagine trying to have the conversations we are having on LSD or mushrooms, or trying to do serious computer work (or any of the stuff i am like, trying to segue into...) its like, its hard to do something when the god damn world is ending / breaking down, wtf!? I mean, try to do anything involving focuing when its like, everything is connected in lemniskos knots and whatknots. Its Cray cray impossible. And at the same time, its like, we are talkin bout like this divine knowledge of the universe as well; And gaining insights into places that i guess these like dedicated manichaeans and tibetan monks and ppl like this wouldve had to have taken years to figure out soly by sittin there trying figure it out, like... It makes life simpler when you ignore everything, like...

  25. Practice Journal

    Oppositionless replied to Oppositionless's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    It's bittersweet to see a YouTube thumbnail from someone like Bernardo Kastrup or his essentia foundation , because it symbolizes the person I was just a few months ago. The person without the direct encounters which have occurred, the person who found comfort and safety in intellectual spirituality . I love that person so deeply, he was beautiful , broken and deeply sad but beautiful.
  26. I don't think that there is any difference. Any logical reasoning, such as: "I can only exist within my direct experience, therefore I cannot prove the existence of others," is a logical construct. The problem is that it's a flawed construct, based on a false premise. that statement reveals a lack of understanding that you can never truly escape your direct experience because what you call "I" is a construct that arises within this experience. "You" are not an absolute. This leads to solipsism and the belief that you are God dreaming, and the kind of "enlightenment" we know. Enlightenment is precisely the dissolution, or opening, of the self. This is logic applied correctly versus logic applied incorrectly. Can you understand how the self can be dissolved? Not right? Because if you do, you would do it. The only understanding of the opening of the self is the opening of the self.
  27. Wait what!? 63% of men in the 18-29 age group are single while only 34% of women in that age group are single!?? So girls nowadays rather want a piece of chad then settle down with a beta for themselves? Thats what the data is suggesting. I wonder to which degree something like this affects politics.
  28. And then, to piggy back off of *intent focus*, we could ask: Whats the opposite of focusing intently? Paying attention to everything maybe? Is that what psychedelics do? I wouldnt say that (alas im prolly goin way off topic diggin into this), but i still dont quite understand whats happening on a psychedelic; Like, alot, alot of thoughts come to mind, like it speeds up, or it triggers this thing where it slike, your mind is bouncing , i would say, between these things that sortve blend your auxiliary sense, or whatever they call our 5 senses. And they sortve all merge into one. Though, the exp., itself is more like, you are individually still experiencing: As in, you are tasting feelings, or hearing what you use to feel, or seeing sounds, and stuff like that that bridges between the real and the auditory/efectively its a bridge to the once imagined, and by that, you are like, incorrectly (from the standpoint of normal waking reality) drawing connections to things, that wouldve otherwise not been present. Like its like this recapitulation of everything, but not like DMT i dont think, since it has to involve the stuff of reality. Like you have to contend with the fact that reality is, i guess you might say, being broken, but its not as violent. Like ive heard that DMT is sortve the strong version of this, in that it just throws you into complete wonderland, or so ive heard. LSD and mushrooms i can say are just the normalized form of it. Though ive never done DMT so i might have no idea what im talking about. Anyway let me just look at the title now, and see how far off i was... Okay that was all.
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