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  2. Trenton, this realization is not a failure. It is a liberation. You have correctly identified that you were running a moral ponzi scheme: borrowing self-worth from future noble acts to pay off a debt of present shame. That scheme always crashes. You asked: 'If I can't get fulfillment from career, impact, passion... what other purpose should I have?' The answer is competence. You mentioned you loved chess. You gave it up because it wasn't useful or valued enough. Then you switched to changing systems to be useful, but found it overwhelming. Here is the reframe: Politics IS chess. The reason you are burnt out is that you are trying to play the game of politics/systems like a social worker (trying to heal every pawn) instead of like a grandmaster (trying to solve the board). 1. The trap of deficiency altruism Maslow distinguished between deficiency needs and being needs. Deficiency altruism: 'I feel empty, so I will help you so I can feel full.' (This is what you were doing). Abundance altruism: 'I am overflowing with energy/skill, so fixing this problem is just natural play for me.' You are currently in the deficiency zone. You cannot help anyone from there. You have to stop. 2. Reclaim the game You said you were happy practicing to be a chess professional. That means you enjoy deep strategy, pattern recognition, and system mastery. You don't need to be a grandmaster to use that engine. The world is drowning in people who care (altruism). The world is starving for people who can see the moves (strategy). Your new purpose: Stop trying to save people. Start trying to solve the structural puzzles that trap them. Don't approach a predatory loan victim with 'oh, you poor thing, let me hold you.' (That drains you). Approach the banking system with 'This is a poorly designed algorithm. How do I checkmate this mechanic?' (That engages your chess brain). 3. Permission to be selfish You need a period of what I call strategic selfishness. If you don't exist, you can't help. Go back to the things that stimulate your mind (even if it's just studying chess again, or coding, or reading heavy theory). Fill your own cup first. When you act from a place of intellectual curiosity rather than moral obligation, you will find you are infinitely more effective, and you won't resent the people you are helping.
  3. You can probably find an accountability partner on reddit. Looks promising: https://www.reddit.com/search/?q=accountability+partner+adhd&type=communities&cId=1ddc8fc5-6641-4593-ba20-fe8cd1280de6&iId=d831b5b2-4091-4730-9b05-4ef13ec9e821 Tell me if you succeed though.
  4. God put you in a room. Your Point of view is a room, you are looking in the room, you arent a human. The room can take any form and changes all the time.
  5. I wouldn't want to answer this for anyone.
  6. okay,so i read alot of threads these days cuz im bored and i entertain these thoughts that everything is imagined,you dreaming this as a god etc etc everything is imagination,what happens after death is also imagined you can go to a higher plane as a christian if u want tp get isekaid to another world like an anime character thats possible too if thats what u want,its up to you really. basically infinity,u get the picture. but my question is. how do we integrate these "Truths" as yall like to call it into making this "dream" or life better ,like how can i control all this to move forward to a place where i want to be,basically manifestation or call it what u want,what do you think about this topic? i will read all the answers with open mind. also is the is the truths i summed up just earlier correct? feel free to share what do u think about that also. and also how can i verify these truths? only psychadelics can do it,cuz i dont want to take that risk just now,maybe later on when im more confident about it. these things without experiences are just beliefs so this is why im also interested in that
  7. No I havent ... It sounds a bit psycho but also genius. Could honestly be effective. I watched one of Dr. Mikes video about his struggle with adhd. Was this a side recommendation of him or does he do more content and tipps about adhd in extra videos? I blocked my Youtube because of adhd.
  8. Where do you find such a partner?
  9. Those 3 hour podcast episodes are basically like the same quality that Leo produces but more practical and down to earth.
  10. Why study modern pharmacology, neuroscience, bio-chemistry ect..? I want to shame Andrew Huberman for making science look boring Becuase it's not boring We live in a modern world For years I bought into the "just workout, be happy, use your brain bro" blahblah "natural vs unnatural", "natural vs processed" There is no rigid boundary between natural and unnatural (also natural does not automatically = healthy) A lot of drugs simply are just tools .. dosage, timing, context and they can become useful. But nuance, this is why you have to actually study it. For example, an idiot has no nuanced knowledge and awareness of distinctions, so he just "takes a sleeping pill" .. benzo, excellent, valerian excellent, "gaba = relaxed" great. Nuanced knowledge is knowing that melatonin is much safer than valerian, but also a distinct and specific mechanism, specific to resetting circadian rhythm, just another tool Its closed minded to think drugs = unhealthy, or the idea of "there is no free lunch" ... Maybe there normally simply "is no free lunch" .. but perhaps modern pharmacology will change such that new drugs become released that give you a "free lunch", maybe there will be steroids that are actually healthy for you.. how the fuck would you know? the universe is infinite. Also drugs are not inherently bad because it depends on your goal... What if your goal is not longevity? what if your goal is maximum short term benefit, thats not inherently unswise, depends. If i was on a zombie apocalypse, and i had a month to live, I would certainly take a ton drugs and enjoy them
  11. It is not so black and white. Passion pushes you through very tough times. It gets you to work at 110%. But depending on your passion, who you are and your background, passion first might not be viable. It is a case by case type of situation.
  12. @Ulax There’s levels to being an intellect. A politician and a serious philosopher trying to understand reality is a vast gap. That being said, Conscious Politics is possibly only when you do serious meditative work.
  13. Nah i disagree with the meditation blog post. If that were true then that would mean if Timothy Snyder doesn't meditate then you shouldn't take him seriously on politics.
  14. Today
  15. You are conflating management with rent-seeking, and commercialization with innovation. 1. The gambler fallacy You claim Silicon Valley gamblers create the innovative things. Incorrect. The gamblers package the things. The patient capital created them. The internet, GPS, touchscreens, voice recognition, lithium-ion chemistries, and the transformer model (Google research); the bedrock of Tesla and OpenAI, were funded by state/university grants (patient capital). VCs didn't invent the digital highway; they just built the toll booths. We don't need 100x returns to innovate. We need 100x returns to satisfy financial bubbles. There is a difference. 2. The parasite projection You accuse me of wanting redistribution. No. I want circulation. You are assuming that capital allocators and shareholders are the same thing. - Active leaders/founders (management) are workers. In an NDE, they can be paid millions if they deliver value. That is healthy. - Passive shareholders (rentiers) are the leak. They extract value they did not create after their risk has been repaid. My model rewards the brain (innovation/management) but starves the tapeworm (perpetual extraction). You are defending the tapeworm because you have confused it with the brain.
  16. As you would about anything ineffable. You can't write about Truth by pointing to it from lots of different angles. For example what is the truth of swimming? "Go find a pool and jump in."
  17. Maybe, maybe it acually needs more time under tension, I dont know. I dont know how science argues about it enough. Hehe, yeah thats how I would picture a hypertrophy stimulating 1 rep max as well. But that cant be the answer, either a not so grindy 1 RM (or close to 1 RM) is stimulating enough for hypertrophy or 1 RM should be reserved for strength. The amount of fatigue you accumulate with this one rep is unholy. A whole workout will cause less fatigue then this. CNS fatigue!? Would you say "scientific lifting" overlaps heavily with "intuitive lifting aimed at hypertrophy" ? Whats the difference?
  18. Puzzle 8 White to move and win.
  19. Yesterday
  20. Trying to write about Truth is like trying to build something with Lego bricks that change size, shape, color, and function as your pick them up and play with them.
  21. Green is about people helping people. It's a tribe of people writ large.
  22. The "patient" capital you describe will never invest in innovative, highly-competitive, powerful companies. You will not get the next Tesla, OpenAI or other companies that require large, long-term risk with capped returns. The capital you are describing will invest in safe, low innovative firms. Those "gamblers" in Silicon Valley are the ones that actually create innovative things. They are needed, and a society that disregards them will pay the price. This shows your actual agenda, which is redistribution of resources to those at the bottom. You are assuming those at the top are parasitic, while workers are the actual value-creators and not exploitative. This is incorrect.
  23. You won't have your workers without investors. Exactly. Patient capital isn't real. That wealth is debt, which is fake. If you measure our economics in real wealth, the planet is incredibly poor. Capitalism is the ultimate fake wealth machine. But fake wealth still beats nothing.
  24. Thank you! 🙏
  25. You are making two fundamental category errors here. 1. Confusing venture capital with the market You said: 'No serious large investor would accept 3x returns.' You are describing venture capital (which needs 100x returns to offset a 90% failure rate). VC is a tiny, loud fraction of the market. The real 'serious money'; pension funds, sovereign wealth, infrastructure funds, and insurance floats, manages trillions, not billions. They are desperate for stable 8-12% yields. A mechanism that offers a capped 3x return (roughly 12% IRR over 10 years) is not unattractive; it is a goldmine for the majority of global capital. We don't need to please the gamblers in Silicon Valley; we need to unlock the patient capital in Zurich and London. 2. Confusing extraction with compensation You said: 'Self-owned firms are not a solution because the profit... will now just be extracted by those inside.' This is semantic judo. When a worker keeps the value they created, that is not extraction, that is earnings. Extraction is when value is removed by someone who didn't create it (rent-seeking). Your argument essentially boils down to: 'The problem with ending feudalism is that the peasants will just eat all the grain themselves instead of giving it to the Lord.' Yes. That is exactly the point.
  26. I fancied a girl many years ago, turns out she’s a lesbian. I was, at the time, surprised that she showed zero attraction towards me. She had a boyfriend and everything.
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