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  2. Awesome, great topic!
  3. LMAO for sure its genetic. Your story is very similar to mine, they even put me in special education because they thought i was retarded but at the same time i was already a chess master at 12, it made no sense to them, so they thought I had Asperger's. Really I identified that they were teaching me was completely useless, like French, and I had this Vision that chess was merging my brain hemispheres together strengthening my corpus callosum like the stories I heard of Einstein. I was obsessed with being as intelligent as possible from a very young age, I prioritized intelligence over everything else but the education system put me in special education LMFAO. I took it as Pride that I was so intelligent that they mistook me for an idiot And then like you I started applying myself and destroyed everything. Learning curriculum spread out in front of you is Child's Play.
  4. You must also be able to understand that nobody can tell you what you can see upon the widening of your gaze. You must see for yourself the expansion. Somebody could go on for days, attempting to describe exactly what the experience of color is like, and until you go ahead & take a look at it yourself, it will never be grasped. The human being fundamentally misunderstands the grave nature of its limitation.
  5. @integral Indeed a weak and unhealthy coping mechanism which causes further problems .
  6. So you don't like art? Remember, literature is a form of art, too! I used to be a crass young angry guy myself until I started reading fiction. It’s actually scientifically proven to help build empathy. Instead of acting out to get attention, try focusing on making the world a little brighter. You’ll find that you not only get more positive attention, but you'll feel much better, too. Fiction is a great way to start realizing that. Also it's ironic because non-fiction is another way to realize that. Where does Tony Robbins suggest to shit on other peoples' interests? Nowhere! Tony Robbins specifically suggests to make the world a better place and build others up.
  7. This a long substak post. I good that is long a complex because this way this post will avoing the usual commenters who just jump into the talk to be a contrarian. So my friends read it all and bring deep grounded opinions. Otherwise I may invite the writer into the Forum to answer the objections. Have a good read. https://sorayachemaly.substack.com/p/26-decentering-men-is-not-misandry?r=71pq&utm_medium=ios&utm_source=ig&utm_content=link_in_bio&fbclid=PAdGRzdgRoFHVleHRuA2FlbQIxMQBzcnRjBmFwcF9pZA81NjcwNjczNDMzNTI0MjcAAafqlzvBCQBnkU2KXpOrHl14-naCDwVbLic27je-mfnktVeN3Xzxavk6nB_RXA_aem_xdnrRbB7tl1XWIRmHWpeIw&utm_id=97760_v0_s00_e0_tv3_a1dennhcopqa1q&triedRedirect=true A small part to sparkle the curiosity: . No One Told Men the Floor Was Made of Women On decentering men, loneliness, men's desire for recognition, and why persistently misdiagnosing men's crises is making everything worse for everyone Soraya Chemaly Last week, German police association chief Dirk Peglow provoked a heated public debate when he announced, only partially joking, that, to be safe, women should “not get into a relationship with a man. If you do, the risk is much higher of becoming a victim of psychological or physical violence.” He is essentially saying how much sense it makes for women to avoid men as much as possible. This, if you think about it, is a way of suggesting that women…decenter men. Peglow, who was threatened for his efforts, later explained. “It was not meant as advice to be taken literally. The overwhelming majority of men are not violent and are not criminals.” Man meet bear. Bear meet man. Until relatively recently, most women could do very little to mitigate the risks posed by men, known or unknown. Today, however, women are increasingly able to distance themselves from men with more deliberation and intent, which is the officer’s suggestion. Formally or informally, women are decentering men, even if they never use that word. This is not because women actively hate men but because women have access to the education, money, birth control, some reproductive rights, and legal standing that make male centrality and approval optional rather than necessary. It turns out that for a variety of reasons, it’s easier for women to live without men than the other way round. No one, no society, prepared men for this reality or changes in women’s status and their effects on gender relations. This is true despite gender norms for women evolving continuously over a century. In fact, most parents have protected boys from this shift, opting to teach most how to be men in much the same way their fathers and grandfathers were taught. Every generation of girls, on the other hand, had to adapt to a new reality. But the real problem, the deepest cut, is that no one told men that the floor was made of women. Not the floor of the family household, managed and maintained by unpaid domestic and child care. Not the floor of the economy, held up by unpaid and low-wage care work that kept social reproduction artificially cheap and racial hierarchies in check. Not the floor of men’s emotional lives, built on women’s emotional and hermeneutic labor. Not of men’s protecting and sense of courage, made possible by women’s fear and silent, vigilant risk-bearing. Not of men’s purpose, which required women’s public and economic purposelessness to be evident by contrast. Not the floor of masculine identities, which begin with women’s reliably provided recognition. Lastly, and critically, not the floor of men’s public authority and power, which depends on violently or coercively suppressing women’s public voices, participation, and desire for authority. This operates at every level, but, as a reader pointed out, in the United States the floor is Black women, the people whose bodies have most absorbed its violence, and whose political organizing has repeatedly changed the nation but has never been rewarded (TY Barry LaFleur). Their reproductive, domestic, economic, political labor infrastructure beneath every other group's ascent, including white women's provision of care and support to white men. Additionally, to make things even worse, equality was supposed to mean women being treated like men, not men being treated like women. Today, more men are expected to do things that women have always had to (emotional work and child care); to work the way women have always had to (precariously, with flexibility, with less security and lower wages); to modify their bodies to meet market needs (“looks maxxing,” disordered eating, plastic surgery); to move through public space with heightened awareness of how they are perceived, what they can say, and whether they are safe; to manage their desirability as a condition of their worth; and to absorb institutional indifference to their suffering without complaint, subject to the whims of far more powerful elites. The difference is that men are expected to do all of this while supporting a system that is simultaneously telling them that being a man means never having to do any of it at all. Men, much of the culture still insists, are supposed to make money (see “wallet dads”), be strong, pursue status, do whatever it takes to provide, protect, and procreate. Women’s role was to do whatever needed doing to make this possible and that is no longer true. I can imagine, if I were a man, being put out by what I’m saying, by the policeman’s suggestion, by the discomfort my generalizations may provoke. But, in fact, free associating, I resent my own imagining because, frankly, so relatively few men have ever seemed genuinely willing or capable to do the same in return — imagine being a woman, on behalf of women.
  8. Eating cakes at birthdays. I hate cakes and I hate birthdays. Whenever I think about celebrating my birthday it feels like I'm a 8 year old dumb stupid-boy who has no free will and needs this stupid societal rule to allow for a celebration. And you can't imagine my hate for cakes. And even if I liked it, why would I need to wait for someones stupid birthday to eat one.
  9. This a long substak post. I good that is long a complex because this way this post will avoing the usual commenters who just jump into the talk to be a contrarian. So my friends read it all and bring deep grounded opinions. Otherwise I may invite the writer into the Forum to answer the objections. Have a good read. https://sorayachemaly.substack.com/p/26-decentering-men-is-not-misandry?r=71pq&utm_medium=ios&utm_source=ig&utm_content=link_in_bio&fbclid=PAdGRzdgRoFHVleHRuA2FlbQIxMQBzcnRjBmFwcF9pZA81NjcwNjczNDMzNTI0MjcAAafqlzvBCQBnkU2KXpOrHl14-naCDwVbLic27je-mfnktVeN3Xzxavk6nB_RXA_aem_xdnrRbB7tl1XWIRmHWpeIw&utm_id=97760_v0_s00_e0_tv3_a1dennhcopqa1q&triedRedirect=true A small part to sparkle the curiosity:
  10. Due to unforeseen circumstances this journal will cease until September 1st-5th. As such, the journal will be made "LOCKED" to preserve content up until this date and this date alone. Nevertheless, I have endeavoured to spend the last 30 minutes or so with what little time I have to create this little pocket book version of the promised elaboration on one of the newly named concepts for PROJECT : MEANING, Meaning Drift. This pocket book entry on Meaning Drift is given this name for a reason, the terrain extends further than the horizon provided. My forum activity including online status will also cease until September. Best regards and best wishes. ================================================ Meaning Drift: Where mind battles with the heart's deepest entry. ================================================ Meaning does not stay true just because the same word, symbol, mission, insight, vow or explanation remains. A person can keep saying the same thing while the original intention has shifted from its original poetry, reflective of the hearts truest intent. This is a core area of Meaning Drift. Meaning Drift occurs when a living meaning loses fidelity as it moves through body-state, emotion, memory, imagination, language, audience, identity, repetition, time, and conduct. We get angry (see post just above), we have hidden unprocessed emotions that need reprocessing through vipassa like exercises that I too instruct, if that is not already natural to you while doing stage one and two, to implement till aligned with their, overtime as you get better, dual implementation. But start small. Start at Stage One. Meaning forms its own language, but these tectonic shifts from emotion to influence to covert ideological overlap, can be the silent earth quakes that create Meaning Driftm a shift away from true heart-mind-action alignment. Us being a part of the digital zombie generation, even if we are only affiliated by codependent relationship with a related drug addict, politely enabling while calmly signalling to a better path to avoid youtube, social media, etc as much as one can help it, we are fully aware of how much it can take us off track as opposed to just being a short spell of laziness. The word of our meaning remains, but the energy towards it weakens. The symbol even remains, though the tonality has taken on a hidden pigmentation. The mission remains, however the motive now is coupled with a hidden parallel environment. The insight remains, but irrespectively, the embodiment evaporates into someone stepping into a former shadow of their own embodiment which feels however slightly, mpre performative. Even when explanation for the Why and the greater purpose of what we are doing remains, behaviour suddenly does not feel as attuned or meticulous with time benchmarks, or at the very least, the end of the day feels slightly... heavier. This is why PROJECT : MEANING treats meaning as something living, trainable, measurable, correctable and protectable. Not merely something we think, say, believe, repeat or perform like an actor on stage as some seedless and rootless self-help sermons try to install with... a lack of precision. Alright. Core Law In avoiding Meaning Drift of this kind, we must discriminate across multi-factorial checkpoints when we, literally "check-in" with the self. Just because we are using the same language of our chosen life meaning and purpose, all of its symbology and what it means to us whatever analogous Philosophers Stone that emerges relative to a person's inner religion concerning and however cut back by "discernment to the bone", having the same mission, remembering all the insights and explanatory purpose for the next step. None of this proves we are in true alignment, we prove it to ourselves by truly checking into the felt signal measured against time measured performance. Even if the best of your improvement arc for your life meaning purpose is to meditate all day, checking in on where there is meaning drift can be as simple as doing thr check-list i provided three posts back. This is a small preview of the future diagnostic depth of PROJECT : MEANING. It is not a new stage. It is not a standalone module. It is not a replacement for Stage One or Stage Two. It is not permission to skip ahead. It is a brief mirror dialogue, a sneak peak on the road ahead for the larger map I have built. Moreover, this pocket entry is a simple daily mirror for noticing whether meaning: stayed alive, nearly drifted, drifted, was protected, or was corrected. All that said and done, on the subject of check-lists concerning, I have another CheckList for you to deepen and open up reflective questions you can formulate and answer for yourself before I release a larger entry on Meaning Drift in September. Analogous to stage 2 concerning the internalisation of reference points to quickly scan and run through when self-reading the inner experience, including too when you get good at stage one, learning to activate the heart's charge during the day and how to modulate it in a healthy way following ongoing life changes, quickly map the following audit map on Meaning Drift. And, as you get good at it you will naturally spot patterns that become learning checkpoints that become self-protection against Meaning Drift, which becomes its own feedback loop with personal growth. As you spot the patterns and correct them, when you reach a higher stage of meaning alignment, those earlier undoing's no longer become a part of not just what meaning alignment truly means, but your entire personality structure. This now becomes an integral complementary role for what meaning means to personal growth overall, psyche integration to psyche integration, consciousness stage by consciousness stage. You get the point. Again, best wishes. And good luck. Meaning Drift Daily Self-Audit Score each item 0–10. 1. Source Contact Did I stay in contact with the original living signal behind the meaning, rather than only its words, memory, image, or explanation? Score: __/10 Evidence: 2. Charge Integrity Did the charge weaken, leak, inflate, distort, or disappear? Score: __/10 Evidence: 3. Motive Integrity Did the motive shift into image, approval, control, avoidance, superiority, fantasy, or performance? Score: __/10 Evidence: 4. Proportion Did one lens, emotion, category, or audience reaction become too large and distort the whole field? Score: __/10 Evidence: 5. Missing Category Did I omit a relevant body, emotional, relational, social, ethical, historical, environmental, or behavioural layer? Score: __/10 Evidence: 6. Audience Pressure Did another person’s reaction, imagined reaction, approval, rejection, or misunderstanding alter the meaning? Score: __/10 Evidence: 7. Language Trap Did I mistake familiar words, symbols, slogans, explanations, or labels for living meaning? Score: __/10 Evidence: 8. Conduct Custody Did my behaviour prove that I was still carrying the meaning correctly? Score: __/10 Evidence: 9. Near-Drift Recognition Did I notice the moment where meaning almost drifted before it fully moved? Score: __/10 Evidence: 10. Drift Avoided Did I preserve the meaning where drift could have occurred? Score: __/10 Evidence: 11. Correction Did I correct, re-contact, and re-embody the meaning after drift or near-drift? Score: __/10 Evidence: An Improvement Feedback Loop Detect -> Name -> Return -> Correct -> Re-test Detect: Where did the meaning begin to move? Name: What kind of drift occurred, nearly occurred or was avoided? Return: Re-contact the original alignment in the body, heart, memory, image, vow, oath or felt ethical demand. Correct: Change one behaviour, phrase, boundary, explanation or environmental condition. Re-test: Later in the day, check whether the meaning is still contactable and conduct-aligned. The point is not to overthink meaning. The point is to stop assuming meaning stayed true simply because the language, memory and even "slogans" stayed familiar like a bad MAGA day. A living meaning must be protected.
  11. It comes with both pros and cons. The good part is that you gain more experience and insight into how other people think and behave. The bad part is that it is done in a corrupt way. Religious people often love to cherry-pick the loving verses while ignoring the strange or immoral ones.
  12. You need only do one thing to understand. You take your thumb & index finger, make as narrow a space as possible, and then look through that. You should Intuitively grasp that you are quite restricted in sight. You should have ingrained understanding that you have the capacities to see much more. You need only widen the gap. This is our fundamental challenge as human beings. We are in this situation without recognition of being in this situation. Our eyes must open, but we are blind to that. We must see, but we dont even know we must. How do you widen the gap? How do you open up your vision? Pull away the limiting factors?
  13. If I have my own backend then all payments will go through me and then I have to pay openai to generate the images. And this is fine and that's how all of the companies are doing it, but because this was mostly for personal use and I wasn't really making a business out of it, I decided not to go this route. But I could easily build a subscription service were people buy credits to generate their images/video. Avoiding the API key problem.
  14. Oh dont worry perception has that handles already ;}
  15. No matter how you try, a camera cannot catch frame of itself, without means indirect such as reflection. But the camera is not the fundamental capturing device. The camera is the directive lense box which allows for the film/receiver to capture the image. The camera is but a lense. Consciousness is what fundamentally captures all. Including the camera itself, including the film. Consciousness is not trapped within the directive lense or the film which it captures. Consciousness, unlike the camera/film unit, has the ability to 'know itself' from within. The camera, will never truly know itself other than to simply be as it is. Consciousness, can truly know itself, by its nature, in being what it truly is, as consciousness by its very nature is self illuminating.
  16. Oh, for sure I agree it's a coping mechanism, I don't know what gets them started to smoke because the first experience people have with it is that it's disgusting, it doesn't taste good and you're gonna cough a lot. The whole experience of first smoking is pretty bad.
  17. 😂😂😂 Actually ive tested this with fresh dog poop because i have plenty of it, and it has minimal effect! We must be designed to inhale piss and shit! Actually, people used to make beds and line their flooring with poop to create heat during winter. Faecal and bed flooring create a thriving ecosystem that generates heat, and this is how poor people used to build their homes. You could imagine the smell! @Natasha Tori Maru Is shit flooring one of your expertice i might need a contractor
  18. I saw an anime called ''ghost in the shell'' and it made me think that we are not different than a machine yet we can feel and it can't. What's the difference between a machine and a human? The human can feel cause of electrical impluses (of course metaphysicaly that's wrong but to the relative world it's real) but the machine can't? why not? we have hormones, so if you put hormones that become electrical impluses in a machine why it can't feel? What I am trying to say is we don't know how conscioussness works. I am not saying AI robots can feel, I am saying who knows, maybe they do or they may will in the future. Or maybe not, I am open to both possibilities.
  19. It is as if I am trapped in a narrow tunnel vision from which I cannot snap out of. It is as if my sight is directed through a cardboard tube, but I take everything I see through it to be the entirety of what exists. Consciousness can and does know itself. The personal lense is as trapped in the narrow light at the end of the tube, but consciousness itself, lies at the receiving end. Consciousness itself, given the circumstances to detach from the content and perhaps even the tube itself, can come to 'grasp' or 'know' itself.
  20. great work!! have you ever tried using the llama models over workers ai at cloudflare? it could power your apps without having the users put their api keys!!
  21. 20 min vinyasa flow yoga yesterday morning, and this morning as well. I've done this program 7 times now in approximately a week. Very nice. My body starts feeling very strong and flexible again.
  22. I’m not saying school is useless. I’m saying it has real downsides, like stress, lack of individuality, and forcing everyone into the same system.
  23. I don't know if it's abuse or not but I do know that it was a very bad situation for my life. I wasted decades of my life believing things that made my life worse than it would have been. On the other hand religion gave me some hidden advantages so it's not all black and white. When I was religious my life had so much meaning, but also it surpress every natural emotion and you can't communicate with others cause you are living in a different world than them. Also Christianity says things like turn the other cheek, forgive your enemies and have empathy for them, or don't do any sin cause you are going to hell, don't masturbate, pray instead of solving problems and the list goes on and on. That's really bad things to say to kids. I remember I couldn't sleep cause I was scared of devil and when I slept I saw horrific nightmares, that's too much for a kid. My mum is still christian but I don't believe in any religion any more. Not even hinduism or buddism although I tend to believe that reincarnation is real
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  25. Without school you would be a chimpanzee throwing your feces at others like yourself.
  26. another lens: 8. Mindfulness and system's thinking Systems thinking requires a specific prerequisite: you have to be regulated enough to observe yourself without immediately becoming what you observe. That gap, between the observer and the thing being observed, is exactly what chronic overstimulation collapses. You become fused with every thought, every craving, every emotion, every self-critical story. There's no space. Just reaction.
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