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Mellowmarsh replied to Mellowmarsh's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@YIDIRYIDIR Not so much fantastic, more a Kearse. 😲 -
Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #214 ~ Fri Sep 4 '26 Daily goals: Shower: 46 Groom hair: 46 Brush teeth: 46 Floss: 5 Take medication: 46 Drink protein shake: 0 Make bed: 29 Kriya yoga: 1 No porn: 4 No ejaculation: 4 Eat 150 g of protein: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 1 Wash face before bed: 1 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 ( ☑️☑️☑️) Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 6 Clean car: 5 Things to do: FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls Get new light bulbs Wash sandals
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Ziran replied to Hyperion's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
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Ziran replied to Meeksauce's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Yes. What if? Keep going? Follow it to it's ultimate conclusion... If it's known that it cannot be known, gnostic-agnosticism, then ... poof, You're unstuck. Because the prior trap of syntax immediately pivots and becomes an endless sea of possibilities. -
It’s soooo hard. But we do it anyway.
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Husseinisdoingfine replied to Nivsch's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events
Netanyahu ad https://x.com/netanyahu/status/2095784169762611216? -
Sometimes. I used to do a micro dose during therapy sessions all the time, but eventually it reached its limits; now I am going to go deep solo. Therapy is still useful to process any mishaps or traumas that arose during the trip. Weed. I am extremely sensitive to weed. One strong hit is 100% guaranteed God realization. I keep avoiding taking a strong hit, but now my therapist is gently pushing me to just do it for God's sake.
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Never take a pink pill: https://www.ukat.co.uk/blog/society/pink-cocaine-what-is-it/
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4-HO-MET Trip Report - September 3 2026 This was my first time trying this substance. For those who don't know, it's a mushroom analogue, like a cross between 2C-B and mushrooms. It's supposed to be more gentle than mushrooms, but not quite as gentle as 2C-B. This substance is fucking incredible. 2C-B is my favourite psychedelic. I LOVE the neon, digital, alien feeling of it, and the visuals on 2C-B are so beautiful. This substance is quite similar. It feels clean, smooth, digital, but in a different way than 2C-B. It has the same head buzz that mushrooms give you. The smoothness of it kind of reminds me of penis envy mushrooms, but it is more digital feeling, like 2C-B. You know the feeling of mint toothpaste in your mouth, how refreshing and cool it is? This substance made my whole body feel like that. It was a really interesting feeling. Even though I didn't get much experience with AL-LAD by itself the day before, just seeing how its visuals morphed with 2C-B, the visuals are more strange, chaotic and weird than beautiful (at least from that one experience). With 4-HO-MET, the mint toothpaste coolness sort of carries over psychologically and in the visuals. The visuals feel clean, smooth, digital and beautiful, like 2C-B but in a different way. It's sort of like an apple laptop - clean, smooth, elegant, digital. This substance is known to make music sound really good, and oh my god it definitely does. Early in the trip I became really cold, and I couldn't warm myself up, so I took a warm shower and then a bath, with the lights off, and I played this song the whole time. This song is fucking amazing, it sounded SO good on this substance. So the substance itself is beautiful, and I love it, but the trip itself was really fucking painful. Not because of the substance, but just because of what divine intelligence put me through to progress me towards fana. At the start of the trip, some of the physical sensations felt good, and it was quite relaxing with the music and when I took a shower, but at the same time I felt really antsy and tense, like I couldn't let go and enjoy it and I was just uncomfortable. I was also just really cold for a lot of the time. Even when I took a hot shower, it helped, but I was still kind of cold in some way, and heating myself more just made me nauseous. Then I went back to my room and laid in bed. By the way, I do all of my trips at night. I took this substance at about 11pm on September 3rd, I added more to my dose a couple times, and it wasn't over until about 8am. When I laid in bed, it felt good and helped with the tension and antsy-ness I was feeling, but then I started to become really nausious. Heavy nausea is something I've experienced quite a lot in my trips over the past few months. I heard that a lot of fear is stored in the stomach, so heavy nausea on these trips is a form of releasing fear and helping me get deeper into surrender. So I started to become nauseous, and it got really fucking bad. It went on for hours, and at times it got SO fucking painful. I only vomited once, but most of the time I was just sitting in this really painful nausea that wouldn't go away. There was also a lot of emotional pain. I started thinking about something in my life that hurts me a lot, that I am constantly dealing with/thinking about, and it hurt like a motherfucker here. It was so bad, I had to really try to not think about it, but I kept coming back to it. It was so bad at times that it made me want to cry. There was also just general emotional pain. I don't really know how to describe it, I guess some kind of strong fear and discomfort, I had to really try to breathe and be patient. It takes a lot of willpower to not resist it and start freaking out. I can do it for a bit, but the longer it goes on for, the harder it gets to not resist it. At some point I remember I started thinking about society and the world, about how humans started out as cavemen, hunters and gatherers, and over time they built this entire society, with different cultures, money, businesses, schools, people have jobs to teach and educate the youth, people grow old, they have services dedicated to helping all different types of people (kids, old people, etc). Everything is so interconnected and developed, and there are so many different kinds of people, and facets of human life. All of it was so interesting to think about. Again, it took on this clean, technical type of feeling and that's what made it feel so interesting. There was one point around 3am where I started to fall asleep, maybe for about 30 minutes, and when I woke up, I had NO IDEA who I was. Insane ego dissolution that I've never experienced before. On top of that, reality, like what I was seeing, feeling, hearing, etc., it did not feel real at all. It was like it didn't exist, and I was just experiencing nothingness and absolute Truth. It was so bizarre. After that I was still nauseous, still rolling around in my bed in a lot of pain, in all the ways I described above. I think I fell asleep around 5 or 6am, and then I woke up around 8am, and thank God the trip was pretty much done at that point. There was also a point a few hours before this where I started listening to this song, and it was incredibly beautiful as well. It made me feel like I was a baby being held, it was so soothing. I started laughing a lot at times on this trip like I did in my trip the day before. It was mostly at the thought of certain youtube videos and memes that I like, but at one point I started gently caressing my teeth with my tongue, and it felt really good, and then I had the thought "what if I asked someone: do you have teeth? do you have a tongue?" it's really weird in retrospect, but it made me laugh a lot when I thought about that. There's this term I came up with in high school with my friend. About jerking off, meat beating - meatamus beatamus. I thought about that and it made me laugh so hard lol. I wanted to sit up and watch some of the youtube videos that make me laugh, but I was so fucking nauseous that I just couldn't do it. So yeah, most of that trip was really fucking painful, but the substance itself is so beautiful. It really does feel like a cross between mushrooms and 2C-B. Less aggressive than mushrooms, more digital feeling like 2C-B. I love it. It's definitely up there with 2C-B as one of my favourites. That trip was so deep, the ego dissolution I felt later in the trip was so strong, there is no way that fana is far away after a trip like that. Even though it was really painful and I'm glad it's done, that trip was incredible.
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Breakingthewall replied to Breakingthewall's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Not poetically, just the most common in humans even you are not conscious of it. The need of belonging, of acceptance, is absolute. If the adults around you are closed, egoic, neurotic, you will construct a barrier. You won't know that you are doing it, for you it will be just the reality Then what originated it? -
It's the cost of having ethics and growing a spine as a man. You get less sex, but you can look at yourself in the mirror. That said, sometimes there are women who genuinely are in a phase of being open to casual sex and you can go about that with a playful, respectful, kind attitude. No reason there can't be love there either.
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Yeah, and you can't quite put your finger on it but something is off. I feel that way when i listen to Orion Tarabhn , he's selling a whole paradigm that is pretty powerful and a framework that is hard to break down- but fundamentally lacks heart
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I think if a woman is on board with that and the boundaries/expectations are clear there is no issue. What i have a problem with is leading women on, being deceptive, especially when for the most part they don't want casual sex. Most of the women i talk to don't seem interested in that as they have already experienced it, like a phase. Sometimes they do, but i think that needs to discussed and clear before moving forward. Otherwise, there's no problem there at all.
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Ah my mistake, i realize that in these examples you were just showing how the Red Pill justifies what it does and how it basically gaslights the shit out of anyone critiquing their models. This was a great read, thank you for sharing. I definitely feel for women in this sense, which is why wayyyy back (lol) in my intial post i said the truth of the matter is that it is kinda just is bullshit for women and i understand why they think it's bullshit
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Yeah exactly. This reminds me of a book im reading now "The Value of Others" by Orion Tarabahn. I'm mostly reading it just as part of my research on these topics, but it fits almost perfectly with what you are describing. I understand the sentiment here, but also, look at how much of a victim mentality this gives to women and power this gives to men. You could make a similar list for men and how complex, contradictory and bullshit it is to deal with women and dating. I definitely agree that it isn't fair and women are told way too many conflicting messages that is likely confusing as fuck. But also, on some level, can they not stand on their own feet and not be subjected to whatever labels are being thrown at them?
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True, because what men find attractive and what women find attractive are different so this might work in "worse looking" women's favor. Because women typically find personality, status, presence, energy more attractive than looks. Men highly value looks. This makes sense evolution-wise. Seems like an assumption here that quality guys can't meet a woman on the street. Why do they have to be limited to her social circle? I agree most will probably be junk mail but i don't think it's fair to say public approach = low quality guy. That limits her a lot, plenty of beautiful couples meet at a subway, cafe, bar, park, gym, whatever. Plenty of toxic horrible relationships come from people in the social circle, work environment, same yoga school, whatever. But I can understand the sentiment that it helps to act as a filter in general. Also, if a guy is approaching in public it's not likely his first time ever doing so, meaning he does it a lot. Fair enough, I understand what you are saying. I will say that learning "pick-up" or let's just say learning "attraction/dating skills" is essential for most men and will not automatically stunt their growth. That only happens if they become unethical and lost in that world. But for many it's an essential part of stepping into masculinity and being ready for a life partner. So many men commit too young and end up regretting it because they never went out there and tasted different flavors of ice cream. Similar to how you said women are not low on options/ attractiveness,-men have 0 if they don't take action and learn how to be attractive. And make no mistake women can be absolutely brutal with their filtering, labeling a guy as "ick", etc. Lastly, I think the discernment is important, but can go too far. Similar to a guy going too far with his pick-up and becoming Peter Pan, a woman going too far with her red flags and list of requirements can become what I'll call a "Deluded Goddess" this is a woman who has placed such a high ideal on her potential partner that no man let alone human can fulfill, leaving no room for human imperfection, that she just ends up alone. I can think of countless women who do this, and guess what, they are all alone and single and have been for years. Cute women too. Example- today i was talking to my female friend at a cafe and asked her what her requirements are for a partner, she went off about an ideal man who can hold "pure perfect presence, guard her from any penetrative looks in public with a simple glance, hold her through all her chaos and emotion no matter what, etc" I then said "have you ever found a man like this?" and she said "No, never. We're talking about the DIVINE MASCULINE here" Yeah...Good luck with that one
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Hyperion replied to Hyperion's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
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YIDIRYIDIR replied to Mellowmarsh's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
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In my RV practice today I started to mix my guided technique with my own technique. I used a point to focus but then got the guidance when I should view. I feel like I must have mixed those together at some point but interestingly it felt kinda new and good. Maybe because awareness is simply completly diffeent because of medication idk.
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Maturity is realizing that you can't get everything. Also people start from different points, of course becoming a trillionaire is easier if you are elon musk which comes from a wealthy family than if your dad was in prision. Knowing the cards you have and managing expectations it's not being negative, it's being mature.
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https://x.com/yairlapid/status/2095506641609236619?s=20
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Almost as genius as only allowing myself a little sweet when I am directly in the grocery store. No sweets stored at home but I get the whole choice of ice cream, chocolate bars, gums so there is never a huge craving.
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I am thinking so much about which table tennis equipment to buy atm but think about every euro.. But I just realized that especilly for the blades that can just be sold again. It just takes a little effort. And there is also stuff that I own that I could sell on ebay right now. This could be a new strategy, whenever I want something I just need to make that money with selling stuff first. That can be beneficial on two fronts, one I am much more free to buy stuff and second I get rid of old clutter. Its a win win.
