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  2. The past is a fantasy, and it also happens to be a dead one, so if that's what you want to share with your girlfriend (a dead fantasy), then go for it. But I remind you of the possibility to be in a relationship that is alive and creative, that never finds itself reminiscing because it's always at the edge, the tip, the breaking point. No room for history, not to mention personal history, when everything is on the line now. Live in a real way. Don’t resort to having to talk about these things in your personal past to someone else, let alone a girlfriend, or even yourself. Don't get caught up in the past. You got life right now to look at, and that can and must be shared with everyone some way.
  3. If you yourself forgot what happened, then what she gonna do?
  4. Today
  5. Zebras are bastards.
  6. I'm at Dual-8-Back The levels after 4-5 tend to have lesser of a difference between them compared to levels 2-3. That is, once you're at Dual 4-Back, it shouldn't take much to jump up more levels (you might in fact be able to jump multiple at once). I think I spent the least time on level 6 of all the levels.
  7. This is a theme you find common across all mechanisms in reality that operate on survival. Balance. Survival is all about balance and when the balance breaks the survival fails. Organisms seek massive power because that's a balancing act between their desire and limitations of the world. Survival makes it so the struggle is the point. Only way two planks of wood can stay upright is if they lean on each other. Till this balance is maintained they are upright. This balance requires resistance, leaning and pushing on the other plank. If one plank stops pushing as hard it will fall over due to pressure of the other planks and they both fall. Everything we do is about balance. Our desires are unlimited because we are limited. This is why the way to achieve freedom is not through fulfilling desires but through not having any at all. This is common trope within media where the strongest character loses meaning in competitions of strength. Because there is no struggle, the survival has failed. Being the strongest is the same as being the weakest. Both lose interest. The point was always to struggle but because their desire to achieve perfection was part of the balancing act, they never realized it. In vagabond, Miyamoto Mushashi turns inward to find true strength rather than chase external strength. This way he connects to the only thing in reality that isn't dependent on survival, consciousness.
  8. He’s been doing the pulling down his trousers and pants ( literally) in real-time for the last 20 years. It was his classic signature skit that he performed in plain sight and nobody blinked an eyelid, no one thought this behaviour was inappropriate, in fact people would just roar with laughter. I guess he was good for business. The pulling down his trousers and pants skit started on the British TV show Big Brother over 20 years ago. Anyways, aside from the clown antics performer, people are still responsible for their inappropriate actions. And therefore should be held accountable when the behaviour is hurting other people.
  9. One can be assertive and have conviction and still be true, like the moment of awakening in a lucid dream -- certainty is a thing. Granted there are deluded people who have conviction and are full of shit. But that's not all and you shouldn't infer that those who are assertive are deluded. Outside where? Where's outside? You can use a thorn to remove a thorn. The only true thing for sure is that I am having an experience right now. And the other serious and certain thing might be Death. Everything else is up for grabs.
  10. I didn't say he breaks it completely, I just think you use it far more liberally(not only in this particular case) than it can be used for. SD is highly accurate when it comes to collective memetics but on an individual level things are much more nebulous and inaccurate. there exists a much wider and intertwined palate of psychological complexes and pathologies on an individual level than on a collective level where things are simpler, especially in modern society.
  11. Every software is free if you know how
  12. We really are just animals, huddled up in our tiny homes engaging in ourselves. Reproduction, food, safety, social hierarchy, entertainment. Exploration is the gateway to experience something higher than animal. That is consciousness. Being open to receive. Curiosity and creativity.
  13. It is exactly as limited as I said it is. Russell Brand is not some anomaly that breaks SD.
  14. They both arise together, namely now.
  15. This way of thinking sounds right in theory, but then, what do people do? It's also precisely what is deemed a kind of adolescent and performative resistance in the name of self-reliance. Recognizing this tendency is different from reacting against this childish impulse with more of the same. Observe the real source of the conviction. I propose that there's a basic doubt behind it that is bringing such apparent certainty to the fore, not unlike religious people willing to die for their preferred dogma. Why? You likely recognize that it - idea, notion, view, perspective, mode of thinking, etc. - was adopted from the outside, and our inability to recognize the depth of belief is part of this dynamic. Forget about belief for a moment. What do you take to be true? And how much of that is founded on "personal experience"? (This would have to exclude any form of external filter or knowledge.)

  16. Spiritual Autolysis

    Spiritual Warrior replied to Spiritual Warrior's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Spiritual Autolysis Journal Entry #76 Sat May 2 '26 This journal is going to turn into something completely different. My job is to go Further. And further and further and further. I will not edit what I am saying. I am going to just continue to write until I found out the Truth or reality. My father's energy is so neurotic and gripping, his energy is suffocating, it feels as if I am being choked out by his presence. He is so far in his mind and he gets no peace. The more he is in my life, the harder it is going to become to become Enlightened. This man has been a thorn in my side for a very long time to be honest with you. I cannot blame him for my lack of Awakening but he surely has not helped. I just got out of heart surgery and he wants to visit me tomorrow and Monday and Tuesday and Wednesday. I don't want him to visit me on any of those days, I truly don't. All I want to do is go home and read books and rest. I don't want to see him AT ALL. He has got to be the most neurotic and in his own head ( which means completely disconnected from his Heart) person I have ever met. And of course he is my father. Lucky me... I feel bad feeling like this, I really do. I wish I could grab him out of his manic and scatterbrained head and bring him into a higher consciousness state but there's nothing I can do, he is too far gone. His presence right in this moment is already annoying me, he won't sit down, he's pacing around the room, and doing this thing where he nods to himself, imagining a conversation in his own head. I guess this is a good example of how my life could have turned out if I never shifted my awareness from the mind into the Heart. Now I have to deal with him for another 4 days, I am going to do my best to just be in my own zone while he's here, reading my own books and things of that nature. I'll probably eat a meal with him and then head to the porch to read and journal. I can't wait for this 8 week period in which I get to be without work and I can just work on my contemplations. I will not let one person ruin my vibe. The truth is that I don't need him anymore. Well that's not entirely true... I do sometimes need him for money. That is a whole different can of worms, why can I not get a handle on my finances? This stresses me out greatly. I will have to deal with this if I am going to live a happy and successful life. Anyways, let's get to Truth work, what is True? It is true that I am experiencing things in this moment. And who is I? I am me. I am this body. This awareness. Are you awareness or the body, which one is it? I am awareness. So you are not the body? No, I am just awareness, pure awareness. And what exactly does that mean? That means that I have the capacity and the capability to experience things in this life. Does that mean that you will stop having this capacity once you die? You did just say "in this life.." no, I believe that this awareness will continue because if I am aware is the Truth of the universe, the one and only Truth, then I may be that forever and ever. But how do you know that? Why can't you be aware in this life while you are alive and then it just ends when the body decays? (My dad is like a leech, when I open the door slightly, he barges in and sprawls his entire body onto the floor, filling up the entire room so that there is no room to breathe.) Yeah, I guess my awareness could end once I die. I mean why can't that be the case? But then what's left once you die then? Is it just Nothingness and if so then what is Nothingness? Or is it just an empty void? Is it Heaven? And how could I possibly know what is going to happen once I die? Cuz Im not dead! What does it mean to die? When I die my body will decay, it is going to be sent into the ground. My spirit will leave my body. My heart will stop working. My brain will not think any longer. But what does that even mean? A spirit leaving the body? What even is spirit? And is the brain connected to truth? How about the heart? What does that got to do with Truth? (My dad is also incredibly controlling. Don't control me ever. No one likes to be controlled. I need to stay away from this toxic person's energy as best as I can. What a controlling and manipulative and selfish person. My mom always leaves the room when my dad is present and it's probably because she can't stand his energy.) Honestly, I don't know. Death is a concept that baffles me. How is it possible to know about something that isn't here yet? I don't know, that's a good point. How could I possibly know about death? All I've experienced is being alive... All I remember is being alive, therefore that is what I'm in touch with. Well let's dive into that a bit further...
  17. Or just realize that the spiral dynamics model is far more limited than you previously assumed.
  18. The arrogance of thinking you grasp it because you understand the expression when compared to your own "framework." Contrasting philosophies isn't really the point, either.
  20. Thanks. I will post more on this thread as I read the book in here to clarify misconceptions I and other readers may take from the book.
  21. I'm much more excited for those moons than for mars due to their liquid water! They believe that under Ganymede there is a massive liquid water ocean under its crust, and many others.
  22. There's no need to believe Leo, belief is useless if one knows and also if one doesn't know. For example do you believe in sunset? Do you see how stupid that question is? Thoughts and opinios are not "merely", it's one sense of self. Please explain what you mean by deeper than that.
  23. If you interrupt the soccer game of Australian children and take their ball, the tears they excrete have medical properties that considerably improve cognitive function. Specifically in areas like Attention and Language comprehension. I've found it only works with Australian children though, don't waste your time with other ethnic groups. Also you have to either puncture the ball or hide it completely from sight. They need to understand there is zero chance of getting it back, the potential hope of getting it back causes the salt levels to drop below the specific threshold of 16-21% saturation during the extraction process. You want to be careful not to spoil the compound, because you can typically only do a harvesting session once in a public area before risking a restraining order. Make sure to ONLY use hydrophilic gauze to collect the tears! It maximizes your yield and maintains the crystalline structure of the molecules. If you end up using tiny vials or syringes, the humid ambient air mixes in and reduces the potency greatly. It needs to be frozen pretty quickly and left for 72 hours, make sure to bring a small cooler with ice or cold packs in it. To prepare it it needs to be lightly boiled in a small pot with 1/2 parts distilled water and then 1 teaspoon of white vinegar per 100 ml of total fluid as you let it cool. Then it's ready for immediate consumption. Now that I think about, it would probably be more efficient to just marry an Australian woman and have multiple children, but there are some ethical lines even I don't cross. PM me for more details, but if you want my harvesting route you need to pay a fee and we can organize dates so we don't overlap.
  24. No point sharing more than needed. I don’t see how that would make anything better for anyone

  25. Video, audio & book Journal

    Emptiness-one replied to Emptiness-one's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    The Benefits Of Enlightenment Reduction in suffering This suffering builds up over time and is considered just normal. This is just part of the delusion of identifying with the body and mind. Freedom of worry, fear and anxiety. A permanent end to over thinking. Immunity to heavy emotions. Loss of compulsive behaviours. Stop worrying about what people think about you. A permanent end to striving in life. Eliminate much stress from life. Reduced need for sleep and increased physical energy. Enlightenment will bring unconditional self acceptance and self love. Enables true unconditional love. Enables powerful and authentic relationships It will take relationships to a much higher level. Improve perspective on the world. Honest and ethical. Get enlightened as a gift to the world. What I will lose Destroy your identity, push you to nihilism, no good or bad, every judgement is part of this fiction, value doesn't exist, there is no one who benefits from self improvement work. I don't have control over life. No you to have control, total surrender, The lie of materialism Success will improve your quality of life.
  26. What do you mean? It's a real dynamic that is occurring for people. The guy just happens to point to it in real terms. No need to believe in the fact that you believe. For example, if you are on this forum, you likely believe Leo, to a greater or lesser degree, despite what is said to the contrary. What is this activity? We may think that belief is merely a thought or opinion that one holds, like "I believe in Santa Claus" or "I believe this person." It's much deeper than that. Our deepest beliefs aren't seen as such, but as 'reality.'
  27. Being came before any sort of "caming before"
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