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  2. I watched a movie about Winston Churchill yesterday. It was the time spane around his time in office in WW2. It captured the atmosphere pretty well. Churchill didnt want to negotiate with Hitler when the military position wasnt strong. His explanation "You dont negotiate with a Tiger if you have your head in his maw". That resonates so much with me at my old theatre club, I needed some kind of grounding and backbone to have a honest conversation, I feel like I would have gotten eaten alive in terms of gaslighting if I let go of control too much.
  3. As an extreme example, think of a highly empathetic stage green person trying to connect with a very violent stage red person. How would the stage green person feel? Except in this case, the person doesnt even get triggered / angry at the lower developed person because they understand where they are at, and that that’s what they need. So in a way, it’s almost a complete disengagement. Another way you can look at it is how do you feel around children? Yeah they are cute, innocent, and all but there’s not much to connect with on a deeper level. On top of that, in this case the children are not cute, nor innocent, but they carry guns with lots of selfish and unconscious selfish drivers and triggers. So it is not really a complete disengagement as you have to engage with them and their unconsciousness in order to survive, and try to do your best to help them grow up and clean up, otherwise they will cause massive suffering to everything and everyone on the planet. Hope this answered you. And why don’t you take this moment, and express to us your current feelings and thoughts about your life, as we enter the new year?
  4. That’s simply being a bad mathematician. There are many of them, but there is nothing intrinsically false or illusory about mathematics. One can practice mathematics at a level of abstraction where what unfolds in the mind is seen clearly and truthfully, and remains fully true within the invented world of mathematics, a world that is, of course, a limited form of intelligence. Of course, there are other forms of intelligence beyond mathematics. Yet, if we are being honest, is there truly any domain that, in a sober state of mind, surpasses mathematics in its capacity to refine and sharpen human intelligence?
  5. I believe we are channelers of will rather than containers of will. Will does not arise from our conscious rational intellects, or even from our unconscious minds. And free will belongs to the universe as a whole. Predictability is another matter. Since will belongs to something greater than life and humanity, it is probably impossible to make absolute predictions about anything. We can, however, make reliable probabilistic predictions, which are relative predictions.
  6. I'd love to understand what you mean here. Are you just saying you don't meet many people that you feel you really connect with deeply? I am exceptionally empathetic as you state you are. And I rarely find someone I connect with fully. But I don't attribute any of it to being conscious vs unconscious. I am wondering what you even mean by that. Can you please explain it to someone who doesn't understand it?
  7. In 2025, i'm less dependent on validation from socializing- much of that is a result of this work. But I do need to be careful not isolate, deep understanding of the structure of reality can make you retreat into your own Mind-there are profound tradeoffs as it relates to human relationships. I am also an extrovert (ENFP on Myers Briggs to be exact), so I admit I get energy from socializing and relating to humans. Bringing that in balance with time with God is challenging, but a worthy endeavor. I'm also auditing my career path, getting it more aligned with my value system in 2026
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  9. Overwhelmed because I’m turning 27 on new years day and survival is biting my ass while I try to align myself with God and truth.
  10. @BreatheThey imported like 500 000 people into toronto. Meanwhile the west dosent have enough people.
  11. The mind/self needs some way to explain why it exists and how it should survive. Rather than doing the work to discover that through truth-seeking, the mind/self just adopts beliefs that are useful for its survival. Once that is done, the mind/self is in a constant adversarial relationship to Truth, because no ideology is true and dropping the ideology is too threatening to the self's survival. Philosophy is the mind/self's grasping at making sense of itself, but constantly failing because the mind/self's true nature is God, which is incomprehensible to a finite mind/self.
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  13. Rockstar is overrated. I haven’t enjoyed a single game they’ve made. Even the video briefing in Anno 2070 feels more exciting—just listen to that gorgeous soundtrack: God bless Germany!
  14. My point is, you learn by doing, you don’t need to recite mantras or anything.
  15. So many reasons. I've been on both sides of this issue personally Pandemic: Trudeau became unpopular around the pandemic, when he invoked the emergency act and freezed people's bank account who helped with the protests. People were not happy about the lockdowns and Canada's vaccine rules felt too controlling. Right-wing Media Influence: I was watching a bunch of Reels around the time Trudeau became unpopular. He has sufferred from a lot of US right-wing media around LGBTQ/Woke, similar to how Biden and Harris became unpopular. Also, there were A LOT of videos online where he is asked questions and literally doesn't answer them at all. Immigration: Trudeau has admitted too many people into Canada. More people amplified problems around healthcare, housing, and unemployment. The institutions were not ready to handle the amount of immigrants. Housing: We had skyrocketing house prices in 2021 after the pandemic. BOC slashed interest rates massively to revive the economy. In combination with immigration, housing prices went up a lot. Even though interest rates are controlled by the BOC, I believe Trudeau took the blame. Been there too long: People got tired off him personally, he has been around for 10 years.
  16. they win all games. There is nothing to look for but those. LITTERALY NOTHING YOU DON T NEED MONEY YOU DON T NEED ANYTHING, ALL GOOD THINGS IS DIRECTLY TRICKLING FROM ABSOLUTE LOVE AND HONESTY. YOU RE THE RICHEST THE MOMENT YOU ARE ALIGNED IN LOVE
  17. What you've just said is programming the mind for success.
  18. Currently I struggle deeply with integrating the unconsciousness of the world, as I become more conscious. I feel like as an extrovert, this work is much harder because I crave human connections much more than introverts. As the gap between me and the general gravity of the world grows further apart, it makes me more and more sad because of the lack of connection to anyone, especially in real life. Here on this forum, we have like-minded people but it will never be the same as having real life soul-friends to share small and big moments with. Once in a blue moon, I meet a more solid stage green girl (who dont have too much inner baggage / or has healed them) to share intimate moments with, and that makes me happy. But to mee this person, I have to go through a lot of unconsciousness first. Too much. On top of this all, I am most likely something along the lines of a highly sensitive person / highly empathetic person etc. I feel the pain of others’ and the world’s intimately deeply. An emotional sponge so to say. Probably the reason why I want to help the world so much. It is very existentially heavy to see so much pain and suffering around. I also struggle deeply to make conscious business work. I have sacrificed almost everything to make it work, but the devil is always lurking around the corner tempting me with sweets. This is directly connected with the point above where the general gravity of people is at a level where it really is hard to reach them by being more conscious. That being said, I am happy that I have kept loyalty to Truth, at least much better than I believed I could. I am happy that I have a really beautiful vision with very unique strenghts and traits to reach that — that I can bring something truly unique to the world. I am proud of myself for growing so much throughout the years. So damn much. How can someone grow this much? I just turned 31 physically but I feel like I am way older mentally and emotionally. The deep inner work for the past 15 years, four extremely painful break-ups, the hard spiritual work and the constant facing of soul-crushing truths about life, human nature and finally, spiritual fantasies. My God. I am surprised I haven’t gone mad and killed myself! That being said, all these has led me to an ever deeper connection to Truth, God, and Reality. Something I am most proud of. I have a really beautiful small home on the highest floor (6th) with a full ocean view (near the centrum of Helsinki, which is very rare to have here or probably anywhere on that note). I have showered this home with so much love that it has blossomed into a graceful and elegant flower. It is my safe place. I love how I treat my body. I live a very healthy lifestyle and that makes me happy. I am grateful that I can make decent income and live very comfortably by doing work that is fairly conscious. It is just nowhere at the level where I would want to reach with my highly ambitious self. But let us take one step at a time. Many years left in my life. Finally, I do have a best friend who is Dutch and lives in Amsterdam. His name is Olaf. He also follows the work we do here but not just on this forum. I love you brother, thank you for being my friend all these years and growing together. How are you guys doing?
  19. This happens automatically in the course of doing business. Learning sales, offer design, how to manage risk. You start to feel in control, like you can manage variance, and that creates a sense of confidence. Unless you’re seriously messed up in which case, just do therapy. This law-of-attraction stuff is basically nonsense, invented to sell seminars and recruit commission-only salespeople.
  20. The post about defense and by extension reactivity #342 is aligning with another question (re the context of Truth) -- Why are we so affected/effected by isms? Does Truth have anything to do with philosophy? I'm talking about the way philosophy is ordinarily understood not a re-definition.
  21. If you have explored DMT or the metaphysics of space, this video will be very eye opening.
  22. That water bill 😭
  23. Definitely. I tend to stretch a bit while showering. After the practice, you could also lie on your back on the floor, with one palm on top of the other just below your navel, focusing on your breath and breathing from the center, almost like a meditation. You might even start the whole routine with a cold shower - could become a nice sequence of habits.
  24. Disappointment is just a word. There would likely be something somatic, a tension. You could call it hurt. It's self-created IMO, what you call activity generated (that's what I think you're saying). It's learned behavior - reality is not what I want it to be because of thoughts that led to expectation. This causes "disappointment", which causes me to tense up because I don't like this deviation from my expected reality and I don't want to experience it. It my example above my hypothesis is that it could be dissolved by a) dropping the thoughts that created that expectation and b) feeling the tensions, putting awareness to it. Long enough and focused enough it should dissolve more or less automatically.
  25. Closing the year, I want this thread to be a safe place for you to share your true feelings, and to for example, share what you are currently struggling with the most? What is making you sad? Hopeless? Is there something you are truly proud of and happy about? Maybe something you achieved this year? Let us try to find more clarity and peace going into the new year.
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