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  2. At your service, my queen

  3. Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread

    Rafael Thundercat replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    "What scientists don't understand is that demonic faces appearing on the wall is not delusion, demonic faces can appear on the wall because ontologically the wall is made out of Everything/Infinity, which includes demonic faces. Yes, your wall is made out of demons and unicorns" Challenge to test this: Smoking a good Salvia Divinorium and Wall Gaze till the faces start to pop up.
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  5. He entered the race today and already leading the polls!

  6. Aghori taking 5 MEO

    Sugarcoat replied to MaDoubt's topic in Psychedelics

    5 meow , maybe you people need something else deep down
  7. For the last time, he isn’t in the DSA, and btw polls show the DSA endorsed candidate who people are saying should replace him does the best in polls against Collins.
  8. @LordFall In terms of my family being abusive, they don't just criticize me. A major piece of it has to do with a lack of accountability as a pattern of behavior. It includes things like childhood sexual abuse which crippled my identity because of the actions of my mother and father. Furthermore, if they do cross a boundary such as insisting that dad was loving and caring like a father while seeming smug even though he forced my unwanted involvement in gang activities such as child prostitution, then I will be the one blamed for my reaction to this behavior and there will be no accountability at all. The reason they stopped me from pursuing chess is because they wanted me to financially independent. If this is a factor in terms of why they don't respect my boundaries, then distance seems necessary. Also my debt shouldn't be as bad if I get a job while in college and transfer to Europe to finish the masters in social sciences. I don't like the fact that my family fundamentally crippled my identity, sexuality, and relationship to life by treating me as if I were a rapist as a child. I feel like the harm is deep enough that I can never actually feel safe in my family even if they don't appear to be abusive on the surface. The reminder of my past experiences by their presence and smug remarks makes it impossible to actually feel safe without running complex calculations in terms of how expressing my perspective may backfire. It is exhausting and there is a complete breakdown in communication such that I will likely never be understood and probably never respected. This is the price to pay by staying with my family. Sometimes my family retraumatizes me and undermines healing work. Also my aunt is mad at me for disclosing the child prostitution deal my father put me in. She sounds very angry with me and is acting like she doesn't want to believe me when I say dad was a child sex trafficker offering me money to have sex with fat ass. I live with his mother right now who was also pissed about my disclosure. Although she provides food, shelter, and partial recovery, she may not be able to provide all of the care I need. The things I am recovering from are what her son and his gang did to me and she refuses to believe it. How exactly do you define abusive? This term is highly subjective which makes it almost meaningless in terms of communication. Does it not count as abuse unless I am beaten? Or does smugly telling me dad was loving and caring like a father while the rest of the family moved to silence when I express offense count as abusive? I think I would prefer to build an identity totally separate from my family in order to stop the loop.
  9. Next topic: dissect Bryan Johnson for 50 pages Kind of like feminists discussing “why it’s called fireman not firewoman” that’s the vibe (although the intellectual skills are better here, but that should make someone even more prone to choosing something more worthwhile to discuss, if not, it’s as if the point is more so just “intellectualizing” rather than what’s it’s about) But I’m just saying this for the sake of “opposing” yea sure, I’m not Genuinely in some kind of opposition *tries to edit but nothing hits the spot*
  10. His last vid -
  11. Even this is likely not true.
  12. OCD is the cycle of identifying a problem and focusing in on it (obsession), and acting on a solution (compulsion). Taken to the extreme, everything becomes a problem and everything needs a solution (or you just can't seem to stop focusing on a problem or solution) and you may feel things are out of control. But it's fundamentally a function of our cognition. The less feeling of control, the more you want to call it an illness. To tie this into the discussion of belief, the worst belief you can have as a person who struggles with OCD is "I'm not in control of my actions". That's the nail in the coffin for any hope of organic recovery as far as I'm concerned. And that's one belief which is very abstract and not very grounded or fact-based and which you should challenge actively whenever it arises, because it lies at the core of all mental illness, all sense of vitality or growth, all sense of biological survival and thriving, that you can take action and do what you want.

  13. Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread

    Leo Gura replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    The costs of just running it are enormous. The problem is, without AGI, the cost cannot pay for itself. Those Nvidia chips have to be replaced every few years. They are not like solar panels that last 40 years. In 5 years the current chips will be useless because they won't be cost-effective or energy-efficient.
  14. Yesterday
  15. He was seriously mentally ill. Bipolar disorder and more. He had manic episodes. In those manic episodes he behaved very recklessly. If he mixed drugs in on top of that, that explains it all. He could not be reasoned with when in his manic state. He needed to be put on anti-psychotics, but he probably refused to take them regularly, which means the manic episodes continue, and now one finally got out of control. I wish I could say I am surprised, but his self-destruction was well foreshadowed. I tried to help him but he was incapable of listening.
  16. @LordFall I posted videos a while ago. Here is one of them.
  17. Poor guy, I hope he has peace now

  18. Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread

    integral replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    I assume they're spending so much because they're building the infrastructure of AI (data centers) but the cost of just running everything won't be to the same degree.
  19. That part is fine but they're doing a lot more than that, that's like 3 of 1,000 posts.
  20. That is what they're doing. Be careful of strawmannirg them as well. I don't agree with their conclusions, but they are mostly presenting it in a reasonable way.
  21. @PenguinPablo The schizophrenic drowns in the waters the mystic swims in. RIP. If you ever see the matrix and Neo is waking up and they are on the computer on the other side and they are like, we are loosing him. Its like that.
  22. @Brandon L Yeah he was clearly not the same and in psychosis. I give people into spirituality a lot of lee-way as I'm in the community and understand it better than norms but 'dem eyes don't lie. I wonder what happened to him, or what the verdict would be from a Kundalini perspective or something.
  23. I don't know if he's faking his death again or if it's real. I used to watch Connor in my teenage years for fitness advice, but after he took psychedelics his mind became so unhinged and irresponsible.
  24. My therapist said this when I mentioned my father had it. I do also but more so in Pure OCD rather than just behavioral. It can be quite debilitating. Already having your position in life on track, but psyching yourself out, getting overly worried about minutia but not recognizing it in the moment but perhaps retroactively.
  25. Yea that’s part of it True Unknowingness “Some” so you mean you have even more sailing stories? ok sorry I’m gonna stop now 😂 I just needed this laugh now, I even find humor in the metaphysical talk sometimes but I’ll spare you of that for now.
  26. I'm not surprised. Fuck man! He hasn't been doing well for a while now. RIP Connor
  27. I agree. Economic populism is popular, but DSA messengers don't understand how to sell it to anyone outside disaffected college grads, in general. Trump ran on it...
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