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  2. @Natasha Tori Maru yes, that's why i specified that even if i buy low fat, i buy it plain and without added sugar....only to add my own sucralose nightmare to it lol. i've also checked the labels yesterday and was surprised that when comparing plain(!) yoghurt, the higher fat varieties have less (milk) sugar. never thought about that before. do you eat a lot of dairy in general?
  3. If by Nootropic you mean DMT, yes.
  4. A practical way to increase intelligence, that is very overlooked, is to develop a well suited Nootropic and supplementation stack.
  5. Sorry I posted twice, I could not delete that I will keep this journal and look for a way to delete that, generally speaking and I got into stuff I am re-framing with A.I, my core suspicion that integral had to many secrets and the revelation of secrets since Epstein etc. what I had to read in university even about secret societies and my own interests with esoteric history, like a Witch Doctor or Voodoo priest technically, I see Leo's points, but mentally on a causal level I am reframing things very differently similar to a "Throne/Chrone" or what is depicted as a golden carriage, in Daoism. The levels of intuitive overlap would be very high, but due to the issue of integration this happend: Defining precise terminology via language The pain of interconnecting and the issue that my tech broke so often for a reason to fix and heal The underbelly for me of green/yellow and the experience with the ex, and the fragmented sexual experiences Sadghuru and his wive whole india as synchronicity via Daoism etc. It shocks me she went on the day I was born, (not year) and yearning to understand my health
  6. I could go about deconstructing that, simply saying that the bias is in order, completeness, etc. A shared bias doesn't make it more or less than a bias. Having said this, it's true that there seems to be a holarchy of beauty in the world, which by deconstruction into raw metaphysical Beauty, its nature is lost. The endeavour of the artist is appealing to that, higher orders of beauty and harmony. The appeal of the mystic is all-embracing, as it must be, due to the oneness principle.
  7. I could not find a right title, and there are a billions of issues, due to the nature of what I went through and health, I have not been able to find anyone to help me with the issues since birth, and the ideas and solutions I have are mostly destroyed by the inability for humanity or the others; to be more spiritually insightful to get into the root cause, hence it's my responsibility to find a solution, I have been looking into archetypes based on the fundamental notions of some calculations and time, and time archetypes as I had some "chrone" types of experiences, and integral psychology the book creates, a lot of insight, but I feel and notice the doubt of humanity and the weight of that pain. I have been looking for stability with other, but the hypernarccistic expansion of perception and the in-abillity of the social structure of once here once was empathy has turned into a desire for capital money, gain and the denial the money and value is part of love, and the core issue of love. So many, things happend: I still ruminate suicide a lot, due to issues of thought and the pain I have since birth, but most psychologist are stuck in moder-post-modern levels of thinking from problems that stem from pre-rational to post-rational levels, and the pain of correcting or healing myself is awesome, but it's a lot of racist remnants from WWI and the effects of interacting with people here and their pain-body with Rudolf Steiner and Tesla, and other scientist how racist that era was, and how much violence has occurred, and the issue of the Ideation of race itself, d.n.a., turkey and Iran especially, their ideaology, the issue of color, and just my recent experiences. I got banned as I could not handle anymore my "coping" and the issue of being more social to be and get help, and that dragon swallowing you and devouring you etc. I found out that Leo's first name was part of Greeks Odyssee, with Alexander, Dimitri and Leo and the issue of Christ and religion and the whole issue with nature mystecism, the regress Ken Wilber was talking about and more patterns that I was correct, but could not express due to pain, especially as my first name is Dimitri, and I am using Wu-Xing generally speaking I had so many odd experiences and they all are Kriyas, I made to many excellent choices that turned into pure hell and purgatory, from multiple perspectives, the larger whole of what I yearn to say is: I found some answers if I will ever unify my psychedelic experiences and find possible terms and alternative terms or simply nothing to see and experience the credibility I found out a lot about humans; but I really required a forum or medium, so many things technically broke, as I learned and I found new patterns and ideas, but the core issue is the translation to put it into my understanding of Wilbers framework, and the core issues I had in my family, I yearned also to post this publically, as this was the only thing that gave me safety to the pain of the lies and the education of what I experienced with my mother, and her racist attitudes as well as inabillity to empathize due to them, like white liberals need white liberal training as they are in lie, they only seek lust, but can't find the meridian to turn lust and love into the purity of spirit, soul and evolution... most black men and I am partially black and others do that, and that level of commitment and depth goes to the deepest levels of rumi.... I found some answers in terms of order and vision, but the issue of the scientific paradigm and statistics, especially and worldviews since the 19th hundreds has internally not changed for me in my friendships, especially recently they have all been part of that and I had very deep revelations of the nature of spirit, but to read the symbolic holism and integrative hierachy behind it, as well as mastering integral language, as the more deeper you get I am 100% confinced that Lucifer and Ahriman did incarnate from this Paul Check video, and that fundamentally caused the issue with Iran. It's the deepst archetypal hunch I have due to this IW/IR patterning and the synchronicity of the time and birth of my favorite book integral psychology as many answers are applied, I cry so often, I can't even get to the notes due to the level of insights that pattern alone created the notes and last sections or Ken Wilber himself is a very deep IW/IR integrative patterning from BaZi. Science has to advanced into the true spirit of the causal, Steiner etc. to reinterpret that without their statistical bias, and the lack of scientific rigour ever since latin and greek disappeared bothers me deeply ever since I lived here, the lack of integration in that space, especially to let go and cleanse out pain is incredible. Btw, this is the best channel I found for meditation recently, I am very much done with stuff, but I yearn to understand Gödel, Nikola Tesla, Lada Love Lace, and some secret societies and orders, to take the esoteric and see what was exotertically true, and some mathematical allegories eventually, if I can get into 4d space downloads and insights, and the core issue of being a passionate mathematician, identity, and the current issue of our times. I'd like to report I went through so much, this place has been the only refuge I had, when society is utterly crumbling, but integral is building some human space to heal from that era, tbh. I am personally as a German not over WWII Shinzen and others telling me about the traditions as they are afraid they die, and the anger as well as compassion for and with Iran, and I've been using BaZi and Steiner as a lense, as the Wu-Xing, Goethe etc. are interconnected, but to write with that purity and the issue of IW/IR I saw what happens with Wilber, myself and my aunt, God will bend you, God will break you, and your will is your will. YOU ARE ONE. That is the entire issue I go through let alone with my own real names, how far they echo back into eternity, and the issues of how many traditions have realized GOD, has brought nothing back or stabilizing it. The only thing humanity should to is to stabilize god, and reduce violence and heal. The level of commitment and what I envisioned and if it's true, but most issues I had are more survival especially as a lot of trust in humanity has been broken, and a lot of things deepended on this pattern, but it turned so evil. I want, there are a lot of issues, due to success, and the issue of GOLD as well as the issue of beauty and GOD, Goethe and GOD and the interconnections, but I will make this a brief recollcetion!
  8. Keep crushing it man! I did similar "challenges" a few times throughout my journey and I found them very transformative! After about a week of consistent action, approaching becomes complete second nature. I could strike up a conversation with anyone, anywhere, and I was SMOOTH AF. No compliments, no direct game. I just had a vibe about me and the flirting was so subtle but effective. Results were well worth it. I say "challenges" in quotations because I never did it consciously. It was more like "I have some free time, I want to get back into hardcore dating again, so Im gonna talk to x amount of girls everyday until something comes of it." So its was a very loose structure, but again, well worth it! I dont read journals though, so I'd appreciate you updating your journey on this thread instead.
  9. I could not find a right title, and there are a billions of issues, due to the nature of what I went through and health, I have not been able to find anyone to help me with the issues since birth, and the ideas and solutions I have are mostly destroyed by the inability for humanity or the others; to be more spiritually insightful to get into the root cause, hence it's my responsibility to find a solution, I have been looking into archetypes based on the fundamental notions of some calculations and time, and time archetypes as I had some "chrone" types of experiences, and integral psychology the book creates, a lot of insight, but I feel and notice the doubt of humanity and the weight of that pain. I have been looking for stability with other, but the hypernarccistic expansion of perception and the in-abillity of the social structure of once here once was empathy has turned into a desire for capital money, gain and the denial the money and value is part of love, and the core issue of love. So many, things happend: I still ruminate suicide a lot, due to issues of thought and the pain I have since birth, but most psychologist are stuck in moder-post-modern levels of thinking from problems that stem from pre-rational to post-rational levels, and the pain of correcting or healing myself is awesome, but it's a lot of racist remnants from WWI and the effects of interacting with people here and their pain-body with Rudolf Steiner and Tesla, and other scientist how racist that era was, and how much violence has occurred, and the issue of the Ideation of race itself, d.n.a., turkey and Iran especially, their ideaology, the issue of color, and just my recent experiences. I got banned as I could not handle anymore my "coping" and the issue of being more social to be and get help, and that dragon swallowing you and devouring you etc. I found out that Leo's first name was part of Greeks Odyssee, with Alexander, Dimitri and Leo and the issue of Christ and religion and the whole issue with nature mystecism, the regress Ken Wilber was talking about and more patterns that I was correct, but could not express due to pain, especially as my first name is Dimitri, and I am using Wu-Xing generally speaking I had so many odd experiences and they all are Kriyas, I made to many excellent choices that turned into pure hell and purgatory, from multiple perspectives, the larger whole of what I yearn to say is: I found some answers if I will ever unify my psychedelic experiences and find possible terms and alternative terms or simply nothing to see and experience the credibility I found out a lot about humans; but I really required a forum or medium, so many things technically broke, as I learned and I found new patterns and ideas, but the core issue is the translation to put it into my understanding of Wilbers framework, and the core issues I had in my family, I yearned also to post this publically, as this was the only thing that gave me safety to the pain of the lies and the education of what I experienced with my mother, and her racist attitudes as well as inabillity to empathize due to them, like white liberals need white liberal training as they are in lie, they only seek lust, but can't find the meridian to turn lust and love into the purity of spirit, soul and evolution... most black men and I am partially black and others do that, and that level of commitment and depth goes to the deepest levels of rumi.... I found some answers in terms of order and vision, but the issue of the scientific paradigm and statistics, especially and worldviews since the 19th hundreds has internally not changed for me in my friendships, especially recently they have all been part of that and I had very deep revelations of the nature of spirit, but to read the symbolic holism and integrative hierachy behind it, as well as mastering integral language, as the more deeper you get I am 100% confinced that Lucifer and Ahriman did incarnate from this Paul Check video, and that fundamentally caused the issue with Iran. It's the deepst archetypal hunch I have due to this IW/IR patterning and the synchronicity of the time and birth of my favorite book integral psychology as many answers are applied, I cry so often, I can't even get to the notes due to the level of insights that pattern alone created the notes and last sections or Ken Wilber himself is a very deep IW/IR integrative patterning from BaZi. Science has to advanced into the true spirit of the causal, Steiner etc. to reinterpret that without their statistical bias, and the lack of scientific rigour ever since latin and greek disappeared bothers me deeply ever since I lived here, the lack of integration in that space, especially to let go and cleanse out pain is incredible. Btw, this is the best channel I found for meditation recently, I am very much done with stuff, but I yearn to understand Gödel, Nikola Tesla, Lada Love Lace, and some secret societies and orders, to take the esoteric and see what was exotertically true, and some mathematical allegories eventually, if I can get into 4d space downloads and insights, and the core issue of being a passionate mathematician, identity, and the current issue of our times. I'd like to report I went through so much, this place has been the only refuge I had, when society is utterly crumbling, but integral is building some human space to heal from that era, tbh. I am personally as a German not over WWII Shinzen and others telling me about the traditions as they are afraid they die, and the anger as well as compassion for and with Iran, and I've been using BaZi and Steiner as a lense, as the Wu-Xing, Goethe etc. are interconnected, but to write with that purity and the issue of IW/IR I saw what happens with Wilber, myself and my aunt, God will bend you, God will break you, and your will is your will. YOU ARE ONE. That is the entire issue I go through let alone with my own real names, how far they echo back into eternity, and the issues of how many traditions have realized GOD, has brought nothing back or stabilizing it. The only thing humanity should to is to stabilize god, and reduce violence and heal. The level of commitment and what I envisioned and if it's true, but most issues I had are more survival especially as a lot of trust in humanity has been broken, and a lot of things deepended on this pattern, but it turned so evil. I want, there are a lot of issues, due to success, and the issue of GOLD as well as the issue of beauty and GOD, Goethe and GOD and the interconnections, but I will make this a brief recollcetion!
  10. Yep, this is what the techno-transhumanist silicon valley types are striving for. Literally the movie 'Gattaca' manifest. The ethics around this discussion are wild - and people don't even want to discuss it. It is just... drive to improve/expand at all costs. Dreamland future and fantastical thinking with zero foresight. The road to hell is paved with the best intentions.
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  12. Today
  13. @Leo Gura Yay! Bet we watchin'!
  14. This is the key. Now real path begans @Mellowmarsh 😘 😊

  15. Provide counterarguments

    PsychedelicEagle replied to Carl-Richard's topic in Health, Fitness, Nutrition, Supplements

    @Hojo, what proper science models is, e.g., based on the evidence given a target population & set of circumstances, there is strong/weak evidence for [blank], or the likelihood of X increases 20% with Y given Z. I.e., science points at statistical and scope-bounded correlations, sometime possible causations. It's up to the reader to resist generalizing these beyond their scope of application, or treating them as absolute. Most people are unable to do so, but some are — in which case science is valuable. This connects to meta-rationality. It's the same thing when playing poker. Most people are unable to model the game as a distribution over a range of cards — if you ask them what a given player has, they'll say a single or couple possible starting hands. Ask a good player and they'll give you a range like in the image, with probabilities associated to each hand. The proper application of science in poker could easily make someone rich in the 2000's. In the same way, the proper application of science in nutrition can make one healthier (or, much better said, increase their likelihood of a good health outcomes).
  16. Here's the list of the first 400 clip titles:
  17. 61 new clips are available right now in the Vault. I will be adding the remaining 150 clips over the next week.
  18. I don't know enough about him. But generally I look with suspicion at self-proclaimed socialists.

  19. Half-thoughts

    Jirh replied to Jirh's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    She was crazy. And I loved her. Very much, so. She wasn't crazy enough to love herself, though. And that's the tragedy. I loved, I stayed, I waited, I sacrificed. All to the abyss of her toxic family. Manipulation, lies, control, gaslighting, smearing. They poisoned our love with fear. I lost her. She lost my love. Her family lost us both. They burnt her and kept the ashes. It's just sad to see. But I will always care for her. I will always be kind to her. And if she asks for help, I will always be there for her. ... Love is not enough. Enough is enough. And it's time to move on. There will never be a future with her. Peace.
  20. Then that's what's being experienced there. It's whole, complete and perfect! Just to be clear, in no way was I trying to insinuate that a no self awakening is deeper, better or more spiritually valuable than anything you have described. It almost sounds like you are repeating everything I talk about, except switching it from "unreal/illusion" to "real/reality".......kind of entertaining 🤷‍♂️ Prior to 2018, there was a very needy and desperate seeker here that was determined to understand all of reality or the truth of everything if you will. It thought that by knowing this information, it would gain some sort of advantage in life and over others. The truth would set me free. It read countless spiritual books, digested hundreds of hours of spiritual content from YouTube, did daily yoga sessions and meditated sometimes up to 2 hrs a day for over 2 years straight. If anyone could figure this stuff out, it was going to be me right! One day while feeling exhausted by all the endless spiritual seeking and without finding any lasting satisfaction, some questions arose like........Why am I doing all of this exhausting work? Who wanted the truth so damn badly? Where does this constant seeking energy come from? Who wants to know? The outwardly seeking completely halted and the internal seeking began.......it lasted several days, it was a very deep self introspection, or so it was thought to be. What happened over the next several days is difficult to describe because it wasn't like anything I had ever experienced previously or even heard of, and I had done quite a bit of hallucinogens in my late teens. It wasn't like any of those experiences at all. It was quickly becoming obvious that this me character wasn't as solid and real as it once seemed to be. As this introspection process continued, it became as if, the closer this self character was looked at, the more transparent or invisible it was becoming. It was dissolving as it was being interrogated. There was a lot of energetic excitement taking place because of how incredibly weird and surprising this was becoming. Everything started to feel lighter and less serious. This self character was being stripped away like onion layers at an onion ring factory. But simultaneously they weren't even being stripped away, rather they were never there from the start. There was a massive shift away from upholding this self construct called me.............its been quite a while now and it still sounds bizarre to tell the story.
  21. As Alan Watts said in his manuscript 'The Art of Contemplation' "You are the aperture through which the universe is aware of itself. These centers are not, as may seem, apart from their surroundings, but stand in mutual relationship to them".

  22. Starving Patriarchy

    Wilhelm44 replied to Rafael Thundercat's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events

    I have a feeling the patriarchy might be imploding in on itself much faster than we think. God bless.
  23. Absofuckinglutely. Absofuckinglutely.
  24. @Natasha Tori Maru thank you! Loved reading your input ☺️
  25. İt is neither important nor not important. Experience belongs to body, that's all. When one realizes that experience, knowledge, thinker belongs to body and mind, what is left?
  26. No, you are not the observer. Observer is an action, like attachment to thinking. Even observer vanishes. Be witness till witnesser vanishes.

  27. dairy - full-fat vs low-fat?

    Natasha Tori Maru replied to Judy2's topic in Health, Fitness, Nutrition, Supplements

    I strongly dislike low fat variants of dairy. I avoid low fat varieties as they usually add a lot of sugar or emulsifiers to add back flavour and texture. In addition, I am lactose intolerant. Although I can tolerate small amounts. Low fat varieties of fairy typically have greater lactose sugars, so they make my digestion much worse. As a result of the nicer texture and mouth-feel of higher fat dairy, I tend to naturally eat less and feel satisfied quicker. Your milage may vary, as some people do not have a good ability to connect with their bodies and intuitively eat. For some, if they followed their intuitive cravings, that would be donuts and ice-cream all day Overall I find higher added fats in my diet = better hormones = better mood = more even energy = movement / joints feel better. I don't care about the added calories as they are so miniscule.
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