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  2. Hey man, there’s nothing wrong with it being just a hobby. Also, I’m sure you’d be able to create something that would feel personally meaningful to you. It doesn’t necessary have to be „wacky creative”, right? Like, what inspires you in life, what would you like to express through art? Perhaps try making something like that, and ultra creativity is not a must. I can hear you’re frustrated but let me assure you: you’re not „mentally retarded”. I’d suggest you try crying out your frustrations and vent out to the world, it’s probably all stuffed inside you now, so best let it out. You’ll feel better then. Also, you know, best artists steal. Hell, nothing wrong with copying too since you’re at the stage where you’re learning. Accept yourself, your place is really not that terrible man. You might just need a slight change in perspective. You are enough.

  3. UFOs Are Here

    Rafael Thundercat replied to Leo Gura's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events

    More AI shit or? https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZfqithAuNe/?igsh=Y2dhdWNjY3I2Mnpm
  4. The power of someone who controls a finite system is what it is no matter what they say they are in relation to you.
  5. "true leadership and high consciousness don’t sit on the sidelines venting about OnlyFans models under the guise of "societal integrity." That's just jadedness and victim mindset masquerading as spirituality." -> okay so in this sentence your doing this "Criticism that doesn't serve your achievement is victim mindset / self-limiting" "When a framework teaches you to view the average human being as a "profound waste of time" who "says absolutely nothing," it’s not an evolution of consciousness—it’s an ego defence mechanism designed to protect you from the discomfort of participating in reality." -> Again you're doing the exact same thing where you think everything has to do with creating the best mindset to then participate in reality at the highest level. Nothing I said was about what is positive or negative as a mindset, it is simply what is happening in reality. The extrovert gets energy when they socialize, the introvert gets drained. Read this: https://www.actualized.org/insights/understanding-solitude

  6. Distinction Journal

    Emull replied to Emull's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Friday: June 12th, 2026. Mastering the art of detachment is distinct from needy attachment.

  7. Distinction Journal

    Emull replied to Emull's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Friday: June 12th, 2026. Securing a position as partner is distinct from maintaining connection.

  8. Distinction Journal

    Emull replied to Emull's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Friday: June 12th, 2026. Intention to duly noting rejection is distinct from feeling unbothered.

  9. Distinction Journal

    Emull replied to Emull's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Friday: June 12th, 2026. Naming the devil by name is distinct from satanic worship.
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  11. Do both.
  12. There is a buzz in marketing to sell no self. For a variety of reasons. It puts people on their back foot to start a journey. It is a tactic though, not a solution.

  13. Distinction Journal

    Emull replied to Emull's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Friday: June 12th, 2026. Intention to be congruent is distinct from unintentional incongruence happening.
  14. How can something so biologically stimulating and enticing result in such shallow experiences? I've spent the last 10 years of my life fighting to satiate my Lust. A decade I've spent in the game: cold approaching, optimizing my dating and social media apps, building social circles, prospecting, sharpening my communication skills and learning about high value behaviors and flirting and escalation and so on and so forth. And I may have enjoyed only a handful of the vast experiences I've accumulated throughout my journey. I've written in this forum before about how I struggled so much to transcend the hedonistic player lifestyle and how it kept pulling me back in, despite leaving me more and more numb each time. Well, gentlemen and gentleladies, I'm happy to say that I genuinely feel like I've taken a huge step towards that direction. I'm holding myself back from saying that I've fully transcended it as not to jinx it However, with this new-found inner peace that I've finally realized within myself comes a lot of wisdom. These days, I spend my time studying, working, contemplating, enjoying the present and being. I don't feel a strong calling to fuck or to pursue women who I don't feel a particularly strong potential for a real genuine relationship with -- which basically means I'm not pursuing any women right now -- and, in fact, I seldom even watch porn or masturbate. Although when I do actually do those things... I notice an interesting phenomenon.. Despite me knowing that the pursuit of sexual and hedonistic desire is all smoke and mirrors through first hand experience, when watching porn or reading some erotica or fantasizing some hot scenario during acts of self-love, I still feel a part of me craving this overwhelmingly "sinful" lifestyle. A part of me glamorizes sex and its pursuit. It glamorizes the idea of partying and dealing with different girls and taking them home and using them for their body and having dirty unprotected sex and finishing up inside them or on their face or on their feet -- I'm a man of culture, you see -- and doing it all over again with young and old, hot and average, black and white and asian and tall and short and every permutation of woman that is out there. There's something so alluring to it. Thankfully, I have enough experiences and wisdom to know that that is only the more primal, impulsive, lizard-brain parts of my psyche speaking to me and I pay them no mind, yet it fascinates me how one of Reality's most tempting and biologically seductive aspects, is also one of its most unfulfilling and, eventually, self-destructive aspects, if engaged perpetually. Being that sex hits our most primal of instincts and releases dopamine and oxytocin and there's the power-elements, the validation, the intimacy, the "love" etc, etc, you'd think they'd be more to it; but in the end, it's almost like a cosmic joke. It's like the Devil pranking you, or something. Now, don't get me wrong.. sex can be amazing when it's coupled with genuine intimacy, connection and integrity and people do have wildly different relationships to it. But for me, I found it to be one of my life's biggest distractions and stressors -- due to pregnancy and STD scares, weird situations with various girls, etc. In the end, all I want, truthfully, is just one amazing woman who I share values with, a connection with and who I love deeply and who loves me. That's it. Everything else is a fallacy.
  15. I tried so hard to make art using my imagination. But the only thing I can is to copy things from life or internet pictures (and I am not good enough in that either). I really wanted to become an artist but nature didn't give me the right genes. I am talented in informatics (I don't know informatics, we did informatics in high school and I just was really talented at it), the only thing that I am talented in. But I don't like informatics just cause I am good at it. I like art. I really wish I was someone else. Not a low IQ autistic uncreative guy. I am powerless, when others get creative ideas my own mind is just blank. I had no meaning in life, art became my meaning. But I am not good at it. So I have no meaning in life now that I am going to do drawing just for a hobby. All I can think is Leo's video The radical implications of Oneness in which he said ''in another life you will be mentally retarded''. This is the life he was talking about, and I can't do anything to change this situation... why am I even living? Can I do anything at all to change this situation?

  16. Do you feel like there are superhumans among us?

    Joseph Maynor replied to Empathicsoul's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Ever heard of yourself more like it. This gets deep though.
  17. The ultimate mechanism is Will. Which is not a mechanism because it is Infinite. Or, you could also think of it as an Infinite Mechanism. It is a mechanism so profound that it has no beginning or end. GOD is an out of control Infinite Dream. The reason that you can't do things directly at will in your current situation is because you are deeply lost in the Infinite Dream and your consciousness is too low to fully Awaken from it and have full access to your Will. There are limits upon you, but only because you are dreaming. The dream you are dreaming conflicts with what you wish you were dreaming, which is why you can't just will a bunch of money to rain from the sky. You could if you were fully conscious, but you are not. You can't be that conscious and retain your finite human psyche. Being human is what keeps from being fully God. If you became fully God you would stop existing as a human. So that's sticking point. The sticking point is that you don't want to die.

  18. Do you feel like there are superhumans among us?

    Monster Energy replied to Empathicsoul's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Ever heard of Leo Gura?
  19. Consciousness is simply the state of being aware, not something that does things. Reality manifests in relationships that form patterns. At a certain level, subjective experience or consciousness appears, and this experience can open oneself to the unlimited nature of reality. Consciousness occurs through complex processes; without them, consciousness disappears. Reality neither needs nor desires consciousness; unlimited reality does not desire, since it is unlimited, but rather manifests itself. The consciousness that you are is reality being aware of itself. There is no god above you who created you, but rather possible processes that have occurred. Reality is total, unlimited, divine, absolute power, total creation, infinite being, but there is no one directing its function. Limitlessness itself is the inevitable cause of everything that can be, being.
  20. You mean like Chuck Norris?
  21. Okay.
  22. There is no reality. Who told you there’s a reality, and did you believe what you were told was true?
  23. My father became a gambler these past , I don't know, maybe 8 months. We just learned yesterday as a family that he has lost a huge fortune of money that was in common bank account with my mum. My sister is going to give birth in few days and she is thinking of leaving the house faster than she would. The whole family and the husband of my sister told him to stop playing these games, I said to him to go to a center that helps gamblers. All my father said was that he will stop he just wants to play one last time, which is ridiculous. You don't play one time, if you play one time you play again and again. He doesn't want to go to a center or to a psychologist or psychiatrist, he thinks he doesn't have a problem. My mother made her own bank account cause we know that gamblers may steal money , in some sense he already did that with the common bank account. You have to be really low IQ not to know that you can't win in gambling and yet he thinks he can make money. I can't see my father anymore it's too painful, he is addicted, I can't see an addicted person that doesn't want to help himself and he may end up homeless some day. He lost a ridiculous amount of money. I have a million problems in my life like being autistic, this is the last thing I imagined I would have. What can I do?
  24. @yetineti Does it not? I suppose dying on impact would have a consequence on the hallucinating and it's not like one can hallucinate a feathery bed to land in and have it magically replace the hard ground that really is there. People confuse the 'hallucinating' the mind does to interpret the signals coming to it from the body and construct a paradigm in it with what actually is taking place in the material world. There are many layers to the fact that reality is an illusion but it's the material world that creates them, not the hallucination in the mind creating the material world. Despite what magical minded mystics believe about it and would try to convince others believe about it, too.

  25. Finished the LP course

    Jannes replied to Jannes's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    The mind gets corrupted in two ways. When it doesnt have power and competence it finds excuses and miscredits the powerful. When it has to much power it also gets corrupted because it needs some sort of resistance, its not built to hold together on its own. Will formulate that better at some point. ... Power should be proportional to love.
  26. Reality is not a hallucination, it is real (as its name "reality" suggest). Religious people don't hallucinate because of their religion; rather, they believe a series of things they've been told are true.
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