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  2. @Lyubov Unborntao was banned ● ﹏ ●
  3. I think science is in its best forms right now. It just has so much corruption on the inside. Just like religion; the shell looks so idealistic, but the core is rotten. That's not a failure of science. That's just human corruption.
  4. Cold shower. Go into cold shower without thinking, try not to make a sound if you have to say praise God. Any part of your body that is trying to get out of the water force it into the water immediately and keep doing it. Make the voices that want to run submit to you.
  5. He will try but do not go doomer. In the USA we have a ton of power to fight back with protesting and there is a long history of agency amongst people to resist. We will not turn into China or even Hungary.
  6. It’s hard to tell because user titles don’t mark people as banned. Was unborntao banned?
  7. If you really wanted to be diplomatic, reinstate everyone who was banned on here.
  8. I guess I want to have a nuanced discussion about this as it’s a very important topic and in my opinion essential to your quality of experience life, inner and outer transformation, etc… I’ve really liked stuff like intense breath work. And even exercise to a degree. Of course Kriya Yoga which includes the breath work as pranayama. I am wary of psychedelics even though I’ve done them in the past. As we’ve seen it recently go wrong with a popular fitness influencer and we only found out because he’s famous online. That does not include all the random people we never here about that are never quite the same anymore. Probably has happened to people on this forum to some degree. I think that just from the spiritual work I’ve done without the psychedelics it’s turned my life upside down in ways that I am having to navigate in my late 20s and now 30. Tbh it’s not entirely that I was like psychotic or something but I did lack grounding and didn’t really have consistent guidance for how to bridge the insights with the material world that we live in. I think this is why they always suggest finding a teacher in many traditions. I thought it was just dogma or something and to a degree it can be but you can get lost running it solo. Which is why I am wary of doing something as powerful as psychedelics. A gradual path could be enough for now to keep both sides somewhat aligned — material reality and spiritual development. I mean it’s not like it’s a race… and sometimes going faster is slower in the long run. I didn’t intend for the post to be this long but I felt like giving additional context as this is a sensitive topic.
  9. Choosing Parenthood According to My Values I did Leo's life purpose course a while back where I had to define my top 10 values. That list has been a good tool in terms of keeping me grounded, in terms of helping me identifying what I need to be changing in my life to have a sense of fulfillment, and in terms of guiding me through difficult choices where I felt conflicted. I did a post about me trying to decide what I do about my family relationships as well as what to do regarding plastic surgery according to how they align with my values: So here is how I'm analyzing the stance 'Yes I should be a parent": Authenticity: IDK I think after journaling about this for a while that I'm at a place at this moment where I need more life experience before making a decision like this. I feel like I need to travel around more and find more of a sense of community/friendship/ belonging before my desires become clear to me. Part of me thinks that if I travel around and have more of a sense of community that I will want to be a parent because my desire is coming from a healthy and constructive place of wanting to share an already fulfilling life with someone. But another part of me thinks that if I travel around and have more of a sense of community, that my desire to be a parent might wane since I have created a more fufilling life for myself. Awareness: IDK I feel like I need to find out whether my desire to be a parent is authentic to me or not before I can answer yes or no to this. I feel like parenthood can make you more conscious if you genuinely want it but it can make you less conscious if it was pushed on you and you didn't think things through. Justice/Truth: N/A I'm not moralizing the act of reproducing. I also think that I am capable of being a good parent. I think the timing of having a kid in today's climate is questionable and whether or not it's an ethical decision is up for debate depending on a number of factors. Empathy: Aligned I feel drawn to parenthood because I want to guide someone through life and I want to expand my capacity of empathy. I'm intrigued by how people grow and develop and I would love to be a part of that. I would love to get to know a kid for who they are and experience life through their eyes and their experiences Joy: IDK The thing that makes this a difficult decision is because I can imagine a joyful life either way. Peace: IDK On one hand the lack of peace seems temporary once you adjust to parenthood and so long as your kid isn't a screamer. So I can still imagine having a sense of peace of mind even when I'm a parent. But also, I can see situations where being a parent and having responsibility over a kid would also multiply any stressor I might have in my life. Creativity: N/A Connecting with people: Aligned I care about stepping into a mentorship type role to the people around me including kids which is one of the attractive parts of being a parent. I think part of it is because I am growing up and I want to hold myself to a higher standard in my community. I don't know if this means that parenthood is the way I would want to fulfill this role, but it is something I am considering. I also care about creating, maintaining, and nurturing long term relationships and I think becoming a parent is about as long term as it can get. Learning: Aligned I feel like I would learn a lot through parenthood about people, kids, and the over all human experience. Freedom: Not Aligned Ok, this might sound contradictory since a lot of people see parenthood as a restrictive thing because of all of the things you will need to take into consideration when you have a child. And I did as well at one point. But I feel like as I get older and I get more life experience, I don't feel like parenthood will mean losing my freedom because I will have done most of what I wanted to do before the restrictions get placed onto me. In other words, I see parenthood as restrictive like there are boundaries around my life, but I don't see it as something robbing me of my freedom like shackles. So while I can see the choice for pursuing parenthood as aligned for freedom, I think I will have to go with not aligned regarding where I'm at with my life right now. At the same time, I feel like going back to the point I made on Peace, I feel like if I were to be in a messed up life situation, the logistics around the kid and parenthood can be a big limitting factor. And that does concern me macro. In the micro, I do like having my own schedule and flexibility. I like being able to go to the coffee shop whenever I want, have a late night, have a weird eating schedule etc. Totals: IDK: 4 N/A: 2 Aligned: 3 Not Aligned: 1 At this time, I feel like I'm leaning towards a yes but I think that might be because my brain is focusing on the 3 items that are aligned and the 1 that isn't. I think it's important that I consider that I am scoring a 4 in the IDK category meaning there is a good amount of exploration that needs to be done and life experience that needs to be acquired. So while I am leaning yes, that doesn't mean it's a definitive yes and that I should make decisions in my life accordingly because of the number of IDKs.
  10. Seems like a lot.
  11. Yes but you are getting angry. that means you are 'trying' to not give a fuck and thats not not giving a fuck. This will give so many tells to the woman as you are not being spontaneous about not giving a fuck. You are trying to not care and that dosent work cause by trying to not care is showing you care way more than someone who is trying to care. You saying, this is not working is another tell. Whats not working? You clearly give a fuck and have a goal in mind.
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  13. This entire format is weird because we do not know who we are talking to.
  14. Kimi K3 is no Fable but apparently it's not far off the mark. Tons of clickbait titles. Good video here though: Not super excited about sending my data to China either.
  15. But LordFall, that’s exactly what I’m doing. When I’m approaching I’m “self amusing,” another helpful thing the pickup crowd advises. I’m not looking for her to validate jack shit. I’m talking about what I find funny or interesting, yet it gets me no dates. To give some examples I’ll answer @amberlight’s question Yes I’m quite sure the reason I’m failing (when doing the dgaf method) is in fact because I come off as unhinged or creepy. That’s my entire point. Why should that matter if I’m supposed to not care what others think of me? As for your question: I talked to a cutie working the register at an empty shop in the mall about how cool I think it would be to get naked and crawl up a dragon’s vagina and birth myself back out, I probably had more detail at the time but I do remember it was something along those lines. A woman at a bar with her friend told me she was married, to which I replied, “A ring don’t cover a hole.” My most recent was a month or two ago at the carnival. I opened a cute blonde with her friend by saying “don’t go into that portapotty. I just had a fat miscarriage in there, it’s pretty messy.” I was expecting them to look horrified but much to my shock they were receptive to the dork humor. They were like “good to know.” Then I said “just kidding I’m still pregnant with it”. This started a surprisingly lasting interaction that evolved into other areas where she just played into the bit continuously, but eventually they fist bumped me and left. Keep in mind I only open women this way as my own form of shit test to see if she’s some preppy little snowflake who will run away scared or can actually banter and because it’s the most fun. Not because I’m craving validation for being a character. Problem is, you say that type of shit at a pussy ass bar or club and you’re gone
  16. You can find a 90 year old woman charming, doesn’t mean you’ll find her attractive.
  17. Because they don’t believe the US will follow through and think they need the strait as a result and it’s a ploy to take the strait from them
  18. You are the Enliytened1 so share it the best you can!
  19. It seems like you dont know what not giving a fuck means. Trying to pick up a woman is giving a fuck. The way you are saying they are attracted to you is not giving a fuck vs, i dont even know what you are doing with the first style of not giving a fuck. People who dont give a fuck dont go around chatting up woman. This is not something you can fake. If you give a fuck people will know even when you are faking it.
  20. Thanks man. Tbh I’ve been slacking like a chud lately. I’m drawing from dozens of past experiences. Maybe 100-200 grand total. I’m very limited by my city’s population so I have to take long breaks to not make a negative reputation for myself as that guy “harassing” (attempting genuine connection) all the women, especially if I’m going about it without giving a single fuck like I supposedly should be. I have to rotate out different establishments and randomize the days and times I show up to run game to make it harder for managements/security teams to notice patterns. Once I get some money I’d like to get one of these masks to help out with my practice
  21. @Inliytened1 I'm more concerned with you than I am with him.
  22. I doubt my physical appearance can be that much of an issue because I look more or less normal/average. I even have some attractive facial features. The biggest drawback is my slightly receded chin, overbite. I also have a mid stage widow’s peak (although I have basically zero hair falling out anymore thanks to minoxidil/finasteride topical foam) I’m also only 5’9”, maybe 5’11-6ft with my boosters on. Come to think of it, shit, maybe you’re right 😞
  23. I don't think so. He is very wise.
  24. I can't even communicate with him so I gave up trying. To me he is like the guy in the neo-advaita trap video.
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