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  2. Let’s learn to swim in the pool before tackling a tsunami.
  3. Because you don't know what you don't know.
  4. Are you sure? When I look are the Israel and Palestinian conflict it seems like this didn’t start due to radical Islam.

  5. What is some music you like?

    Yimpa replied to itsadistraction's topic in Off-Topic: Pop-Culture, Entertainment, Fun

  6. Clip #382 in the Clip Vault dovetails nicely with that. I was literally just watching that clip before I read your post. Synchronicity? Haha.

  7. What is some music you like?

    Carl-Richard replied to itsadistraction's topic in Off-Topic: Pop-Culture, Entertainment, Fun

  8. I’ve timestamped it, 34:05

  9. In which video you said the following leo?

    shubhamsharma replied to shubhamsharma's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    @Yimpa timing? Thanks though.
  11. @LordFall I think you just got to listen to your gut, I felt in my gut that something was wrong the first day, so just listen to that. Gut feeling is huge: I will never doubt it again. The other week I was sitting down somewhere during the day, some guy 10 meters away from me, I could feel in my gut some negative intentions from him, I could feel it in my gut, and I knew he would come towards me. Then I was right and he approached me and I stood up and left, I listened to my gut feeling, there was no logical reason to go away, but my gut feeling was RUN! who knows, this random guy might could have killed me or stab me, even if it doesn't sound logical, still listen to your gut feeling it never disappoints. I am quite spiritual so I am used to doing things that seem irrational to normal people.
  12. What’s also suspicious is she never told any of her doctors about hearing voices but claimed a voice told her to do it.
  13. You are gonna born on a different planet and then you again wake up and you gonna born on a different planet. And you think what the fuck is going on?
  14. @Olaf That reminds me of Thai women. They are known to cut off the penis of cheating partners. Thailand has had world-leading expertise in penile reconstruction surgery from the 1980s to today. Careful boys!
  15. I didn't read through all the comments but I found a way to enjoy myself pretty much whenever I remember I can. Basically enjoyment is when you want things to be as they are so the trick is to find a way to desire for things to be exactly as they are. The way I do this is cultivate the desire to know how things are right now in my experience which is something I can do so I just do that and my desire is fulfilled. Also I look for evidence for the fact that things are perfect the way they are right now from god's perspective. When it comes to anxiety absolutely do not detach from it. I am a master at dissociation and could teach some tricks but that has caused me a huge amount of chronic pain that I found out early this year was linked to it so I would not recommend that. I recommend that you associate with your anxiety as much as you can. You need to accept that part of yourself and really appreciate all the good it has done for you in your life to keep you safe. Really if you can sit with that emotion for several hours and give it your full attention without turning away you will be able to process it and all that tension you are holding in your body will finally be able to relax. Anxiety will come up again depending on what is going on but you can get really good at processing that emotion through giving it your attention and continue enjoying your life.
  16. It's beautiful what you wrote; but, I'm curious. Why are you beholden to the syntax of your life?
  17. I love the way you ended this. I can totally relate here. If you would like to discuss it further, let me know. Cheers.
  18. @Zenterus omg you made me feel happy about being single. I have one crazy ex that I was scared that she would fucking kill me, not even a joke. Even had some room with stuff about her dead husband she married that she didn't want to talk about and she hided her real name, like literally psycho yelling bitch. These girls will make your heart rate go through the roof like no other, thats why they call them baddies, they are bad for you hahaha not all woman are like this tho
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  20. I have never felt this way, to the best of my recollection, within this timeline. Are you perhaps waxing, poetically? I'm simply asking so I can read your words as intended. TY. ^^ This I've experienced ^^ ...but it's not born from a need for belonging.
  21. @felixk_priv Honestly I just don't give a shit anymore, I just hate the waiting the same amount as she texts. I just never double text thats my only rule, but many times when I see she responded I just directly text, because I don't want to put her so much on a pedestal that I will consciously spend 2 hours waiting before sending a message. Many times when you respond directly they also start to text more quickly so that is what I do, I used to wait hours, but I feel there is no point to it.
  22. Nice one, Sifu. My ribs are tickling.
  23. Here is a scene I just wrote. As I've talked about one of the main narratives of the story will be exploring how magic affects the scientific revolution of the early modern period. One of the concepts that I wanna write into the narrative are basically magic crystals that store massive amounts of energy. Think somehow a crystal that's even more advanced than the batteries we have today. The idea is to create insane levels of technology for the post conquest era that aren't even possible in our world today and that will turn the world from classic 17th century to high fantasy pretty quickly. One of my master creations is the Dreadnought ships, inspired by Imperial Star Destroyers This project will be ready about halfway through the show and comes about from the marriage of Nerathar to his 3rd wife, who is based on a real historical noble lady: Amalia van Nassau-Dietz They will meet in 1672 when historically the Dutch Republic was assaulted on all sides by the French and the English that ended up in a disaster year known as Rampjaar in Dutch history. The Dutch were the #1 ship builders in the world at that time and this conflict will lead Nerathar to stumble upon their kingdom in the middle of a siege, help save them, bargain for a marriage alliance with Amalia, take over their shipyards and their naval fleet and eventually both build this flying armada as well as conquer the Royal Navy and England entirely through naval and aerial dominance. I don't know if I like this colored manga style yet, I'm playing around with it. Might release both a black and white manga and a color one since it does make the characters come to life quite well.
  24. @Emerald I agree that there are many spiritual bullshiters on this forum, that is why I never open a topic in the spiritual niche on this forum, because you just get nonduality psychos argue everything as unimportant and the only important thing is that everything is one. Aka spirtiual bullshiters or spiritual bypassing, ignoring everything worldly. I appreciate you saying what you find attractive in a men, but also we will give our opinion on that. I think I am attractive, but I still have many nice guy stupid habits, every guy does this, they open the conversation and ask all the stupid questions, I do this too and it is so hard to unlearn, so many mistakes that are able to be avoided. Actually 90% of what I am working on around game right now is talking allot with many girls and trying to ask no questions in the first 2 mins, speaking loudly and being able to free flow more without letting the nerves make you end a conversation prematurely. Also if I can joke in the beginning of the conversation, I already know I am doing very well.
  25. I haven't gone terminally online in depth, but there's too much doubt about her insanity to confidently say she didn't know what she was doing as far as I can see. It looks obvious to me, idk.
  26. Over the course of your life, beginning and usually ending in your childhood, a process of closure takes place. The need for belonging, completely non-negotiable, makes openness to your source, to what you are, unbearable. You create an energetic structure adapted to the vibration of the people you interact with and take as models. At a certain point, that structure becomes your form, what you are as a human being, and it no longer draws its vitality from within, from your source, but from outside, from social reality. Being disconnected from your being, from your source, your reality becomes constant lack, filled with projection onto a future of fullness drawn from social reality. This is impossible. You can feel this closure at low intensity and achieve a supposedly sufficient level of comparative social nourishment, living in a dull, bearable lack, or you can feel it with great intensity, where the lack feels like a constant, unbearable imbalance. You might try to cover it with drugs, sex, success, compulsive work, or whatever else. None of it will work, in any case. There are also people who, due to their circumstances, have maintained a fairly high level of openness and live fairly connected by default, but there are few of them. Once you operate from a structure based on valuation, and you draw your vital energy from valuing and comparing, you can no longer get out of it. You are a prisoner, separated from your essence, closed off from the source that you are, from yourself. You are not going to break this energetic barrier, built on genetic patterns formed in the tribe and the herd, by understanding that they are a mistake, an illusion, by having insights and classifying the ego as illusory, but by breaking the barrier that encloses you. From my perspective (from my mental structure), there is only one way to do this, becoming aware of the barrier and having a moment of openness. Then you see the closure clearly, and all your mental energy focuses on breaking it. It is not something you do through discipline, it is inevitable. But it is extremely difficult, because you really do draw your energy from the valuative structure. It may be an anxious, painful energy, but it is the only one you have. You cannot simply drop it, that is impossible, if you have no other source of life, it will come back immediately, and access to what you are, to the source, is closed. It will not open just because you want it to, you have to break it. And to do that, you must absolutely want to. Not because you are looking for something better, but because you perceive a closure, and that is intolerable, period. The work is 24/7, and quite slow. Returning to the purity of childhood is no longer enough and it is impossible. You must break through structural layers of fear, one after another, passing through the valuative layer, the need for acceptance, for belonging, for self-judgment, until you reach the base, the primordial I am, where nothing remains but the subject/object structure, stripped of everything else, and collapse it. It is in that movement that the source reveals itself. It was really always present in everything, but the structure through which it manifested kept it closed, opaque, impossible to perceive. Once it opens, experience changes completely. It goes from being defined to being fluid, from being valuative to being alive, from being reflective to being expansive. You will never achieve this by realizing that valuing is a mistake, because it is not, it is your way of obtaining energy when your structure has closed off access to what is alive. When you break the barrier, the self-reflective structure is no longer necessary, and it simply disappears. Definition disappear because what you are is indefinable. This is so obvious that trying to grab or define is not even an idea. From this let's say way of existing, you can open your heart to death, not because it's inevitable but because it's perceived like something that happens in what you are, no to what you are.
  27. Usually you should mostly keep theory and debriefs for after game sessions, not during. It indeed ruins your flow. As you progress through your game journey it's normal to have more thoughts around it and not just be a wild man talking to every woman he sees. Sometimes there is value to a spray and pray method and seeing what sticks but once you've learned what you need to from that then you can start to build a more complex strategy around your dating life.
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