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  2. Don’t be scared be sacred. Be loved beloved.
  3. @Zenterus From your situation I think that having high standards and focussing on finding high quality of girl over chasing quantity is a ticket out . I have seen many guys falling into the trap of getting a hot girlfriend while completely ignoring her actions , standards only to found out that they break up in some time and the girl dating other guy. I found out that post rejection that rejection is a protection from girls who were wrong for me. Yes , I dodged several bullets in college by getting rejected over and over again. Which saved me a lot from those manipulative ,toxic relationships. All the best ,you got this man.
  4. Nobody’s blog who masquerades around as the character Leo is a truth that doesn’t want to be heard by phantoms, it’s a threat to its own self delusion.
  5. The never ending story of you on repeat is as old as time itself, it must get heavy. Maybe it’s time to be resting light. Travel light, even yesterday is baggage.
  6. Yes, it’s a shame you mistook the voices inside your head for reality. No claim, no blame, no fame, listen. 👂 who’s listening?
  7. The there is no you stuff gets old.
  8. @Hojo I have been doing a lot of research hoping it would help. Most of what I built were psychological models that serve to protect me from things lime suicide. It was part of my plan to move out, but the weight felt unbearable. This did at least serve as some psychological preparation for making such a radical decision. I think the thing that is keeping me holding onto them is the fact that I wanted to be a professional player, but I required a robust support system in childhood in order to achieve it. They undermined that goal and my relationship with chess isn't the same anymore because the future isn't there. Thank you for paying attention and noticing. I had a problem I didn't solve. I have considered the homeless possibility already. I spend most of my time outside anyway. I'm usually wandering the streets looking for somewhere to go. I found a Buddhist temple in southern ohio that I liked. I walked some pretty far distances. I have some buff legs. Part of me wonders what would happen if I just walked to one of those organizations in Massachusetts or Wyoming. I would prefer to have bike though because it would make traveling so much faster.
  9. This is all just voices inside your head, how many people do you have living in there with you? You are the voice inside your head, it’s where you are located. But then if you are the voice inside your head, then who’s listening ? Is that you too? It must be getting pretty cramped in there with all these you’s. Maybe it’s time for you to vacate, you deserve your freedom don’t you think?
  10. Yeah I got unusually annoyed after the "trans in sports" thing when intersex people weren't mentioned. Useful to always do deep-reflection on yourself. Actually I thought you were kind of pretty positive! To be honest after reading your blog I have to admit that thinking of a can of beans and invoking beans randomly into conversations helped me not be so toxic, it's so benign and random! I still use it... I don't know what happened to "beans" i hope it's okay if I say that...
  11. It doesn’t matter how much is stripped away from you, you’ll still be you because you can never not be you. It’s impossible to experience your own total absence, total nothingness is never your experience. You are immortal. Don’t be scared.
  12. God is not dangerous. That’s just a silly fearful notion, a belief that clouds proper judgement and clarity.
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  14. FIFA World Cup 2026 thread

    Wilhelm44 replied to Someone here's topic in Off-Topic: Pop-Culture, Entertainment, Fun

    Can't wait for Mexico vs England, should be a cracker.
  15. lol. Probably.
  16. Online is a pipe dream but live games are easy. I haven’t played in several years but since the dream of being a pro has died down, I’m betting the games are easier. Play loose and aggressive against tight players, tight against loose-agro and see as many flops as you can in cheap and loose passive games. With that, being perceptive, and bankroll management, I think this is sufficient to win 1-2 and 2-5 live. Full exploitative, no GTO crazy stuff like you need online. Only thing is you need to be close to a casino and it’ll be a grind.

  17. Finished the LP course

    Jannes replied to Jannes's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    I am taking that I got ghosted today pretty lightly. Maybe that wrong. Well I dont know ..

  18. Finished the LP course

    Jannes replied to Jannes's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    I am blasting my friends with messages. Holy shit, the youtube embedding block really has an affect. .. I just read through a message I got from someone I know about 2 years ago. He basically says he wants to hang out with me and I twist it in a way to make it seem like he needed my help for some kind of work. It doesnt even make sense but I think my mind simply couldnt fathom that I am likeable. Its actually not the first time this happened, it happened plenty of times. Lol I remember when a girl in a very sexual club which I was interested in literally stroke my balls and I just couldnt really make sense of it in that moment. So many moments literally.
  19. I would be insulted if someone put this in my video game.
  20. @Basman One day you are going to watch an AI video and you are going to cry because of it. And you will realize that 'crying' from a movie is just pixels on a screen, not mattering if it was made by a real person with real actors and real life stuff or generated pixels. AI is going to make the most beautiful thing you have ever seen. Its a copy of the human mind. Its just a replica of your imagination and logic working together. Your brain can do what this video is doing right now you are both connecting to the same random field. You can watch this video and then close your eyes and generate something like it in your imagination. The AI is just doing that. The only difference is you can self prompt. When you move your body you arent moving around in a 3d reality its a 2d screen. Your body is on the screen.
  22. @oOo I heard a woman say a dream she had that real life will get super shit and people will want to kill themselved then they will show a new virtual reality where its like real life and people will go into it to get out of here.
  23. Calisthenics
  24. I'm proud of the American contribution to WW2 in europe, my great grandfather survived France but he was blown up and had a steal plate in his head, my other grandfather fought in Japan, personally I don't think the u.s. should have been in Hawaii to be attacked though. I'm proud of the civil war, and also the humanitarian aid the u.s. has done. I'm proud of the cold war, and support for Ukraine. I don't believe the revolutionary war did much, and I think it was as much France vs Brittain than anything. I'm proud of Obama being elected, and Trump being voted out, I'm proud of our democracy and civil rights.
  25. Cybersecurity, Dating, Siege 6. Might go back to Piano
  26. jews are scarier. Their leaders are smart and covert. You can just walk away from these people. At least they arent being sneaky.
  27. Totally different experience for me! There have been some blog posts that have been extremely direct, to the point where I wanted to (metaphorically) punch Leo in the face because of how hurtful it was to my ego. But that’s the point. To do a serous examination of how my own mind works and how I behave in the same way without even realizing it.
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