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  2. I already have this. I'm asking you.
  3. Not all. Can only speak for yourself right?
  4. Everyone agrees with Leo is Good. Run with that one!
  5. Your standard of living is leagues above historically, mate. Chill out and smell the roses a little. The fact that you have time to type shit is cushy AF.
  6. I mean, I do sometimes worry some about the future and aging. Will I stay married? Will I have to rebuild or restart my life? Will I be alone? Will I have money to support myself and live in poverty. I don't really have any deep teaching or wisdom on this to share so much as just a perhaps quiet acceptance. If you brace for pain you hurt before anything even happens. If you fight with reality it's like you lose connection to what can help you during rough times. Getting older is not the problem. It's the unpredictable nature of life where things we value change (come and go).
  7. If you use your mind, you realise you are just one of 8 billion human minds on this planet. It is a form of enlightenment when you realise how small and insignificant you are. Makes me laugh sometimes when I have that realisation.
  8. @Nemra i don't think you need a term I have heard that some tribes just call it that thing thats there.
  9. Spiritual work and alcohol are somewhat oppositional. I suppose Leo might describe me as a Zen Devil. I haven't even been putting any effort in to this for years. It's the alcohol. I have become dependent, but I'm working on getting sober again. This is day one.
  10. I don't know about this. I respect your position. I feel like this is all impersonal talk online to a degree.
  11. There are two ways to be in a family. One is to sometimes take initiative and sometimes reach out. The other is to do high days and holidays with them for the sake of unity and duty. I do the latter - what you might term minimal involvement. I don't support their values nor partake in their flashiness and materialism and feed it no fuel. This I suspect is a strain for them but it is a necessary step for me. I choose not to go no contact in order that they have the semblance of a functional family and maybe one day they reform their lives. I stick around them sacrificially because I love them despite who they are.
  12. Why are the titles so important? I get that it could mislead. But titling an artwork is a project in itself.
  13. YouTube videos that have misleading titles are useless.
  14. And how has this worked out for you?
  15. Looking forward to your vlog reels talking about the corruption of society while showing off your sports car in the garage behind you
  16. Who needs faith when we got certainty?
  17. Today
  18. I'm saying you don't actually know what you would do with a loaded gun to your head. You could guess and even be right in your guess, but you don't actually know. Consider the answers to this poll (and the comments in the thread). See how many are supposedly willing to take the egoic option, taking a life even for something as measly as money. If 66% would supposedly take a life for money, how many do you think would choose to not play Russian Roulette and hope everybody else does the same? I'm saying it's hard to know, and the polls don't actually tell us much.
  19. stupid allostatic load:) it's starting to make sense, though, why it could be useful to learn about this stuff. i had a bad day today, and yesterday evening didn't go my way, either. but i think i sort of understand where i'm at now, and that it's a problem (maybe the problem) that i put so much pressure on myself to have everything figured out RIGHT NOW. i tend to feel that the problem is my not having things figured out, but maybe the problem is the forcefulness with which i try to resolve everything in an instant, as though that would guarantee my happiness - which i know it wouldn't, and i'd probably feel more depressed than ever if i suddenly had things mapped out and then inevitably had to ask myself "really, that's it?". it's not great to procrastinate on making big decisions and plans, but wanting to do the exact opposite and needing to resolve everything right in this moment, putting this burden on my present self to have all the answers and more for future-me doesn't seem to work for me, either - it's more harm than good, really. so actually, i may be a bit bold now and do a little bit less, chill, relax, tell myself that it's ENOUGH to focus on healthy routines and hobbies for now. i don't have to have my entire life mapped out. i can still do that half a year from now, if it's obviously too much of a burden to place on myself presently. and it counts as success, too, if i'm a bit behind in terms of jobs if it means i can take good care of my mental health and have fun focussing on my exercise and other hobbies in the meantime. which is what i'd promised myself to do a year ago, anyway - but somewhere along the way i seem to have forgotten about it. in general, i keep forgetting about this perspective all too often.
  20. A lot of these police cam videos are fake.
  21. I realized that I'm not at the right stage of life to be pursuing God. I'm 26, with a well-paying job in a HCOL area. By any conventional metric my life is a success. Psychedelics have been an incredible spiritual tool. But the more I take them, the more I realize I would have to give up my career, which I'm not prepared to do at this stage of life. So I'm following Leo's advice and postponing any further use until I'm at least 30. Hopefully this encourages the other youngsters out there to take it slow.
  22. A good question is what is faith. Faith seems to have an element of trust in it that might not be up to the standard of truth. Maybe or maybe not, but this is a borderline thing that requires discernment or epistemology maybe to settle on.
  23. @Carl-Richard I would do the right thing. nothing more to say here. Trump pushes the red button, Jesus presses the blue one.
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