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  2. I was reading this book called testo junkie from the trans revolutionary and philosopher Paul Preciado, and in it he details his experiment with taking testosterone and the effects it had on his psychology and physiology. On actualized.org Leo stresses the importance of different perspectives, therefore I was thinking of taking estrogen for a short period of time to experience what it's like to be a woman. What do y'all think?
  3. Don't underestimate extremely elevated mood states. Most people have never experienced them so they can't even imagine how powerful that is. Mood is like a lens that colors absolutely everything you're experiencing. Most humans, for most of the time, are in a very narrow "normal" mood state, yet that "normal" mood is arbitrary, it just so happens that it's most conducive to survival, so evolution shaped most humans that way. On the extremes, mood can get so insane that it's impossible to explain to somebody who hasn't experienced it. Mania can get so strong that you feel literally invincible, your mind works faster than on meth, a million ideas a minute, unlimited energy levels and no need for sleep, even physical pain can not bother you. On the opposite spectrum, depression/bad mood can get so strong that orgasm is experienced as painful/bad valence, you're constantly in insane emotional pain for no reason and get angry when you wake up in the morning because you wish to die. Mood colors everything, and you're always in a mood.
  4. Car Bomb is da bomb. And that was fabdonkulous.
  5. @Ulax another one whos vagina did you come out of? Say it suspiciously. Like an interrogation.
  6. That's true. When you say, "We're leaving tomorrow," you're no longer a human with preferences; you're an arrow pointing in one direction. There's no room for anything else, which is why I say it's meditative. You can't think, "Well, let's see when this ends, I hope it's pleasant." You only think about the boat, the wind, and the sea, as if you were a robot. If you have to go out at 4 a.m. to the bow of the boat with a headline and spend hours unhooking a rope while freezing water pours down on you and the wind is brutal, you do it without thinking about anything, only about how to do it, about what needs fixing. It's inevitable, it's going to be fixed. Your will is a laser; there's only your will and that thing that fails. Anything can happen every second, for days. It's like being in another dimension. But it's very different totally alone than with a friend, even the friend doesn't help the difference is huge. Alone the first 3 days are horrible, it's the worse place where you want to stay, then little by little you get used but if you sleep 3h per day it's a great sleep, one I ve been 3 days sleeping zero, in some moment get dangerous, you can't handle things, and accident is very possible. The feeling is that it's absolutely serious, and the nights are long, then the day comes and you feel, so wonderful. Then you arrive to destiny leave the boat in a marina, do the passport or anything and go walking in the city and everything seems a dream, irreal ,another reality Once I ve small experience and I just started with a girlfriend, and we went from canary islands to south Spain in a wooden boat with the mast of wood, built in 1950, without communication with exterior , no meteo info, in middle of November against the wind with that boat that lick water everywhere, everything grey, like a dream, 12 days. I thought: she's so strong. Maybe she thought it was a movie 😅 the reality was that was a total madness .
  7. @Leo Gura holy shit his craziness looks real for the first time: I saw his older ones and there it seems to me he clearly was pretending. But there could be both true. What if he was really pretending and he took too much psychedelics so it was an druginduced death? Was this really planned? On the other hand, 40 days fasting alone was an act to me only very serious people or maniacs can do.
  8. I wouldn't take my late night "raps" and pleading for the lulz to make me stop too seriously, but kundalini has been active for quite some time (years, especially since I got awakenings when I was taking in Jan Esmann energy). Not sure I would say it's properly "awakened", but it gets aroused at times, I feel it in my spine and it directly corresponds to a shift/increase/non-dualification in consciousness. I not too long ago resonated with somebody saying that the kundalini process starts "from above" in that it's a shift in consciousness that then pulls the energy upward. Intellectual "masturbation" is how I expend a lot of that energy. I'm energetically and philosophically vegan. My "vegan activism" critiques are sort of intellectual masturbation. I wouldn't want to kill an animal in the wild.
  9. Valid lol
  10. I think he used his mania as his schtick for ratings, and it got out of hand.
  11. Or, that's what mental illness looks like. Look at his last video post. That is mental illness or too much drugs, or both.
  12. @Leo Gura But its so disturbing because he really faked his emotions. I believe that. It was total overexaggerated and bad acting. It really seemed to be thats someone who tried to imitate people with real mental conditions.
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  14. It's kind of like, your entire mind will always be somewhat of a black box, but with work, you can discover how it's working. Like, when you first contemplate "what is intuition?", you have no idea wtf it is. But after a lot of observation, you can come to understand it deeply and then deliberately fine-tune it much more effectively than if you didn't know what it was. It's still a black box, but you've mapped out a section of it that you can tweak to get better outputs. Anthropic just identified an aspect of AI that was previously invisible/unknown. If labs can now add/remove things to change outputs, that opens the door to fine-tuning a model's reasoning the way you'd fine-tune your own intuition.
  15. That was his BS. He downplayed every reckless thing he did. That's what manic people do. They pretend they aren't manic, they are in denial about having a disorder. When you are manic you feel invincible so you can't possibly have a disorder so you don't need any treatment or meds. That is manic logic. Sane people don't act mentally ill for fun.
  16. @Hojo Thanks bro
  17. If you want to believe anything, believe that Leo was trying to get Conner to wise up.
  18. No I mean he stated the whole time it was just an act. See my last post where he even was evaluated by a psychiatrist that he is mentally ok so his parents and other viewers are not too concerned. He said he always faked his craziness. His whole goal was to give attention to mental conditions like social anxiety and others. It seemed always to me he knows what he is doing. I really thought he is an actor.
  19. If you truly feel like you can't find woman you like, then I suppose you could look into other alternatives to meeting people. Joining social circles, even dating apps etc.
  20. It's the best peak into the box that we've ever had, and it's not insignificant. They were able to remove things from the J-space and add things in to get a different output. That seems pretty big to me.
  21. No way was it an act. He was lost in manic episodes. You can see the manic episode started inside the house that he trashed and ended in the lake. During a manic episode no negatives are ever considered, everything seems possible, you feel invincible. But Reality eventually catches up with you. Drugs make it even worse as they lower inhibitions. This is a classic case of untreated mental illness. The problem is that his social media community and friends were cheering on his antics and feeding his need for attention. His audience rewarded him for such behavior so he felt it was cool. Social media killed him as much as the lake. A guy like that should not be a social media influencer. It feeds and rewards the manic delusions.
  22. Lol. The idea that this somehow reduces the black box nature of AI is ridiculous. AI will forever be a black box to the human mind, because it is taking a snapshot of reality. It's like thinking you'll be able to figure out how the human brain works by taking a picture of it on your iPhone.

  24. Best questions for introspection?

    Joseph Maynor replied to Stick's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    That is a good one. One of the best.
  25. Taipei Times https://www.taipeitimes.com Taiwan hunkers down as Typhoon Bavi approaches 5 hours ago — Taiwan yesterday stepped up preparations for Typhoon Bavi, suspending ferry services to outlying islands, closing tourist attractions China might need to 'rescue' them
  26. Anthropic just released a groundbreaking paper on their discoveries of how AI thinks. Basically, it works much like the human mind does. The similarities are striking. They proved that if you tell an AI to not think about X, it can't help but think about it, lol. This stuff just came out - all new information. A new concept called the "J-space" is the main idea. https://www.anthropic.com/research/global-workspace It feels like this research is going to speed things up quiet a bit and allow labs to make much more efficient and accurate models, because now, they can actually control what the model thinks. This is insane. Massive implications.
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