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I think that if it makes you scared to game because you get sucked in, I feel like it should be a fear to explore. In the end in life you want to do the things that make you happy. I understand that truth seeking is the most important thing you can do but burning through karma is also important. Maybe you allow yourself get so sucked in the game that you play many weeks straight without doing anything else and then after you feel like taking a break from it. Life is not this fixed straight river, it is flowy.
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That is reasonable. 15mg would be a more comfortable place to start.
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These are all things I desire more and more out of a psychedelic as I'm getting a bit older. It's novel to be pulled in all directions at the whim of the experience. Spend enough trips like that and impossible clarity starts to sound like an all inclusive retreat. I intend to dose around 20mg HCL.
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The issue with DOAC is that he doesn't have the philosophical depth to seriously question me. Not his fault, it's just not his line of work. I frankly don't know what kind of questions he would ask me. They would probably be surface level. Not sure how useful that would be. He would probably ask me self-help type questions. How to be more successful. It's hard to find people who ask serious questions! Most interviewers aren't deep people.
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It will have less visuals, less body feel, less tactility, less eroticism, less color. It will be like a more clinical and sober version of 5-MeO-MIPT. But insane clarity. Impossible clarity. DMT is more scary because it is too twisted and alien. 5-MeO is more simple and pure. It doesn't have a bunch of wacky shit going on. It's just a direct 1000-fold increase in consciousness. Although at high enough dose you will shit your pants. So ramp up gradually.
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It would easier for you guys to make a list of things you agree with. Will be shorter. Lol Herd of cats up in here.
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Interesting, it surprises me that you say it's similar. I did 5-MeO-MiPT quite a number of times, although I only dosed it orally, never smoked it. It was too long ago to recall the exact doses I was taking, but I remember it having a considerable body load, enhanced sensory/tactility, sort of as if it's a tryptamine putting on an impression of MDMA. Visually it had quite a lot of character; warm colours, fairly mild breathing, warping and drifting with round/angular uniformity that doesn't feel overly synthetic. The visual field itself was quite bright, not bright in the way intense geometry appears as though you could be swallowed by it. More like there is a very bright internal light illuminating the whole of consciousness. I don't know if that makes sense. That's how I'm more or less picturing 5-MeO-DMT to be, in that the consciousness itself is what is increasing in intensity, secondary to the visual component. I have an overactive occipital lobe/hyperphantasia so the intensity at which I experience visuals is far greater than what is typical. I am now more curious, I'm waiting on oral syringes to be delivered as I'm not a fan of snorting anything these days. 5-MeO-DMT seems like a uniquely versatile substance, having little to no tolerance as with NN-DMT. I feel like the lack of a lengthy tolerance between uses is more applicable because DMT is so visually overwhelming, I don't think I've ever finished a DMT trip and said "I want to go again". If I tolerate 5-MeO-DMT well, I am interested in re-dosing it to spend more than an hour in the experience.
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AtmanIsBrahman replied to JoshB's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Contemplation throughout the day Questioning the ego as in “how is my ego acting out” or “how is my ego preventing me from seeing I’m wrong” Tuning into love Radical honesty Lie down with head propped up and don’t move at all. Remove all thoughts. Literally just be— and if you can truly just be for long enough, eventually you get to a mystical state of consciousness. - Today
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Pizza coffee hamburger dorito
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@Natasha Tori Maru Yes I also did that, but in subtle ways. Approval seeking played a big role in anxious attachment style, because I was hyper aware every time there was a threat (or things I percieved as threats) of not being approved in some way in a relatioship. It was super exhausting honestly. For me it came down to self-esteem and confidence issues. And those came from fears of losing validation and love from an intimate partner. What can be solution for that? For me it's handling self-esteem and confidence issues, making fears conscious and facing and being okay with all of them (somehow), but ultimately it seems an existential identity issue, so I'm not sure how deep and fully can it be fixed without addressing the existencial part. But well, we have to walk before we fly so, doing whatever I can. Goal is not perfection, just slow improvement over time. Ralston suggested satisfying yourself whatever love needs you have, without external source, as an ultimate solution. But I don't know how to do that yet. Is that even possible?
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Joseph Maynor replied to JoshB's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I agree a lot with this. No practice per se. Conscious creation, intuition, play, humor, playing music, listening to music, performing (especially within a group of creators), immersion in creation (including intellectual but all artforms including games like chess and conversation), spontaneity, reactivity (and honoring my reactivity), improvisation, channeling insights. I'm less concerned with insisting on flow, but I'll take it and when I'm on a roll with creating I'll notice that. -
@Natasha Tori Maru Yup, that's the goal. Oh yeah, it's the surest way, if only one manages to stay somewhat aware during suffering. Or reflect extensively after the fact. 🔥🫶
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I don't care if they use a bulldozer, you can't push back Truth Pushing water uphill with brooms.
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Anastasia pushed back on your worldview which in hindsight is good. Maybe going on a popular podcast such as DOAC he might just ask you questions refusing to push back or question, which seems to be his general strategy. Dunno.
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who knows:)
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It's quite similar to 5-MeO-MIPT. If you did that, you will be fine. Of course each trips goes deeper than the last.
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Approval seeking is a big one to look for - huge growth there. Often harkens back to approval seeking with parents. This gets reflected into romantic relationships also. You can witness on the forum even, those who seek Leo's approval. This points to some form of childhood love that wasn't pure and unconditional in the users history.
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For me, the advice that I would give myself around habits is make sure you have strong intent behind every habit as to why you're doing it, otherwise you won't have that buy-in to do it long-term. Oftentimes, having very clearly set goals to help a lot. And then being willing to revisit them every 90 days or so to adjust. I find myself adjusting habits all the time, as I figure out more and more what is actually effective and important for me. Basically make sure what you are committing to makes complete sense so you're not questioning after the third week. Returning to Vision again and again, and chunking down your goals again and again is what will help a lot. Constantly visioning out what your next step is and connecting that to all the steps you need to get to where you want to go. Most importantly though, is to learn how to get back on the horse again and again. Especially maintaining habits in unpredictable lifestyles and in unpredictable environments. I have way too many factors of unpredictable environments that mess my habits up all the time.
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@bazera love all your points. Much of your process reflects my own. It is hard, laborious work. It doesn't often feel good either. The running script like a broken piece of software is an analogy I like to return to often. And I feel the same as you - it is scary to think we are walking unconsciously through life with these old scripts that run the show. Most people do this and will never become aware of it. Just looking for it in ourselves is a huge deal! It's fundamental to raising our consciousness - bring it all into awareness to dissolve in process. Suffering really reveals these scripts to us, in my experience. Hell yeah to us both on the path ay?
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I'll be dosing 5-MeO-DMT for the first time tomorrow. I've experienced practically every other notable psychedelic, even more obscure rare chemicals, 5-MeO is the odd one out. I was sitting in my apartment a couple days ago and a switch just flipped, I thought why not and I ordered it immediately, got delivered yesterday. I've known about 5-MeO since 2017, just never got around to doing it for one reason or another. These things tend to work themselves out though, when it's time it's time. Over the last 2-3 months my baseline level of consciousness has been steadily increasing with the work I've been doing. I've had many, many trips on LSD, 4-AcO-DMT/Psilocybin, NN-DMT, 5-MeO-MiPT, MET, 4-HO-MET, AL-LAD, Aleph-1... to make an exhaustive list. Though my DOC has always been LSD, I'll always love LSD but I feel I've all but drawn out what value it has for my spiritual development. I can function on 200μg~ as though it's a glass of wine at dinner, lol. Not that I drink alcohol. If I were to take LSD now, I'd enjoy the experience but it wouldn't be mind melting or earth shattering. Sometimes that's what I'd prefer, no need to push the pedal to the floor every single time. Lately though I feel like I truly want to see exactly how much of the self I have left to lose. I would say in the context of my day to day awareness, I'm consistently identified with the experience of being, and I engage with the ego from there, rarely becoming entangled in it. I can visualize the unity of consciousness, reality, and God with clarity, nothing external, all is interdependent. I've been imagining what 5-MeO might be like based on all of my experiences and what I've heard about it, so I suppose I'll find out over the next while how enlightened I actually am. The thought of the self being entirely dissolved for 20-60 minutes, without having to contend with strong visuals while remaining lucid is the most attractive aspect of 5-MeO to me. This in theory would make it one of if not the highest value psychedelic experiences, with the lowest investment required to gain benefit from it. I guess what one gets out 5-MeO depends on their willingness to let go and succumb to it. I don't imagine having issues with this, which is why it has me excited. I can remember the days following my first time smoking DMT, it blew my conception of reality so far outside of what I imagined possible, that it would never be the same again. If an otherworldly state of consciousness of that magnitude is available to be experienced, it makes it impossible to conceive of consciousness as anything other than infinite. I'm hoping to have experiences on 5-MeO-DMT that go beyond anything I've experienced thus far. I'll post my impressions of the trip in this thread tomorrow, o7.
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She was at least half serious. She was trying to pull a fast one on me. Clever girl. She is intelligent enough to be dangerous.
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Let me put it this way: The Awakening I explain in the Infinity Of Gods videos is completely beyond normal Awakening. You can't even imagine it. It is so profound you would literally shit yourself. Be careful underestimating what was communicated.
