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  2. Stop looking at it in such a 1-dimensional way. There is more to Consciousness of God than some "unlimited" you imagine. God is beyond your unlimiteds.

  3. Random sexual hookups

    blankisomeone replied to blankisomeone's topic in Dating, Sexuality, Relationships, Family

    Not sure how to put it. I've had 26 random hookups. But I engaged them very unconsciously. I was going through a very tough time and was just desperate for connection and affection. And I noticed they were kinda going through the same. I've felt a lot of guilt and shame over it, using them for sex and being used for sex. Some texted wanting to keep in touch and I just couldn't or didn't want to because I didn't want to get too involved with their lives, and it was tough handling those situations. And so I was wondering if there's a conscious way of going about having lots of sex to gain experience, or seriously just forget hookups entirely. I've been a fool😅 I think I'm a sex addict and I really feel the negative effects. And now I'm so ashamed of the whole thing and really conflicted. There's a difference between exposing yourself to sex for healing purposes and for gaining experiences versus just being crazy with it. I'm tired I just need a break from sexuality. @pablo_aka_god What did you get out of your hookups? Anything positive at all? No concerns about "oh did my encounter with this girl actually add to her solving her psychological shit, or did it add to her psychological shit? Does she feel abandoned, retraumatized for being in a sexual encounter with a guy who doesn't wanna keep in touch?" Yknow, guilt and concerns over this stuff.
  4. @integral I think most humans are this way. Only an Actualized person develops the ability to see things as they are, or near it.

  5. Dune: Part 3 (Official Trailer)

    Natasha Tori Maru replied to Natasha Tori Maru's topic in Off-Topic: Pop-Culture, Entertainment, Fun

    I'm okay with it. Provided there is less of Zendaya's one trick pony scowl face. I AM DISSATISFIED WITH THIS! face
  6. Y’all — caffeine / coffee is a genuine, massively under appreciated problem for a lot of people. Basically cutting it out entirely is probably best. But if you are gonna consume caffeine despite feeling negative effects from it — I can’t more highly recommend checking out “paraxanthine” as an alternative stimulant. I won’t go into the biochemistry — just look into it — but real briefly, paraxanthine is a metabolite of caffeine, one of three major ones (it, theobromine — made famous from chocolate — and theophylline). Theophylline is the “bad guy” here as far as coffee jitters, anxiety and stress. You can get it by itself or in energy drinks. There are coffees that are decaf but then add back in Paraxanthine (what I use). I’ve described it as 80% of the good of coffee with only 20% of the bad. Tiny thing, and yet quietly a massive life upgrade for me.
  7. @integral Agree. And yep there is some twisted shit in the manipulation of man and dog. There are some breeds that shouldn't exist. And continuing to breed them is abuse and wrong.
  8. @trenton I make a distinction between sexual harassment and sexual assault/rape/abuse. Most women speak from the frame of sexual assault/rape/abuse inferring a physical transgression has transpired. Sexual harassment is more the verbal transgressions and objectification. I do understand there is overlap in interpretation, though. Especially in more clinical circles. I have never experienced any sexual physical violation - only extensive violence/assault. Being beaten, hit and thrown around has a different effect to being sexually violated from what I can tell. I am lucky to have only experienced physical assault. I have experienced verbal sexual harassment. I have a way about me that really shuts men down quickly when I do not welcome it. Mostly this is in my professional life, from hardened construction workers. I don't let it effect me, although I know for many women - it does.
  9. Awful lot of rigged elections last night. Awful lot of radical jihadist woke lunatics soon to be sworn into office. What a great outcome. I’m reminded of the whole “we’ll see” Chinese proverb — but cause for celebration as far as I see it now. Besides the work of governing and helping people thrive, I’d love to see real accountability. I don’t want punishment or suffering for anyone. I don’t want humiliation or revenge. But I do want a public reckoning with the last 10 years. Wrongdoing exposed, acknowledged, and addressed. Appropriate consequences where warranted. And meaningful safeguards against it ever happening again. I’d love for us to be able to collectively say: This happened. It was unacceptable. We learned from it. And we’re not going to let it happen again. And whatever the HELL that was — it is NOT normal.

  10. Dune: Part 3 (Official Trailer)

    RickyFitts replied to Natasha Tori Maru's topic in Off-Topic: Pop-Culture, Entertainment, Fun

    Parts 1 and 2 of Dune were both around two and-a-half hours long (actually a bit longer), and I didn't find their length a problem.
  11. Yesterday

  12. Help identifying shadow element.

    Thought Art replied to integral's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    https://thework.com/
  13. Yeah knowwwww, it could be more twisted than that, unfortunately. We bred them to perfectly give us what we want at the emotional level. But we don't know what their lived experience is.
  14. Who is this guy?
  15. victim mindset, yeah It's largely a disease inherited from parenting from what i can tell
  16. I think Ossoff's style is more effective. He very effectively calls out the right's bullshit without the arrogance of El-Sayed. People (myself included) like El-Sayed for his style right now, but I could see it becoming toxic down the road. He could become the left's favorite politician while becoming the right's most-hated. That's the same situation we've been in with Trump, and it's just not effective or sustainable. The left needs figures who know how to appeal to the right, not someone who delights in calling them dumb fucks.

  17. Help identifying shadow element.

    integral replied to integral's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    wow this is a old thread from 2021 Multiple companies, one is called Pascal. I do a lot of freelance work and other personal companies i own with near 0 success lol I honestly don't remember writing this thread lol its from 2021. I think I was mostly complaining about the lack of substance with all conversations. The point of conversation is entertainment and vibe, That is what everyone is conditioned to care about and want from it. Bad vibe is a social crime at this point.

  18. The Law of the Sublime - Robert Greene

    Natasha Tori Maru replied to LordFall's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    I'm keen for this! I listened to his recent interview on Huberman's podcast - he goes into the painstaking process of writing everything by hand there. I love how he dives into the experience and phenomenology of becoming an 'ink fetishist' after having to write so much - colours, feel etc. I resonate a lot with his story as his suffering has been immense - suffering culminated to produce my first really big enlightenment breakthrough. I experienced a permanent shift of consciousness. I have never been the same since. Greene has such a powerful mind to reframe, his gratitude and appreciation have deepened and he has made the best of the result of his existence following his stroke. He isn't afraid to face the darkness of humanity - his own - and the light, also. He is also a lovely orator with a rich, well paced speaking voice. I think haters mostly don't understand him.
  19. Entirely dependent on who the specific woman is and why she’s crying. Is it my mom, my partner, a rando I only saw in pictures and know nothing of? Is she crying cause she got cancer and is breaking down or because she’s throwing a tantrum for being exposed for cheating? I’d say pretty much all feelings and reactions are on the table. The context will generate a reaction in me when it happens.
  20. Yeah I think it's phenomenal, I'm about halfway through it so far. It's much more brutal than 48 Laws of Power into dissecting the ego. Whereas 48 Laws of Power is more about figuring out how the outside world works, this one is more about how the mind works and plays tricks on you and how character traits like narcissism and anxiety form and how attitude has made and broken famous people in history. I'm gonna finish it over the next month and then more than likely to pickup a copy of The Law of the Sublime.
  21. As much as I still like and respect Obama, he wasn't enough of a fighter like FDR and the New Deal Democrats were. Hopefully this new crop of Democratic leaders truly fight like hell against the oligarchy and corporate extremism in a real class war.

  22. Random sexual hookups

    pablo_aka_god replied to blankisomeone's topic in Dating, Sexuality, Relationships, Family

    @blankisomeone You carry their energy with you for real? I am very sensitive of my body and energy and I've hooked up with around 30 girls from Tinder some of which were very unstable psychogically and I never felt like I was carrying their energy. Is this a real thing? Can't you just decide to not carry it? use the person for your pleasure and move on, I think that's what hookups are about.
  23. Except the last time that happened was Obama and the left has been getting their ass kicked since he left, until now.
  24. I like his deep voice The laws of human nature’s been sitting on my bookshelf for a long time. Haven’t read it yet. Is it good?
  25. Maybe you are right, but I can't see how anything could be higher than unlimited
  26. IDK much about him but he comes across as brash, belligerent, and like he doesn't play well with others. Maybe that style can be effective, but I could see a cult of personality forming around him, which the left needs to avoid. He talks a good game and I'm definitely for him, but there's not enough data yet.
  27. From JD Vance https://x.com/JDVance/status/2118004988433641835
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